okay, i feel i have to say something here. this wasnt going to be the next chapter. i actually had about three more chapters between the last one and this one. but i have been so busy with school, i didnt think it was fair to have you guys wait. (says no more late updates, dont update again for almost two moths. smh.) anyways, i thought it would be best to just end it here. however, if you would like to know what happen between the last chapter and this one, they will e in the outtakes.
Epilogue: The Aftermath of a Private Lesson
Four years later
A twist in my stomach woke me up again. I groaned as clinched my stomach as I felt uncomfortable queasiness. I've been having these stomach pains for about a week now and I always throw up when I do. I don't know why I'm having them or what they mean, but I don't like this feeling.
I groaned again as another twist came. I laid on my side waiting for the feeling to pass, but it didn't. I don't know why I thought it would. It never does.
I threw the blanket off of me and ran to the bathroom. As soon as I got to the toilet, the few pieces of chicken I had last night at dinner came up. When it finally stopped, I wiped my mouth and stood up. That's been happening every morning for the past week I think. At first I thought it was so kind of food poisoning, but I doubt any of stomach illness lasts a week. But do I know that I never had any kind of stomach illness.
Because I hated the taste in my mouth after I throw up, I brushed my teeth. Since I was already in the bathroom, I took a shower. It was cut a few minutes short because I got the twist in my stomach again. I jumped out of the shower and leaned over the toilet again. I gagged a few times, but nothing came out. When I realized nothing was going to come out, I sighed and stood up to get dress.
After I put the t-shirt and short shorts I wore for pajamas back on, I walked back to the room. When I walked in, I saw my husband still fast asleep. I smiled at the thought of calling him my husband. We've been married for two years in October and I still wasn't use to calling him that yet. We've been together dating longer than we've been married so I don't think it's unusual.
I also found it a little humorous that he was still asleep. After years of sleeping in the same bed, he still sleeps longer than me. I think that was something he will always do, no matter what. However, one would think since he started his job at Port Angeles Middle School I started working with his step-mother's friend for a magazine in Port Angeles two years ago, he should know when he had to wake up and when he didn't.
I smiled at him. No matter how long we've been together, I still love how peaceful he looks when he's sleeping. I almost don't want to wake him up. Sadly, unlike me, he has to work this morning.
I tossed my dirty underwear in the hamper before going over the bed. I stood on the bed on my knees beside his sleeping body. "Edward." I said softly as I shook him lightly. He groaned. I giggled. "Come on, sweetheart, it's time to get up." I shook him harder. he still didn't wake up. Okay, time to stop being cute. "Edward, wake up." I said louder as I pulled at his hair, like I do every time he refuses to get up.
"Ow." He groaned. With that, his eyes popped open in surprise. He smiled softly at me. "I really hate when you do that, babe." He said in a tired voice
"You should get up the first time then. Come on, it's Monday." I reminded him.
"I know. I'm up, I'm up." He yawned. "I hate Mondays." He complained as he sat up then turned to sit on the side of the bed. He starched before yawning. I moved to his side. I laid my head on his bare shoulder. He still doesn't wear a shirt to bed. "I love teaching, but damnit, I hate getting up after the weekend." He continued to complain as he rubbed his eyes. He looked at me and smiled. "I envy you babe." He said to me.
I smiled back. "Sorry." Was all I said with a slight shrug before leaning in to kiss his lips. He wrapped his arm around my waist leaning into me. This was somethin I would never get tired of.
"But this is defiantly the best part of the morning." He said against my lips before holding me tighter. He started to lays us on the bed. I was going to let him if it wasn't for…
I groaned again as I pushed away from him and sat up. I clinched my stomach again because I felt the urge to throw up again. I don't know why I felt sick. I never got this feeling when he starts his morning make-out sessions. But this time, for reasons unknown to me, I didn't want him to touch me.
"Bella?" Edward said in concern as he placed his hand on my back. I held my finger up at him.
I took a few deep breathes. For the first time in a week, it actually passed. I sighed hard before looking at him. "I'm okay." I told him with a small smile.
"Are you sure?" he asked.
I nodded. "Go get in the shower." I told him. he didn't move as he continued have his worried look on his face. I rolled my eyes. "Seriously, Edward, it's nothing. Probably just a cramp or something. Go, before you're late. I'll have breakfast ready by the time you get down." I promised him. he finally said okay before kissing my on the cheek and getting up to leave the room.
When I heard the shower running, I changed out of my pajamas into a pair of sweatpants and my old college t-shirt with a lightweight jacket, because for some reason I was a little cold, before going down stairs to start breakfast for him.
It was his idea that we wake up with the other person when we don't have to work. He says we could help the other get ready and make breakfast for him or her. I can't say I mind the idea. My body's already use to getting up when it doesn't really have to. Plus, it gives me the chance to spend a little more time with him until I don't see my husband for six to eight hours, sometimes longer, depending on the day.
I smiled again. Even though I wasn't use to saying it, I loved the fact that I could.
I kept my promise. By the time he was walking down the stairs, I was putting the last pancake on his plate. He was still fixing his tie when he sat down. I smiled at him. when I was in his class, I don't think I remember seeing him with a tie very often. I think I know why.
I sat the plate down on the table in front of him before pushing his hands to the side. I fixed his tie for him before smoothing out his collar. "Thanks." He said when I was done. I looked up at him and kissed him again. "Remind me again, how did I get along without you?" he joked as I sat down. I giggled and answered with a shrug.
As soon as he looked at his plate, he started digging in to the pancakes I made. I tried to eat, but I took three bits and couldn't eat anymore. I was a little upset that I couldn't eat anymore because I usually love pancakes. But I was afraid if I did, I would get sick again.
