Hey guys I'm really sorry for this late update. A lot of things have happened in my life over the last few months and i've come to realise i need to let that part of my life go. This chapter does relate to me in some parts. I've lost my closest friends to some silly fight, and i cannot change that. I really hope you guys understand this, and as always.

Enjoy :)

Tris POV

"Get up lazy ass!" Eric yelled from his kitchen. I groaned in annoyance before starting to get up. Rubbing my eyes I walked slowly towards the kitchen, still in my tired state and sat down at the counter. Eric glanced back at me before returning to cooking breakfast.

"What's for breakfast?" I asked yawning. He didn't respond, simply shrugging his shoulders and continuing what he was doing. I rolled my eyes and rested my head on my arms, closing my eyes and trying to get a couple more minutes of sleep in me.

I felt a push at my shoulder, trying to wake me up. I groaned but didn't look up. I was too tired today. I didn't get a lot of sleep last night, due to everything going on around me. Dauntless were going to be used as soldiers to kill innocent people. And I couldn't tell anyone about it otherwise I would be dead, and so would everyone I care about.

"I swear to god Tris sit up and eat your Goddamn food" Eric grumbled to me. I finally looked up to him, who was eating eggs and bacon with toast next to me. He kept his stare on the wall across from him, not once glancing at me.

I tried to eat the wonderful he gave me, but I wasn't hungry right now. Lately I hadn't been eating a lot, and I new some people had noticed. I had gotten a little thinner, which for other girls would be proud off, but me? I looked like a skeleton.

I needed to eat to stay healthy and strong but with everything going on it was taking a tole on me; I couldn't keep up with everything going on.

I ate some of the egg and 1 piece of bacon, which pleased Eric. He knew about my eating habits. I mean I was living with this man now.

I don't know what came into his head when he thought that living with him would be the best idea in the world. Maybe he just wanted me to not going running to Four.

Four.

God I missed him. Yesterday could have killed him. I mean for crying out loud I broke the number one rule with Max. DON"T. KISS. FOUR. And I did.

Four was finally understanding everything. He knew something was up from the start. I knew Four wouldn't hate me for what I did. He would figure out quickly that something wasn't right. He always did.

And now all he had to do was wait until I could tell him everything. When will that be? I do not know the answer yet, but I will. Soon.

"Get ready. You have your second last landscape" Eric told me, before walking to his room to get changed. I nodded at him before staggering back to my new room. His guest room was nice.

The walls were black with everything black you could imagine in here. Black quilt, shades, lamp, desk of draws. Everything was black.

I changed into some sweatpants and a singlet. I really wasn't in the mood today to do the sims. Basically I wasn't in the mood to do life.

I walked out of my room, just as Eric did. He was dressed well. He wore his normal attire. Black shirt, vest, jeans and dauntless boots. He looked at my outfit and sighed. "I thought I told you to get changed".

"I did" I told him blankly. I mean I did get changed, just not something that would be appropriate to wear for going out in public.

"Go to your sim then" He told me, before stomping over to me and walking straight to the door. I followed after him, and suddenly felt a breeze hit me. Winter was coming, and I hated winter in dauntless.

I knew it wouldn't be for another couple of weeks but everyone in dauntless felt it creep up to them early than expected. I quickly retrieved a jumper, Four's jumper actually and ran to the sims. I was late and I knew it, but I didn't care that much. Just a little.

I sat down quickly when I entered the room, across from my friends. I closed my eyes and tried to think. Was I going to apologies to them now? When I could go in my sim next? No. just think of a wonderful speech about friendship and harmony and they will want to be our friend again.

Suddenly the door opened to the sim room, and Molly walked out. She was a transfer from Candor. She was a bitch and everyone knew it. She was also a friend of Peter.

I wanted to kill Peter.

"Tris" Four said my name, motioning to follow him in the sim room. I went in and sat down on the chair. He started to set up the sim, when he finally broke the silence between us.

"How was the meeting?" He asked me, working on the tablet in his hand. I looked up at him shocked. "What… what meeting?" I asked him shakily.

"Eric told me. Everything yesterday after you told him that we kissed. He was sick of you apparently running back to me. Thought it be better to give me a vague idea of what's going on. I knew it from the start. That something was going on. Erudite comes a lot now, more then ever. Anyway, just tell me what happened".

"Um, Max just told us what's going on" I told him shyly. He picked up the needle with serum and faced me, sitting on his stool. He leaned forward to me and smiled. "Everything is getting a little complicated with us isn't it?" he told me, smiling slightly.

I laughed but immediately felt a tear trickle down my face. I started crying after that. Four brushed away the tears, with his thumb, making me smile. He pulled himself closer to me, and grabbed my hand, circling his thumb across it.

"Zeke told me what happened between you and the others. I know that all of this is tolling on you, I can see it. Your breaking more everyday. I mean your wearing your sweatpants and, MY, jumper" I laughed a little and looked at him. He smiled sweetly at me.

"I'm going to fix this, I promise you." He said as he injected the serum into my neck.

"Be brave Tris" Four said to me, brushing my hair out of my hair.

I felt a little dozy before I heard those four little words that made me believe everything he said and trusted me with.

"I love you Tris".

Sitting in the cafeteria thinking about everything made me realize that I wasn't fixing anything sitting alone drowning in my thoughts. My mother was a wise woman, and a kind one. She knew about all of this and told me what to do.

"I know everything is tough right now, but you can't just keep thinking about this over and over again. You will just keep thinking negatively and making yourself more upset with the situation. You need to get up and fix it yourself. Go talk to your friends, and if they still won't listen to you and ignore you then they aren't true friends. You cannot sit here and think about everything you can't fix and can't do and go do something else. Please stop thinking about this, they probably aren't and you still are. Stand up for yourself and fix it!"

Looking at me friends, old and new sitting together made me realize something. If I was going to fix any of this, with everyone I was going to have to get off my ass and do something about, not keep thinking about everything.

I closed my eyes, sighing before standing up and walking over to them. when I had the chat with my mom, I realised I shouldn't be wearing what I was and changed into some leggings and normal dauntless clothing. I stood in front of them, in front of Uriah and spoke up.

"Can I talk to you for a second Uriah?" he looked up at me, looking at Marlene and Lynn before following me into the corridor.

"I'm sorry about everything. I really am. I can't changed the fact that what I did to you guys is horrible. I was ignoring you, but not for the wrong reasons. There are things going on that I can't tell you guys right now. You have to believe me when I say I telling the truth. I've been ignoring everyone and I can't changed it. But I can change it now. I want to be your friends still, I truly do. You just have to understand I won't always be with you guys. I can't tell you now but I will soon. I'm sorry".

He looked at me, with crossed arms and a cold expression on his face. He sighed before shaking his head. "You promise this is temporary? After initiation whatever the hell is going on it will stop?".

"Yes. Yes! I promise" I begged him. He smiled before hugging me tightly. I hugged hi back letting myself cry happily. I had done something right. I had fixed one thing. Now I just needed to fix everything else.

I pulled back, wiping away the tears before walking hand in hand with Uriah back to the dining hall.

He pulled me down to sit with him, and nodded at Lynn, Marlene and the transfers. They smiled back at me and started a normal conversation with me. I was happy in this moment. Very happy. I glanced at Eric who was already looking at me, smiling slightly at me. I grinned back before feeling a stare on me.

I turned to the source and saw Four looking at me. He smiled at me, nodding before returning back to Zeke. I turned back to my friends and felt like one of those old movies. Like at the end, when the girl gets what she wants and the happy music comes on in the background. That was what that moment felt like.

And for once in a little while, I didn't feel like shit.

Thanks for reading.