A few weeks have passed since they have been cleansed. Vilkas was walking back into Whiterun, sweat and dirt covered his face and a some blood on his armor. He was returning from a job of cleaning out a bandits den, he made his way back to Jorrvaskr and came to Farkas sitting down with other companions around him. "You're full of it Farkas!" Athis said shaking his head at him. "No I'm telling you the truth it was that big, the biggest bones I've ever seen!" Farkas looked at Athis a bit aggravated.
Vilkas raised his eyebrows in question walking over. "What's going on?" Vilkas asked looking at them. "Farkas here claims he fought a dragon." Athis said crossing his arms. "I did fight a dragon you can ask Krissy yourself!" He said slamming his fist down on the table. "I believe him! The fuckers really are that big!" Torvar said raising his mug to Farkas remembering when he came across a dragon with Krissy. "Yes and I believe you're a drunk!" Athis sneered at Torvar. "Hey you got no proof!" Torvar glared at him taking another drink of his mead.
Vilkas furrowed down his eyebrows looking at his brother. 'So that's where they were.' He thought to himself remembering waking up this morning to find them both gone on some job. "You're just jealous Athis." Ria crossed her arms leaning back in her chair. "Jealous of what? I bet I can find a dragon and take it out before it could breath it's first breath of fire at me!" Athis said pulling out his sword. "Yea right and I'm a woman!" Torvar shouted out causing the other companions to laugh. "An ugly woman." Athis rolled his eyes putting his sword away.
Vilkas smirked a bit at the ridiculous scene before him, he looked around to see if Krissy was outside but he couldn't find her. The past few weeks they hardly spoke to each other, they worked some jobs together but even then they kept their distance from each other. He sighed hating himself for what he said, it was his fault why it was like this and he wanted to fix it but he didn't know how. Maybe she just felt more uncomfortable around him before.
Vilkas looked over at Farkas seeing him staring at him, Farkas nudged his head back at the door to tell him Krissy was inside. Vilkas looked at him a bit annoyed but went inside anyways feeling the smirk Farkas was making behind him.
Vilkas walked inside seeing Krissy sitting at the table eating some food, he saw a few burn marks on her neck probably from the dragon he assumed, she was looking away with a distant look in her eyes. She had seemed a bit out of it lately as well, he's caught her gazing out windows or just looking out into space when she was outside. 'I wonder what she's thinking about.' He wondered admiring her a bit.
He cleared his throat walking over taking a seat next to her, she jumped a bit as if he had interrupted her thoughts. "You're back." She smiled at him with her eyes lighting up a bit. "Yea it was easy just a few low life bandits." Vilkas said returning her smile. She looked down a bit as if she wanted to say something. Vilkas looked closer at the burns on her neck, he carefully placed his hand on her neck making he jump a bit, he lightly rubbed his thumb on the burns to see how bad they were. "Do they still hurt?" He asked looking back at her. "No not so much anymore, we actually just got back not too long ago, the location of the dragon wasn't that far from Whiterun actually." She looked back at him smiling a bit.
Krissy kept her eyes on him for a moment feeling a bit of butterflies flutter around, she sighed taking her eyes off of him and looking down at her half empty plate. "Something on your mind?" Vilkas asked removing his hand from her and grabbing himself some food. "No not really." She answered quietly. 'I wish you loved me like I love you.' She wanted to say but she just kept her thoughts to herself. 'I wish I knew what was on your mind.' Vilkas thought to himself beginning to dig into his food.
They sat their for a few minutes finishing their food and mead. "Well I think I'm going to head to my room, I think I should probably put something on these burns." Krissy gave Vilkas another smile and than got up walking away. Vilkas sighed rubbing his forehead watching her walk away.
Krissy walked down the stairs and turned down the hallway to make her way to her room. Being around Vilkas always gave her small butterflies but they ended quickly when she had to come back to reality and remember it was hopeless. She tried to keep her distance from him like he wanted too, she even thought it would help a little but it only made it worse. It made everything harder, her nights turned into restless nights and arguments in her mind, whether she wanted to go a head and tell him how she feel or not.
But she thought it best to just keep it too herself, she couldn't handle another heart break and rejection. She sighed walking into her room looking around for some kind of medicine to put on her burns. She would lay awake at night just thinking about him, wanting his arms around her and the feel of his lips against hers.
She shook her head forcing the thoughts away, they only made her heart ache more. She begin to clean her burns and gently placed some medicine on it. She was planning on heading out anyways, she came to the decision that she wanted to adventure more of Skyrim, see more out there and maybe find out more of her past, she would still be a companion of course and everybody already told her that she would still be the Harbinger.
