Chapter 21: Delusions of a Pixie

I can't believe what happened. I would have never thought in a million years that our friendship would fall apart. I thought we could withstand anything, I mean...I've been with him through everything...from the beginning of his life up until now. We were inseparable...but now... It grieved him...when the truth sank in...it grieved him completely. The look on his face...was utterly painful, and his eyes, they welled up as they changed...to that sickening blue color. I couldn't bear his gaze, I just couldn't. It broke my heart as the look of betrayal saturated his features...even more so as I observed the tears spill over from his right eye.

I have to admit...I never saw this coming. I was selfish, I saw my chance and I took it and didn't even bother to weigh the consequences of my deceit. I sit here and wonder, how could I have been so careless with his feelings? He trusted me...and I let him down. I didn't realize how important our friendship really was...he never told me. But that's no excuse. I couldn't help it though...or could I? I don't know. I was and still am madly in love with him. Damn...love makes you do crazy things...believe insane things.

Oooh I knew what I did to him was wrong, but the pleasure of it all totally outweighed the consequences. Stupid me...I thought I could win him over...I thought I could make him love me. I thought all of this was worth it. But deep down...I knew I was only fooling myself...living in a fantasy...we can never be. I can never be a human no more than he can ever be a fairy. But...I hoped...that...if there was a way...for me to stay this way forever, that he would accept me, that he would love me like I love him.

I know I sound crazy, but you have to understand...I felt like I was in heaven each time we kissed. I felt so much passion and heat behind his kiss. No one has EVER kissed me like that. The feeling of his lips against mine, the taste of his mouth, the way our tongues caressed each other took my breath away. I could have kissed him for an eternity.

Gosh...now I know how she feels, I've sampled it and know that she will never leave him forever. She will always be back, through all the heartbreak and pain, the off and on's... the hiatuses...that girl will always have his heart, and I will always be wanting.

In a way I almost wish I'd never done it. I wish I never consumed him...I wish I never knew what he was like. I think my heart would have been in better shape if I would have just kept dreaming. But I have been wanting him, ever since he grew to a teen. How can this be? How could a fairy even have feelings for a human? But I took him...I took all of him. We had the most incredible sex...every time I sank my nails into his flesh it drove him wild. It's like a drug. I'm not hurting him, they just go right under his skin and my magic intertwines with his body...kind of like a chemical reaction. Its something us fairies do to each other when we are intimate, it takes intimacy to the next level, like a very deep physical connection. That's how we fairies can go on for hours and hours. I don't think he even knew what I was doing...I loved how his wet body felt in my hands, how his back would arch and his breath would catch in his throat every single time I sank my nails into him- his body is truly immaculate, I touched him everywhere. I made love with his body for hours and watched his eyes roll back, I imagined that he was making love to me as well. But I knew it was only one sided...he didn't love me, but he sure looked like he did. I thought I had him. But I've discovered...that sex is not the key to Peter's heart, no matter how awesome it is.

And now...I've lost him. See...I had to tell him the truth because when he got his memory back, he was looking for me, in my true fairy form that is. I couldn't face him...not yet. I had a bit of my potion left, so I used it. I had to find out for myself...if we could ever be. It was time for me to reveal myself. So...I drew him to the cave...and when he found me...he had no idea. He didn't put two-and two together. So, he was completely shocked, for my reappearance was a complete inconvenience. The look on his face revealed to me that he had gotten over me and moved on.

You see, since then, he had gotten his memory back and naturally had much to sort out. He asked me how I even got to Neverland. He told me that he looked for me...after I abandoned him that is. But It was so obvious that he'd forgotten all about me because the tone of the conversation seemed like an excuse as to why he forgot about me, and now had no room in his life for me.

