Chapter 21

Kerry found herself sitting alone in one of the trauma rooms. It was so quiet and clean, it didn't take her too long to realize she was dreaming. Unfortunately, Kerry new this dream, she had had it for almost a full year after Sandy had died.

She knew if she looked over her shoulder she would find Sandy's lifeless body lying on a gurney.

"Hey Beautiful, What brings you back to this room?" Kerry heard the familiar voice of her dead wife but was still hesitant to turn around.

"It's ok Kerry. All of it." Kerry felt pressure on her shoulder but she was still afraid to look behind her, instead she just reached up to grasp the hand that was there now.

"Look, I won't lie that I'm a little jealous that you found someone, but Abby was right. I do want you to be happy, and I really do want to you to be loved again, even if it's by some Amazonian giant goddess sort." This made Kerry chuckle. "I guess you don't have a type, huh?" She finished.

Kerry finally risked turning around to face her wife's ghost, relieved to find her looking as she always did. Kerry smiled at her "See, that's where you're wrong, I do have a type." She said.

"Oh really? So what's your type then?" Asked Sandy

Kerry leaned in to the apparition of Sandy and whispered in her ear "Beautiful...I only fall for beautiful women"

The other woman smiled, "Good save Red." There was silence between the two before Sandy's ghost broke it. "So what's this about? Clearly you conjured me up for a reason." Kerry noticed that they were no longer in the trauma room but were sitting together on the couch in the lounge. "We told Henry that were getting married tonight, and that we are going to be a family."

This seemed to perk up her late wife, "Ok, so what's the problem? Our son loves Kim, and she loves him too right?"

It always was so cut and dry with Sandy, Kerry thought.

"I guess I'm worried that you'll feel like you've been forgotten or replaced." Sandy shook her head back and forth "Well Kerry, first off, I'm dead. So I don't feel those things at all, and secondly, this is your dream, so it's you who feels those things." Suddenly Sandy's ghost is kneeling in front of Kerry. "But, Kerry...I know you, you have such honor and respect for the life we shared together and I know you loved me so much." Sandy now had Kerry's face in her cupped hands as she pulled her head up to look at her "I know you'll never let Henry forget who I am and he will always know how much I loved him because you will tell him."

Kerry choked back a sob. "Let's make a deal, how about every year on my birthday you and he go grab a pizza together and you can tell him a story about me, or our life together. Tell him what I was like, how hot I was" she said with a wink, "And how much I loved our little family and that I always wanted him to be happy, yeah?"

Kerry could feel the tears beginning to roll down her cheeks "Yeah, I will do that. Sand. I promise"

Kerry's eyes began to flutter open and she felt herself being pulled away from the dream, but not before Sandy had pulled her in for a final kiss.

Kerry tried to wipe away the tears streaking her face but found she could move her arm, Henry and managed to sneak into bed with her and Kim and was snuggled tightly between the two of them. She bent down to kiss his head, then she looked over to find Kim nuzzled into his neck as if breathing him in.

Just a few hours before Kim, with Kerry, had sat Henry down to ask him if he would grant her permission to marry his Mama and allow her be a part of his family. Henry thought it was silly that she would ask because he already thought she was part of his family but she explained to him that they just wanted to make it a bit more official.

Kim had gently broached the idea of adopting Henry to Kerry while they were on vacation. Kerry was overwhelmed with emotion but was beyond happy that Kim wanted to make it legal. Kim could tell there was still a lot Kerry was digesting but knew it was the right decision to ask and was ready for everything that came with this next step.

"What will I call you?" Henry asked "Will you be my Mama too?" Kim looked to Kerry for a little help answering this one.

Kerry took over, "Well Hen, technically Kim will be you Mommy too, but you can call her whatever you are more comfortable with, there are no rules to follow. We can figure it out as we go along."

Henry scooched over to crawl on Kim's lap, "I'm glad you are going to be my Mommy, but if its ok with you...I want you to always be my Kimmy, is that ok?"

Kim leaned down to his ear, "It sure is kiddo, I promise to always be your Kimmy." Kim squeezed him so hard he began to squirm "Kimmy! You are going to break me!" then he broke out in giggles as she started to tickle him.

Remembering the conversation left Kerry feeling like her heart would burst from the flood of emotions she was experiencing. She never thought she would have this again. But she now knew it was ok to want it, and to believe that Sandy wanted if for her too.

"Hey Ker!" Kerry heard her name being shouted from down in the basement where she had set up a home office, "Yeah, I'm in the office" she shouted back. A few moments later Kim popped her head around the door, "Hey, I found you." Making her way over she leaned in front of Kerry before she continued, "So, I just spoke with Christy, gave her the news "I bet she was thrilled" Kerry snarked while Kim rolled her eyes, "As a matter of fact she was thrilled." Kerry pushed her self away from the desk and looked over at her fiancé "She's only thrilled because she is getting paid to put together our paperwork to make our union legal. "Gee Kerry, you're such the romantic!" Kerry couldn't help herself, ever since their first meeting at the Dinner of ambush, as Kerry like to refer to it, She and Kim's best friend, had a bit of a chilly relationship. "Kerry that was years ago, when are you going to let it go and move on" Kerry shrugged, "I haven't decided, check back with me in five, no, six years." Sorry Kerry, you are going to have to alter that time line. She's coming over to dinner Sunday to discuss everything. Kim got up and exited the room before Kerry could make up an excuse to cancel. Realizing she was in a losing battle Kerry relented "Fine" Kim looked back, that's right Ker, happy wife happy life!" Kerry tossed her slipper at Kim who barely dodged it, "Yeah, well I'm a wife too, when do I get to be the happy one!"