Savannahs story

Carlos has insisted that we throw a party to celebrate Matthew croft being sent to prison.
It truly was something to celebrate but I felt it bad timing as paisley had only just had her funeral 3 weeks ago, Carlos phoned kendall up, he didn't seem to mind, and even said that he would go.

It was something good to occupy my mind with though, Carlos was hell bent on putting everything behind us and starting afresh. He was so determined, I really dread to think what would become of me if he hadn't of been there for me after the rape.

I had invited pretty much every one I knew to the party, including my parents and their partners, some of my close friends from Portland and Idaho, and some people who I couldn't stand just to show Carlos off to.
I chose a beautiful black dress to wear, it was pulled in very tight around my waist and short enough to show off my now very sexy looking legs.
Along with modelling came a load of work to be done on my part with looking after my body, Carlos helped me understand a lot about fitness and diet.

I had always been slim but now I had spent a while in the gym and went for a run twice a day you could very much notice the difference in how my body was toned.
I didn't mind the gym as much as I thought I would, Carlos basically explained that the more time I spent there the more crap I could still eat. This was a good philosophy as both Carlos and I loved to eat stuff that wasn't always healthy, so each Saturday night we would treat our selves and Sunday we would spend working it off in the gym... And if the mood striked me I would treat Carlos to some attention in the bedroom.

Sex was getting easier for me, I had come on leaps and bounds experimenting with Carlos in the bedroom. I was now a lot more like my old self but the difference being in an actual loving relationship instead of just sex made such a difference.

Carlos was an amazing lover, he put his heart and soul in to making love to me.
I loved him so much, I was nervous how my dad would react meeting him. I knew for a fact that dad absolutely hated Logan, and Logan was the nice guy... Carlos was insane to talk to with all his wazzups.
But truthfully I didn't care.

The day of the party had arrived and I had just finished doing my nails, I was dressed and Mackenzie was curling my hair. we sat in the kitchen with Carlos and Logan, the four of us got along okay now, well Carlos and Mackenzie wouldn't purposely chat together but they both participated in getting along with one another.

I noticed some eye contact and nodding had been going silently on around me between the three of them for several minutes.

"what is it? Just fucking tell me?" I finally said.

Again all three of them looked at each other.

"its nothing really but Carlos found something out about Sheriden and he doesn't want to keep it from you any longer, even though Logan and I didn't really want him to tell you just yet" Mackenzie said.

"what? Is she okay? She isn't fucking kendall still is she?" I asked confused.

"no... No nothing like that sav" Logan said and then sat down next to me, he looked up at my sister quickly who was still finishing my hair.

He continued "you know how Sheriden and James want a baby, and how Mackenzie and I need a bit of help in the cash flow department... Well we have combined the two problems and decided to solve each others... Sav... Mackenzie starts ivf next month so she can get pregnant for James and Sheriden to have the baby" Logan finished, I could feel a lot of eyes on me.

I turned my head to look at my sister. I think my mouth was gaping open in shock.

"fuck" were the only words that left my mouth.

"how do you feel about it, you are the first person we have told" Mackenzie said

"so I will be an auntie?..." I asked confused.

Carlos then came and sat next to me. "yeah you will be an aunty, but it will be sheridens baby, not Mackenzies, Sheriden and James will be the genetic parents... Not Mackenzie, so Sheriden being my 'sister' will be the reason that you are an aunty, not that Mackenzie had the baby" Carlos said.

"wow! This is insane... You're having a baby for Sheriden? That is the nicest thing I think I've ever fucking heard... She is paying you?" I asked.

"yes" Logan answered "but we didn't want it advertised, so if you can not say anything about my money issues that would be great" Logan concluded.

"no course not, shit... This is mental. So you could be pregnant next month?" I said looking at my sister.

"its possible yeah, Logan and I had to be tested for a million things the other day" Mackenzie said now turning a bit red, and gave Carlos a sideways glance "Sheriden and I have been put on a pill so that our periods fall at the same time, the doctors do their bit of mixing up james'... You know" she laughed "and sheridens eggs then they get implanted in to me after a few days" she explained.

