When I woke up I was extremely disoriented. My head felt like ninety pounds and my throat was sore. And cold, to make thing worse. I grabbed a blanket and wrapped it around my shoulders before pushing myself into a standing position. I looked at the clock to see that I had missed half of the day, which meant I missed Easter dinner!

Fuck. I was really looking forward to that. It was one o'clock, in the next morning, I assumed and staggered down the hall. I lifted an eyebrow as I saw that Bella's bedroom light was on. I made it to her door and pushed it open to see Emmett and her standing in the floor playing tug of war with a telephone.

"What in the hell are you doing in here?" I barked, but it came out as more of a groan. I sighed at my own pitiful attempt and then realized neither of them heard me.

"Emmett, wait until he is up! Don't jump to conclusions because you could ruin something great with Rose. Don't do something you'll regret!" Emmett yanked the phone from Bella and went backwards until she hit her desk. I snapped into action, crossing the room to help her.

"Edward?" She gasped, pushing off of the desk and coming to me. I glared at Emmett who stomped up to me, leaning over Bella to get in my face.

"Emmett, stop!" She whisper yelled, taking the phone back from Em.

"You fucking dick!" He seethed, pushing my shoulder roughly. Bella gasped as I stumbled back like a fucking punk. Bella slapped his chest, and not in a playful way. It sounded like it could have hurt. Emmett's jaw clenched as he glared down at her and I regained my strength and took her hand, pulling her behind me.

"What the fuck is your malfunction? Pushing her around like that!" I looked over my shoulder to see if Bella was okay.

"Edward, I'm fine, but please, go lay down." She begged, looking scared. That look made me turn to Emmett with nothing but fury coursing through my veins. She pulled on my shirt and I shook my head.

"What the hell is going on?!" I asked, ignoring Bella.
Emmett ignored my words and stepped toe to toe with me. "You had sex with my fucking girlfriend?!" My heart dropped as he glared at me, fists clenched as he waited for an answer.

"She told you?" I whispered, a little confused as to why she'd do that. This seemed like a long way to go just to give it all up in the end.

"No, you fucking bastard! You told me!" He pushed me again and I stumbled back into Bella. Her hands braced my waist, keeping me steady.

I did what?

"This is not the appropriate time to discuss this." She whispered, her usually sweet voice void of any and all emotion.

Wait.

I did what?

I must be dreaming or something. When in the hell did I tell them about that?!

"Oh I'm sorry, Bella. When is the best time to confront my traitorous brother? Hm?" He hissed, glaring at her over my shoulder.

"Hey, you're mad at me, not her." I reminded, shifting again to block her. I could feel the anger and hurt rolling off of him in waves. And I've done a lot of shit to Emmett but I had never felt this bad about it. Seeing the pain in his eyes almost made me not want to throw Rosalie under the bus. To know their relationship was fucked from the start wouldn't help a thing.

The guilt started to become disorienting as he glared and I swallowed. Actually, maybe it wasn't the guilt so much as it was the sickness that had me bed riddled.

"Emmett, I'm sorry." I said flat out, apparently earning a fist to the face. Bella cried out quietly as I fell back into her.

"Please don't fight!" She begged as I got back on my feet. I'll admit I deserved that one. If he slept with Bella, knowingly or not, I would have hit him too. It was fair. He pulled back his fist and Bella jumped in front of me, making his hand drop. "You guys are brothers, there has to be another way to deal with things. Fighting each other every time you get angry isn't okay."

"You fucked my girlfriend!" He bellowed, a vein popping out of his too red forehead. Bella winced and I put a hand on her hip and went to move her but she swatted my hand away.

"While it's not okay, did it occur to you that it takes two to tango?" Bella said softly. "The blame shouldn't all be on him. You wouldn't hit Rosalie!"

"No but that's different, she's a girl." He argued, rolling his eyes.

"And he's your brother!"