The others knew of it and supported her of it but Vilkas didn't have a clue about it and every time she would even think about tell him she felt her stomach turn and twist to where she wanted to be sick. It was hard enough to avoid him now but the thought of really being away for who knows how long made her heart ache and made it hard for her think straight.
She sighed knowing she had to tell him soon, she was planning on leaving first thing in the morning. She turned around to leave but Vilkas was in the doorway causing her to jump a bit not expecting him to be there. "Did I scare you?" He asked chuckling a bit seeing her surprised face. "A little bit." She smiled a bit at him. "How long have you been there." She asked looking at him curiously.
He smiled at her walking into her room looking around. "Only a little bit, it looked like you were deep in thought and I didn't want to interrupt." He looked down seeing a map laid out on the table with marks on it, he furrowed his eyebrows down a bit but just looked away from it facing her again.
Krissy looked down feeling her heart begin to race. "Yea I kinda was.." She bit her lower lip. "About what?" He asked raising an eyebrow. "Vilkas I'm leaving tomorrow." She quickly said a bit surprised at herself. Vilkas just stood there looking at her in confusion. "What do you mean like on a job?" He asked hesitantly. "No I mean, actually leaving." She looked down at the floor feeling her heart beat against her chest.
Vilkas furrowed his eyebrows down at her. "Why? What for?" He asked his voice raising a bit. 'Is this my fault?' He thought to himself feeling a lump rise in his throat. "Because I feel like there's more out there for me to see, I want to adventure more of Skyrim. Be an actual adventurer." Krissy began to smile at the thought of it but her smile quickly faded when she saw the look on Vilkas's face.
He just stood there for a moment trying to wrap his head around all he just heard. "So you're just going to leave the companions?" He asked feeling his heart begin to ache but he felt himself become angry. "What? No I'll still be a companion I've talked to the others about it and-" Vilkas quickly cut her off. "Wait you already talked to the others? Before me?! Why haven't you or anybody come to me first?" Vilkas raised his voice feeling his heart beat increase.
Krissy furrowed down her eyebrows at him wincing at his sudden out rage. "I'm sorry I needed your permission to do so!?" She responded crossing her arms. "N-no that's not what I meant it's just that, you can just so easily leave!?" Vilkas began to pace back and forth a bit. "No it's not easy Vilkas it's actually really difficult but I feel like it's something I need to do, Vilkas I have no memory of my past at all! I feel like I need to find out more to see more." Her voice became shaky, she didn't like to argue with him. Vilkas stood there a bit surprised at what she said. "You don't remember your past?" He asked looking at her confused. "No I don't, the last thing I remember is waking up in a cabin alone and than suddenly found myself as a prisoner among the imperial's." Krissy said looking down a bit.
Vilkas sighed deeply feeling his heart ache get worse he scratched the back of his head looking away not being able to face her. "Vilkas...C-come with me! We can explore together, just us!" She said looking back up to him taking a few steps towards him. Vilkas quickly looked back at her a bit surprised. 'Go with her?' He looked back down, his heart jumped at the very thought, just the two of them together finding who knows what through out Skyrim.
But his heart sank back down when he realized he couldn't really leave, his brother was here, he's been a companion for all his life he couldn't be anything else. "No I-I can't." He took a few steps back from her. "But Vilkas we can be-" She began to say but he quickly cut her off. "No! You don't understand Krissy I can't! You can do what ever you want but I'm a true companion and will always be a companion, I'm...I'm sorry..." Vilkas turned away walking out of the room, he couldn't look at her any longer it just made the pain in his chest worse. 'I would want nothing more than to be with you and travel with you.' Vilkas closed his eyes tightly walking to the stairs going upstairs.
'But I love you!' Krissy wanted to shout out to him, she wanted to run to him and stop him but throwing her arms around him. But she just stood there feeling her heart break once again left in rejection. Krissy looked down feeling the pain in her chest increase wanting to make her sick. 'I guess that's just it than...' She sighed deeply going into the second part of her room shutting the door behind her.
Morning quickly came for Vilkas, he sat on his bed rubbing his forehead. 'I wonder if she's left yet..' He thought to himself feeling like he was going to throw up. The very thought of Krissy being who knows where with who knows what made his stomach turn and his heat ache. A knock came at his door and Vilkas quickly jumped to his feet. 'Is it her?' He wondered feeling his heart jump a bit but when he opened the door it was Aela making his heart sink back down. "What Aela." He said sighing and looking away. "You're not going to say goodbye?" She asked crossing her arms at him. "Why would I?" He responded sitting back down on his bed.
Aela furrowed down her eyebrows looking at him. "Vilkas it would mean a lot to her and you, if you went to her and at least said goodbye. If you don't you will regret it." She walked into his room. Vilkas just let out a loud sigh getting up from his bed and quickly walking past her. Aela smirked a bit watching him leave.
Vilkas quickly made his way through the Jorrvaskr, he pushed the doors open looking around outside. He sighed in relief once he saw Krissy was still there. She was standing a few distance away from the building with her back to it. Vilkas smiled walking up to her gently placing his hands on her shoulders making her jump a bit, he leaned forward placing his mouth close to her ear. "Your didn't think I'd let you go with out saying goodbye did you?" He whispered gently into her ear.
Krissy turned around smiling at him. "Let me walk you out." Vilkas said smiling at her though he didn't feel like smiling at the moment. Krissy nodded to him and than they both began to walk. "You know it's not like I'm going to be gone forever, I'll come back." She looked down keeping her smile on her face. 'You better..' He thought to himself feeling his heart sink down deeper.
They walked through Whiterun making small talk until they reached the stables. Once they reached the stables it fell into complete silence, Krissy turned to face Vilkas but she had her head down and her eyes to the ground. Vilkas looked up over her taking in a deep breath. "I guess this is it." He cleared his throat slowly looking at her. She looked up at him biting her lower lip. "You know it's not too late, you can still come with me if you want..." She said quietly. "I can't you know that.." He replied looking down at her with sad eyes.
Krissy just nodded understanding, she looked away and over to the carriage knowing he was probably getting impatient waiting for her. But before she could even turn Vilkas grabbed her shoulders looking down a bit but then he looked back up at her with his face close to hers. "Just know that you always have a home here, friends here who care about you and just...Just make sure you come in one piece." His voice began to shake as he spoke. "You better come back to me in piece." He forced himself to say, she looked at him a bit surprised but just smiled nodding to him. "I'm tougher than I look." She said with a bit of a giggle, Vilkas chuckled feeling his heart feel better a bit.
Vilkas wanted to kiss her but he had to pull himself away, he didn't want to make the goodbye more painful than it already was. He slowly let go of her shoulders and took a few steps back. "You should probably get going before your ride leaves with out you." He nodded his head towards the carriage and the man looking back at her with an annoyed look on his face. "You're right." Krissy sighed deeply. "Well I will see you again so don't think this is really goodbye." She smiled at him grabbing his arm and squeezing it a bit.
Vilkas gave her a warm smile feeling a bit better by her words, Krissy smiled at him back and than turned walking away towards the carriage. Once she reached the carriage Vilkas turned around and began to walk back towards the gate.
Once he reached it Aela was standing in front of it with her arms crossed. "What the hell are you doing?" She asked him with a stern voice. "I'm going back to Jorrvaskr?" He replied raising an eyebrow. Aela un crossed her arms looking at him with an annoyed look. "I mean what the hell was that? Out there? You call that a goodbye or a last minute confession to her?" Aela said to him.
Vilkas furrowed down his eyebrows at her. "What are you talking about confession? What do I have to confess?" He asked her in aggravation. "Vilkas you love her and you know it! If you could just stop being stubborn for a moment and realize that you could stop her while you still have a chance!" Aela said. "Stop her? Why would I do that? It's what she wants so am I to stop her, now get out of the way." Vilkas tried pushing past her but she stopped him. "She wants you Vilkas! And you want her, go and stop her or go with her. Before it's too late." She said giving him a little push. "Aela I-" She quickly cut him off. "GO!" She yelled pointing.
"Dammit!" He yelled quickly turning and running off back to the stables. "Go man, go get your woman." One of the guards who stood by the gate spoke out, Aela just looked at him raising her eyebrow a bit but than smiled turning back watching Vilkas run off. 'She's right! I do love her, I love Krissy so much it hurts to be away even for a moment, I've gotta get to her!' Vilkas picked up his speed running down the hill, he stopped when he saw that the carriage was already gone.
His heart began to race in his chest as he quickly began to ran towards the road. "Wait!" He yelled seeing the carriage off in the distance, he sprinted down the road trying to catch it but stopped having to catch his breath, it was useless the carriage was too far away and he couldn't catch up to it. 'It's too late..' He felt his heart begin to break in his chest as he watched the carriage get further away, he looked back on all the chances he had to stop her or join her and it made him hurt more to realize he screwed it up.
He looked down closing his eyes clenching his fists tightly. 'This is all my fault..' He turned his head away feeling his heart drop deep and a lump rise in his throat. He remembered the things he had said to her, lying about how he didn't mean what he said when he really did mean it. He slowly looked back up watching the carriage get further and further away. 'I'll wait for you...No matter how long you are away, if your not taken by the time you return I will hold you in my arms and never let you go again. I will wait.' He sighed out deeply looking up at the sky feeling the cool breeze blow through his hair. 'This isn't the end, I will have you someday.'
Don't worry even though this seems like the end it is not! Just the end of this story, I have more planned for this couple in upcoming stories. This is not the end of Vilkas and Krissy!