"I think its amazing... Really fucking amazing guys. I love Sheriden to bits, I'm so glad that your helping her" I beamed.

Carlos gave me a kiss then stood up again so that Mackenzie could finish doing my hair with some space.

"you're not telling people tonight are you?" I asked.

"no we won't tell anyone until a baby is on the way" Logan said smiling at Kenzie, I then smelt a terrifying smell that reminded me of the night I was raped, and realised that Logan had a beer in his hand.

"Logan ... Sorry could you move, I can't stand that smell" I said quietly.

Logan looked offended for a second then realised what he had done wrong "shit sav, I'm sorry! I didn't even think" he said getting up and pouring it down the sink "kenz said I could drink tonite do I brought these with me" he explained then poured himself out a vodka, mixing it with orange.

"its fine, I just can't stand the smell any more... How come you are letting him drink, I thought he was banned" I said looking up at my sister.

"today is a special day... And besides a drunk Logan can piss dad off more than a sober one" she smiled.

I laughed "true, I wonder what he will make of you baby" I said to Carlos.
Carlos was currently slouched up against one of the counters in the kitchen just passed the door. He looked fucking adorable, he was dressed very casual with just a basketball vest on, pants and a red snapback cap, where as I looked very formal. Logan wasnt dressed up really though either, he just had a black tee on and pants, his base ball cap on back to front where Mackenzie looked really cute in a sparkly top and black smart shorts, her long sleek and shiny brown hair now poker straight, as opposed to how she usually wore it with a wave.

"done" she announced as she had finished curling my hair. She gave it a spray then I got off my seat and inspected her efforts in the mirror that hung in Carlos' dining room.

It was a lovely day for a party, I did want to have it somewhere else but Carlos said he enjoyed hosting them so we were holding it at our house, it was going to be relaxed, music, drinks.
I was already half cut before any of the guests arrived, so was Logan. He was hilarious drunk, Logan was jumping on the trampoline with Mackenzie just watching when the door bell chimed with my first load of party goers, Carlos let them in, it was kendall... And Ophelia.
"I thought you was getting a sitter?" I heard Carlos say.

"Sheriden and James are gonna help me" he simply said then walked over to me.

"hey savannah... You're looking very... catwalk now" he said giving me a hug and a kiss on the cheek.

"thanks... I think" I laughed patting down my dress. I held Ophelia for a little bit until Logan came over and stole her from me.

a bunch of friends from Portland showed up soon after, I understood what kendall had said about looking catwalk now, my Portland friends all looked great, and I used to dress very similar but you could tell the difference in life style immediately by comparing the clothes, even Carlos and Logan oozed out more style dressed as they were.

My modelling friend that Sheriden had appointed me then turned up, Francesca, or Fran as she liked to be known, she was a bit stuck up I had decided. friendly, but she loved herself, she reminded me of Sheriden a little bit with her mannerisms, maybe that's how all models are, and I will shortly turn in to a person like that once I have lived the lifestyle long enough.

I would say that Fran was prettier than me, she had long curly blonde hair and possibly the biggest eyes I had ever seen, they were amazing. But at 25 I just pipped her at the post because I was younger I had decided.

I left her in the kitchen whilst I answered the door to another guest. My dad, his partner heather who was only 27 and Sean, my baby brother.

"oh my God... Look at him now, he is getting huge... And walking!" I said excitedly.

"how are you sav?" My dad said giving me a hug and a kiss.

I knew he was more enquiring in to how I was after being raped and having to go to court rather than just asking about my general well being.

"I'm doing okay dad... Thanks" I said giving him a smile, then giving heather an air kiss. I really struggled to get along with heather, Mackenzie seemed to get on with her okay but I blamed heather for my parents splitting up, she used to be dads secretary and knew he was married, we only found out about the affair when dad had to come clean when heather got pregnant with Sean.

