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Losing You

An ImmortalFox Fic

Well… I've never written one of these before so I don't actually know how to start it. I don't know if I should be dramatic or sarcastic or just… yeah. I don't know. I guess I'll start with... why, exactly, you're reading this.

Eddie dropped the piece of paper in his hand, face pale, eyes wide. He stared at nothing.

I'm doing this because… well, because I… it's not like I'm doing this for attention, alright? I'm sorry if it seems selfish. I didn't want to hurt anyone but I guess this is one of those things that will hurt people anyway.

Eddie took a step back and fell against the wall, feeling numb all over.

I haven't told anyone, but I have Depression. I've had it for as long as I remember. Unexpected, huh? I guess I've always liked plot twists…

"God damn," Eddie whispered. He stood up quickly and ran out of the room, accidentally running into a wall and rushing down the hallway.

Wow. Look, I'm already talking in past-tense. Irony, right there. If that's even the right word. Words were never exactly my forte, but who cares? It never matters, and it sure as hell doesn't matter now.

"Jordan! Dude, look at this!" Eddie yelled. Jordan poked his head out of his office and raised an eyebrow.

"What am I looking at?"

I've hidden it from people, and I got pretty good at it because none of you could tell. Except you, Eddie. You always knew, didn't you? You're a people person. You can read social cues like a book, and it annoyed the shit out of me.

"Oh, god," Jordan said, looking up at Eddie. "He's not… he's not seriously going through with it, is he?"

"I don't know. We have to find him," Eddie said. Jordan nodded.

"I'll get my car keys."

Anyway… yeah. Depression. Not fun, very boring, makes you sad and shit. Just… pretty much. It's funny, I had this all planned out in my head and now that I'm actually writing it I'm having a damn hard time. It made me feel like no cared, and I felt really alone and I know that I'm not alone because I have you guys but… still. My brain was telling me I had nothing while my heart knew I had the greatest thing in the world. Cheesy crap right there.

"I can't believe I didn't place it."

So… after years of thinking about it and managing not to cut – cause I'm a good little boy – I'm just going to do it. I can't deal with it anymore.

"Now it seems so fricking obvious and I didn't see it. I feel like such an idiot…" Eddie moaned. Jordan put the keys into the ignition and his car roared to life.

"It's not your fault."

So basically I'm just going to… kill myself and stuff. I don't know how to write it, so I'm just… plain facts. I'm not sugar coating it.

"But it is. I'm supposed to be his best friend; I'm supposed to be there for him!"

Um… yeah. So if I'm gonna be real corny, I'm just going to say it: Death seems like a waaaay better option than living at this point.

"What if we don't find him? What if he dies?"

"We'll find him, Eddie. Don't worry."

"I won't be able to live with myself if he dies. I should've seen it."

I know it sounds stupid. I know you're probably mentally giving me the whole speech. The "Oh no, don't do it! You've got so much to live for, so many friends, blah blah fricking-blah." Well to me, it doesn't feel like I'm got anything to live for. I have jack-shit.

"Where are we supposed to look if someone's going to commit suicide?" Jordan asked. Eddie bit his finger nails nervously.

"You're very calm about this."

"No, I'm not. I'm anything but calm right now."

So. Yeah. Death, suicide, depression, shit. Yeah. I really like the word yeah, huh?

"Maybe… a bridge?"

"That's corny."

"Meaning Aleks will be there."

Uh… I don't have a will or anything like that. So you can all just fight over whatever crap you find in my apartment. Video it. They might have Wi-Fi in Hell.

"If we find him I'm going to kill him."

Hoardan. Thanks so much for being my boss and giving me the chance to meet all the people I hope I can call friends. They're pretty damn awesome, even if they're idiots.

Eddie pulled up a map of the Colorado area on his phone.

"There's like five bridges in our area. This is going to be hard…" Eddie sighed.

"Try calling him," Jordan suggested. Eddie did. No reply.

"Fan-fricking-tastic. Damn drama queen! Why is he doing this?!"

"He said why in his letter. I don't think it's his fault," Jordan said calmly.

