Eva's POV

I watched, tense as Maryse explained to Raphael. He already knew since I had told him but he kept a clueless face.

"We don't believe you're responsible," Maryse finished. I could tell Raphael was refraining from rolling his eyes.

"Thank goodness," he said half sarcastically.

"Why would you think that he was?" I demanded. Luke shot me a look. I ignored him and glared at Maryse. She looked hesitant.

"A victim told us who attacked him," she glanced at Luke. "He said it was Camille." I stared at her. Camille? The one who used to lead Raphael's clan? He had told me about how she broke the Law and made subjugates. Some of the vampires in the clan still did that but Raphael said it had been a special occasion and they would return the humans safely.

"Camille," Raphael repeated, his face guarded. "It can't be."

"And why not?" Luke asked. I could hear the hint of suspicion in his voice. "She is your leader." Raphael didn't say anything. Luke went on. "She just disappeared. Never agreed to the New Accords. Didn't help with the war. She's known for her ruthlessness." I glared at Luke. Why was he so-

"You have one chance to explain," Maryse said. Raphael met her eyes coldly and said nothing.

"You don't have to defend your leader," Luke snapped. Raphael's expression darkened and he turned to the werewolf.

"I hate her," he spat. I glanced at the adults. They looked surprised. "She killed humans and made them her subjugates. For sport." Luke opened his mouth but Maryse shook her head. "I found out about that last year and I confronted her. I told her I'd tell the Clave if she didn't leave." He paused. "Off course I wouldn't do that. Our clan would be humiliated." Maryse scowled.

"There's more important things than pride," she said.

"You'll change your mind if you live like us," Raphael regarded her with dark eyes.

"And what happened to Camille?" Luke prompted.

"She believed my bluff and left," Raphael looked back at him. "I told the others that she had left because of wanderlust." He was looking at me now. I nodded encouragingly. He smiled faintly and turned back to the adults.

"How long did you think you could keep this a secret?" Luke asked. I didn't like his tone. It sounded like he thought of Raphael as a naughty little boy who had told a lie.

"As long as I could," Raphael lifted his chin slightly.

"Didn't she leave the city?" I frowned.

"She returned," Maryse looked at Raphael with hard eyes. "And she wants more than human blood."

"I was just trying to protect my clan," Raphael said. "If the Law punishes me, I'll accept." I stiffened. I stepped forward and was about to open my mouth when Luke spoke.

"We won't punish you if you cooperate with us," he said. I glared at him. So did Raphael.

"Cooperate?" He repeated coldly. Luke smiled grimly.

"Our plan is to capture Camille," Maryse said. "And to question her."

"She is very cunning," Raphael warned. "Our kind are very cunning."

"I'm confident in my plan," Luke crossed his arms. "And it involves Simon Lewis." Raphael tensed. I sighed. Raphael hated the Daylighter.

"No," the vampire shook his head, barely concealing the hatred in his face.

"Doesn't that suck," Luke grinned. Raphael clenched his hands and listened to the plan.

"One thing," I said after he finished. "I wanna go."

"No," Luke said immediately. Even Raphael looked worried.

"Why?" I demanded. "I can fend for myself."

"From what I heard from Isabelle..." Maryse frowned. I flushed. I hoped she wouldn't say anything in front of Raphael.

"Camille is dangerous and she's killed before," Luke said.

"So did Valentine," I pointed out. "And the demons."

"They're not as fast as vampires nor as smart." Maryse cut in.

"Thank you," Raphael muttered.

"I'm going anyways," I said stubbornly. I knew I sounded like a spoiled child but I really wanted to go. I was itching for a fight. To my surprise, it was Maryse who relented.

"Fine," she sighed. "You are getting restless."

"It's endearing though," Raphael added. I blushed faintly and grinned at him.

"Get ready," Maryse ordered. I nodded and walked over to Raphael.

"I won't see you will I?" I asked, disappointed.

"You'll see me tonight," he grinned, showing his sharp teeth. I realized he was fading now. "Love you."

"Love you." I smiled. I waited until he disappeared then went out the room, ignoring Luke's look.