Anyway, he said he sat outside my hotel and waited, then came back the next day and the next but I was nowhere to be found. We parted on bad terms you see...and he stormed out on me, hopped on his motorcycle and sped off. I watched him from the window. I wanted to stop him, but my magic was wearing off. I hadn't been paying attention to my locket. I couldn't cast another spell, it would have taken way too long, to come back here, gather everything and so on... So I ended up flying back to Neverland, and I just...kept quiet. I didn't know that Hook had gotten to him, and turned him into a Pirate. It's my fault because I knew Jessica cloaked him, but she never came back. You all thought she took him. I knew nobody could find him, so I had my way with him. I didn't know what to do when I left. I didn't want to tell you that I knew where he was all along. I was still being selfish, trying to make my potion again but it was taking forever. I don't know how Hook found him. I should have just told you where he was, but instead...I kept him to myself, and then just left him.

So...anyway...when I explained to him everything I had done and why...I watched all of the emotions come alive on his handsome face. He literally couldn't even speak for about five minutes, but the many facial expressions he had spoke for him. He stood and cleared his throat and mumbled "Tinkerbell...I hereby banish you...forever." I couldn't believe my ears, I thought he wasn't serious, because it sounded like he was still contemplating. I said "What?" Then he yelled it out loud. He banished me, not for three days...like he did way back when I tried to get Wendy killed by the lost boys. He said that this time, it's forever. He cried as he severed our bond with his words, he cried like he did when I died after drinking the poison. He told me he doesn't want me as his fairy anymore. My cries for forgiveness fell on death ears. I know what I did was wrong, but he still would not understand. The messed up thing is, if I had the chance...I would do it all over again.

Peter stared at her with a blank look then looked her up and down in silence. "Who are you?" Peter asked, wonderment evident in his voice. I-I heard you calling me...in there...how did you do that? Peter breathed but she didn't respond, she was busy drinking in the beauty of his facial features, his sun-kissed skin, his straight brows, long eye lashes, straight nose, and his his perfectly shaped lips.

Tinkerbell's stomach clenched, for a mixture of feelings hit her all at once. She got lost in Peter's green eyes and his handsome face.

A gentle breeze blew by and it swept his scent into her nostrils and she relished it. Tinkerbell's eyes began to burn for they were about to water, but she blinked a few times to chase the feeling away, for she just couldn't believe that she was looking at Peter through human sized eyes...for they were now the same size.

"Ehem." Peter cleared his throat as he looked at her with raised brows.

Tinkerbell smiled. "Oh, sorry. It's me Bell. Still no memory huh?" Tinkerbell answered as she placed her hands on her hips.

Peter narrowed his eyes at her. "Bell? Strange name...so you obviously know me, and I obviously don't remember you...so...sorry." Peter said as he put his hands in his pockets and began to rock back and forth on his heels.

Tinkerbell placed her hands on the fence. "I figured you didn't have your memory back yet because you left Neverland, but it didn't hurt to wishfully think. So why did you leave?"

Peter's eyes grew wide. "You're from Neverland?"

Tinkerbell smiled. "Yea, that's my home too, so what gives? We've been looking for you and you show up then come back here."

Peter looked down. "Well...I wasn't ready to come back and be...who I uh...who I really am...if that makes sense. I left Slightly in charge."

Tinkerbell nodded her head in understanding. "Well, you've got quite the task force set out to help you get your memory back, sooo...I decided to come see about you...have a little fun...there is no need for you to just sit in the house all day."

Peter looked up and smiled at her. His eyes washed over her face and he noticed her skin, it had a magical enchanting sparkle to it, as if glitter was mixed in.

Peter placed his hands on the fence below hers. "So...who are you to me?" Peter asked rudely and Tinkerbell furrowed her eyes at him.

Peter blinked a few times. "I'm sorry, that came out wrong. I'm just trying to figure out...what our-"

"We are best friends, and just recently became a bit more...intimate. Then you disappeared and reappeared with no memory." Tinkerbell finished her partial lie.

Peter narrowed his eyes at her as he smiled. "Wow...um well...I must get around then...you are the third beautiful girl who seems to have...some intimate thing with me. There's this dark skinned girl, who tastes like chocolate-"

"Yea So-ren." Tinkerbell jealously interjected. "She's a has-been." Tinkerbell snapped.