"so when do we get to meet my new son in law then?" Dad asked raising an eyebrow.

"he is through here" I said walking in to the kitchen, to find Carlos, Fran and kendall, who had Ophelia again, chatting whilst Logan and Mackenzie made out up against the kitchen counter.
Clearly a stage show to piss dad off, he did deserve it though.

"erm... Kenz... Dad is here" I said giving Logans leg a kick from behind as my sister was unobtainable pinned up against the counter by him.

both her and Logan parted there lips from each other.

"hey" Mackenzie said coldly to our dad.

"Macks... How are you? you don't call me anymore" my dad Said to her.

"no I've been busy trying to sort things out with Logan and his house... How is Sean?" She asked looking at Sean who was stood next to heather holding her hand.

"Sean is fine, you're lucky you didn't die in that house, I knew he would be bad news for you" dad said looking at Logan.

"dad..." I said. "please don't start, its my party" I reasoned.

dad just nodded at me.

"I am lucky yes, I wish all of us could of had mine and Logans luck" Mackenzie replied taking Logan firmly by the hand, I noticed Logan just had this odd smirk on his face, he was really clearly pissed, and just appeared to be waiting for his turn to speak which my father didn't give him the option of

I pulled dad away and led him over to where Carlos stood talking to Fran and kendall.

"Los... This is my dad... Kevin, dad this is Carlos... My husband" I said quietly.

"I've heard a lot about you" Carlos said shaking my dads hand.

"likewise... I will be forever grateful to you for looking after savannah when she needed it most. She tells me how remarkable you have been for her" dad said.

I looked over my shoulder to see Mackenzies pissed off face, I expect that just like her making out stunt she just pulled, my dad was now pulling a better one of playing our boys off against each other.

The door chimed again, Logan offered to answer it for us though as Carlos and I carried on with our get to know you chat with my dad.

A few moments later James and Sheriden came in, Sheriden looked beautiful, her brown hair piled on her head in an amazing up do, she wore a very pretty white dress, she had obviously chosen white so she would look cute in her chrome and pink wheelchair. She did look great, the only thing spoiling it was the metal brace she wore around her really bad leg and the cast she had on the other, her arms were free now, she had broken her wrist, and dislocated her shoulder but she seemed to look on the mend arm wise.

I introduced Sheriden to my dad as she was the one responsible for landing me such an amazing job, and she also helped me after the rape.

friends from Idaho soon arrived, followed by my mom and her boyfriend, that's when things got fun for Mackenzie as mom loved Logan, they got on well, the atmosphere between my parents could be cut with a knife.

Carlos' family arrived. I think introducing his parents to my parents was the weirdest experience of my life, they couldn't of been more different, but I guess Carlos and I were different too.

Sheriden was holding Ophelia, I gathered it was the first time she had held her since the earthquake, as kendall was making a bit of a fuss over her.

I thought to my self that James must be safe in the knowledge that his Dick is much bigger than kendalls to allow them to be so close and pally still. If Carlos ever slept with anyone else I wouldn't want him to see her again.

I was really quite drunk, and very merry, I had spoken with most of my guests, and had a good catch up with my friends from home, the ones that didn't know me as well treated me differently now I was in the public eye, and the ones I didn't like, I treated them differently... Just to show them who was boss.

I noticed Heather and Mackenzie out on the trampoline with our little brother Sean. He was having so much fun jumping about on it, he was 18 months old now, I really hadn't seen him properly for months, I felt bad for that, the poor little guy is going to need Kenzie and me in his life to Try and survive 18 years of dad and heather.

"I can't believe how big he is now" I said to my sister as she held on to both his hands as he jumped up and down on the trampoline.

"I know its crazy how quick he has grown... Heather you should let him come and stay with us for a weekend you could have a break then" Mackenzie said just as our dad walked up.

heather nodded at this prospect of having a break, as far as I could tell, she did most of the parenting, my dad worked a lot leaving her to it.

"Mackenzie I don't think you would have enough room in that apartment for Sean to stay in" my dad chuckled.

"well there is more than enough room for him here" I said before another spat broke out between the two of them.

"no, savannah... Its fine, I'm not living in that apartment, I never have Dad, I have been living with Logan the entire time I've been in LA. We are staying in bel air with James and Sheriden whilst we house hunt! Sean is very welcome to stay at bel air with Logan and I" Mackenzie said loudly to prove her point.

"so your bumming it on a friends sofa" Dad said.

"I don't think bumming, and bel air can even go in the same sentence Dad" Mackenzie argued back, she was attracting a bit of attention now. Heather took Sean as him and Mackenzie stepped out of the trampoline, and walked off with him around Carlos' pretty garden.

"why don't you live in the apartment to your salon then?" Dad snapped back.

"we sold it... We needed the money" Mackenzie said almost tearfully, Logan walked over to the scene that was being created now.

"you sold it, so what are you doing out here, I knew that guy was a dead beat Mackenzie... Come home, even your sister has made a success of things here, but you, you just keep disappointing me" he said cooly

"disappointing you? How the fuck have I disappointed you?" Mackenzie screamed.

"Dad leave her alone" I said but he ignored me.

"Mackenzie you disappoint me by staying with this idiot!" Dad said waving a hand in Logans direction "why don't you find a nice boy like your sister finally has!" He said.

I think all three of us let out a little laugh.
"your the idiot Dad, I did used to date Carlos, he was the one that broke Logans cheekbone. I'm sick of this shit. Logan and I are happy together we have been through so much... I love him Dad. I don't get why you have a problem with him!"

"I have a problem with him because I know his red neck sort. Just look at what he has caused for you. You have nothing now. I presume all your money has gone?" He said.

"yes it has gone, but you know what even if Logan had nothing left to offer me, I would still love him, which is more than I can say about you. I hate you, Sean is going to hate you, and savannah couldn't wait to get away from you, thats why she moved to Idaho with me!" Mackenzie screamed at our father.

My Dad blew a gasket and slapped Mackenzie around the face, all hell broke loose soon after as Logan then head butted my Dad and started throwing punches

"Dad!... Logan get off him" I shouted. I tried my best to pull Logan off. Carlos came running over and finally pulled him off for me.

My Dad stood up laughing, his lip split open. "You've done it now" he grinned at Logan.

"fuck you!" Logan hissed back then began walking away with kenz. He then walked back and squared him self right in to my Dad "if you ever fucking touch her again, I'm gonna kill you... Fucking scum!" Logan shouted then walked off with my sister.

I glared at my Dad. "get out of my house" I whispered to him.

"savannah, I didn't mean to hurt her" my Dad said.

"Dad you just smacked Mackenzie around the face, it wasnt an accident!" I argued.

"what? You hit Mackenzie?" Carlos then said. He looked really angry. Whatever feelings Carlos still had for my sister I think were about to be known.

"you hit her?" Carlos repeated

"that little fuck is going to be hearing from my solicitor" my Dad said looking in the direction of logan, feeling his lip and ignoring Carlos.

"then I expect I will too" Carlos said then punched my Dad in the face.
"that's for Kenzie and for ruining savannahs celebration... Get the fuck out of my house... NOW!" Carlos shouted.

if it hadn't been my party then I probably would of found it a good spectator sport to watch all of what just happened, but tonight was meant to be closure for me, the start of a new beginning surrounded by people that meant something to me.

"you okay baby?" Carlos said pulling me in to his arms.

"yeah ..." I said then started crying " I'm just going to go to the bathroom" I sniffed.

"Kay... sure your okay?" He asked again.

I nodded. He gave me a kiss on the head and I made my way to the ensuite bathroom that was in our bedroom.

I looked at my face in the mirror, mascara all down it. I looked hideous, my hair was scruffy from trying to get Logan off my Dad. I looked like I did the night I was attacked.
I sat on the bathroom floor and pulled my legs up to my chest, I just sobbed, and sobbed. I wish I hadn't drunk so much. My head was spinning and keeping a lid on my hidden emotions was too hard.
Why was life no longer normal. I just wanted to be me again.

A knock on the bathroom door made me look up. It opened up, I hadn't locked it.

"savannah are you okay. Sheri sent me up to check on you" James said.

"no... I wish I was okay... I just want to die James, no matter what I do, where I fuckin go, I'm always reminded of what happened... I can't cope with it any more" I sniffed.

"can I sit down?" James asked politely

I nodded and James came and sat on the bathroom floor with me.

"savannah ... Your drunk! you were fine a minute ago, I know you think that the world had ended but it hasn't. Yeah Logan lumped your Dad one but he deserved that... Didn't he? And croft is locked up, you have a husband downstairs that is so in love with you, and a fantastic career is just beginning... I don't think you really want to die and leave it all behind do you?... Huh" he said.

I sniffed in my nose that was now running "I'm sorry" I said as I did gain my sense. "I don't think I should drink any more"

"maybe slow down a little bit" James smiled "sort your face out, Carlos will be looking for you soon, I think he has a gift for you... But don't tell him I said anything" James said holding his arm out for a hug.

I buried myself in James, he gave me a good squeeze.

"is Mackenzie okay? I can't believe he hit her... I've never seen Logan like that, he scared me... And Los, do you think that he still has feelings for Mackenzie, James. He looked so angry" I said as I got up and wiped the mascara stains off my face and applied fresh make up.

James stayed sat on the floor "I don't think Carlos has feelings like what your thinking for Mackenzie. If I was stood with you then I would expect I would of done the same thing if she was my ex girlfriend" he replied. "Mackenzie was fine, Sheriden is more upset, I think its a good job that she is stuck in that chair for your dads sake" he chuckled.

"yeah I guess... Kenzie told me about the baby thing today... I'm really happy for you James, I hope it works out" I said.

James let out a big sigh "me to sav... Before all this shit started Sheri and I planned to fill that house with kids, we got so much space and more money than even Sheriden could spend in 5 lifetimes but nothing worthwhile to do with any of it... I just want things to go right for a change, I can't remember a time when I could go to sleep and not worry about anything" he said.

I smiled at him "I know that feeling... Life isn't easy is it... Has my Dad gone?" I asked

"Sheriden was talking to him, she was trying to persuade him to not press charges on Logan... Your Dad is a Dick savannah" he said with a smile.

"you got that right... James how do you let Sheriden and kendall still be friends after what they did to you and paisley"

"now that's the question of the year... I'm not sure how but the reason is because I love her, I forgived her, I have to give kendall the same treatment I guess or it wouldn't of worked. I'm not about to be letting them alone together, fingers crossed once she is up and running again your sister will be pregnant and Sheri will be to busy to even think about kendall... I do worry about it though. A lot"

"I saw the songs you and pais put on you tube... Do you miss her, you spent a lot of time together didn't you" I said softly.

"yeah we did" he smiled "I do miss her a lot. its sad because she is making more money now she is gone than when she was here" he admitted "her download sales have gone crazy" he added.

"does kendall get all that then?" I asked

"kind of, he is putting it in a trust fund for phee" he said just as the door knocked again.

I opened it up as I was stood right next to it in front of the mirror.

"savs baby you okay... Been in here ages" Carlos said as he walked in.

"I'm fine" I said giving him a kiss"

James stood up from the floor and walked passed Carlos out of the door "I want to see you smiling when you get back down, ill get rid of your Dad" James said as he walked by.

Carlos closed the door "your eyes are red still. Don't upset yourself sav... I'm sorry I hit him" he said.

"I'll be okay in a minute, just had a bit too much to drink. I'm glad you hit him, I can't believe he did that... Twat!" I said feeling emotional again.

"hey cmon... Stop the tears sav,"Carlos said wiping just under my eye before my mascara spoilt again. "I've got a little tiny gift for you... But I need you to use your imagination" he said smiling.

