(A/N) I just went over my last chapter and WOW it had soo many mistakes, after this chapter i'm going back and fixing my spelling and grammer errors. Then of course i'll have to come back and fix the ones in this chapter, Microsoft still isn't working :( I'll have to find a new Beta soon. I'm a little surprised you guys liked the last chapter, It was a bit unrealistic in my opinion but i'm very glad you liked it. I got a few PM's asking when I was changing Bella's age to 14, I think in a few more chapters. Bella seems to realize her feelings and Edward for sure understands his feelings... i don't know if any of you guys have noticed, but I use the word 'feeling(s)' alot and its starting to bug me a bit. So, thanks for all the reviews i've got so far. Its like Christmas morning in June! Here is the chapter, Enjoy.

Bella's POV

Here I was sitting on the couch with Esme for what seemed like hours and not once have I seen Edward.

Where is he!

He promised we would talk about this and its already 7:00!

Esme just kept talking and talking! I mean I know this has to be exciting for her, as a mother seeing as all her other daughters don't ever have periods but still. Talk about bad timing

"Bella, you're not listening to a word I'm saying are you?" Esme asked pulling my face so I was looking at her.

I smiled apologetically, I didn't mean to not listen to her I just really needed and wanted to talk to Edward. Even if I wasn't really looking forward to it, I needed to know and I couldn't bear the wait.

"I'm sorry, Esme. I've had a lot on my mind." I said looking down at my hands.

"Do you want to talk to me about it?" Esme asked quietly.

I kept quiet, this wasn't something I could talk to her about. It would be so weird, considering it was her son and daughter who just kissed.

"You can tell me anything, I won't judge you." She continued.

I looked up at her with pleading eyes.

"Please, Esme. I can't talk about this right now, I don't even understand any of it."

Esme smiled a little and nodded her head.

"If you ever want to talk about it, just ask." She said patting my knee.

I smiled and nodded my head.

"What do you want for dinner? I nearly forgot that you're human." She laughed lightly, she got up and walked toward the kitchen. I fallowed sitting down on one of the chairs at the island

"I'm not really hungry."

If I where to eat now, I would most definitely get sick with the nerves I had. And that would not be a good idea, with Esme all white carpet.

"Bella, you need to eat." Esme said sternly

Rarely did Esme pull the 'protective mother' thing on me, but when she did she meant all business.

"I'll make myself a turkey sandwich." I lied

Esme crossed her arms over her chest, before turning and going to work on my sandwich.

Ugh.

She turned back around and passed me the plate, watching me.

"I don't need an audiance." I hissed out when I took a bite.

When she saw that I was actually eating she left the room, I was already beginning to feel sick. After the second bite I went to the garbage can and threw it away then put the plate in the dishwasher.

"Bella." Edward called from behind me.

My stomach instantly turned and I felt like I was going to be sick, I turned and saw him staring at me with a composed face.

Not good, so not good.

"Will you come to Willow Temple with me?" He asked

"Y-yes." I stuttered, praying my heart would slow down.

Edward nodded and walked toward me, without even asking he pulled me onto his back and raced out of the house.

Oh, Lord. This was not a good idea, I could feel my dinner coming up my throat.

We reached the Willow Temple in a matter of seconds, he sat me down on the ground and sat about a foot from me. He looked down at the grass with sadness.

"Bella, I'm sorry." He said finally looking up at me with a heartbreaking expression, I wanted to craw over to him and hug him.

"I'm not." I said truthfully.

Where did all this confidence come from?

"You should be. What we did... it was bad... and wrong." He said, he was trying to reasure himself more than me.

"I don't think it was." I said honestly, pulling on the grass. "I don't know what i'm.. feeling but I know that kiss wasn't a mistake." I said, never looking up into his eyes.

"Bella.." He said torn, I looked up at his tortored expression.

"What? Are you going to tell me you didn't.. that you didn't... like it?" I asked in a whisper.

"No, I did. And I hate myself for it, you're too young and we should have waited." He said sternly.

we should have waited he said, did that mean he was planning on kissing me in the future.

He felt this bad because he wanted to wait till I was older?

"You mean.. you wanted to kiss me?" I asked looking into his eyes, he stared back and smiled a little.

"Of course." He said moving closer to me, he put his hand on my flaming cheek rubbing soothing circles. I closed my eyes and leaned into his hand. "Its too soon, Bella. It's not the right time."

My eyes flashed open at his words and they narrowed in anger.

I was thirteen, this was not too soon and I would prove it.

I jumped at him.. Literally jumped at him, going for his lips. He caught me, but held me away.

"No, Bella." He said in a final tone, he sat my back down on the ground and back away.

I felt small and vulnerable. My eyes began to fill with tears and I tired to swollow the lump that was forming in my throat.

rejection washed over me strong.

I wanted to run, to leave. To not be in his presence anymore, I didn't want him to see me anymore vulnerable..

But I was frozen, I couldn't move. I couldn't even find the strength to speak, my heart ached to be with him but my mind told me to stay away.

"Bella.."

I kept my face down, in fear that if I was to look up he'd see my pain.

I sucked in a long breath.

"Can we go home?" I asked finally, my voice sounded so old.. ancient even. I couldn't deal with anymore, and I didn't know if I wanted to deal with Edward anymore. Not after what he just did to me.

It was mainly my fault, seeing as he said it was too early and I insisted on proving him wrong only to get rejected. But still, he broke his promise again. He promised to never hurt me and be there when I needed him.

He just hurt me, by refusing me. I needed him, I needed him to love me now and not later and he wasn't there for me..

Edward came over to me slowly and picked me up in his arms bridal style, he didn't move and I continued to look down. His face was close to mine, his nose touching my cheek.

This isn't helping, Edward.

"I love you, I truly do. But it isn't right at the moment, you don't understand fully and we need to wait." he whispered in my ear.

I shivered at his cold breath.

I wanted to hate him, I wanted to tell him I didn't love him and to go to hell. But I couldn't, because it would have been a lie.

I needed to tell him I loved him, and that I would wait for as long as he wanted. But I wouldn't because then it would just cause me more pain.

So instead on voicing my wants and needs I wrapped my arms around his neck and hugged him the entire way home.

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I must have fallen asleep on the way home because when I woke I was in my room, under my warm blankets, in pitch black. It was still late in the night, and I wasn't tired at all.

My phone suddenly went off. Only one person would call me at this time of night, Alice.

I reached over to my night stand and grabbed my phone pressing talk with out even looking at the caller I.D

"Hello, Alice." I said sitting back against my pillows.

"I know you want to talk to me about this, and I'll tell you anything."

I blinked in shock, she wasn't sqealing on the phone. She was actually mellow for once.

"Is this really Alice Cullen, I'm speaking too?" I asked with a small laugh.

She sighed.

"Come off it, Bella. I know you're hurting."

My smile slowly began to fade and was replaced with a frown.

"He says he loves me, but he doesn't want a relationship." I said, my voice cracking in certain places

"You have to understand that to everyone he appears to be a 17 year old boy, and you a 13 year old girl. You don't see 17 year olds walking down the street holding 13 year olds hands. He is waiting for you, Bella. Your not ready for this relationship, and no matter how muture you think you are. You're not ready for this, and neither is he."

I was surpised, I never thought of it that way.

"But we're different from other people. And I don't care what people think about me."

"He does care what people think of you." She said softly.

"It doesn't matter, I can take care of my self." I said stubbornly.

"Don't you see Bella! you can't you're still a child!" She said fruserated

"I don't want to be a child.. What happens when I'm at the right age and he doesn't want me anymore." I asked.

My eyes were spilling over with tears for what seemed like the 100th time today.

"Bella, that will never happen. I've seen it, calm down and wait. Enjoy your time as a single woman, because once you and Edward get together.. You attention will be other wise occupied." She said with a low chuckle.

No. Fair.

She gets to see my future but I don't!

"Will you tell me about my future?" I asked with a small smile.

I can't believe talking to Alice was actually making me feel better.

"Nope." She said popping the 'p'

My face fell.

"Why not!" I whinned.

"Because for one, it will ruin the fun and for two, you have to go get up for school in about 3 hours."

Ahh, I got to skip school yesterday. Why not today?

"I wouldn't even try asking Carlisle, it'll be a no." Alice said before I could ask.

I sighed.

"Can you come home any earlier?" I asked, I really was missing Alice and Jasper too.

"I've been trying to get Jasper to come home earlier but he won't budge, he is enjoying the limited emotions." She chuckled "Go to bed, i'll call you tomorrow. And I miss you too."

I smiled.

"'Night Alice."

"Good morning Bella."

I shut the phone and looked at my clock, 5:30 a.m

I groaned.

Better get up and get ready for school, another miserable day in Alaska. Thank God I only have to endure 2 more years in this horrible state.

(A/N) There it is! chapter 21, its a little early for writing but I did it for you guys! I think 4 or 5 more chapter before they hit Forks. I want Bella to be in the same school as the Cullens so she has to be at least 15. I feel like this story is getting a little boring, so i'll have to have some fun with it soon. Review and a chapter is up sooner rather than later!