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CHAPTER 20 – ALL CLEAR
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My LoveMy love is like an ocean My love is like a river My love is like a song - Tasha Shores –
It goes down so deep
My love is like a rose
Whose beauty you want to keep.
That will never end
My love is like a dove
With a beautiful message to send.
That goes on and on forever
My love is like a prisoner
It's to you that I surrender.
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7th day at the villa
Edward insisted on hiking throughout the forest with me when I told him about the cliff I've found just a few metres of the trail. So, here we are sitting on the same rock I sat before, looking out into the ocean.
"It's beautiful." I whispered.
"I know. Not as beautiful as you though. But I wish we could stay here forever."
"Me too."
He turned to look at me before opening his mouth to say something but nothing came out. Finally, after a few moments, he spoke.
"Bella, you know I love you right?"
"As I love you." I paused. "Edward, what's wrong?"
"I just think it's time I tell you what had happened between me and Jake for him to deserve the beating I gave him."
"You don't have to." I said. "all that matters is that were here. Past is past."
He gave me a small smile before sighing.
"No, I have to tell you. But you have to understand how big of an idiot I was then. I was a coward." I began to speak but he placed his finger on my lip. "Let me finish, or I won't get it out." He paused and I nodded for him to continue.
"You wouldn't have believed me if I told you then. And that I had quite the temper when we were younger. And that I hated Jake…"
He turned towards the ocean and sighed.
"The first time was the day after we came back from the camping trip when we were 16. You avoided me like a plague and I didn't blame you." He sat back and leaned against the rock before closing his eyes. "we had soccer practice that day with Emmett, Jasper, and Jake. I decided to go to your house that night and apologize, again, for what I said. Well, I was frustrated and I took it out on Jake, we were ready to strangle each other, but the coach pulled us off the field. The coach was not happy to see me behave like that and gave me detention after practice."
"I tried to reason with him, but he wouldn't listen.
"Emmett and Jasper were waiting for me by the door when I came out of the coach's office who shouted at me for an entire 15 minutes. I'd told them I just had to get my bag from the locker room and then we could go home since grandma, Elizabeth was in town." He took a deep breath.
"When I entered the locker room, I heard someone moaning and groaning. And it wasn't from pain. I heard a very familiar voice and went around towards the showers. I saw Jake and Jessica, well for lack of better words, fucking, against the shower wall."
He turned to gauge my reaction but found none as I kept my face blank.
"I pulled them apart and before I could punch him, I realized he was pissed drunk. I stopped just before I hit his face. He told me he wasn't thinking. He had the decency to look a bit afraid. I pulled back thinking he meant what he was telling me. That Jessica came on to him. I was going to ask her, but by the time I turned she was gone. I threatened Jake telling him that next time he won't be to lucky if I ever saw him cheating on you again before pulling him out of the locker room. Jasper called a cab for him and sent him home."
He sighed.
"It was hard to see you with him after that. It tore me that even if I told you, you wouldn't have believed me."
"It happened again didn't it? That's why he looked like a pulp that day."
"yes. He, like you avoided me like a plague for a whole year and I didn't mind. Little did I know that he was—" he cut himself off before closing his eyes and taking a deep breath. "Senior year, I worked at one of those sports shop in town as my parents requested that I learn to work for myself. They still gave me allowances, but I never touched it. I used my pay check ever since I've received my first. I deposited everything they gave into my account and left it there."
"I got off work that night and saw his car 2 spots away from mine and I had to walk by his to get there. The first thing I noticed was that the car was moving then I heard it. A name. I recognized it immediately. I saw red. I pulled his door open and pulled him out of the car. He was buck naked, but I didn't car. I called him every bad name I can think of while using him as a punching bag. He did get a punch, hence the black eye. He dropped and I was about to attack him again when I felt some one restrain me. Jasper stood in front of me trying to calm me down. Jessica was crying on the side and Emmett made sure she never told anyone what had happened there. He also threatened Jake." He sighed.
"They knew why I did it. But I made them swear not to tell you. They were hesitant, but I told them, that I wanted to be the one to tell you so they agreed. The next day, Jake broke up with you and you thought I was laughing at you but I wasn't. Emmett was scaring him from behind you and he cowered. When you heard me, you turned and I saw how hurt you looked before you told me you hated me."
"I wanted to scream at you and tell you what really happened but I couldn't do it. When I looked into your eyes, I saw hurt and I knew you wouldn't listen. Not to me." he turned to me. "Besides, would you have believed me if I had told you that time?"
"Probably not."
"So…" he trailed off after a few minutes of silence.
"I am mad at you, Edward Cullen."
He flinched.
"I guess I deserve that." He whispered and I shook my head at him.
"I'm mad because, you still should've told me about it. Maybe not at that moment, but enough time to have had me kick his ass."
"I know."
"Edward?" I said and waited for him to look at me. "I love you."
He gave me a smile and his eyes brightened.
"I love you too."
"oh and don't you dare cheat on me or I will personally castrate you." I told him seriously.
He looked a bit insulted at my words.
"I would never cheat on you. Ever. Besides, I may have been a player, but I was faithful to my conquests. And you are not them, Bella. I love you. I don't care if you loved Jake too much to give him your virginity."
This time I was the one who was insulted.
"I didn't loose it to him, idiot. My dad would have locked me inside the bedroom if I did. I'm not the kind of girl who sleeps around with everyone I go out with." I said.
"I'm sorry; I didn't mean to insult you. I love you and I would never cheat on you." He said while wrapping his arms around me.
"I know you wouldn't. But there are a lot of temptations out there." He was about to say something but I placed my hand over his mouth. "It's my time to talk." He nodded and I continued. "If you ever feel like you wanted someone else, just tell me, and don't cheat on me. I don't deserve that Edward."
He sighed.
"Alright. But, no other woman can be compared to you. I loved you for 13 years and that won't ever change."
I hummed.
"I know. And I love you too."
We were silent watching the sun set.
"So how many?"
"What?" he asked and I rolled my eyes.
"How many girls have you been with?" I pulled back to look at him and he sighed.
"Too many?"
"How many? Or should I guess?" he shrugged and closed his eyes.
"50?"
His eyes snapped open."
"Bella, I'm no that big of a whore."
"Okay. Okay." I paused for thought. "20"
He sighed.
"Close, 23." He answered. "You?"
"Me? Just one, Rosalie, 8 years ago." He stared at me in shock. "What? We were experimenting. And I'd do it again, if you want." I wiggled my brows at him suggestively.
His eyes darkened.
"Bella…" he whined. "at least wait until after we tell our parents about us before you tease me, I don't want Charlie to shoot me."
"like he would, he likes you too much. he preferred you over Jake, you know?"
"Really?" he hummed. "So how many guys have you been with?"
I blushed.
"half yours."
"how can you be with 11 and 1/2 guys?" he asked me seriously before breaking out into a loud laugh.
"you idiot." I said hitting his chest with my hands. "I've been with 10 guys excluding Jake and before you ask, my boyfriend in college, deflowered me."
"What was his name again?"
"James." I said.
"God, I hate that guy." He said his eyes full of mirth.
"Who'd you loose you to?" I asked.
"Believe it or not, you lost mine freshman year in college to Tanya Denali."
I cringed.
"Oh I remember her, she's thought I was lesbian because I was a cop. I remembered meeting her when I visited Alice at the dorms. What a bitch. She thought Alice was my girlfriend. Then Rosalie and I decided to play with her, and that let to one fun night." I said smirking at the memory.
He groaned as I nibbled on his earlobes. I laughed and pulled him towards the villa as I noticed the darkening sky.
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