"Babe, are you okay?" Edward asked. He must have noticed I wasn't eating like I should've been. I gave a slight nod. "Then why aren't you eating?" he asked. I knew he would ask that.
I looked up and gave him another smile. "Yes I am. See, watch." While I knew he was still watching me, I cut into my sack of pancakes and took two huge bites. I had to choke it down because I knew it would come back up and ruin my point. "See?" I said again when I was sure the bites were coming back up.
Of course, he wasn't fooled. "That was the first bit that you took that wasn't meant for a mouse." He noted. I rolled my eyes away from him. How long has he been watching me? "Bella, tell me. Why the hell aren't you eating properly?" I gave a slight shrug. I didn't want to tell him what was wrong with me because he would start look over me like I was some baby bird or something. He might even not go to work today and insist on taking me to the doctor. "Is it your stomach again?" he asked, knowing it's been bothering me for a few days now. I decided to tell him with the truth with a slight nod. He let out a hard breathe. "Bella, that's a week now. You might need to go to a doctor." He said just like I knew he would.
"Edward no." I whined. He knows how I feel about the damn doctors and he still insists I go. I swear he would make me go for every little squeeze, couch, and ache I had.
"Babe, it could be something serious."
"It's not." I insisted.
"How do you know that?" he asked.
"I just do, okay. It's probably something I ate or something." I said. I looked at him. "Believe me it's nothing." I told him again, but he still a little on edge about. I knew there was only thing to say to make him stop looking at me like he was. "If I still feel sick tomorrow, I'll go see Carlisle instead of going to work."
"You need to see a real doctor, Bella." He responded.
I rolled my eyes. "Your father is a real doctor, Edward." I countered.
Edward sighed. "That's as best as I'm getting, huh?" he asked. I nodded. he better be happy I was seeing his father instead of no one. His father will tell me the same thing I already know, that nothing is wrong with me. "Fine, but if you're not eating dinner tomorrow night, I'm taking you the hospital myself, no matter what Carlisle says."
"Okay." I breathed hard.
"I mean it, Bella. You will fake you be okay just to avoid a damn needle." He pointed out. He was right. Needles were just one reason I hated the damn doctors.
"Okay." I repeated in one of those whiney snaps I use to give my mother when she would tell me the same thing over and over. He was worried, I got it the hint. But when will he take the hint that he's worried for nothing?
He stopped himself for arguing any further. I saw him look at his watch. "I have to go." He said. He got up from his chair and walked over to me. "Get better for me, okay? You know I hate to see you in any kind of discomfort." He noted. I nodded. He kissed the side of my head. "See you later." He said.
"Tell your students I said hi." I mumbled. He said okay before closing the door behind him. As soon as he left, I realized he was just showing he cared, like always. It's one of the things I loved about him. After we got married, we really don't fight as much as we did when we were dating. We did disagree, but didn't fight. So I did feel guilty for snapping at him like a brat.
Maybe I'll visit him and have lunch with him to make it up.
But nevertheless…
I gather the dishes from the table. I dumped the less than half pancake in the trash. It was clear I wasn't going to eat it. After I washed the dishes, I realized I didn't feel sick anymore and I wasn't tired enough to go back to sleep like I usually did when he left me alone for the day. I decided to clean the rest of the house. I started with the laundry, then cleaned the bathrooms, then straighten up the living room. I was writing out a groceries list when the doorbell rang.
I wasn't even at the door when it opened and my best friend for years walked through the door. Sometimes I forget about the keys Edward and I handed out to our parents and close friends. "I don't still don't understand the point of you knocking if you're just going to walk in anyways." I teased.
Alice shook her head at me as she closed the door behind her. "Not right now, Bella." She said seriously. I gave her a shocked looked. She usually always in the mood to argue with me; something was wrong. She looked at me with sad eyes. She looked like she's been crying, or at least was on the voyage. "I need to talk you about Jasper." She said.
So that's what it was. She wanted to talk about her boyfriend again. They've been dating for about three years now and it seem like the past year has been a struggle for them. But like any other time she wanted to talk about him, I knew I was here to listen.
I nodded to her and gestured her to the living room. She flopped on the couch and hid her face in her hands. "Spit it out, Alice." I told her, knowing she would sit there for a while before saying anything.
She sighed hard. "I think he's cheating on me." she mumbled in her hands.
"What?" I exclaimed.
"You heard me." she assured. She was right. I did hear her. Even though she mumbled and her hands muffled the sound of her voice, I did hear her. I said what because I didn't understand.
"Why the hell do you think that?" I asked, still in shock about the whole thing. Jasper was one of my best friends and I've known him for a long. The key word being was. He wasn't like that anymore. He always telling me how much he loves her and how he wanted to be her so badly when they weren't together. But he wouldn't do that. True, he didn't know how to keep his eyes to himself when a pretty girl walks by. But he's like Jacob when it comes to that. He looks, but never touches. He wouldn't do that; at least not to Alice. At least I think he wouldn't.
She looked at me and shrugged. "I don't know. He's just being acting strange and very distant lately." She answered.
"Alice, he's Jasper." I reminded her, rolling my eyes. Sometimes the guy can totally blank out when someone's talking to him, especially when he has a lot on his mind, like his bar.
"I know, but he's more…out of it lately. When I ask him a question, he doesn't response; and every time I ask him out or something, he always says he's 'busy'. I just have a strong feeling he's hiding something from me." she explained.
"Alice, no… not another one of your feelings." I know from first-hand how much she depends on those damn feelings she has. One day, those damn things are going to get her trouble.