"By way of adoption." He turned his eyes to mine. "You're fucking nothing to me now." I frowned, my anger melting away until I just felt guilty. Maybe I was wrong when I spoke to Rose. At the end of the day I guess I would be just as much to him as she was.

"Eight years, Emmett." She whispered and the room began to spin. They continued whisper arguing back and forth and it all became a blur again. My skin began feeling like it was on fire and I groaned.

"What a convenient time for an episode, you fuck." Emmett spat before my knees weakened and I hit the ground. I groaned loudly when my pressure filled head hit the ground.

"Oh my god, Edward!" Bella gasped and I reached up to grip my aching head. There was the sound of buttons pressing from in the room and I looked up to see Emmett holding the phone.

"No..." I whispered, lifting myself up onto my forearms.

"Maybe you should lay back." Bella said softly, lightly pushing down my shoulder. I frowned up at her as she fussed over me. She had tears in her eyes as she looked over me.

"We're not fighting anymore." I reached for her hand and lifted myself into a sitting position, dragging myself to rest against the wall. "Don't cry, honey." I took her hand between mine. My words did nothing though, as a tear slipped down her cheek.

"You really did sleep with Rose?" She whispered, another tear sliding down her cheek.

Fuck.

I hadn't even considered what Bella would think about this. It did happen before we'd met; I was hoping that she wouldn't care. Guess that wasn't going to happen.

"It was before I knew you." I said softly bringing her hand to my lips.

"Fuck!" Emmett screamed, throwing the phone against the door. Bella jumped and I moaned before coughing into my shoulder.

"Emmett… Please." She whispered, her eyes darting towards the door. Her wide eyes turned to me, "We need to get you into bed, before we have to take you to the hospital." Hurried footsteps echoed in the hallway and Bella moved away from me as Esme swung the door open.

"What in the world is going on in here?!" She gasped, shielding her eyes from the lights.

"Just a little family bonding…" I groaned.

"Yeah, we share everything, don't we?" He looked to me and his eye twitched. He pushed past Esme and left the room, leaving mom with Bella and I.

"What are you doing out of bed? Did you learn nothing from this morning?" She asked storming over to me and Bella. "Get under his other arm and help me lift, please?" Bella nodded and the two of them lifted me to my feet. "You're getting heavy, dear. I think it's time you start laying off of the snacks." She patted my stomach and Bella rubbed my back.

"Okay, Mom." I muttered, hell, I was in tip top shape. Anyway, I had bigger problems than my weight at the moment. Like my brother who was probably going to murder me as soon as I shut my eyes. And then there was my girlfriend who was on the verge of tears at my side.

"Oh, I can't get him far…" Mom pursed her lips and I struggled to stand, and help them out a little bit. "Bella, do you mind sleeping in Edward's room tonight? We won't be able to get him down the hall." Bella nodded and 'mhm'ed at mom before helping her get me to the bed.

"Edward, get some rest." Mom said with a concerned frown. "Bella, come with me, I'll get you a change of sheets for his bed and we'll get you settled it. You still have school tomorrow."

"I know where the sheets are, thank you. I can do it." She gave Esme a tense smile and hugged her. "Feel better, Edward." She patted my shoulder before escaping out of the room.

"She's a saint." Esme said sitting on the edge of the bed and tucking the covers up around my chin. "Get some sleep." She said, brushing the hair out of my face. "I think I'm going to be staying home tomorrow… I can't have two of my boys alone and sick." She stood and sighed. Two? Carlisle was sick? "Especially not you two." She shook her head and blew me a kiss before flipping off the lights and shutting the door.

I sighed and shut my eyes. How in the hell was I going to fix things with Emmett? We had never been on great terms per say, but I wanted to at least get to a place where he didn't want to castrate me. And then there was Bella, who was still extremely upset for a reason unbeknownst to me. It could be because I fucked a chick that had been nothing but horrible to her. But I didn't even know Bella back then so she couldn't reasonably be upset with me.

Man, I was a fuck up.

Bella's door creaked open and I looked up to see her slight frame in the doorway. I slowly lifted my head and she came in, shutting the door behind her. The room darkened once more and the only thing I heard was Bella's light footsteps.

"Bella?" The bed dipped under her weight and the covers lifted to accommodate her. But she wasn't touching me.

"You slept with Rose." She stated, that seemed to be the topic of the night. One I wouldn't mind leaving in the past.

"I told you it was a while ago." I sniffled because my nose was running, and she sniffled to, for a completely different reason. "Why are you crying?" I asked, my eyebrows furrowing.

Motherfuck, I was such a screw up. I'd made her cry again. "Please don't cry." I whispered, limply searching for her hand beneath the blanket.

"What about Emmett?"

"It was before I knew that she and Emmett were a thing. We did the deed and then two hours later, she and Em were Facebook official. I would have never touched her had I known she was dating Emmett." I whispered, wishing I could go back in time and undo everything.

"Why didn't you tell him… or me?" She asked her voice cracking as she spoke.

"I don't make it a habit to boast about my sexual history, especially when it would hurt Em if he found out." I clenched my jaw. I wasn't sure if it'd be a good time to tell her about Rosalie's threat, because it seemed like everything was about to come crumbling down.

"Edward…" She said softly. "I want you to tell me everything. I've been nothing but honest with you all of this time and I feel like I barely know you anymore…" Anymore?

"I'll tell you whatever you want." I said, turning my head to look at her. I lifted a heavy hand and wiped a tear from her cheek.

"Really?" I nodded and she sighed.

"Any and everything."

"Well I guess we should start with past girlfriends or hookups… So I'm not blindsided again."

"I didn't do girlfriends-" I said, already feeling shittier. I hadn't cared to think about my sexual history until then and to say I wasn't proud would be an understatement.

She was going to hate me.

She mumbled something like, "Still don't…" And I lifted my eyebrow.

"What?"

"Answer my question please?" I gulped and began.

"Okay. There was Rose, Lauren-"

"Lauren, the one Angela introduced me to?" She gasped.

"Yes…"

"Continue." She choked out, and I was only on two. How was she going to feel at the end of this?

"Maggie Hamilton, she moved away. Um, Emily Jackman… And-" I bit my lip and turned my eyes to the ceiling. I had never anticipated my good looks and undeniable charm would come back to bite me in the ass. "Jessica Stanley."

Bella shot up next to me and I could feel her glare despite the fact that I couldn't see it. "Nurse Stanley?!"

"I'm sorry…" And I was. Had I known my sweet Bella was coming along I wouldn't have touched any of those other skanks. But after listing off the names of my past partners I suddenly felt like I wasn't in a place to call anyone a skank.

"Wow…" I would have given anything to get into her head at that point. To know if she still wanted me or if she was just as disgusted by me as Emmett was. I reached over to my side and clicked on Bella's lamp. She sat fiddling with her hands as she gnawed on her bottom lip. Her eyebrows were furrowed as she stared intently at her fingers.

"I'm sorry." I repeated. "If I'd known, Bella… I would have waited. For you." I took her hand and she looked at me, her eyes filled with tears.

"I don't understand… Excuse me for being self-absorbed, but what do they have that I don't? You sleep with all of them but I can barely get you to kiss me…" She whispered, her eyes widening and blinking away tears.

"Nothing! Nothing." I tried to assure her. "Bella, you just mean so much to me. With them, I didn't give a fuck about what would happen… You know if we-" She held up a hand and nodded. "I just wanted to scratch an itch… with them. It meant nothing." How could I tell her she was different? I still used her to scratch an itch. A love itch. But that wasn't romantic or anything close to it. And I wouldn't dare think to tell her that.

I opened my mouth to speak and she swiped away a tear. "I think that about answers all of my questions." She whispered quickly. She tossed off the covers and padded her way to the door, shutting it quietly behind her.

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