Peter's eyes looked around as his face became blank. "Ok...what about this Wendy girl, she said we are lovers. And I feel something strong inside of me when she's close." Peter pointed.

Tinkerbell nodded her head. "Yes yes, the infamous Wendy Darling. You two were lovers, but you recently broke up. Irreconcilable differences...and that's when you and I got together. You two still love each other, but are not in love. You both moved on, she's with Nibs now." Tinkerbell informed ina sharp tone.

Peter furrowed his brows again, not really caring about her sharpness. "Nibs...yes, the second in command they spoke about, the missing guy. I don't know him." Peter said.

Tinkerbell smiled. "Yea...allot went on, but its over now." She replied in a dismissive tone then flipped her thick blond hair and her scent whiffed in Peter's face causing him to smile.

"The only thing that is important now is getting your memory back, and finding Nibs of course, but your task force is already on it. That leaves us to just have fun." Tinkerbell finished in a firm tone and smiled mischievously. "Don't you want to get out of that boring old house? Don't you want to come out and play?" Tinkerbell finished with a smile loaded with mischief.

Peter returned the mischievous smile then raised his brows as a hint of confusion appeared on his face. "Play?"

"Hop the fence." Tinkerbell spat in a daring tone.

Peter turned and looked back at the window then returned his gaze to her. "Hold on, let me close the window." He said then ran off, did it then sprinted towards her, jumped and flipped over the fence.

He landed on the dirt in a crouching position then stood and straightened his clothes. "Whew...so-"

"Come-on." Tinkerbell said as she snatched his hand and stormed off with him. They came out of the shrubbery and on to the side walk and she released his hand.

"Get in." Tinkerbell said as she pointed her keys to the car and pressed her alarm. "Boop boop" and the doors of her yellow camaro unlocked.

Peter stopped and his eyes washed over her car. "Wow, this is your car?" He said full of excitement.

"Get in, gawk later, I'm hungry." Tinkerbell blurted then hopped in, and Peter quickly complied and as soon as he shut the door she burned rubber and sped off.

Tinkerbell looked at Peter and smiled and Peter smiled back at her and she shifted the gears and hopped on the highway. Peter looked out the window and Tinkerbell knew what he was thinking.

"Don't worry, I'll bring you back...tomorrow sometime." She said as she shifted gears and got on the ramp to Orlando.

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Wendy and Sam were sitting on the plane in silence as they both kept their headsets on and ignored each other. Wendy told herself that she wouldn't fall asleep, but her body demanded it and she had dozed off several times then finally passed out.

After they both slept they were served their food, which was eaten in a rude silence until Sam grew tired of Wendy.

Sam pulled Wendy's headphones off and she snapped her head in his direction. "Now what did you go and do that for? Did I tell you to touch me?" Wendy snapped.

Sam narrowed his eyes at her. "Stop it, I've had enough, we need to talk. You can't possibly sit in silence this whole flight, we have five more hours to go." Sam barked.

Wendy sighed, for she was insanely bored anyway, and she knew her silence wouldn't get her any closer to finding answers, so she decided to open up. "Ok Sam. What do you want to talk about?"

Sam exhaled in relief and sat back in his seat but kept his body turned towards her. "I want to talk about us. I know what I did was wrong, but I am not your enemy any more. Can't you forgive me Wendy?"

Wendy looked at him, her features soft. "You do have a chance at redeeming yourself just a tad, slowly though...if you answer my questions truthfully." Wendy said.

"Ask your questions." Sam said.

"You knew I lost my memory...Peter lost his too. Do you have anything to do with this?"

Sam's brows rose as jealousy consumed him. "Oh-so...that's where you went. Peter was around wasn't he?"

Wendy ignored him. "What happened to us? Our memory loss was not a natural occurrence."

Sam rolled his eyes. "I don't know, the last time I saw any of you was in that ice castle with the witch. I apparently was knocked out cold. I woke up in Alaska!" Sam rasped. "I came back to London and the very next day you was at my door. You remembered nothing, and I've changed, so I treated you they way I should have treated you all along."