"I know how you all feel about them, okay?" she snapped at me. "I know you guys think they're stupid and unreliable, but I know what I feel and I feel something isn't right between Jasper and I. I know he's hiding something from me. I just wish I had clue of what the hell it was." She shook her head again and turned away from me. "I also wish he would have broken up with me before he decided to start sleeping around again. Hopefully he does it soon." she mumbled.
"He's not going to break up with you, Alice. And he's not cheating on you." I assured her.
"You explain his behavior lately then." She replied.
"I…" she looked at me. "I can't." I told her. I saw her get disappointed. She gave a light chuckle. "At least not yet. I'll talk to him, if you want." I offered.
She wiped her eye. "I don't care." She responded drily. She would usually beg me to get some dirt on Jasper since she knows he will tell me everything he will not tell her. She was really upset about this. She needed to get her mind off of this because stressing about this until she had answers wasn't going to help her.
"I will, but right now, how about you and I hang out today?" I offered.
She shook her head. "You're busy. I didn't mean to interrupt your work." She answered.
I smiled. "Stop it, Alice. You're not convincing anyone." I told her.
She turned and gave me a small smile. "If you insist." She said. That wasn't the Alice I wanted, but it was close enough.
I nodded. "Yes." Between our jobs and me still trying to get this married thing down, it's never really just the two of us like it uses to be anymore. "Just let me go change first." I told her before leaving to go upstairs to change out of my sweatpants and t-shirt.
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As soon as I got dressed, she suggested we go to Port Angeles. So I drove us. Looks like I was going have that lunch with Edward after all. However, I didn't bring up my plan to visit my husband to Alice because I knew she would think I was just using her or something. Nope, I didn't say a thing about it.
In fact, I didn't say much of anything as I just let drag me around the town while she shopped her stressed away. I knew she was out of her mood the second she started trying on five pairs of shoes and buying four of them. As long as I known her, I don't think I ever seen her not smiling while shopping. Or maybe that's just how she cries. Whatever, I was glad she was forcing on something else, if even for the time being.
While I was out, I figured I'd get something as well, but nothing for me. I got Emmett and Rosalie's daughters, a doll and a dress for each of them. I been married to Edward for almost two years now, I figure it was time to start spoiling my nieces. I also got Edward three shirts, one t-shirt and two more work shirts because he's always complain he doesn't have enough; but for which I disagree with. I swear, I think he has more shirts than me and something is wrong with that.
When Alice felt she was done, she struggled she we get something to eat. I couldn't agree more. Not only was I hungry because I didn't eat this morning, but I was craving something cheesy for some reason. She drove us to one of the only restaurant we will eat at when we're here.
When we got there, I ordered my favorite ravioli.
While we were waiting for our food, Alice was absentmindedly playing with her napkin. I sighed hard. "Please tell me you're not still upset." I begged her. After hours of shopping, she better not be. She gave a small head shake. I knew she wasn't telling me the whole truth. "Alice, please stop being upset about this." I asked.
"I just can't shake this feeling about him hiding something from me."
"I told you I would talk to him and when I do, you will see that you worrying over nothing." I remained her. She looked up and I smiled at her. She gave a small smile back.
"You're right. At least I hope you are." She replied. I nodded, telling her that I knew I was. "All this talk about me, I haven't asked you about you and Edward. So, how is the whole married thing working out for?" she asked.
I chuckled. She says that like it was just some phase Edward and I was going through. "It's going well. We had a small thing this morning…"
"You mean a fight?" she interrupted me.
I rolled my eyes. "Not really a fight, just a small disagree"
"About what?"
"My stomach's been bothering for almost a week now,"
"Are you okay?" she said quickly in worry.
"Goodness, you sound like him." I said, rolling my eyes. "I'm fine, but you know how he is. He probably thinks I'm dying or something and think I should see the doctor. I keep telling him it's nothing. He's stressing me out so much about the whole thing; I'm a few days late." I told her.
"Have you ever been late before?"
"Only when I'm stressed. With my job and Edward breathing down my neck about this small little thing, I'm just a little stressed." I told her. She laughed. "What?" I asked.
"Stomach problems, late period, I don't know Bella. Maybe you're pregnant." She joked.
I laughed loudly. "Oh please, Alice." I brushed off the joke.
She chuckled. "Just remember that after the first year of the honeymoon phase, the real test will come." She said with a wink. I didn't reply to that comment because our food was here.
At first I was eating my food and it was good; real good. But then I stared at my plate for a second to long. It went from delicious looking to flat out disgusting. The mixture of cheese, meat and sauce may look good to someone else, but right now it was making me get that same twist in my stomach that I had this morning again.
I groaned. "Bella, are you okay?" Alice asked.
I shook my head. "I'm going to be sick." I jumped out of my seat and ran to the bathroom. When I got there, I did the same thing I did this morning and threw up in the restaurant's bathroom. I was in there way longer than I wanted to, but when I was finally done, I rinsed out my mouth in the sink before returning to Alice. When I got there, I saw she had a bag in her hand and bust boy was cleaning off our table behind her.
"We're leaving?" I asked her.
"Well, considering how fast you ran to the bathroom, I figured you pretty much done eating." She said with a smile. "Here. I got it to-go, just in case."
"Thanks" I said drily as I grabbed the bag from her. There was no way I was eating this after that. I might give it to Edward or something.
When we got to the car, she suggested she drives home. I didn't mind. I was still queasy and felt like I was going to throw up again. as she drove, I basely had my head out the window.
"What?" I groaned, because I felt her eyes on me.
"Okay, Bella, I know I was just kidding in the restaurant, but maybe…"
"Very funny Alice." I cut her off, knowing where she was going. She was silent. I looked at her. "Seriously, Alice, it's not funny anymore." I said seriously.
