Distortion
A silent night to have.
Or so you could say, after the ugly deed was done.
After the man was done with his pray, it indeed became silent for the entire darkness to devour.
A gruesome, but a beautiful way to go. As one would put it.
He wouldn't call it art, but it was craft in it's own way. A heavily skilled craft that you needed to get close and personal with in order to achieve it.
It wasn't anything special to him, nor did he gain anything from it, but he simply did it to pass the time and get a little kick out of it.
The man wiped the still drying blood splatters off of his face with a sleeve and smiled, being content with another passing night. '' Too easy..''
The air grew colder and the heat settled down on the ground, forming a light mist above the surface.
There were no extra sounds, only but the quiet chirping of a single bird in the distance. He sang his last song to the now distant sun, which has said farewell to another day.
The man went to a nearby fountain that was in the middle of the square, in the older part of the town. Nothing to bother him.
He took his rather thin looking blades which were as sharp as a katana. The edges were carved needle thin, so it'd make his line of work easier when dealing with certain ''guests''.
He gently and carefully washed the victims blood off in the water stream, along with his hands and face. '' That's that!.. I wonder what's for dinner.''
Not even bothering to look back, he turned to leave the square after placing his weapons back in the safety sheath on his back.
It wasn't common for ''accidents'' to happen in this town, since crime rates were an all time high recently. That's why it was fairly safe to do your business and leave, without having to worry that you're having eyes on you.
To some length, yes, maybe. But in most cases people avoided such attention, and the need to search for a criminal.
Echos of dog barks could be heard in the distance.
That could be them picking up the scent of blood that was left to spew on the damped ground in the middle of the night.
Later in the morning some poor soul will have to find the body and most probably be traumatized for life.
Unless by some lucky chance it happens to be someone from the Justice Department - The people who deal with messy situations and happenings around the country.
It wasn't until years later where the Hunter Headquarters decided that, they not only need police officers and private security to keep things in check, but also a selected hand full of people with Nen abilities, who are directed to this specific job as Guardians of Peace.
They are told rules and laws on how they can act.
They aren't allowed guns or any type of weapon which normal officers use, but purely have to be talented enough in the department to use their Nen as a defensive and an offensive weapon. And only certain Nen types fit in the category. Which means, even if the person is willing to do the job, if their Nen is not what they need, they can't be hired.
Purely for their own good of course, but also so that they don't throw any random person into the debts of hell, without having the needed power to do so.
Even if it might end up being but meager criminals or robbers, you might never know who the person really is. That's why these people are needed.
It was a middle ground for people who wanted to help with the countries affairs, but wished not to be apart of the deeper system of Hunters and the headquarters, OR get in contact with the normal crime world which average cops and detectives had to deal with already.
I doubt it'd be too thrilling to have to go after a crazy housewife who had murdered his husband purely because of affairs.
That is not something Hunters need to waste their life-saving abilities on.
Of course all lives matter, but we'll leave the normal people alone for now.
'' ?!..''
I couldn't help but feel a slight headache coming along as the morning light started to wake me up slowly.
Trying my best to disregard the bright sun that was creeping behind my window, I pulled the covers over my head to get a little bit of darkness.
I felt so worn out and tired that I simply couldn't afford to wake up and be productive right now.
Even moving my body was effort. It ached all over and throwing my arms and legs around, while laying down, sure did feel good.
I had my legs on different sides of the bed and my arms in funky ways.
I couldn't remember the last time resting felt this good. Or sleep overall.
In my half-sleep-state, I couldn't help but think in between dreams that, what could possibly make me so tired.
What did I do that completely robbed me of my energy.
I had used my aura to train. I managed to do something with it. And then I went to study. '' Agh, one of these mornings again. I need to stop ending up like this..''
But what happened between those moments.
Well thinking sure did no good right now, so I just buried my face in the pillow even more and let my body relax into the soothing soft bed.
'' Illumi, I'm not really sure what kind of a route you're taking here.'' Said Zeno as he sat right next to me in the living room.
I fixed my sitting pose and kept my eyes on the TV as I heard a familiar voice speak.
'' I know quite well what I'm doing. You don't need to worry for my sake.'' I crossed my arms in defense to my actions and kept staring at the television.
'' I'm not one to question what you do in your personal time, but I didn't think I would be the one to ever say this- Has age gotten to your head? Surely you can't possibly be interested in such a weak being.. . I mean no harm. She looks to be strong enough to handle herself, but.. .You know fairly well how we deal with such matters in this house..'' He said as he momentarily looked at me and then gave up, turning his attention to the television as well.
I wasn't feeling too comfortable with this subject, but I knew what I wanted, so there was no way I was going to stop now.
'' I don't think that's all there is to this. She nullifies Nen, and that's enough reason for me to keep going. For now, as long as we keep her here, we can mold her to our will.''
'' I suppose you're right. Given the fact that we don't know what those people could be scheming, it'd be safer to keep her here.'' Zeno had a thoughtful look, then closed his eyes and let a small frown form on his face. '' The killings though.. Do you think they've started the hunt?''
'' There's no pattern to be seen yet. There have been numerous killings of regular citizens, but also some hunters. It does peak my interest whether they're random occurrences, or they're planning something. But for now everything is very chaotic and random in the entire world. It'd be a bold move to assume things.''
'' I expect it'll take a bit before the Guardians get a hold of the people who are causing this ruckus. It's giving us a fair amount of operations, which is good, but at the same time we need to be alert ourselves, if it indeed is an elusive criminal with no data.. We can't be certain of how powerful they can be.''
Silence fell and I once again directed my attention to the news on the screen that was now displaying this mornings findings in another town.
Several people had been killed. No one is connected to one another - that's the usual when these things end up on the news.
It's been quite some time now where something was boiling up in this world.
I was afraid that this time it was our doing; By agitating the enemy, or our soon to become enemy. Or perhaps something else had occurred on another end which we haven't come in contact with.
Yet.
It was going to get busy in the future. Means we have little time to waste. And the more days go by, the closer they could be.
Even though I know quite well that we have little to fear at this point. It's the outside world that I worry about. And Kil.. He better not be slacking off. He's our pride and joy after all.. '' My sweet little brother..''
'' How is her progress with Nen? '' Zeno suddenly spoke as I was in my own thoughts.
'' She's useless.''
'' Ah... mind if you elaborate?'' He seemed confused by the short implication.
'' She can't fight and she has no stamina or the strength to direct her Nen to something. The only thing her aura and Nen are now, is a guarding shield. Aside from the fact that projectile Nen abilities won't cause her harm, she can't actually protect herself once someone comes in contact. The only positive side to this is that she doesn't break easily and that her body is sturdy enough to heal her back to health in time to practice again.''
'' Of course this is nothing compared to how we train, you know that right..''
'' There'd be no use of it to begin with, if we tortured a half-grow being already. The body will remember and wont be able to adjust to such change. She'll just be mangled and broken..''
