Bobby and John where in a deep conversation when they heard heart monitor squealing. Lunging from their chairs, they swiftly rush to Sam's bed in near minutes. Keeping an eye open for danger, John surveyed the room. After what happen to Sam, he wasn't taking any chances with his youngest. Detecting no immediately danger to his son, the father exhaled to release the tension. Focusing back on Sam, his heart broke when he saw the fear in his baby's eyes.
Approaching the bed, John's heart sank when Sam recoiled from his touch. Knowing when Sam gets this way, it was better to let Dean handle it. Noticing Dean nodding his head to the left of the room, he knew it was his cue to leave and let Dean take care of Sammy. Advancing from the bed, the father distinguished Sam's panic attack. Immediately eliminating the cause, he excused himself from the room.
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Filling his heart racing, Dean glance around the room to see what set Sam off. He kept both hands on his little brother to comfort him. When he saw the caused Sam to panic, it angered him. He wanted to go over there and remove the person from the room. His big brother instincts outweighed his anger to Kim and he turned his full attention to his little brother.
Rubbing his hand gently on Sam's chest, Dean spoke to him softly. Under his touch he could feel Sam trembling fiercely, knowing how to calm him Dean did what was natural to him. With a low voice and a gentle touch, Sam began to relax. Keeping up the movement and words, Dean glance over at his dad, who was now standing by the bed with Bobby looking concerned.
With everyone out of the room, Dean turned his focus back to Sam. He had to get his brother to calm down before Morgan charged in. Knowing if that happens, Sam would freak and hurt himself. And that is one thing Dean didn't want to happen. Knowing his dad and Bobby were right out in the hall, he didn't need to worry about anyone coming in.
"Sammy you need to settle down kiddo. Don't get yourself worked up. Nice slow breaths. Just follow what I do. That's it. Slow deep breaths like this….hey don't listen to the voices in the hallway. Dad and Bobby are talking to Kim and the Doctor.
"Bobby and Dad are there keeping everyone away from you. Listen to my voice little brother, not theirs. That's it. Your doing good Sammy. Just following me on your breathing. Don't listen to what's going out with dad and Bobby."
Dean continued. "Hey Sammy! When you get out of here, do you want to go see the ruins? You and I will go see them when your ready to leave. If dad and Bobby want to come alone they can….well that is if they behave themselves. If they start fight or argue, we'll leave their asses behind at the hotel….or we can lose them when we get there and explore the place ourselves. Kind of like Indiana Jones when he goes exploring in his movies for lost girls in their….hey, why are you laughing at me?" He smiled when he heard Sam chuckle.
"He goes and looks for treasure Dean, not girls. Didn't you pay any attention when we saw the movie? That's right, you were checking out all the gross girls at the movies. You couldn't keep your eyes off any of them." Sam laughed a little at Dean's look.
"For your information, they are not gross as you like to call them. They were….with their big…..and the way they moved their….why am I telling you this, you're to young yet. Okay, we'll go search for treasure. But if any girls come alone, I'll go search them. You can go search for…..what do your search for at the ruins besides girls? Don't roll your eyes at me, young man. I can't help it if I have a one-track mind. I like to look at the good things in life, not the boring things."
"Finding relics is a good thing in life Dean. It teaches you about the history of the place and it's people. Do you really mean it? Going to see the ruins together? Last time you didn't want to go see them with me." Sam's eyes fell despondently to his hands.
"Hey Sammy, look at me kiddo." Dean waited until Sam looked up. "I wanted to go see the ruins with you that day. Dad got a called from Bobby about another hunt on some stupid spirit. I told dad to go ahead without us so I can take you, but like always it had to be his way or no way Sammy. This time it's you and me to go off and see the Wizard. If dad doesn't like it, he can go with Bobby and do something else."
"When we go Dean, I'll be on crutches cuz of my leg. It'll be to hard to get around all those rocks and hills. You can go with dad and Bobby while I stay at the hotel. It's not like you'll miss me being there anyway."
Noticing the defeat look on his brother's face that he hated so much, he knew that something had to be done. Knowing how much his Sammy wanted to see the ruins and paintings, Dean tried a different way to get Sam spirits up.
"Sammy, I won't go see the ruins without you. If we have to wait a week or two, we'll wait. I want to go see them with-hey look at me and not the door. That's good Sammy. Let me see who it is. I'm staying right here next to you. I won't leave. Jones and Ford can't come to the phone right now. If you leave your name and number we might just get back to you."
Dean waited for an answer, never taking his eyes off of Sammy. It was his dad who answered. Obtaining his brother's approval, he told his dad to come into the room.
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As John escorted Kim out of the room, followed by Bobby, they saw Morgan running towards them. Putting his hands up to stop Morgan entering the room, John place himself between the door and the Doctor. He needed to give Dean time.