"You have told me that you two have been less careful since you got back from your honeymoon, especially you with your pill, it might be a possibility that…"
"It's not. I'm not, okay?"
"Why are you so against if you are?" she asked.
I sighed. "I'm not. I just think Edward and I aren't ready considering we haven't really talked about it yet." I rested my head on the door.
"I think you two would make parents. You treat Angel and Lily like your own."
I sighed hard again. "Alice, please"
"I'm just saying…"
"Fine, we can pick up a test on the way home; then I prove to you that's nothing. Until then, can we just stop talking about it, please? It's making me sick again." I told her. She mumbled a fine and we drove the rest of the way in silence.
When we got back to my house, I went in the bathroom and took the table. "Well…" Alice said when I was done and came out. I held up a finger because I was still waiting for something to appear on the small plastic screen. When it did, my eyes widen a little. But I can't trust this thing. "Well" Alice repeated. I looked at her. "What does it say?" she asked.
"It's negative." I told her with a shrug.
"What? Let me see it." She reached for it, but I pulled away before she could grab it.
"I really don't think you want to touch something I peed on." I reminded her as I tossed it in the nearest trash can.
"So it really was negative?" she said in a sad tone.
I laughed at her. "You sound disappointed."
She shrugged. "It would have been nice to have another baby around consider how old Angel and Lily are getting."
"Well, you're just going to have to wait. I'm going to see Esme and Carlisle." I said as I grabbed my coat.
"Why?" she asked.
"Uh…I want to give Angel and Lily their gifts and Rosa told me Emmett and the girls were over there today. Want to come?" I asked. She nodded and we left.
XXX
I've been there enough times to know where it was. When we got to the big house in Seattle, I was glad to see Emmett's car was in the drive way. At least Alice won't know I lied to her. But I was even happier to see Carlisle's car there as well.
"Hello?" I called through the long hall.
"In the living room, Bella." I heard Emmett called back. Alice and I followed his voice. When we got there, he and Jasper were watching something on the television. It looked like sport center.
"Hey guys." I said to them.
"Hi." They said together, not turning away from the TV.
"Jasper?" Alice said behind me.
As soon as he heard her voice he looked up. When he saw his ears weren't playing tricks on him, he jumped up. "Hey baby. What are doing here?" he asked with a nervous smile. I could see what Alice meant now.
"Bella wanted to see the girls so I came with her. What are you doing here; I thought you said you were busy today." She said with an assuming tone.
"I did, but…"
"But what? Did you lie to me?" she asked.
He sighed hard. "No. I was finished with what I was doing so I just stopped here on the way home."
"Jasper, we're in Seattle. Where were you that this was on the way home?" she asked.
"I…can't tell you yet." He answered.
"Why the hell not?" she snapped. He didn't answer her. She sighed. "Jasper, for once, will you stop fucking lying to me?" she snapped louder.
He cupped his hand over his girlfriend's mouth. "Do you mind, my six and two year nieces are in right in the other room." He reminded her. She rolled her eyes. "We need to talk about something."
"Yeah, we do." She agreed under his hand.
"Let's go outside." He suggested. She knocked his hand off her face and crossed her arms. "Alice please." He begged.
"Yeah, please. I'm trying to watch this." Emmett said.
She looked at me. I nodded. At least I didn't have to talk to him. She rolled her eyes at both of them. "Fine." She said before turning away and walking towards the door. Jasper wisely followed her.
"Emmett, are your daughters here with you?" I asked him when the door closed.
"They're in the kitchen with Carlisle and Esme." He answered still not looking at me.
A few moments later, Esme came in the living room holding a two-year Lily in her arms with Carlisle holding hands with a six-year old Angel behind her. "Bella!" Esme exclaimed when she saw me. "I thought I heard one of my daughter-in-laws out here." She smiled. She walked over to me and gave me a one arm hug. "Where's my other one?" she asked, referring to Alice like she once referred to me. but un like me, Alice didn't have a problem with it. She actually loved the title.
"Outside with Jasper." I told her.
She shook her head. "Those two. But how are you and Edward?"
"I'm good, Edward is good." I told her.
"Auntie Bella!" Angel cheered as she release Carlisle's hand. She ran over and hugged my leg. She started to like me more when I married Edward. I guess she realized, like her mother, that I was here to stay.
I bended down to her. "Hi." I said I as I hugged her back.
"We made cookies." That explains why she had flour all over her shirt. She turned back to Carlisle and Esme "Can Auntie Bella take some?" she asked.
I groaned at the thought of food. "Actually, Angel, I already ate." She turned back to me with a pout on her face. "But I'm sure Uncle Edward would love some. Can I take some for him?" I asked quickly. She smiled again and nodded. "I got something for you." I smiled. She was more than happy about the subject change. I reached in the bag and grabbed the dress and doll I got for her. She cheered and bounced up and down.
"Thank you." She said happily as she hugged me. she turned back to Esme. "Can I wear it now?" she asked.
Esme laughed. "Let's get you two in a bath first. Come on." She said as she put the bag with Lily's dress on her wrist and grabbed Angel's hand. She gave Carlisle a kiss before walking upstairs.
"Hello Bella." Carlisle talked for the first time since I came in. I smiled at him. "That was very nice of you." He noted. I just shrugged.
"Thanks. Can I talk to you for a sec?" I asked in a more serious tone.
He caught on to it and stepped closer to me. "What is it, Bella?" he asked.
I shook my head. "At least I'm really sure yet. It's probably nothing, but I told Edward I would come see you tomorrow if it continued, but I knew you weren't at the office today and I thought,"
"You thought it would be better that I look at you here rather than at the office." He guessed.