'' Indeed, '' Zeno stood and slowly started going towards the door to leave. '' Baby steps then. Oh, and you know where to go once she's eager and healthy enough to demand to go somewhere else, rather than just the house.'' He turned to look from the corner of his eye, waiting for my answer.
'' .. Yes, I'll have Mil look up the direct coordinates for it in advance.'' I returned the gaze and answered, shifting my legs over one another and taking out my phone to text Mil.
Zeno smiled, pleased with my answer and left.
''So I still don't have freedom to choose huh.''
While I had completely lost track of time while enjoying my sweet resting time, I couldn't ignore the small sound the door made when someone had closed it.
For a while I debated whether or not I should look who it was, or just ignore it and go back to sleep.
Well, thinking again didn't really help me much. All it did was wake me up even more and by now I just had to look, out of pure curiosity.
I shifted my body to turn towards the door and look from under the covers.
'' No one there..''
I relaxed a little as I didn't have to interact with anyone just yet and pulled off the cover.
I wiped my eyes to get the tiredness away and looked back at the door. This time I found interest on the chair that stood in the corner of the room.
Who ever had entered my room had left me the same yukata that I had used before, but the sleeve was fixed this time. '' I guess it's nice that I get to wear it again.. but I can't really, if Illumi makes me train.. it'll get ruined.. Sigh.''
I let my train of thought run off the tracks, as I recalled the mans name in my head and everything that had happened came back to me in the most unpleasant way.
'' Oh... fudge! .. It wasn't a dream .. fuck-fuck-fuck-fuck... how am I supposed to look at him now.. shit!'' As I kept mumbling to myself in despair I had no idea if I should even leave my room. I pulled back the cover and hid myself from the world, feeling my heart hammer away as reality came back that I couldn't avoid him in this house and I had to manage to work together with him in this state.
Maybe if I were to pretend to be sick I'd get time off and cool my head of unwanted thoughts.. or a certain someone.
Then again, there's no way that it would work.
'' SIGH!'' The sigh sounded more like a groan, as I knew, that if I were to lie about being ill, I'd get double the work I do now. There was no way I was going to give Illumi that satisfaction.
I scowled, and I couldn't keep the pounding feeling away. ''He's just fooling around... I guess I can't completely ignore the fact that he's a guy and..could probably.. ugh. Have those kind of ideas..'' I thought to myself as I still couldn't bring myself to accept that side of him. Even if he was doing it just to fool around, or make my mind run off my tracks, he was doing a bloody good job at that.
'' AGH! ..'' I groaned again into the blanket and threw my legs about. '' Why him of all people ... And I also had that weird dream .. This doesn't help my situation at all.. it'll make me so confused and- How am I supposed to keep a cool head if he has those kind of urges... seriously. He's so annoying. First he's an asshole- well still is, but then he has these weird ideas. GOD. Get a grip Aru.. you just need to be better than him, show him that you're not effected by his presence.'' I calmed down a little, thinking if that was even possible.
I tried convincing myself that as long as he just kept fooling around, even if I did get flustered and bothered by his action, I didn't have to think much of it and can still continue my training and eventually be skilled enough that I could keep my distance.
'' I'll stick to that plan then. It'll be better than the other options I have- which there aren't any.''
I threw the cover off again and sat up, looking around to make sure no one was there. I made sure I had some footing when stepping out of bed.
Thankfully my legs seemed to have some strength in them to stand, and I speed-walked into the bathroom, closed the door and walked up to the sink.
I turned the water on from the weird lever and let it run for it to turn luke-warm.
I washed over my arms and face with the fresh water. I smelled the shirt I had slept in and couldn't really tell if it needed washing or not. It didn't have a bad smell to it, but I figured I probably should have it washed. ''I'll just use the yukata now and ask for some casual clothes when I find someone.''
I dried my face and neck, also making sure my hands weren't wet.
I opened a drawer under the sink area and found that there was a comb there. '' I should have looked here before..'' I commented, thinking that my hair was probably that of a caveman by now since I hadn't brushed it properly yet.
It felt quite nice to be able to get rid of the knots that had formed in my hair now that I had a moment to finally take care of it.
I had to keep soaking the comb in water to get everything loose and straight. And when I was finally done with it all, I ran my hands through it and was amazed. '' Wow.. so I have normal hair actually.. soo soft!~''
I couldn't help but throw my hair back and forth and touch it. It was honestly very silky and soft, something I rarely felt with my own hair on Earth because of all the bleaching. -Khmm-cough-
But beauty needs sacrifices, right?
''This feels great. I have to keep my hair nice and tidy from now on and I won't look half bad with this dead body.''
After I was done admiring myself in the mirror I went to the bedroom and prepared the yukata on my bed.
I took off my shirt and slipped on the yukata. I kept my underwear on of course and slipped out of the short pants that I was usually in.
I recalled how Alluka had placed everything and tied it up, so I tried my best to follow as he did. Being still rather clumsy in the process, might I add.
Thankfully it didn't look too horrible and I was done within ten minutes. The adjusting will need more practice for sure, but for now I was fine with how it had turned out.
'' Oh ye..''
I went back to the bathroom real quick and looked for the scissors.
They were there where I left 'em and made sure I had no weird places that I had missed while the first time I tried cutting my hair.
I evened out the front, making it nice and leveled out on both sides. I also trimmed the edges, making sure they were smooth and exact.
My hands still grew tired of holding something for so long since it was a forced position and I had no muscles to help me.
I picked up the excess hair that fell on the ground, and put it in the bin next to me.
Now that I was finished tidying up my hair and the floor, I took a random ribbon from around the curtain and tied up my hair with it, because I didn't find any hairbands laying around, as one would hope.
And I did find it fairly annoying to have hair in my face if I tried doing anything remotely productive.
Since it was a plain ribbon and I had no idea how to make it work as a hairband, I tied the ponytail together on a shoulder level. It looked a little loose. It almost resembled how the Japanese miko had tied their hair gently.
I again went back to the bedroom and took my phone from the cupboard next to my bed and looked at the time.
'' This late.. I'm surprised that I haven't seen a certain someone storm in and yell at me.. OR ..Maybe he feels awkward because of last night. If so then I hope he regrets it good. How dare he play around with someone who hasn't even been in love yet! The nerve!'' I angrily pocketed the phone to an inside pocket of the yukata and went out of my room.
I wasn't sure where to go, but for now my stomach was the one doing the job, because I was starving.
Yes you read right, starving.
It's been a while since I felt hunger and right now I felt like I could eat a cow.
'' I must of blown a good amount of energy out of the window if I'm this hungry. My body's just demanding some fresh meat right now. Oh how I want some pasta, and a freshly made burger right off the stove. OH MY GOD! And a nice juicy cake with soft ice cream on the side with fresh berries and syrup!''