Noticing the worried look on Morgan's face when he stop by the door, John told him on what happened that cause Sam to panic.
"Morgan, Sam panicked when Kim entered the room to check on him. I asked her to step out so that Dean can settle Sammy down."
John couldn't stop the hurt he was feeling. It should be he, not Dean in there to comfort his son.
"I thought having Kim going in would be better for Sam instead of me. I should've known better then that. I'm so sorry John. I thought a lady would've been better. I guess since the other Nurse let Keith in Sam thought it was her. Next time we'll knock before we enter. This way we can give him the heads up."
"That would be a good idea Morgan for the time being. Until Sam realizes no one would hurt him. I'm not sure if he'll let you touch him after this incident. He even shied away from me. The only person who can get through to him is Dean. We're just going to need to take baby steps when it comes to checking Sam over."
John didn't want to put any stress on his son, even himself would have to go by Sam's reactions. It's going to hurt like hell that he won't be able to comfort his baby. Thinking about made it hurt all the more worse.
"John, I need to check Sam so I can check him over, to make sure he's okay and put ointment on his stitches. I know that part is going to be hard for me to do right now. If I don't they could become inflamed or infected, which won't be good. I need you to ask Sam if he'll let me in to check on him. I'll make sure I get it done as quickly as possible."
"I'll let Sam know you need to exam him Morgan. I know that he will put up a fight, but he'll have to learn he can't have it his way. I know you are only looking out for my son's health. If he doesn't want you touching him there, then you don't. Got it?" John wanted Morgan to be perfectly clear on what he said.
"That's fine John. We'll take it from Sam and go from there. If I can't do it, then you, Bobby, or Dean has to do it. His stitches need to be dress at least twice a day. There is something else that needs to be done to John. When the man did the thing to Sam he irritated-to put it politely-his poop hole. The ointment needs to be applied there as well. I know this is going to be rough on Sam, but it needs to be done."
"Boy Doc, you really put it on the line don't you? I don't know how much Sam would be able to handle. I won't let my son be under anymore stress. Bobby, Dean or I might have to do the dressing instead of you Morgan. This won't go over very well with my son or his brother.
John waited until Morgan affirmed his understanding. Knocking on the door, John waited until he got an answer. He wanted Dean to know that he was coming into the room. The last thing he needed to do was to freak out his youngest.
Entering the room slowly, John ease himself further into the room. Stopping at the foot of the first bed, he smiled at the smile that was he was seeing. He knew now it wasn't he who made Sam shy away; it was having Kim in the room that made Sam nervous. Strolling over to the bed, John reach out to cup Sam's cheek. He was thrill that Sam didn't turn away. Sensing that his eldest wanted to know what was going on, John glanced over at Dean, then back to Sam before he cleared his throat.
"Sammy, Doctor Morgan has ask me if it was okay if he came in….wait….he only wants to check you over. He heard your heart monitor going off and he's concerned about you. Bobby, Dean, and I will be in here the whole time. We won't let any bad happen to you. If I did, Dean would knock me out."
Sam couldn't help himself from laughing at his dad, seeing Dean knocking his dad out would be funny to him.
"Oh you think that will be funny kiddo, you want to see you brother knock your old man's lights out. There's one thing Sammy, the Doc needs to take care of your stitches and-hey, he don't have to do it. Me or Dean can, okay? So what do you say Sammy? Can Morgan come in and check you over?"
Sam glanced over at his dad and then to Dean before he rested his sight on his dad. Shaking his head yes telling his dad Morgan can come and look him over.
John called for Bobby to bring in Morgan and Kim. The two walked cautiously into the room and up to the bed. Sam kept a close eye on the Doctor as he moved over by John. He watch Morgan's every move, trying not to flinch.
"Okay Sam, I'm going to check your heart beat, pulse and breathing. I'm checking your pulse first Sam, almost done your doing good." Sam shivered when Morgan touched his wrist. "Next I'll be checking your heart beat? Can you cough for me? Now, take a deep breath. I'm going to press on your abdomen Sam. Let me know when you….that still hurts, we had to cut into your stomach muscles to fix your kidneys."
Morgan continued to palpate his patient. "Checking your pelvic area Sam, let me know how…okay relax Sam. It's still a little tender there. This part I'll have Kim do it for you. Sam you need the ointment on you anus stitches and spread some inside. If you don't want Kim to do it, then maybe your dad or brother….Sam, this needs to be done."
Morgan knew this part was going to be the hard one. He'll let Sam decide on who will do it.
"C-can you do it Dean? Please."
Feeling a little embarrassed asking his brother to put the medicine on, he didn't feel comfortable enough to let someone he didn't know touch him there.
"Sure thing tiger. Just tell me what to do Doc."