I smiled. "You know me so well. So do you think you can?"
He gave a small chuckle. "Sure. Let's go to my office." He said before gesturing me to follow him. We had to climb those damn stairs to the second floor. I climb these damn things every time Edward and I come over and we go to their little room in the attic. I still hate them like the first time I had to climb them by myself. When we finally got there, he turn a left instead the usually right I was used to.
When we got to his office, he had a bed there and a heart motor that was unplugged. "Sit there, please." He asked me. I did what he said. He pulled his chair and sat in front of me. "Now what exactly is the problem?" he asked in doctor mode now.
"Well…" I said tucking hair behind my ear. "I've been having some stomach problems lately."
"What kind of stomach problems?" he asked.
"I've just been real sick to it lately and I've been throwing up every day. Sometimes all day."
He nodded. "I think I know what the problem might be. But just to be safe, I'm going to run a few tests. Are you okay with that?" I nodded. "Okay, first things first…" he slid over and grabbed a plastic cup. He held it up for me to see. "Do you mind?" he asked. Knowing what he was talking about, I shook my head and took the cup from him.
I came back from the bathroom when I was done. After I gave it to him, he measured and weighted me then took my blood pressure. Everything seems to be okay. Then he did what I wanted to avoid. He took a needle and stuck it in my arm to take some blood. "I know." He said when he saw me wincing. "Just relax, sweetheart." He said. I tried to do what he said to the best of my abilities. When he was done, he tossed the needle and the gloves in the trash. "Okay, I have to go the closest clinic."
"Clinic? For what?" I asked.
"Because what I have to do, I can't do it here. Now the result may take a while, but I'll try to be back in a reasonable amount of time. You can go back down stairs with Emmett; if don't wish to do that, you're welcome to stay up here and wait." He said.
I laid on the bed. "I'll stay."
He nodded. "Very well. I will be back as soon as I can." He said before leaving the room.
While he was gone, I waited. He wouldn't be that long, I'm sure. Five minutes went by, then ten, then fifteen. Before I knew it, a half an hour passed and he wasn't back yet. I couldn't help but wondered about when he was doing; what tests he was running. What did he mean when he said he might know the problem? I wonder if he was doing what and was thinking what I think he was.
I also couldn't help but worry about if that test I took at home with Alice was right. It couldn't have been right. Those things were whacky and couldn't be depended on; right? I'm sure it was nothing like I keep telling Alice and Edward. I was stressing out for nothing. I had to be. It couldn't be what I thought it was.
I guess I fell asleep while I was thinking because next thing I knew someone was lightly shaking me. I flicked my eyes open and looked at Carlisle. "Sorry for taking so long, Bella." He said to me with a smile.
I gave a small one back. "It's okay. So what's wrong with me?" I asked.
He chuckled and looked at his chart. "Nothing. It's actually just what I thought." He looked to me and gave me a wide grin. I thought what he was going to say before he said it.
Crap.
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When Carlisle and I came back down stairs, Emmett was still on the couch, but it looks like he was watching something else. Esme was sitting next to him as she watched the girls who were sitting on the floor in their dresses and playing with their dolls. I was glad they like what I brought them.
Alice and Jasper weren't in the living room so I assumed they were still outside talking.
"I'm going to leave." I told Carlisle.
"Are you sure; you can stay." He invited.
I smiled. I would have stayed. I like being here in this house with everyone. It makes me feel like I'm actually part of the family. I would've stayed, but I had to go. "Thanks, but I have to get going."
Realization flashed across his face then he nodded. "I understand." He hugged me. "It was good seeing you." He released me. "Come back soon; bring my son with you next time." He teased. I gave a small laugh and nodded.
He walked over and sat next to Esme on the couch. He wrapped his arm around her before kissing her on the cheek. I smiled at them. I really hope Edward and I will still be in love after so many years.
She turned to him and kissed him back. "Is she okay?" I heard her whisper to him.
He turned to me. I knew what he was saying with his eyes. I nodded. he turned back to her. "Yes. I'll tell you later." He promised. She sighed in disappointment as she turned away.
I told everyone bye before walking out the house. When I walked out the front door, I was blocked by Jasper and Alice in a lip lock on the porch like a couple of teenagers.
"I see you two made up." I teased. They pulled away. Alice looked at me with a smile while Jasper wiped his lips with the back of his hand like he always does when they're caught. He wasn't much for PDA; too bad for him that Alice loves it. "So I'm guessing whatever problems you two had are gone."
"She thought I was cheating on her." Jasper said then shook his head.
"Were you?" I asked.
He looked at me like it was the dumbest thing I have ever said. "Of course not, Bells. Come on, you know me." yeah, I do. That's kind of the reason I asked.
Alice popped up stilling smiling at me. was she that happy that they made up? "Far from that. guess what." Before I could think of what happened while I was upstairs, she answered. "We're engaged!" she announced with the most excitement I've seen from her, which is saying a lot because she seems to get excited about everything.
"What?" I answered. "Really?" I asked Jasper. He nodded. "That's great." I said as I hugged her. I looked at Jasper over her shoulder. "Why didn't you tell me you were planning on asking her?" I snapped at him.
"Because I knew you wouldn't be able to keep it from her." He answered. He was probably right. I would have tried, but Alice would have broken me sooner or later. I still rolled my eyes at him as if he wasn't speaking the truth.
I pulled away from my best friend. "Let me see the ring." I said with excitement to match her. I grabbed her hands. "Where is it?" I asked with disappointment when I saw her hand still blank.
She starched her hands out of mine and crossed her arms in a pout. "I don't have it."