I couldn't help but feel even more desperate to eat, now that I had just imagined all of that in my head and I felt my taste buds tingle at those ideas.
My stomach was literally eating my brain at this point so I went down stairs as soon as I reached them.
I turned towards the hallway that led to the dining room and kitchen, in hopes that there was something left. If not I'd bang my way through and ask for food.
I was almost at the dining room door when I felt something grab my hand from behind and started dragging me the opposite direction. '' Wha- Hey! Wait!'' I turned to see who it was and my heart sank as I saw the long haired man speeding towards the other room- totally opposite where I wanted and needed to go.
'' Wait! Illumi stop! I'm starving, I'll die if I don't eat right now!'' I tried to struggle free, sounding dramatic along the way.
'' You can wait. Stop whining.''
'' Stop wh- What do you mean! You're the one rudely sprinting off without asking! YOU stop!'' I tried pulling my arm back and pull myself back towards the hallway, but it was no use, so I had to accept getting dragged across the house to some random room.
He roughly pulled me inside a dark room and turned on the lights.
'' Study first, then you can eat. It's your fault for sleeping so long. I was even kind to let you rest.''
'' You.. let me sleep?'' That took me by surprise and for a moment all my hostility vanished. Even though he was acting like a dick, I guess I couldn't really whine since I did get to sleep rather well for once.
The room he took us to was a quiet area with a lot, and when I say a lot, I mean a lot of beanbags and pillows.
It's as if Alluka came here to spend some quality tea time.
'' This is where Alluka studies. I have to go to work, so I can't be looking after you. Retsu will come in my stead and will keep you company.'' With that final word said, he stormed out and closed the door harshly. ''Since when do I need such surveillance..''
The heavy door that now lay shut, had a huge metal lock on it. My guess was, it could only be opened from the outside. Or with some keycard or other detection program.
I just stood there with a confused face and not knowing what just happened. '' Too busy to take care of me? .. That sounds very weird coming from an assassin.'' I thought to myself and looked around the enormous room which was a pillow heaven.
Since there was no ground to see basically, I had to crawl my way to the center of the room where there was a low table. Mostly, because there were no chairs and I guess you just have to sit on these pillows and beanbags.
As I made my way towards the table I could feel and hear very clearly how my stomach was unhappy with the result of me not feeding it. I had to rub it softly, to at least try and numb out the feeling of wanting to eat the tasty looking colourful pencils laying around. '' If I at least had water.. anything.. grass even!''
I threw myself on the beanbags and lay there for a good while before hearing the door open again. I lifted my head to see that Retsu was trying his best to walk up straight towards the table as he held some notes with him.
I sat back up myself when he finally reached me and took a seat himself. He placed the notes on the table and bowed a little at my presence.
'' Good afternoon, Miss. How will we start today? Listening and repeating, or trying to memorize the alphabet.''
'' Uhm.. uhh.. aren't they kind of related?'' I wasn't sure what to say, being asked so suddenly without knowing what was on the program for today.
'' Well yes, but no. See, you can either memorize by looking or just repeating after me.''
'' Then I'd rather memorize the alphabet first. I mean, I can speak, I don't have a very good memory of the letters though.''
'' I see, it'll be easy then. I have a book here how most children learn nowadays. They have the images of the letters and also a picture to show how you can memorize it better. Will that do?''
'' I think it should be fine, Retsu. If I have to learn like a six year old, then I guess I have no choice.''
'' Well, don't beat yourself down too much, '' he said while giving me a reassuring smile, '' At least you know how to speak. It'll come to you naturally, the writing bit.''
'' I guess so.. By the way. Where did Illumi have to go to.'' I asked that, as I looked at the first page of the book.
'' I'm sorry, Miss. We aren't notified of where the Young Master had to go. Only if we have to accompany them, will they tell us the specifics.''
'' Hm.. I guess that makes sense. Sorry I asked, I hope you don't get in trouble because of the things I say.''
'' No such thing, you're a guest here and must be curious of many things.''
I shifted my pose to be able to read a little better as he handed me a notebook where you can practice writing the letters. '' I'll try my best to hold back on the stupid things. I don't want to start annoying anyone here.'' Mostly saying that for my own good. I didn't want to end up in a dungeon.
'' I doubt that will happen. But I am surprised that, pardon my speech, someone who is like in a spiders web, you don't seem to struggle a lot to get free.''
'' Ah.. Yeah I am a little taken back by that myself. I just don't really feel anything, if you get what I mean.. like, I don't feel threat, or fear. I almost thought that maybe my nerves or instinct are broken because I feel too natural. Or that nothing really gets to me.''
'' You must be good in adapting to different environments and situations then. It's a good quality to have, don't worry.'' He said while giving me a reassuring smile again, while paying attention to how I was practicing my writing.
'' I do hope that's the case. Oh- Do you think this is fine? It looks too weird.''
Retsu leaned in a little to see better and shook his head. '' That's fine as it is. Your style of writing will come to you. For now just try remembering the pattern of the letters.''
'' Hmm.. I guess you're right.'' I did more scribbling as I kept coping the same letter so it'd become natural to write.
It did look more like a five year old would practice on paper, rather than a young adults notes.
The only thing that made me feel comfortable about this, was that I didn't have Illumi's mental pressure on me as I tried to do my best, as lousy as it seemed.
I was sure that I'd be mocked in some way for not knowing this. Or probably having to do some ridiculous tests that I was not going to progress in.
But at the same time this wasn't Nen or physical training, so would he actually be such a bully about it. ''Oh little Aru, of course he'd be. Innocence is a bliss.''
Sometimes I did feel like I had two of me's inside my head. There was the positive and active Aru. The Aru who wanted to and knew that things would work out if I only put my mind to it and did my best. And then, there was the nasty sarcastic Aru, who just couldn't believe how stupid she was for thinking of all the fun and happy things in this situation and lifestyle.
'' Sigh. I must be disturbed to some level. I feel like I'm gonna end up with some weird personality traits because of these people.. and specifically..because of one person.''
I hadn't noticed that I was simply staring into space now and had stopped writing at one point.
'' Are you troubled, Miss?''
'' Wha.. ah.. no not really, sorry. I just ended up thinking about silly things hahaa... '' I tried laughing it off and waving my hand at that.
'' I'm sorry, Miss. I can't give you permission to leave just yet. I know you must be starving by now. In all honesty, I saw how you got dragged away by the young master, but I can't have a say in his orders.'' He lowered his gaze and had a sour look on his face all of a sudden.
'' Oh! No, no! Don't worry about that. I'm fine now! I wasn't thinking about it at all just th-'' just as I was about to finish my sentence my stomach did the most unholy growl in human history, and my face whitened to the point I could of looked transparent. '' .God. What was born inside of me just now!..''
The room fell silent in an instant and the blood hit my face out of embarrassment.
I stopped breathing all together and probably looked dead like a fish.
Although, Retsu showed no reaction, I tried my best to recover from that and picked up the pencil again to write and get my mind off of it. ''Butterflies and rainbows! Kitties, a lot of kitties! Yes..uhm.. rocks. The beach.. Sand in your ears. Pretty ponies..oh god. This is so humiliating!''
I knew he was trying his best not to laugh and stare at me, but how he managed to look so composed was beyond me.
My hands were sweaty just from the thought of my stomach and that sound. I hoped and prayed to the monkey Gods, that the Beast in my gut would not appear again.
I tried my very best, but every time I took a breather, I felt my stomach live. As in, it was alive and breathing itself.
It was so painfully embarrassing to sit in that quiet room with someone else, as I desperately tried to make the time pass as fast as possible.
At this point, I really was thankful that it was Retsu who was here, and not Illumi. Now, that indignity I would not be able to withstand or live with.
As one with little meaning in this world and dignity to begin with, I couldn't bring myself to drop to a much lower level than I already was.
In some weird part of my mind, I didn't want to be worse off than these strong and independent people of the assassin house. I wanted to stand where they stood, but at the same time it was so far away and completely out of reach. So was it so poor to dream and want to be acknowledged by these people.
Obviously it wasn't the best group of people to expect it from, but at this point I had no other choice. I had no closeness to anyone else from this world aside from myself and Alluka. Who I deeply hoped to not have been brainwashed, and that he wasn't faking innocent just to trick me into letting my, what ever guard I had left, down.
I wrote the last couple of letters a few times before staring at the paper again.
Do I want to be recognized by these people? To be one of them, to some extend.
At the back of my head, there was a small voice saying, and hoping, how nice would it be if they looked at me with those eyes. The way they look at Killua.. the expectation of a great assassin. The future of their kind...
I blinked out of my thoughts as Retsu took the paper from me and scanned it a few times before placing it back on the table.
'' I think that will do for now. We can revise again at another time when you're not occupied, if that is fine by you, Miss?''
'' Oh yes, absolutely! I only hope it'll be soon. You're good company to have around. Much more relaxing ..'' The last bit came out as a whisper rather than a directed sentence. Whether Retsu heard this or not, wasn't my concern.
'' You flatter our kind too much. But I'm grateful for your words.'' He stood slowly from the pillowy surface.
'' You guys do an amazing job.. to think that you're wasting time on someone like me who's so weak.. it must be boring.''
I couldn't help but feel that Retsu was a little bit more kinder from his usual self.. or maybe he just has bad days like anyone else and likes to be nasty, because lets be honest, You can't really diss to- or about your boss.
'' Don't say such things. I only take it as a wonderful experience. It can be like a small vacation where I do not have to worry about things. The family is difficult to be around, as you know.''
'' Ah that's true..it must be stressful, having to live up to their expectations?''
'' Some times, yes. We can't afford to make mistakes. It can cost our lives.. or in simpler cases just the job, but there is no way out once you're in. People can't be trusted once they leave, so every butler who's been here more than a year is very trustworthy. You can count on us.''
I smiled at his simple but yet comforting answer. '' Thank you, Retsu. I'll be counting on you to help me out when I'm having a difficult time with your young master, Illumi.'' I smiled as if making him aware that I'm going to need a shoulder to whine on. '' I guess, maybe only around certain people, can he be a little bit more chill and not under pressure.. I do hope so.. he seemed very distant and a little creepy before..''
He seemed pleased with that remark. Most probably looking forward to his free times. Whether I'd get away from Illumi or not, that is.
'' Shall we go to the dining room? You must be famished.''
'' Oh I am.. I can't believe how hungry I've become..'' I gave my best shot in standing up and making sure I didn't drip or loose my balance to a formidable pillow.
But as soon as I stood, everything went white and I thought that, for a moment things started to levitate in the room, but I was the one moving instead. Just moving the wrong way- moving towards the ground.
Retsu immediately turned to grab me by my arm and kept me up steady.
'' Miss! Are you alright!?''
'' Ah... Retsu.. you're upside down..I'm not sure...''
His expression turned serious and he frowned when I reached my hand out to his face to see if he really was upside down, or if I was seeing things.
'' You're turning purple now.. '' My legs were complete jelly as I lost complete track of balance and awareness of space. '' I think my brain is malfunctioning..''
The fun part was that I was aware of things, but it seemed as if my brain had entered a jokers funhouse and I was dripping out.
Retsu clicked his tongue and hoisted my arm over his shoulder to keep me close and steady.
'' I'm sorry for this. It'll be faster if I take you there. Can you bare it?''
'' Of course.. don't be silly.. I just can't feel right. We're not in outer space right?''
'' No we are not.'' Retsu started walking with my half limp body out of the room. Before that, he had to scan his eye into this little hole which let out a red laser.
A little buzz could be heard and the door opened up slightly.
I imagined the door to be quite heavy because he opened it very slowly with one hand as he had to carry me along.
When we were out, the door closed shut and an alarm code on the wall next to the door turned red.
Retsu didn't look pleased with the situation at all and hurried his way towards the hallway.
'' Miss, how are you feeling?''
'' Pretty lightheaded.. Nothing else..''
'' That's good. Some water and food will fix it in a few minutes so stay conscious, ok? Your body is just reacting very badly, because you don't have any energy left.''
'' Mmm..'' I nodded, not really having energy to do or reply any better.
We reached the hallway and went straight to the dining area. That door was also a challenge for him. I started feeling like a burden at this point.
'' I'm sorry Retsu.. you're having a hard time with this, because of me.''
'' It's no problem at all. For what did we train, if not to help someone a little if we had the chance?'' He turned to me with a smile, and as shit as I was feeling, it did make me feel a little better.
When we made it to the table, he sat me down to the nearest chair and instantly poured me a glass of water. Since I couldn't tell which was up or down and the room over all was moving from side to side, he was kind enough to help me drink the water.
Glass after glass I started to notice that the vibrating in the room started to calm down. Even though things still changed in size and colour, my body and mind felt more relaxed than before.
I rubbed my eyes and kept them closed to get a little energy back in me.
'' I'll find you something to eat, just stay here, ok?''
'' I'll stay right here, don't worry.'' I smiled lazily, trying to reassure him that I was fine.
As I made sure that she didn't have any more balancing issues, I sprinted towards the kitchen door and waited for a reply from the other side of the microphone that we had installed for faster communication with the other staff.
'' Yes? '' Said a ridgedy old mans voice.
'' Hello, sir. I am Retsu, one of the butlers. If I may, we have an urgent situation. I require a simple milk porridge dish if it's possible.''
'' Why's it an urgent situation, eh?''
'' One of the families guest's is in a critical state and needs nutritious, but easy food. Please, sir.''
'' *sigh* I understand. Just a moment.''
Not a happy chap, but I knew they wouldn't turn away from an offer.