I jumped up and down in one spot, trying to get my body moving and warmed up. I didn't know what to expect. A bunch of rogue vampires? A scary looking woman?

"Stop it Eva," Jace groaned. I smiled and ruffled his hair affectionately.

"Too bad, I'm older. You don't order me around." I said.

"We don't know that," Jace put a hand on my head. I glared at him. I opened my mouth to say something but Maryse stopped me.

"The Daylighter sent us the picture," she announced. "Get ready." The warlock drew the portal. I tightened my grip on my daggers, excited. I can't wait!

We stormed in the portal. When I walked out I didn't see anyone but Camille and Simon. The Shadowhunters milled around them. I looked around and saw two men lying in pools of blood. Jace snorted next to me.

"Missed out on the fun," he chuckled. I glared at him. Why did I had to be put in the back?

"Shut up," I had a good mind to go back into the portal. I turned around to go back in when I heard wails. I snapped around and saw Camille crying.

"Walker... Archer.." She sobbed.

"Walk Archer?" I frowned and tried to get a better view.

"The subjugates," Kadir translated. I looked at the dead men.

"You're not allowed to make humans subjugates," Maryse said. Camille snapped something but I couldn't hear her properly. Maryse whitened and whispered something in return. I let out an exasperated noise and turned around.

"I'm going," I walked back in, annoyed. There was no fight. Camille was too easy. I thought about how Raphael had said she was cunning. She must be up to something.

I was transported back to the Sanctuary. The others came through a few minutes later and they started chaining Camille to a pole with blessed metal. I stood with Jace and Simon.

"Why would she want him?" Simon wondered.

"Who?" I asked.

"Magnus," Jace frowned. "You shouldn't leave like that, Eva." I shrugged.

"Whatever," I hadn't missed out on any battles so I didn't care.

"But why?" Simon asked again. Jace shrugged.

"Fashion tips?" He suggested.

"He's traveling with Alec," I murmured. "Poor them."

"Why?" Simon looked confused. I frowned. Was Simon that dense?

"They're obviously going to call him back." Jace said.

"Summoned more like," I corrected. "Maryse wants answers fast." There was a pause. I watched Camille as she whimpered in pain. I heard Simon compliment Jace but the taller boy brushed it off. Suddenly, Isabelle burst in. She made a beeline to us, angry.

"Why?" She demanded even though she hadn't reached us. "They just got the opera tickets!" I noticed Simon stiffen.

"Camille will only talk to Magnus," Jace started to explain as I watched Simon. I had heard from Isabelle about what happened between them. I wondered how he felt around her.

When Jace finished, Isabelle snorted.

"Stalling for time," she rolled her eyes. "What would she talk about with Magnus?" Jace shrugged.

"Where were you?" I changed the subject. Isabelle grinned.

"We were fighting a Hydra demon." I heard a note of pride in her voice.

"We?" Jace asked, looking around as if he was bored.

"Yeah, me and Clary." Isabelle replied. He straightened.

"Clary?" He demanded. "You took her-"

"No, she was already in the fight. I came half way." Isabelle looked like she was tired of the conservation.

"But how?" Jace looked frantic.

"She texted me and I came over." Isabelle sounded bored.

"Is she alright?"

Isabelle's face darkened and she didn't say anything.

"Just see for yourself." I said irritably.

"Upstairs," Isabelle snapped. Jace hurried out of the room. I followed him more slowly. I heard Simon and Isabelle talking quietly.

I went to my bedroom, locked the door, and curled up in my bed. Sleep easily took me.

When I woke up, I showered and put on my dress. I strapped my daggers on the insides of my thighs then went downstairs. I didn't see Jace. I assumed he was still with Clary. I heard Alec, Isabelle, and Maryse talking. Alec came out of the room. He stopped when he saw me. I smiled.

"Hi, welcome back." I said as we hugged. We pulled away and I looked him over. He looked troubled. "What's wrong?" I asked. He sighed.

"I guess you'd know my problems since we both are dating immortal DownWorlders." He looked at me sadly. I stared at him in surprise.