Wendy huffed. "Sam...I really don't think-"

"Don't...you are speaking too soon. Just let it go." Sam said. "Anyway, lets make sure our story is straight with your parents. In regards to that mess back there, I told your parents that I got you out of there as soon as the danger hit. So we know nothing."

"Oh yeah...thanks. They don't know that I have my memory back, and I intend to keep it that way for a while. I don't need a million questions." Wendy said with her brows raised.

Sam nodded his head. "Got-cha."

They arrived in London about 3am, departed the Airport and drove to Wendy's house. Sam helped her with her bags and walked her to the door. Wendy opened the door and put her bags inside and turned to Sam and figured she should say something. "Sam, I want to thank you for the good times we had. It wasn't all bad, you've shown me a great time...um...good night." She awkwardly said and Sam smiled. "Good night Wendy."

All was quiet in the house, for Wendy's parents were asleep as was John. Wendy went up to her room and dropped her bags, totally exhausted. She stripped and put on a t-shirt, turned off the lights, pulled the covers back and laid back. ***crunch*** ***Gasp!** "What?" Wendy breathed as she sat up and snatched the paper off the bed. She turned on her lamp and saw that it was a note.

Wendy began to read it, it was very straight forward saying "I came by, call me, N." Wendy's brows went up. "Nibs...speak of the devil...he must have landed on earth as well. Yes, we were holding on to each other, he was protecting me from Peter's blast." She thought inwardy and grabbed her phone and dialed the number.

The phone kept ringing and ringing, for Nibs was knocked out and did not hear it ring. Wendy got the answering machine and when it beeped she left a message:

"Hi Nibs...this is Wendy...I just got into town, its about 3:45 am...I am going to get some sleep then I will call again and let you know when you can come by. Until then..." Wendy ended the call and laid down on her pillow. She silenced her phone and placed it on the dresser and went right to sleep.

A short chapter, so much was supposed to go in but I can't keep procrastinating. Thanks for reading and sharing our thoughts!

Tinkerbell is going to show Peter the time of his life, she is going to teach him how to fly again and they are just going to be mischievous. But it will be short lived. I am going to use first person off and on to explain how Tinkerbell is feeling. And, I am going to stop talking.

Snippet

Wendy was standing on her porch when she seen Nibs ride into her driveway on his motorcycle. Wendy's stomach clenched, for memories of their last encounter flashed in her mind, not when he was protecting her, but when they became intimate.

She was afraid because she didn't know what to expect, the letter he left her was barely a handful of words so she couldn't make any judgments from it, and he didn't even call her back, he just texted her. Nibs swung his bike around and parked it. He threw his leg over the side as he got off the bike and stood there for a moment.

Wendy remained on her porch with her arms nervously crossed as she patiently waited. Nibs removed his helmet and Wendy's stomach dropped. "Dammit." She cursed within herself as she seen his face.

She took in his jet black hair which was sculpted in his signature mohawk and she wondered how it was still perfect, despite wearing a helment. Her eyes continued down and washed over his straight black brows which were a bit furrowed.

Wendy wondered if he was angry, but then she remembered, Nibs always looked angry. She skipped over his eyes because she couldn't bare to make contact. Instead her eyes washed down the bridge of his nose and fell on the little mole that rested at the right hand corner of his upper lip, and her eyes inevitably fell on his pretty lips. Nibs moved and Wendy swallowed and subconsciously took a step back. Nibs walked up the steps and on to the porch and just looked at her, not sure of what to say. He swallowed, "You're alive..." Nibs said, his tone very dry, his face blank as his jaw became set. Wendy finally made eye contact with him and wished she didn't, for his eyes were smoldering and they froze her in her place. Nibs just took it upon himself and walked up on her, dropped his helment, placed his hands on her jaw and moved in. Wendy snapped her eyes shut. "Sh-t." Wendy whispered in her mind and she felt his lips press against hers and she couldn't breathe.