James. You're an idiot. But you're a cool idiot. I liked you; you're fun to be around. I'd love to have more time with you but you probably won't be following me to Hell so… yeah. It was fun while it lasted.

"Let's just try the closest bridge. He's a lazy asshole, he wouldn't drive far."

Seamus. You suck dick. But you're also cool, and you were a great friend. Here's hoping you finally hit puberty.

"You're right," Jordan said, hitting the gas and turning sharply to the right.

"Can you drive any faster?"

"Well, do you want to find Aleks or do you want me to go to Jail for speeding?"

Kevin. You're beast, you really deserve someone awesome. I hope you find her… or him. If you turn out to be gay, tell Seamus to leave ten dollars on my grave. Idiot always loses bets.

"We're nearly there," Jordan said, hands tightening around the wheel. Eddie leaned forward, scanning ahead to see if he could see Aleks. He prayed to multiple gods that Aleks was still alive, because he couldn't lose Aleks.

Everyone else I'm too lazy to mention: You're all amazing; some of you are idiots, thanks for being awesome friends… I don't know what to say really. I love you all, no homo. Maybe. Insert evil laughter here for me.

"Oh shit, is that him?" Eddie said softly.

"Oh god," Jordan breathed. Up ahead they could see a short figure on the other side of the rail, leaning against it and looking out over cars that sped under it.

Saving the worst for last: Eddie. You… you're awesome. Really awesome, but you're too stupid to realise it. Idiot. But… you helped me in more ways than I can count. With depression, it's like falling into that deep hole. Where you feel so empty and alone and it's the worst feeling in the world. And then you came along, dude, and suddenly I had someone to fall with.

Jordan nearly crashed when he parked. Eddie flung the door open and fell out of the car.

"Aleks!" Eddie screamed. "Stop!" Aleks didn't look back. From here, Eddie could see his hair and his beanie and the fact he was wearing the jacket Eddie got for his birthday.

You have no idea how much better you made me feel. You were always smiling, you always made me feel better when it felt like I wouldn't be able to climb out, and you were just… you were just there. Steady presence. You were my rock, and I can't thank you enough.

Aleks took a step closer to the edge and Eddie ran as fast as he could. But idiot Jordan had parked too far away. He wouldn't make it because Aleks was standing right on the edge now and Eddie was internally freaking out, and he knew he was screaming but he couldn't hear it through the rushing sound in his ears which was probably a really badly-timed panic attack.

You can't really be described in words. You're just phenomenal. And if I'm going to end this on a really amazingly cheesy note: I probably fell in love with you but I'm an idiot and I didn't realise it until now and it's too late to turn back.

"Aleks," Eddie whispered, and then Aleks started to fall.

Thanks for everything guys, I appreciate it.

Time seemed to move in slow motion as Eddie flung himself forward, fingers dusting the back of Aleks' jacket.

It's the best life I could've lived.

Aleks jerked to a stop suddenly and was left hanging over the edge, not kicking his legs or thrashing, just limp. Eddie was leaning over the edge, both hands gripping Aleks' jacket, one leg on the ground and one leg up, trying to help balance him. Eddie was crying and Aleks was silent. Jordan came running up and grabbed Eddie around the waist, pulling him back and in the process pulling Aleks up. The three lay sprawled on the sidewalk, Eddie sobbing by now, Jordan panting and Aleks still quiet.

"Remember how I said I hated your Twitch jacket?" Eddie said finally, sniffing. Aleks blinked up at the sun, a slow smile forming.

"Yeah."

"I fricking love it now," Eddie said, rolling on his side and wrapping his arms around Aleks, jerking him over and holding him tight. "Do not ever, ever do that again, or I swear to god I am going to drop dead from a fricking heart attack."

"That's enough for one day," Jordan mumbled. The trio were quiet, Eddie holding Aleks in an unbroken grip. Aleks let out a small sigh and closed his eyes.

"Thank you."

THERE. ARE YOU HAPPY? Finally, a one-shot where all the characters live! This is the first one in a while where that happens, right? I hope you enjoyed, don't forget to read my other stories and yeah :D BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE