Faith pov.

I'm standing here lookin at a terrified Riley. He's trembling. Poor animal.

"W-What are you g-g-g-gonna do to me?" he asks. I smirk.

"I'm gonna hurt you without sayin or doin anythin to ya." I say. He stares at me with wide eyes.

"H-h-how?" damn this guys bout ta piss his pants. And he wanted B to love him. If he's this terrified of me, how the hell did he stand around B? I just raise an eyebrow and shrug. I grab his eyes and hold his gaze. We stare at each other and I notice he's startin to sweat. I sit down on the side of my bed and just chill. I keep my smirk planted firmly on my face as he stares into my eyes. Reachin deep inside and starin at my soul. He can pull his gaze away and leave the room when he wants, I aint gonna stop him. But he doesn't. He keeps starin, and he's seein. What I went through. What he caused me to go through. The way she broke my bones constantly reset them. Only to re break them. And the way she poured shit into my wounds. And having them healed. Never lettin me bleed to death. Never lettin the pain end. No sleep, no peace, no quiet. Just my screams, her laughter, her taunting. But I can't do this to him. I close my eyes and sigh. When I open them again he's lookin at me like I'm some kinda...somethin. Not too sure what though.

"Get out." I say and with a flick of my wrist the door is open. Holy hell! I could get used to this.

"But w-" he starts.

"I'm not gonna kill ya. But I'm warnin ya, you might not wanna let B or nobody see ya." I tell him. He just quietly leaves the room.

"Hello Faithy."Now isn't the time for figments of my imagination to taunt me."Oh but Faithy, don't you miss me?"It asks. I sigh and shake my head. "Come on, don't give me the cold treatment. You can tell me what you're thinkin. I won't betray you like everybody else will. I told you in the beginning I hated you!"It exclaims.

"G'way mom." I say

I don't know who to trust
No surprise
Everyone feels so far away from me
Heavy thoughts sift through dust
And the lies

"But you know I'm telling the truth. I never made you think I cared. Not like they're doin to ya."why the fuck am I listenin to her."Cus ya know I'm tellin the truth."she says. I sigh.

"Aren't you dead? Don't you have some poor burnin soul in hell to torment?" I ask

Trying not to break
But I'm so tired of this deceit
Every time I try to make myself
Get back up on my feet
All I ever think about is this
All the tiring time between
And how
Trying to put my trust in you
Just takes so much out of me

"I missed my little girl." she lies.

"Not your little girl." I say. She sighs happily.

"I know!" she squeals.

I take everything from the inside
And throw it all away
'Cause I swear
For the last time
I won't trust myself with you

"What do you want?" I ask.

"You know she doesn't love ya right kiddo? Don't look at me like that. I'm just tryina save ya a little heartbreak." well that's encouragin.

Tension is building inside
Steadily
Everyone feel so far away from me
Heavy thoughts forcing their way
Out of me

"Will you leave me alone?" I ask. She shakes her head.

"Oh, but your the one who hasn't let go yet princess." the fuck is she talkin bout.

"Yeah I have. I let ya go years ago." I say. She just scoffs.

"Honestly, Faith, do you think I believe that bull? Your the one who still dwells on it. Ya let the past break ya." that...aint...true.

Trying not to break
But I'm so tired of this deceit
Every time I try to make myself
Get back up on my feet
All I ever think about is this
All the tiring time between
And how
Trying to put my trust in you
Just takes so much out of me

Every time I attempted to trust her, or somethin she did, I got hurt more.

"You're gonna have to move on. Don't forget, it'll give ya strength, but ya gotta move forward." she tells me.

"I don't need to do anythin." I say confidently.

"If ya wanna leave that emotional stand still ya do." she don't know what she's talkin bout. "Yeah I do." she tells me.

I take everything from the inside
And throw it all away
'Cause I swear
For the last time
I won't trust myself with you

"You're meant to be alone ya know. Not supposed to love. Only good people can love. You? You're nothin. You're the result of a broken condom. I didn't want ya. Nobody does. Not Angel, not Cordelia, not Julian, and sure as hell not Buffy." she says. I just smile.

I won't waste myself on you, you, you
Waste myself on you, you,
You

Ill take everything from the inside
And throw it all away
'Cause I swear
For the last time
I won't trust myself with you

"Bye mom." I say and she just starts to fade away. I'm done lettin her control me. She's dead, I'm not gonna let that bitch try and ruin me from the grave. I'm done with her.

Everything from the inside
And throw it all away
'Cause I swear
For the last time
I won't trust myself with you, you, you

I take a deep breath and turn to see the nurses entering.

"Aite, lets get these tests over with." I say. One thing at a time Faith. You can do this. One thing at a time.

Short update I know. Review please.