I looked at Jasper who was still sitting on the porch. He rolled his eyes. "She doesn't have it yet. She's going to get it when I have enough to get in a few weeks." He shifted his eyes to her. "And that's why I told you not to tell anyone yet."
"Jasper, she's my best friend. You didn't honestly think I was going to wait weeks before telling her, did you?"
"Guess not." He said sarcastically. He looked at me. "Just don't tell anyone else yet, please; especially not Esme or Emmett or my brother. If Esme finds out I'm making Alice wait for the ring, she would have my head. And if the other two find out, I would never hear the damn end of it from them two." he asked. I chuckled and nodded. When he mentioned Edward, I remembered I was in a hurry.
"I have to go. Congrats you two." I said before walking to the car.
When I got to his school, I went to the office to get a visitor's pass. I honestly don't think I should have to get one considering how much I'm here every year.
"May I help you?" the woman at the desk asked when the same dead expression she has every time she sees me. I could tell she doesn't like me. I just don't understand why not.
I smiled anyways, like I always do. "Can I have visitor's pass, please?" I asked.
"May I ask who you are and who you're here for?" she asked like every other time.
Before I answered, I heard someone. "Hola Bella." I looked up from the woman behind the desk.
I saw the only woman who would speak to me in Spanish. Carmen was in a gray skirt suit. She was smiling as she walked towards me. I guess they never found someone to take the principal job, so she just kept it. "Hi Carmen."
"Here to see Edward?" she asked.
"Trying to." I told her, directing my comment to the lady behind the desk. The woman predicted like she didn't hear me as she looked back at her computer screen. Carmen shook her head. I guess she knew how the woman was. She grabbed a visitor's pass and handed it to me. "Thanks. Do you know if he's in his class?" I asked as I took it and put it on.
"He should be." She checked her watch. "I don't think he went to lunch yet."
"Thank you." I said before leaving the office. I walked up the stairs to the second floor where his room was and walked to it without thinking about where it was. When I got there, I stopped at the door. I looked through the window. It's rare time when I get to watch him teach. I almost forget how good he looks when he's in his element like that. it almost makes miss being his student. But then I remember why I'm glad I'm not.
I watched his students as they copied everything he wrote on the broad. I noticed how the girls were hanging on his every word. I see he still has that effect on girls. That will never change.
I waited until he walked back to his desk to knock on the door. He looked up and smiled when he saw me. He turned to one his students and said something to them; telling them to get the door, I assume.
Then I was greeted by a girl with blonde pigtails, curled slightly at the ends. She had blue eyes and rosy pink cheeks. She looked like the poster child of America or something.
She opened to the door slightly. "Yes?" she said with fake politeness.
"Hi, can I talk to Mr. Masen?" I asked.
"He's busy. And even if he wasn't, we're not allowed to open the door for strangers." She said like she was more than happy to recite that rule to me.
Edward chuckled behind her. "It's okay Sarah, she's an expectation."
She gave me a look like she wasn't less than happy he told her that. "Thank you." I said as she opened the door to let me in.
"Whatever." She responded as she went back to her seat. I don't understand the girls he works with.
I walked over to him. When I got to him, he didn't take time to wrap an arm around my waist and pulled me towards him. He greeted me with a kiss on the lips. "Mr. Masen." the girl who answered the door called him as soon as he did. I pulled away from him. He looked towards her. "May I ask who is she and is she interrupting our lesson?" she asked voice thick with an attitude.
I saw the angry and jealously in the most the girls eyes, but not as much as that particular little girl. I saw the guys perk up with interest, along with some of the girls who didn't seem to care that he kissed me like the others did. The whole thing was a little bit unsettling to me. "Sorry. Class, this is my wife, Mrs. Masen." he introduced me. I couldn't help the smile that spread across my face. I still love how the word just rolls of his tongue like it does. I gave everyone a small wave as their eyes were still on me. "Can everyone please work on problems 1-20 while I talk to my wife?" There was that word again.
Everyone turned to their books expect for, of course, the girl who answered the door. She glared at me. "Sarah, please." He asked her.
She rolled he eyes and turned to her book. "What's with her?" I asked when she did.
He chuckled. "You remember my teacher's pets I tell you about?" every year, in every class, he has that one student who will do anything he asked and seems to be a little too into his lessons. He called them his "teacher's pets." I'm pretty sure that was the title they wanted.
"Oh, that's one of them." I said with realization.
He nodded. "I have one in every class, but she's a little bit more…aggressive about her title." He joked.
"Well, she's pretty, if you like that whole 'all-American-girl-next-door' thing. Let me just say that if you leave me for her, I will understand." I teased.
He shook his head. "Never again." he said with a smile. great answer, I thought before kissing me again. He leaned against his desk and hugged me around the waist. "So what do I own this visit; that I'm complaining."
"I felt bad about snapping at you this morning."
"You've been a little moody lately. Is everything alright?" he asked. I nodded. "Everything with your mom and Phil is fine?" I nodded again. "What about with Alice?" he asked about everything that might bother me.
"She and your brother had a thing, but they're fine now." I told him. He nodded. "Anyways, I thought I would come and see you." I held up the bag. "I brought you some lunch. Your nieces made you some cookies." I told him.
He smiled at the bag as he took it. "Great. I was wondering what I was going to eat. I was actually going to come home." he set it on his desk behind him. "Are you staying to eat with me?" he asked as he wrapped his arms around my waist again.
I shook my head. "I already ate."
"Well, you can stay and watch; I don't mind." He replied. He might not have minded, but I did. I groaned. The thought of seeing that food, of smelling it, it was bad enough that I almost threw up again. If I could barely handle it now, I wouldn't be able to handle it when he was he eating in front of me. he would know something was wrong with me. Just like he did now. I could tell he knew something was wrong with me because he got a worried look on his face. "Are you okay?" he asked.