I knew I could depend on the kitchen staff to work fast. And what I had requested wasn't a hard task to complete. So it barely even took five minutes before the door opened and one of the youngest chefs was by the door and walked out towards the table.
That kid was already a master chef, even though he is only ten years old. What kind of Nen he had, was beyond me. But we were in luck that he was working today.
The kid had charcoal black hair with a tint of heavy purple when the light shone upon it. His eyes were amber red, almost giving him a demonic look because of the dark circles under his eyes. '' So when kids his age get in that state from games.. this guy is a first class workaholic. Not that I'm in any position to say anything..''
He had a small figure, but that's to be expected of a kid I suppose, but he wasn't that short, so he could be mistaken for a fourteen year old. But to be honest, his only charm was his face. His personality is rotten to the core, and not even I would dare to peer into this kids past to know what caused it.
'' Hey, you.''
He looked at Allika with a boring look, as if seeing a bug. Not much different from Milluki.
'' Hmm?'' Allika peaked an interest with her glass-state-eyes when her nose found some food next to her.
'' Yea you.. You're the dying lamb eh? Well.. I guess you're in luck since you'll get to eat my food.. go ahead, don't just sit there.'' He locked his arms in a defensive state and had a growling face on, as if he's been insulted already.
The poor thing was probably confused, but managed to lift the spoon I had placed next to her. Thankfully we do have normal tableware for backup. There's no way she'd lift a ten kilogram fork or a spoon at this point.
As clumsily as she tried to find the bowl of porridge infront of her, she somehow managed to dip the spoon in the hot mass and lift it to her mouth to take a bite.
I wasn't even sure if she was aware of our chef or not, she did look as if she was dying so who knew. '' Just what game are you playing Illumi..Not letting her eat and neglecting your duty.. is he trying to trigger me? .. I didn't chose you as my favorite master for no reason..sigh..sometimes that guy's difficult to comprehend.''
'' Thank you so much~ This is the best meal I've ever tasted!'' As much as she tried to voice it out, what she said was barely heard.
Chef didn't look all to happy though..to be fair he looked more annoyed than before. This kid has problems.
I felt that his aura spiked a few times, I couldn't help but go into a guarding stance. If something happened, it was on me.
'' Hmph... lousy comment..I guess I can't expect anything from a lamb.'' He stomped back towards the kitchen and slammed the door shut. '' This kid.. I don't know if I should fear him or laugh at him..''
I glanced back at Allika and she seemed to be just as confused as me when ever I saw that kid. To be fair, I doubt anyone but Zeno and Silva knew the kids real name. Between me and my brother, we just call him the little demon.
Allika however, didn't seem to let that bother her and kept eating her simple porridge happily.
As we're not allowed to interfere with the people eating by the big house table, I couldn't walk up unless called for or unless service was needed.
For now the only thing I could do was watch and wait.
I finally felt comfortable enough to not be bothered by the slight wavering of colours in the air.
I still saw spots and I couldn't see clearly, but I was sure that my hands were shaking a little.
Maybe due to the fact that I finally got food and my body is trying to work with it.
It honestly was the best thing I've tasted so far. I couldn't even describe the feeling or the taste while eating that porridge.
I always hated porridge, but I think I had just found my new favorite dish. It wasn't disgustingly sticky and bland. It was rich in flavor, aroma and feel. It had everything I liked.
I wanted to make sure I remembered to thank the chef properly next time when I would get the chance to see him again.
I couldn't really recall what he looked like because of my distorted vision, but I can ask Retsu who he was.
The food was quite heavy, but I didn't feel sickly, so I made sure to finish more of it. It wasn't a big bowl, just right.
I felt bliss as I put down the spoon and took one more sip of water.
I let out a sigh and rubbed my eyes and forehead a little. '' Retsu..?''
'' Yes, Miss. I'm here.''
'' I'm sorry, but can I take a nap somewhere. I feel refreshed, but I haven't eaten so much before .. it's really tiring to .. process food..'' I yawned between lines and turned to see where his voice was coming from.
'' There's a small dim lounge next door, if that suits your taste? There should be no one there at this time.'' Retsu directed his hand towards another door.
'' Anywhere is fine, thank you.'' I tried to move myself off the chair, but felt my legs quiver so I sat back down and tried to take a few breathers before trying again.
I couldn't really react as Retsu had already made his way towards the table and offered his hand to me.
'' Oh- th- I mean.. uhm thank you.'' I held onto his hand and let him keep me up while supporting my back and arm.
'' No problem at all, Miss.'' We walked like that towards the lounge door and he let go only for a moment to open the locked door and keep it open to lead me inside.
As jelly as my legs felt, I managed to hold myself up somehow. Though I felt like a fish to be honest.
The room was lit up with small and dim lights on both sides of the room. In the center there was a small wooden table with fancy whisky glasses on top with a decorative dragon statue in the middle.
There were five matching armchairs around the table which had leather and cloth covering it from head to toe. The walls were dark brown with creamy coloured stripes going down. The room had no windows, but had a decorative curtain in the corner of the room. There was a bookcase and a cabinet on the other side with a soft and comfy looking sofa. That one light was next to the sofa, most likely if someone liked to read in such a cozy environment.
I felt myself grow more sleepier just by being in this room.
There was a familiar scent in here as well. Only thing was, I couldn't recall where I had sensed it before.
The very slight tingle of alcohol was in the air, because on the other side there was a fancy looking glass jar with most likely whisky or brandy in it. There was also frequent coffee drinking going on here and most likely some smoking.
I guess all the aromas stayed in here because of a missing window, but somehow it was comforting.
It reminded me of my childhood a little.
My mom used to work in an office. And aside from the alcohol, all the other smells were very soothing and nostalgic. But I feel like I had sensed this else where as well. I just couldn't put my finger on it.
'' You can go lay down there, I'll close the other light so it wouldn't bother you. If that is fine with you?'' Retsu said while pointing towards the sofa in the small room.
'' Ah, yeah, thanks Retsu. That'd be very nice of you.'' I walked up to the soft sofa and lay my head on the pillow. It was a little too low and hard, but it didn't bother me since I was going to be here for only a little while. I didn't have to worry about my neck aching later on.
The sofa on the other hand was a perfect size for my body, so I didn't have to keep my legs bent to fit.
'' Have a good rest. There shouldn't be any meetings today, so the room is all yours. I will lock the door to keep anyone from the outside from entering. You can open the door from the inside any time from this lock.''
'' Thank you, Restu. I'll be sure to not leave a mess.'' I took one last glance, before he exited and locked the door.
It fell very silent in an instant.
'' I understand why this is a meeting room. It's extremely quiet and relaxing.. even though there's no window, I guess it doesn't bother me so much.''
There must of been some sort of ventilation, because the air wasn't thick or uncomfortable to breathe.
I let my eyes shut and relished the peace and quiet.