I smiled back at him "okay an imaginary gift is sounding fun" I giggled.

Carlos took me by my hand and sat down on the floor where James was just sat, he pulled me down with him.

"okay now close your eyes" he whispered.

I smiled but did as I was told, Carlos took my hand in his.

"okay now I want you to think of one of your favourite memories of us before Las Vegas" he said softly.

I sat there with my eyes shut thinking for a minute.
"okay ... I really enjoyed the first time I kissed you, looking up in that blue sky, laying on the trampoline" I smiled.

"how did you feel... Do you remember?" Carlos said, I could hear the smile in his voice.

"I felt like my heart was going to pound out of my chest, I was scared but excited... But I trusted you, I knew you wouldn't hurt me... I was already in love with you then Los" I said quietly.

"okay brilliant... Keep your eyes shut... No peeking, stay laying on that imaginary trampoline with the blue sky and our first kiss... When you open your eyes you need to imagine we are still there okay... Promise" he whispered.

"I promise Los"

"open your eyes" he said.

I did open my eyes to see Carlos smiling at me. He held a ring in his hand in a pretty white box.

"savannah, I love you, will you marry me?" He said softly.

I smiled at him "yes course I will" I giggled

he slipped the beautiful engagement ring over my tattooed finger that had Carlos' name written on it as my wedding band. It was lovely, a massive diamond perched on top.

"I don't understand Los" I whispered.

"I don't want you missing out on anything, and being engaged is a big part of life, so in years to come and our grand kids ask you how we got engaged you can tell them that it was just after our first kiss out in the garden, snuggled up together looking at the beautiful blue skies of California" he said smiling and holding my hand.

I laughed at him, a few tears escaped me "and not to tell them that we were really sat on our bathroom floor, drunk"

"exactly" he grinned.

Carlos stood up and pulled me up with him by his hand.
"come on let's go and enjoy your party" he said.

"Carlos wait!... If we are still on that trampoline, on a beautiful June day and you had just proposed to me then I would most likely of kissed you after" I smiled pulling him in towards me for a gentle kiss.

It was slow and sexy. I pulled away slowly my lips still brushing his " I think I would of made love to you too" I grinned raising an eyebrow.

"well in that case..." Carlos said and turned the lock in the bathroom door, he pulled me in close again then hitched my legs up around his waist and leaned me against the door.

He gently pulled my dress up and undid his pants. He didn't even bother to remove my underwear he just moved the material to one side then entered me.

The force of his body against mine was so sexy. I had never had quick sex with Carlos before, but seeing as we had a house full of party guests downstairs I guessed quickness was key here.

I had my arms wrapped around his neck, as he moved his delicious body against mine he kissed me on my lips slowly, he still appeared to be taking his time, I could feel his hands on my thighs as he held me up against the door.

He made my body feel incredible, I enjoyed every minute and every movement. Letting him please me in ways I couldn't even describe to my self.

"savannah I love you baby girl" Carlos whispered out.

"fuck... I love you too Los" I replied.

The door knocked behind me, I looked panicked in to Carlos' eyes.

"doors locked" he whispered and carried on making love to me.

"sav you okay in there?" Mackenzie called through the door.

I rolled my eyes. Of all the people.
"I will be out in a minute" I called as calmly as I could but Carlos had me on my way to heaven and a scream of ecstasy escaped me.

I got the giggles after that, I had no clue if my sister had heard us doing it or not, Carlos got a bit carried away when he came and really rammed me in to the door, this was the first time we hadn't had just regular laying down sex. This was fun, and I enjoyed it.

"is she still out there?" I whispered to Carlos as I sat on the loo with very little dignity in front of him while I had a wee and cleaned my self up from our love making.

Carlos laughed at me, or more my bravery "you are drunk aren't you" he chuckled " I don't know, but only one way to find out huh"

once I had sorted my dress out I gave Carlos one more kiss before he opened the door so we could re join my party.