I nodded. "I'm fine. Thank you for the offer, but it's okay. I'm cleaning the house and I wanted to be finished before you got home." I told him.
He chuckled and shook his head. "You know I don't care about that. I have lunch then I have two more classes, then I coming home anyways. You should just stay." He told me.
I smiled as I ran my hand through his hair. "Thank you for the offer. It really is a nice thought and I know you don't care about the house, but still…" I said with a shrug.
"Fine, be that way. Never say I never I offered." he said. I giggled at him. he sounded like a child. I pushed him in the forehead to make him stop. He laughed at my reaction. "Is that you interrupted me for?"
"I thought you said you didn't mind."
He shrugged back. "What can I say; I was in a teaching zone." He joked, causing us both to laugh. "But really, is that all you wanted?"
I shifted my eyes to the tie I helped him with this morning to avoid his eyes. "No, I ..." I wanted to tell him, but I couldn't, not here. I don't know what I was thinking. I couldn't tell him something like that at his job, in front of all his students. It wasn't the right time and it wasn't the right place. It waited all the way I got here to see him in person, it would wait until he was home with me and we could talk about it privately. I looked back at his eyes and smiled. "Never mind."
"What, why?" I didn't response. "Bella, don't do that."
I shook my head. "It's not important enough for right now."
"Are you sure?"
I nodded. "It's nothing, I can wait until you get home."
"Okay. You're sure you don't want to stay with me for the rest of the day?" he asked again.
I nodded. "I don't think your little girlfriends would like if I was here. Plus, I don't want to distract you from doing your job and take you out of your 'zone'." I mocked him. I grabbed the collar of his shirt. "So go do what you do best, and I'll be at home waiting for you." I pulled him towards me and met his lips with mine. "You will always be my favorite teacher." I said softly when I pulled away.
He chuckled "Good to know." He was about to kiss me again, but got stopped.
"Mr. Masen."
He gave a small sigh before he turned away from me. "Yes, Sarah?" he said to her. I saw her smile on the corner on my eye.
"I need your help." She said. That was my cue I needed to leave.
He smiled at her. "Okay. Give me a second, please." He replied.
"It's cute how much she doesn't like me." I said softly to him. it was quite cute, her crush on him. as long as she realized that's all it was, a crush.
He turned back to me "She kind of reminds me of you." He smiled.
"Please, you're joking, right?"
He gave a small laugh. "Of course I am." He pulled me closer. "She reminds more of Lauren. Always trying to get my attention, no matter what I'm going." He told me. I gave him a look. I didn't like the sound of that. "But she never has my attention like my favorite student." He said softly before kissing me again.
I smiled against his lips before pulling away. "I really should go." I said to him.
He chuckled because I was guess he knew why I said that. "Alright. I'll see you when I get home." I nodded.
I backed out of his hold. "Okay, I'm leaving." I said loudly. When I did, everyone's head popped up.
"Everyone, tell Mrs. Masen good-bye." He told his students. They all mumbled a good-bye.
"Bye everyone. Appreciate Mr. Masen." I turned to him and smile. "He's a great teacher and you're very lucky to have him." he winked at me. They all promised they will.
"See you at home, babe." He said again behind me as I walked toward the door. I left, but not before personally waving at Sarah. She rolled her eyes away from me.
"Sorry about that, class. She needed to talk to me about something." I heard him lie as I closed the door. I looked back and he was pushing himself off his desk. "Now who would like to come to the board to explain one of the problems I asked to do?" I looked to see Sarah's hand shoot up. He gestured her to come up and handed her the marker. I see what he means.
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I was actually going to finish cleaning the house, but when I got home, I had too much on my mind even try to. I was thinking so much, I found myself sitting on the stairs. It was where I sat to think when I wanted to be alone, but didn't want to feel like I was. I was playing with one of Angel's baby socks that she left at our house a long time ago. She's grown so fast, it's hard to believe her foot was actually small enough to fit this tiny, little sock.
I was still waiting for Edward to get home. I kind of wish he would hurry up and get. Part of me was telling me I should have stayed with him, but then I probably would have told him when he was eating lunch. With my luck, the poor guy would have probably choked or something. Then he wouldn't be able to teach for the rest of the day. No, it was just better if I waited until came home. I looked at my watch; it should be soon.
"Bella." I heard him call as he came through the door about a half an hour later. "You should have stayed. Somehow, the word got around that you were there. So after I came back from lunch, my last two classes were asking so many questions about you, I could barely get through the damn lesson. It was so funny; I couldn't be upset that they were stalling." He explained with a smile in his voice as he took off everything and set it all by the door. "Where are you, babe?" he called when turned and realized I wasn't in the living room.
"Right here." I told him.
He turned to me and his face dropped. "Uh-oh. She's on the stairs." He pointed out as he walked over to me. He knows how I get when I'm sitting here. He looked down at my hands. "Why do you have Angel's sock?" he asked.
"I was thinking." I told him.
"About what?" he asked. I didn't answer. He sighed hard. "Bella, what is wrong with you? And I'm not taking 'nothing' and 'I'm okay' for an answer this time. I need an actually answer."
I sighed. Guess it was time to tell him. I looked up at him. "We need to talk."
"About what?" he asked.
I stood up. I grabbed his hand and led him to the couch. I sat down and pulled him down with me. I gave him a small kiss on the lips before starting. "Okay, you know that outfit Alice gave me for a wedding present?"