The scent of coffee and leather. So soothing.
The only thing I remembered doing today was sleeping. I felt a little lazy, but I couldn't help the tiredness that came over me all of a sudden after that meal. '' I hope I can see that chef again soon..He helped me a lot.''
After focusing on napping, I felt my mind wonder into my thoughts and I fell asleep.
'' Still no clues..'' I forcefully tore the arrow looking metal rod out of my arm and felt some blood spill from the wound. Of course I made sure to cover it up tight for now so it wouldn't spill on the crime scene.
Sigh..
'' And it's not even worth the wounds. Sad.'' I felt a little irritated that we had been led by a false clue. Yet again. But this is as good as the hints got right now. Either we let an opportunity slip by, or we go after it, even if there's nothing there.
This area was clean and spotless. Aside from the mess I made.
Can't be helped though. I'm surprised they had guards this advanced to be able to dodge my needles. They didn't put up much of a fight though.
Someone hasn't been keeping up with their training.
It's always a little unfortunate to loose a potential victim, but I can't be wasting my time at this point. And I didn't have the patience to sit around and wait for anyone else to come.
If that person was indeed here before, there's no way he'd return.
Like an elusive cat who doesn't need a place to stay.
'' I'm guessing these guys just stayed behind and didn't care much to be involved. Sadly for them I still found them, but that's not what I needed.''
I looked at my phone briefly and started walking out of the abandoned residence as it didn't seem like there was anything else showing up. '' Pesky low-lives. Wasting my time. Tsk.''
I wasn't sure why I was more irritated than usual.
The fact that this was the fifth time without any findings? And the locations aren't even remotely close to each other. Normally I wouldn't be bothered by a hunt this big. But the fact that we got nothing on these guys, and that we're just going around in circles, not getting any closer to our mark, irks me just a tad bit.
There could be several people who are connected to the murders, but who. No marks, no Nen, no DNA. There's nothing. No leads.
There's just these gossips of weird groups or strange individuals who disappear. Or later appear dead. Mostly because of us. And these guys don't know anything. They blindly follow because of money. Sadly in their cases, they're not as skilled as us. They were abandoned most probably because of that reason, who ever their employer was.
There have been eye witnesses before who have seen and lived to tell the story, but the so called suspects have all been dead when the detectives have found them. Yet the killings continue.
Unless someone has the same kind of manipulative powers as me.
But that'd lead to so many other theories. There's too much to wonder about. Unless we find a trace. A trace of something that'd narrow it down.
I made sure to pack up the rod with me and cover up my wound properly this time, making sure I had nothing stuck in it.
On another note, there could be an assassin group.
Someone other than us. But they must be quite new. People know of us, but no one knows how we look or sound like. We don't let ourselves be caught..
Yet there's someone out there, who has no background and no data.
It's as if we're looking for ghosts.
*Sigh*
I left the giant empty hall, and opened the door, only to slam it in out of slight anger towards all of this.
I jumped to a nearby hill and stared down at the city that was further down the slopey mountain roads. '' Where are you..''
I was still enjoying my quiet and comfortable napping time. I turned to lay on my back since I felt my neck getting a little stiff.
My mind was still deep in my dreamland. Or half of it was. I knew that I was seeing images of dreams, but couldn't completely fall asleep.
Somewhere at the back of my mind I heard the door unlock, but I couldn't make out reality vs dreams, so I continued to lay there.
I saw random images of people and some activity, but it was all unrelated so I didn't really focus on anything.
I felt a slight warm touch on my head, but it was practically nonexistent that I payed no mind to it.
I only grew a little more aware of the real world when I felt the presence of someone else sitting on the sofa.
There was a ticklish feeling running against my arm so I opened my eyes a little and got startled when I saw Illumi leaning in too close to my face. '' !..''
I panicked and wanted to back away, but I forgot the fact that I was laying down so I had no where to dive to.
His silky hair was what was tickling my arm and I had to brush it away, because I got startled and flustered by his presence.
'' W- How.. did you get in.'' Trying to avoid the awkward position he forced me into I tried to dodge the situation with a dumb question.
'' I have keys.'' He placed his hand next to the sofa edge so I wouldn't slip under him, and kept me locked in there. '' I wanted to get my mind off of things, but I see that you're already occupying my spot.''
I avoided his eyes and tried to focus on calming down my heart that was growing more restless by the second. '' S-sorry.. I can move, if you'd let me.''
His hair was covering the sides of his face and the soft glow of the dim light made his eyes and features annoyingly attractive. I knew I was blushing a little. Could I really be used to him being so close all the time. I started having memories come back to me on what had happened before.
''It's the light.. just the lighting.'' I tried my best not to direct my eyes towards him, even though it was difficult because he kept staring at me.
He let his other hand brush against my hair and slide down to my shoulder.
'' This yukata. Alluka gave it back?''
'' I-Im not sure.. I t-thought of borrowing it, since it was in my room this morning.. Fixed up properly.'' I still didn't look at him and I couldn't really calm myself down since he was this close. And it felt funny to be talking to him after what happened yesterday.
I suddenly felt him run his fingers through my hair and I winced at that feeling. His face was too close so I turned my head entirely to look at the empty room instead.
'' Y-you're too close, Illumi..Move.. I'm awake now..so..we can go back and train..'' I tried changing the subject to something that'd get us out of this room, and this situation.
'' I don't feel like it. I need attention.'' He bluntly said that and let his hand run down my arm.
'' ! .. Ex-xcuse me?'' I got a little too flustered by such a sudden bold declaration. I wasn't sure how to take his words, the wrong way or the wrong way.
I turned to face him to see if he was actually serious about such a thing. There's no way..
But just as I had wanted to spill out more words he cupped my chin and forcefully took my lips.
I pushed my hands against his chest to get some distance. That sudden action took me by surprise and I could feel my heart racing out of my chest.
'' Wa- Mphh!'' I tried to speak but he gave me no room to do so.
He held my head in place and ran his other hand into my hair to keep me still.
My breath was cutting short as he started playing around with my tongue and it felt too surreal. Everything happened too suddenly that even my grip on his clothes became weak.
His body leaned over mine and my entire figure was engulfed by his. He moved one of his legs between my thighs and pressed himself onto me more as he kept our mouths busy.
When I felt his leg move up I let out a small moan. At the same time he softly bit into my lip and licked over it and continued to play around while gripping my hair and pulling my head back more for better access.
It was only for a brief moment where I thought I felt him grind against my lower body and I gasped at that. '' There's no way.. how did it come to this! What's wrong with him recently..''
He then moved to lick over my neck and suck on it.
'' N-no~! Ill-umi. You- That'll leave a mark! Ahh!'' I had no say in this, as he declared by biting my shoulder, and moved against me more harshly than before.
Blood rushed into my head because of that sudden action and I didn't know what to do. My body seemed to be reacting on it's own without me having to think about it. It felt weird and foreign, but at the same time it felt so easy to go along with him.