"I don't get it," I frowned, worried. Did his problems concern me as well? Alec was obviously surprised.

"Raphael didn't talk about it?" He bit his lip.

"What?" I was curious and slightly scared.

"About how we'd die and they'd still be alive." Alec shook his head. There was silence as I digested what he said. I had never thought about that.

"Oh," was all I said.

"Doesn't it feel... Scary?" Alec fumbled for the right words. "Like you know they'll get over you and will get another lover?" I stared at him. He looked like he had a burden on him. "How you'll get older and uglier and- and wrinklier while they'll still look the same?"

"I never thought about that," I murmured.

"It doesn't matter," Alec sighed. "That's just how life is. We're merely toys for them. Made to satisfy them until we die."

"Alec," I began, he cut me of.

"No Eva," he looked pained. There was a pause. "I wish I was as naive as you." He walked past me towards the elevator.

"Alec," I called after him. He didn't answer or look back. "Magnus does love you." I hesitated. " I should know." But he was already in the elevator and it moved up.

I went outside onto the streets. Raphael was there, hands in his leather jacket. He was leaning on his bike which made him look cool... I felt a sense of pride for having a hot boyfriend. I grinned and hurried over to him. We did the usual greeting, a hi then a kiss then a quick recount of our day.

"You look beautiful," Raphael murmured as we rode to the Black Island City.

"You look better," I snuggled closer to him as the cold wind whipped my hair back.

"I don't know about that," Raphael sounded sad.

"What's wrong?" I rested my head against his back. There was silence. "Raphael?"

"One day you'll leave me," he said softly but I could hear his words clearly. I tensed. He was talking about my death. This was a first.

"You'll find another girl," I said. I tried to keep my voice light. I wanted him to know I was ok with that. I didn't want him to be alone because of me.

"What?" Raphael sounded surprised and hurt. "You really think I'd do that?"

"Yeah," I mumbled. "I'd be dead so what does it matter?" There was silence. Did I say something wrong?

"Eva," His voice sounded strange. "I wasn't talking about your death. I was talking about you breaking up with me."

"What?" I blurted, incredulous. How could he think that? "Never! I'd rather die than... Than..."

"Who wants to date a vampire whom you can only be with at night?" Raphael said gently. "If you dated the Daylighter, it would be easier..."

"This isn't about Simon," I held him tighter. "I don't care about meeting at night. It makes things more romantic anyways."

"You don't know what it feels like, Eva," Raphael said. "Aging when your lover stays the same. Dying when you know your lover will live for another thousand years. And it's hard for us too. Seeing your lover age and die before your eyes."

"I suppose you do have the experience." I said flatly. I felt Raphael tense.

"No," he shook his head. "You're actually my first girlfriend." I was surprised.

"Really? Seventy years but you couldn't get a girl?" I couldn't help tease him.

"I got you," he pointed out. "Anyways, I heard from Magnus. He always complains about that."

"Don't worry about me," I told him. "I can take it. Just promise me that... When I die you'll find someone else who'll make you happy."

"Why do you say someone else? Why not say girl?" Raphael asked.

"You might end up like Magnus. I don't know," I shook my head. "Forget about that. Just promise me that you will find someone."

"I don't know if I'd like boys," Raphael said. "They're sweaty and loud."

"Raphael," i growled. He sighed.

"I can't," he murmured. "I can't promise you."

"Why?" Why couldn't he do that? Seven billion people in the world. There must be one who could take Raphael's interest.

"If I do, I would never forgive myself," he said.

"Why?" I felt angry. Why doesn't he get that I don't want him to be alone? I don't want him to suffer alone. "Why?"

"Because I love you Eva," he said angrily, I could feel his muscles all taut. Then he sighed and his whole body relaxed. Almost as if he had given up. "Because I love you too much." His voice cracked slightly. I felt my eyes tear up. No one spoke as I cried silently. I didn't know it'd hurt this much to love an immortal. I wanted him to be happy after I die but at the same time I only wanted him for myself.

"I love you too," I whispered and sniffed. "Too much."