Listening to how Morgan was describing how to apply the medicine, Dean waited for he and Kim left the room. Morgan told Sam he'll be in tomorrow to talk more about other things. Giving Sam some pain medicine to help him sleep, he left the room.
After Dean was finished he glanced up at his brother. He felt bad for his Sammy when he saw tears in his eyes. Knowing that Sam was hurting and feeling embarrassed for what happen, Dean straighten out the blanket and jacket so that Sam will stay warm.
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Five days had gone by and Sam was getting tired of being poked and prodded. His body ache like hell when Morgan was done. To make matters worse for him, Morgan asked Dean and John for their help. He needed them to lift Sam from the bed into a sitting position. The first few attempts, they failed miserably. They only were able to lift Sam mere inches off the bed continually stopping and dropping him every time he hiss. Morgan gradually moved the head of the bed up little by little as the last resort.
At least now Sam was only a quarter of sitting up in bed. He could see the walls instead of the ceiling. Dean didn't like the idea of pushing Sammy to his limits. Every time they lifted him up, he would hiss in pain. After the pain subsided, he got cold chills that ran through his body. John and Dean could see Sam shiver from the chills. They would ask Morgan why Sam would get the chills like that. He told them that it had to do with the pain and sitting up.
Sam's been laying flat on his back since he's been in the hospital, do to his injuries. Now that he is starting to sit up, it's putting strain on his muscles and body.
Morgan had John and Dean lift Sam a little higher off the bed. He told them to hold him there for a short time will he ran a test.
"Okay, this time you'll lift Sam up until I tell you to stop. Then I'm going to ask Sam to breathe for me as he's sitting up. Here we go…just a little further up. That's it. Hold him there. Now Sam, I want you to take a deep breath okay. Now, let it out. Sam I want you to do this three more times. Take a deep breath Sam. Now, let it out. Take another deep breath. Let it out. Do that one more time Sam….I know it hurts….take a deep breath….Sam I know you can do it….that's it, let it out."
Morgan could see that Sam was having a hard time taking the fourth breath. Not wanting to push Sam to far, he ask John and Dean to lay him back down.
Sam waited anxiously as his dad and brother readied themselves. He knew what to expect when they grabbed his shoulders. Biting his lip to hold in the hiss from the pain, he knew what was coming. Reading himself so he didn't look weak in front of his dad, he tried but failed to stop the hiss when he was lifted. The pain felt like pieces glass slicing through his abdomen and back.
Listening to the Doctor, Sam tried to breath like he was asked. It hurt so damn much that it felt like someone was pressing on his chest. He was about to tell them to stop when he heard Morgan talking to his family. He felt the head of the bed go up further before he felt warm liquid go into his hand.
Before Morgan left, he told John that he'll be back to get X-rays of Sam's shoulder. That he'll bring Doctor Steven Anderson along, who's a surgeon for torn muscles and tendons.
Later that day, John, Bobby, and Dean sat in Sam's room waiting for him to wake. Dean sat next to Sam's bed holding his hand. He smiled when Sam was still clutching his jacket and the tiger cub. He wondered if Sam even realize he was still holding his jacket and the cub. To him it was so cute seeing his brother hold it like that. It brought back memories of a little Sammy using his jacket as a security blanket. Lost in his own thoughts, he didn't hear his dad talking to him. Feeling a hand on his shoulder, his neck snapped to the side. Seeing his dad smiling at him, he felt his cheeks rosy up. He was lost in his own thoughts he let his dad sneak up on him.
"I'm sorry dad. I didn't hear you. What did you say?"
"I said go get something to eat, while Bobby and I will stay here. You need your strength Dean. Go eat something."
"Dad, you and Bobby go. I'll stay here and watch Sammy. Just bring me back something and I'll eat it here."
"Dean, you haven't left Sammy side for five days. You need some fresh air and something to eat. Go Dean, or I'll have Morgan kick you out of the room. Don't think I won't do that, now go." John stood his ground to his stubborn son.
"Fine, but if anything happens you call me, no matter what it is." Glancing back at his brother, Dean brushed the hair to one side. He couldn't shake this feeling that something was going to happen.
Shaking his head, he smiled as he watched Dean exit the room. He knew how Dean was feeling about leaving Sammy. He, too, felt the same way. Focusing back on Sam, making sure his youngest was still asleep, he sat next to the bed.
Hearing movement coming from the bed, John looked up to see Sam staring back. He smirk at his son as he brushed his bangs out of his eyes. He notice that Sam was looking around the room in confusion.
"Dean went to get some fresh air and something to eat kiddo. He'll be back when he's finished eating. You know he can't be away from you to long Sammy."
"He'll come back right? He won't leave me like before?" Sam wasn't sure if he wanted to know that answer.
"Yes Sam. Dean will be back, so don't worry about him leaving You need to learn we won't leave you every time we walk out the door." John didn't mean to sound so harsh, but Sam needs to grow up.