But this was not how I wanted my body to react. I should be able to resist this.. but-
I still had my hands placed against his chest.
When I felt him move back into devouring my neck I couldn't help but let out a small quiet yelp as he ran his hand down my leg that kept my face in place before.
'' ! Illu-mi. Don't! Th-his isn't right! -! You nee- you need to stop behaving like this!''
As much as I tried to protest there wasn't really anything coming from his side. He only moved his hand to slide the yukata fabric up my thighs and pushed his knees between them to widen them up.
He bit into my neck and I gasped at that feeling once again, feeling my body grow hotter and more numb as he went over my skin so roughly. And it took me completely by surprise when he started grinding against me while pecking kisses up my neck and my chin.
'' ! Illumi! Stop!''
I started breathing heavily and covered my mouth with the back of my hand as I gripped onto his shirt with the other, feeling myself slip away to this new feeling.
My mind was numb as I tried to keep myself under control.
'' That's a nice expression, Aru..'' He said that as he kept moving against me more forcefully with each thrust.
'' Illumi... I-'' I still wanted to protest, but it had gone far beyond me knowing what words meant anymore. The only thing I could do was glance at his narrowed eyes which wanted to consume my entire being.
He continued that for a while and I could feel myself grow more bothered and weak with each movement. '' He-he has to stop, but.. I.. at this point.. I don't want him to..''
He pinned down my arm that was blocking my mouth and I couldn't even have a moment to take a proper breather as he continued to kiss me senseless. ''This is not real.. I must be dreaming, but it feels.. it all feels too good. What came over him.. this definitely isn't normal.. even for him.''
My face was in a dark shade of red as I felt that I couldn't keep myself still anymore. The more he moved the more ..
'' ! ..Mhh!..'' I felt embarrassed as I felt myself twitching at the feeling of his bulge between my legs.
I was so out of breath and my body felt like it had been thrown in an oven.
He made me do something that I couldn't even think of. All of this.
Even though I was completely drained and having just done such a lewd thing infront of him- with him, he didn't stop.
Each breath seemed to push my mind beyond reality, and I gripped on to his arm as there didn't seem to be an end to this.
His movement only grew more harsh and faster with each thrust and my sensitive area couldn't handle that anymore, so I had to voice out another, but more louder moan this time. I felt myself press against his abdomen as I arched my back in reflex to this once again.
Illumis movement became slower as well, but still kept contact and moved between my thighs for a little while longer..
He stared down at me while I was completely out of it and breathing heavily. Surely I felt my hands tremble as I had no more strength in my body.
I could feel my embarrassment grow more when I felt the inside of my pants being completely wet and .. also his.
Not to mention it was still pulsing from that heated encounter and I couldn't ignore that. I faced the other way.
'' You idiot..'' I averted my eyes. As of now I couldn't focus on anything. But I managed to voice that out under my breath.
I tried my best not to lose my composure. Even though there was non left at this point.
'' W-why.. did you..'' I simply couldn't believe what had just happened. Of all people.. him, with me.. What came over him to do such a thing.. this type of thing.. Even though we weren't completely touching.. I still .. came.
Even though there was barely anything, it still felt incredible and I lost myself to a simple need such as that.
'' I said I won't be able to control myself at all times.'' He still leaned over me as he said that and closed in to kiss my forehead. '' I had a lot on my mind because of work. It was slightly annoying me so I wanted to get rid of that stress.''
I frowned, thinking that this was his way of apologizing? Was he mad!?
I was still blushing like crazy and I didn't know how to react to that. All I could do was be flustered and frown at his bluntness in all of this.
''What we just did, was an extreme way for him to get rid of his stress! This is NOT acceptable.''
'' You should go clean up. I need to change out of these work clothes.'' He said while starting to remove his shirt as he stood up.
I averted my eyes as I had seen him topless just then. ''Yeah, that's sure something to be embarrassed about now that you just dry-humped mister perfect here..''
When I sat up I could still feel myself being very sensitive and I couldn't help but feel bashful over my own body.
'' Can you walk?''
When he asked that I had to shoot a look at him like, ' really? Go fuck yourself.''
'' .. yes.'' I answered coldly.
'' Good,'' he said as he started to remove his pants as well.
'' W-WAIT! Why are you doing this here! Don't you have your own room!.. I'm leaving now!..'' I got up real quick and walked to the door, feeling no issues with my body or balance as I wanted to get out of here as soon as possible. Seeing that he was not aware of the situation at all, it made it more comical and ridiculous. ''So embarrassing!''
But just as I reached to unlock the door he place his hand against the door and loomed over me from behind.
..
'' W-what..''
'' Your hair is nice like that.'' He said as he patted my hair softly and slid his hand down my shoulder.
'' !? ..I'm gonna go change!'' I managed to unlock the door and slip through the small opening when I tried to pry it open.
I sped up the stairs and basically ran to my room and shut the door in a haste.
I was out of breath and I went to sit on my bed, basically dying on top of it as I landed on the mattress.
'' Just... what the fuck happened there..'' I whined out as I wanted to break down and let out all of my frustration and consciousness of what had happened.
I still felt myself blushing and my heart beating heavily. '' This is not how I expected things to end up... at all!''
I kept rubbing my forehead, having a rather difficult time getting the images out of my head. '' I haven't even been here for so long! And I don't even have an attractive body and he knows nothing about me! WHY! ... He must be seriously fucking desperate to go to such lengths... what other logical explanation can there be. This! Is not what love is.. Fuck! Is he that obsessed that he doesn't care for even the tiniest piece of decency, even in his own case!?''
I didn't know how to feel or how to organize my thoughts. I was mad, but flattered, but so confused at the same time.
At this point I'd rather be thrown around and bullied by Hisoka, than stay around this guy. If I knew he was going to go this far then I would of wished to be trained by someone else. But since I had hoped for him to be distant and uninterested in a weak being such as myself, I thought I had nothing to worry about. The only thing that would of been difficult to handle, would have been his bossiness with training.
And that would of been the least of my problems compared to now!
'' Who knows when he'll throw a teenage-tantrum next!'' I threw my hand aside, gesturing and being dramatic by myself.
Even though there was no one around to hear my complaints. And I made sure that no one found out about it.
That'd be the most embarrassing thing in my history right now.
To be precise, THIS! Is! The most embarrassing thing that has happened in both of my lives.
Not even on Earth or in school days was I humiliated to such an extend. If you can even call it humiliation. No one saw it, and I doubt that he would go around telling people about it. But... as a Zoldyck.. an assassin- someone who should not have any shroud of interest towards such simple feelings and needs, how can he simply do these things...
At least I know that that's not gonna go further from us.
But how do you handle a situation like this.
Not even talking about relationships. I've had non of those. BUT THIS!? This isn't even worth calling a one night stand, this is... this is - '' This is ridiculous!''