When I said that, a big grin spread across his face. He obviously knew what I was talking about. "The school girl outfit." He replied. Yes, my best friend gave me a school girl outfit for my wedding. Needless to say, I turned all kind of red when I opened the present. Everyone was asking me what it was, but I refused to take it out of the box so anyone else would see it. It probably would have been worst if I didn't like it. I still couldn't believe she actually went to a lingerie store and got that for me.
I gave a small smile as I tuck a piece of hair behind my ear. "Yeah, that one. And remember that day last month when you stayed after school and I came to visit with it on. And then you say I was 'bad' and gave me 'detention'?"
"Yes." He said like he was confused.
"Well, we didn't grab anything." He nodded. "I didn't tell you at the time 'cause I didn't think it mattered, but it was the same day where I forgot one of my pills again. I mean all the times we didn't do both, I didn't think that that time would be anything different."
His face dropped. he was no longer looking at me at this point. It was more like looking past me. I think he knew what I was saying. I was afraid of this reaction. The reaction of knowing what I was going to say, but still being terrified of what might come. "What…" He gave a nervous laugh "What exactly are you saying?" he asked, though I think he already knew.
"I took a test. I wasn't sure if it was right so went to see your dad to make sure. He ran another test." I turned my body towards him. "Edward, I'm pregnant." As soon as I said the last word, he dropped my hand and continued to stare in the space. I think he was frozen. I continued. "I know we haven't talked about starting a family yet, but now is the best time. Bur, Alice thinks we're ready she said the way we take care of Angel and Lily; we're more than capable of being great parents. And I think agree with her. I mean, how you act with you students and with Angel when she was younger, I know you will be a great dad. And …and…" I sighed. "I don't really know what else to say." he didn't answer. He was still frozen. "Edward, please say something."
He swallowed. "What do we do?"
When he asked that, I found myself getting upset with him. Did he really ask that question? What the hell did he mean? I didn't understand the statement. "What do we do? What do you mean what do we do?" I popped up from the couch. I turned to him. "Like I said, I know we didn't talk about it and I know we might not be ready, but ready or not, a baby is coming. I don't want you to give up on me, but if you don't think you can handle it, I might understand. Just please tell me now before it's too late."
It was like my rant unfroze him, because before I was finish he was in front me. he held my arms. "Babe, calm down. You're shaking." He pointed out. When he did, I knew what he was talking about. I took a few deep breathes to calm myself down. When I was calm enough, he started talking again. he sighed. "Okay, I didn't mean to get you worked up like that. I didn't mean how it sounded. What I meant was I'm the youngest of my family and I never dealt with anyone younger than two. I don't know how to take care of a baby. What if I'm not a good dad; what if the kid doesn't like me…" now he was the one getting worked up. He took a deep breath. "Bella, what if I screw something up?"
I hugged him around the waist and rest my head on his chest. "You won't. We won't. I don't know how to take care of anyone either, but that's why they have parenting books. And we can talk to Emmett and Rosalie and Jacob and Leah. Your dad and my mom will be there. We'll have help." I reminded him.
He hugged me back. "You really think we can do this?" he asked. I gave a small laugh. It was the same line that started all of this.
"I really do."
He sighed. "Okay."
I pulled back and looked at him. "What?"
He smiled and tucked a piece of hair behind my ear. "I said okay. If you think we can then so do I."
"So we're going to be parents?" I asked. He chuckled and nodded. I squeaked loudly. I hugged him around his neck and jumped into his arms, locking my legs around his waist. I placed my lips against his with the most passion I felt for him in a while. I don't think I kissed him like this since the first time he came back to me after five years.
He pulled away and laughed. "Soon, I won't be able to hold you like this." He joked.
I rolled my eyes. "Shut up." I gave a playful snap as I hit him on the side of the head. "I can't believe we're actually having a child."
He let a hard breathe. "Neither can I." he placed his forehead against mine. "A little girl with your hair and nose?"
I shook my head and hummed a no. "A little boy with your eyes and smile." I told him.
He gave a light laugh. "I love you, babe."
If anyone would have told me I would have gone to my teacher for help one day and ended that day by kissing him. I would I laughed and walked away. But if they told me that he said it was okay because he liked me like I liked him, more than a teacher should like his student. And through he knew it was wrong, he went on to date me, I would have told them they watch way too many those romantic movies. Then once they told me I would lose "it" to him and gave him all my heart by falling in love with, just to have him to go prison for something that was only wrong to anyone who wasn't the two of us, I would have really though they were crazy. And if they ended they story by saying our relationship will almost end because the two drunken mistakes of unfaithfulness, me with his brother, but we would get pass anything and everything the world threw at us and ended up getting married with a child on the way just a few months short of our two year anniversary, I would have thought that person seriously needed to be committed to a white room with padded walls.
But if anyone asks me if I will do it again, I would hell yes.
"I love you too, Edward." I said softly before pressing my lips to his again.
I wouldn't have it any other way
The End!
so this story is finally over. yay for that. i dont know if i should tell you this or not but i going to start some new stories. i can't promise anything, but i would try better to update regularly with my new ones. i dont know if pple will read them because the twilight saga is over, but i want to write them and post them so, i you read them great, if not...watevs, your last.
Songs that inspired me
Yesterday – Toni Braxton feat Trey Songz
Hands all Over – Maroon 5
The Story of Us – Taylor Swift
Love After War – Robin Thicke
Got Your Back – T.I. feat. Keri Hilson
Get Back – Demi Lovato
Decode – Paramore
Simply Amazing – Trey Songz
I Love You – Avil Lavigne
Where the Line Overlap – Paramore (kind of)
why didnt anyone tell me i forgot something.
Luv & Rockets! 3 you guys