John was going to tell Sam a thing or two when there was knocking on the door. Turning around, he saw Kim in the door way waiting to be asked in. Motioning her in, he looked over at Sammy and kept a close eye on his son to make sure he didn't freak out.
Strolling into the room, Kim stopped at the foot of Sam's bed. "John, Morgan made arrangements to get Sam into X-rays for his left shoulder. He needs to know if they need to do surgery on it. He knows a Doctor who's going to take a look at the prints. If he needs surgery, he'll do the procedure on his shoulder. When he hit that root there could've been damage to the nerves and muscles. When they took the first X-ray, it was hard to tell with all the tearing. With the other injuries that Sam has suffer, the shoulder was the last thing to deal with."
"I'm going to get Sam ready while Morgan and Doctor Anderson get the paper work done. They'll be here in a few minutes, so lets get your-"
"I don't want any more surgeries or X-rays, so leave me and my things alone lady. I said leave me alone, Dad please tell her to leave…dad please." Sam was angry at his dad for taking the jacket and the cub.
"Stop being a spoiled brat Sammy. I'm taking the cub. That is final. Let go of the jacket, you can't take it with you. I said let it go Sam. Fine, I'll take it myself. I said knock it off and let go or else."
"Dad no, it's mine…..dad please! Dean gave it to me! Fine, get me out of here. Don't want to be around him anymore. Leave me alone dad. Remember, I'm a screw up and a spoiled brat. You don't want me anymore."
"You know what Sam? Sometimes I wonder about that. Maybe I should leave you with Bobby for awhile. See how far you'll get without Dean around to baby you. Maybe you'll grow up a little and be the son you should be."
John couldn't help himself and wanted to kick his ass at what he said. Glancing up, he saw the shocked look on Kim's face and the anger look on Bobby's. He knew he mess up big time with his youngest. Before anything else could happen, the Doctor's walked into the room.
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Morgan and Steven Anderson walked out of Anderson's office to see Sam. He wanted a second opinion on Sam's shoulder. Knowing this was in Steven's line of work, his expertise will be a big help; especially when Sam's cast comes off in a few days. He would need to know is Sam would need therapy.
Strolling up to the door, they could hear arguing coming form Sam's room. Worrying about Sam, Morgan hurried so he can check up on his patient. Entering the room, both Doctors could see that Sam was really upset. Kim looked nervous. Bobby was angry and John was acting like a five year old that got into trouble.
"Kim, you and Steven take Sam down to X-ray. I'll meet you both there as so as I speak to John."
Waiting for Kim and Steven to take Sam out of the room, Morgan turned to John glaring at him.
"John, I don't know what happened in here between you and Sam. I want you to know one thing. No one upsets my patients. I don't care if you're his father. He's still my responsibility as a Doctor. No one, and I mean no one, gets my patients upset like this. I'm not going to make you leave since Sam is going to need you. Make sure whatever happens don't happen again. Do I make myself clear?"
Morgan waited until he got a yes from John before he left the room. As he was walking to the elevators, he could hear Bobby yelling at John. Inside the elevator, a smile lit up on his face,
"You're a son-of-a-bitch at time Johnny Boy. That is when you're not being an ass.. I don't know what got into you all this time. I hate to tell you that Sam is not a spoiled brat, weak link, or a screw up either. What's this about him saying you don't want him anymore?" Bobby waited for his friend to answer him."
"Bobby, I don't have to tell you anything about my sons or me. So why don't you just leave us alone from now on? Don't you dare threaten me about taking Sammy away from me! I would never leave him behind for nothing, you should know that."
"I might know that Johnny, but does Sam know that right now? Why was it so bad for him to not have the jacket and cub? Are you that jealous that Dean got it for him and not you, or is it that Dean has a closer relationship with Sam? Do you realize that Sam felt love when Dean gave him those things? Now you took the love away from Sam that Dean gave him. How does that make Sam feel that he's not love anymore John? That's right, you dumb ass. You took Sam's love away from him."
"Bobby I…it's just that we've been under so much stress since we've been here. I didn't mean to yell at Sammy like that, okay? I don't know why I snap at him and told him that stuff. It's that when we tried to talk it gets into a shouting match. I need to make this up to Sammy before we leave here. He's going to think I'll be dropping him off for good at your place."
"Where's Sammy? What's going on dad? What the hell did you do?" Dean glared.
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In the next chapter Sam will be getting out of the hospital, there will be some tension between Dean and John. Sam will get a surprise while they are staying in Montana, Bobby, Dean and John wants Sam to rest for awhile before they hit the road.
John will be working on his relationship with Sam, he knows if he loses Sam he'll lose Dean to. John has something up his sleeves for Sam and Dean, something they won't forget.
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