I stood up, getting annoyed at what happened.
I walked back and forth like a stick figure, not knowing how to handle or what to do with this.
'' Maybe I should practice Nen by myself.. I can't trust him. I know a little. I just need to train.''
I looked around my room for something to take and practice on. ''Saying I won't be able to move items.. I'll show you. I'll learn, and then I'll kick your ass. You fucking bastard.''
I stomped around the room and went to the bathroom. I looked around for something little, but couldn't help but see my own reflection from the mirror and I blushed immediately. '' B-B-BITE MARKS?... oh god. no..He did do it after all..''
I closed in on the mirror and ran my hands over my neck and shoulder.
'' I look like I've been abused! ..W-what he did.. was it that rough.. Oh my god, I'm gonna have some weird fetish because of him!'' I shook my head and took a bit to think. '' Scratch that..I already had em. BUT THIS DOESN'T CHANGE THE FACT THAT HE.. did such a thing.''
I lowered my head in defeat and had a gloomy look on my face. If I didn't look dead enough already, then well, I did now.
'' ..He didn't read my mind did he... oh god. What if he knew! Oh god! He knew that deep down I like weird shit!''
I looked at my own shocked face in the mirror and shook my head again. ''No wait. Just calm down. There's no way he can.. HE CAN READ MINDS. AHH! I'M DOOMED!''
I crouched on the ground and started swaying on my legs like a mental patient. '' He knows that I'm a perv! He thinks that I'm a pervert! Holy mother of potatos! Help my soul!''
I wasn't sure how long I sat there and contemplated on how I was supposed to look at him in the eye and accuse him of what he did, as where I am the one who didn't actually try to push him away and let it happen. '' No! That's exactly how victims would think! What he did do was WRONG.. I just have a difficult time..agreeing with that..''
'' Did I actually want him to do it? I'm going crazy aren't I... This is some sort of a game. He must of read my mind!''
It didn't take a lot to see from another persons perspective, that I looked like an insane highschool girl who was arguing, with herself might I add, about her non-existent love life; Or a soon to be abusive relationship.
Was this normal?
No.
Did I expect more.
M...Maybe.
Yes. Most possibly yes.
'' I'm fucked aren't I.. My life.. these people. I haven't even lived here for that long! And I'm already being abused! What is this.. I expected these sort of things to happen in my fun-happy-lustful healthy relationship.. but I've been tainted now! How should I look at someone in the eyes and say, '' Yea, I've just been played around with in my spare time, nothing big though, it meant nothing, don't worry''!?''
I finally managed to rant so damn much, that I knew that I had to get away somehow.
There's no way that being here is going to keep me sane and well, close to as normal as I could be.
I didn't know what Illumi was planning, but I was not going to let him play around with me like a toy. '' But first.. I really need to change out of this underwear ...''
I untied the yukata and took off the underwear that were embarrassing to look at even. ''Sigh.. I need a shower.''
It was but only a short shower that I took. I got in; Washed myself over with some quick warm water; And got out.
There was a little silver hanger on the bathroom door and the towel I had used last time had been hung there. So I took that and dried myself off before putting the yukata on loosely. '' I need a new pair..''
I went to the closet in my room and, thank god, that I seemed to have two more pairs of underpants and socks left for me.
I put on the clean pair and continued to tie up my yukata. This time it went faster and more neatly than before. ''At least I'm getting good at something!''
I went back to the bathroom and since I didn't see a laundry basket laying around anywhere I decided that I'd hand wash the pants myself. No way was I going to let any butler or maid see what had happened.
I put a little bit of that liquid soap on it and kept washing until I saw no more stains. '' It's not machine washed.. and looks roughed up.. but this is the best I can do.''
I put the pants on the tub edge and let em dry there. Hopefully no one will come into my room at this given time. But at least now they were clean and no one would have to touch my dirty undies. ''Such an embarrassing job to have.. or maybe they really don't care.. but then again they could be people who gossip to themselves. I'd be known as some perverted lonely guest who can't help but touch herself at night... god. Who the hell knows how people think.''
I started walking back when I noticed some hair on the floor from my previous cutting session and I figured it wouldn't be bad to try my Nen on that for a bit, so I took a hair from the ground and went back to the bedroom.
I sat on the ground and tried calming myself down as best as I could.
I took a deep breath and stretched out my hand towards the single hair and focused on extending my aura at it very slowly.
Particle by particle it started moving at a very slow pace until it touched the hair. I tried my best not to lose focus and continued to mold my aura around the hair strand. My awareness of time was still lousy as ever, because I wasn't completely sure how much I had wasted it on sitting on the ground and ' meditating'.
Since I didn't plan to leave my room I continued to summon and move my aura around the hair strand.
I grew very tired practicing that after a while, and when I finally managed to look at the time, it was already one o'clock. '' Eh! Night time.. but.. wait. Now that I think about it, I didn't look when I came back to my room.. and I think I did nap for a good while in the lounge.. But this long.. damn.''
It wasn't surprising that time had passed so fast.
I stood and stretched myself a good while because of how stiff my body had become from that one pose. And because I had been doing nothing but sleeping the entire day, I wasn't exactly tired enough to sleep through the night right now.
'' What do you do here when you can't sleep..''
I had never been awake at night time here. So to be honest I was a little skeptical about going out on a midnight adventure in a giant spooky looking house.
I'd say I didn't want to run into Illumi, but if he wanted to he'd know where to find me. For now it was safe to assume that he wasn't going to approach me and that I'd get a little space.
There was still no way for me to calm down completely and the thoughts kept coming back.
The way he looked at me and touched me..
I shook my head roughly. '' STOP THINKING ABOUT HIM!'' I tried yelling at myself in my head.
There's no way I was going to calm down while sitting in this room and getting annoyed all the time.
I noticed some small strands of hair starting to hang out, so first I had to take care of my annoyingly long hair.
I combed through it with my fingers and tied it back together the way it was before. It had probably come undone because of the way things had escalated in the lounge. ''Stupid- selfish Illumi! He always manages to annoy me and get my blood boiling.. Yet have the opposite effect at the same time.. how is that even possible.'' And I did try to tell myself not to fall for men like that.. Sigh, why are women such simpletons.
One sweet action from them and you think you're special. The only thing I hoped for, was that my mind was stronger than my heart at this point, because if I fell now, there's no going back unless I was treated horribly.
I took a deep breath and decided that I'd go and get my mind off these thoughts.
I finally gathered up my courage and opened the door and I stepped out.
Thankfully it didn't look like a horror mansion, because the house was still lit up with lamps on the walls and ceiling. ''Maybe if I'm lucky enough, I can go outside for a small stroll. I think Illumi should either be working or sleeping.. so I do hope there's a very small chance of bumping into him.''
I took a step out of my room and closed the door quietly, as if worrying that I might alert some unwanted attention.