Well I´m back, also my laptop. I´m really sorry for letting you guys wait for so long, but the new harddrive just arrived some days ago and I still had some problem with it.

I just hope you can forgive me.

To let you know I wrote this chapter in two nights, much work to do and I had to remember what I wanted to write ^^" So I hope you forgive me for any mistakes in here.

Those mood-swings and weird food ideas you´ll find in here are real LOL it happened to a friend of mine. She changed her mood about three times within some minutes, it was damn funny ^^" And yes, she broke the hand of her husband during the delivery. Poor guy *lol*

THANK YOU ALL for those amazing reviews and great ideas. Keep it up, I love to read your thoughts (its my lifeblood ^_~) I am so glad I have you all *blows kisses*

I also want to thank Amazon for those great books I just found on their site *laughs*

Well then have fun reading.

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Without really having a word in it, Godric drove me back to Dallas the next night.

Tessa promised me to send everything I might have forgotten and wished me good luck.

To my surprise, Eric didn´t said anything.

No goodbye or something like that, probably he was just happy that I wasn´t living there any longer and he had his home back for hisself.

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The Nest was almost empty, the only persons who greeted us were David, Isabel and Hugo and it was the first time that I saw Isabel with a shocked face.

She was so busy with staring at my tummy that she forgot to welcome me correctly.

It was good to be back cause I really missed this place and I was glad that no one was mad at me for what happend.

Half of the night I talked to Isabel to explain her why I was pregnant and that she couldn´t tell anyone.

Godric thought it would be to dangerous if too many peopel knew about it, and he was right.

How would the AVL react when they find out, or any other politician?

Would they take the baby away from us for some strange tests?

And what would happen if my real family finds out, they would do anything to get her and raise her the way she should be raised.

No, I would never let anything like this happen to her.

The only persons who knew who the father is, were Eric, Isabel and Tessa, and I trusted them.

Also I knew that Eric would glamour Tess if they ever would break up, but I guess that would never happened.

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Godric was so concerned to make me happy, that he got Jules a new Kindergarten, which probably was more than expensive, and ordered everything a pregnant women could need.

Well, now I know where Eric got this from.

Every night when he woke up he laid next to me with his head on my belly and a calm smile on his lips.

"Can you hear her?" I asked him while my hands where running thru his short hair.

"Yes, her heartbeat. It´s amazing."

I knew that Vampires had a Superman-like hearing, but that still freaked me out.

Since our first doc visit he done this.

It was the first time he saw her on the screen, her heartbeating and the way she moved while the doc poked her with the ultrasonic-thingy.

He was so amazed by the picture and the sound of her heart, that he wanted to listen to it every night and I had no problem with it.

The little worm also had the same reaction towards him like she had with Eric.

I guess it really has something to do with her vamp-site, or she just knew who he was... I really have no idea.

Eric sended every piece of the furniture, he bought me, to Dallas and I had the chance to decorate her room over the day with Jules.

He loved to do something for his sister and was so into that work, that he was a bit sad when everything was done.

I decided to keep the baby in our bedroom.

To many Vampires would be here during the night, and I would never leave her alone in a room even when it was right across ours.

Isabel told me about Vampires and what they thought about the taste of baby blood, a conversation that made me more then sick.

I tried to understand the point, but it was just disgusting for me.

Also Godric would be awake during night, so there was no big deal in keeping her save, at least I hoped so.

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I was sitting nervously on the couch, zapping thru the channels but not really watching.

Jules was invited to a slumber party by his new best friend, so I had the night off and already made plans.

Plans that involved Godric, who was still clueless about it.

I wanted Godric at my site when the time would come, and he needed to be there.

So I made an appointment without telling him, which was the reason why I was so nervous.
I knew he doesn´t like surprises, mostly when it was about him going somewhere, but this was important for me and him.

That why, I was sitting infront of the telly, zapping like a maniac and waiting for him to get up.

But the moment he entered the room, I wasn´t sure if my decision was good.

Would he do it, or would he think it was a bad idea?

He walked over to me with a smile, sat down and gave me a soft kiss on the cheek while laying his hand on my stomach.

"How are you feeling tonight, my love?"

I grinned at him when he called me my love.

"Fine, but I want to talk to you for a moment."

He nodded, telling me to continue.

I breathed in deep before telling him about my plans.

"We both talked about you joining me in the Hospital when I´m getting into labor. But... there are some things you have to learn. I already gave birth to one child, so I know how this will be going. But you, well I don´t know if you ever had the pleasure in joining that kind of scenario."

I smiled at him, hoping he would get the hint, but instead he frowned and looked concerned.

"What are you telling me?"

I sighed, knowing he didn´t get it.

"I made an appointment for Child-Birthing Class, tonight... in an hour."

He smiled at me, as bright as I never saw him smile.

"I read about this. It explains the way of breathing during labor and how the father can be supportive for the mother."

Whoa! Ok? I thought about every reaction but not this one!

"You... you read about it?"

"Yes, I ordered some books about this subject. Also Eric sended me one."

While he answered me, he stood up, walked over to the bookshelf, grabbed some books and walked back to me.

Confused I took them and looked at all the different titles:

Dad: Becoming the Father Every Child Needs and Every Wife Desires

Great Expectations: Becoming a Dad: The First Three Years

Becoming a Dad: A Spiritual, Emotional and Practical Guide

The Expectant Father: Facts, Tips, and Advice for Dads-To-Be

So You're Going To Be a Dad

Boys Will Put You on a Pedestal (So They Can Look Up Your Skirt): A Dad's Advice for Daughters

I gave my best, I even prayed to god, but I couldn´t hold it back.

I started laughing so hard, that I was afraid to wet myself.

"Let me guess, this one is from Eric." I said, still laughing hard while pointing to the last book.

He nodded, a bit confused about my behavior but still smiling at me, thinking that those books would really help him.

I whiped away some of my tears, trying to calm down.

"It´s... I mean..." I started again laughing.

"Why is it so funny for you that I read those books?"

I grinned at him, giving my pretty best to stop my laughing.

"It´s just, well you don´t seem like the person who would need this. I mean, you have been some time on this earth, so I guess you should know how to be a dad."

Godrics expression changed from confused to sad and that was the trigger that stopped my laughing.

I stood up, grabbed his hands and looked at him.

"What is wrong?"

"I never had the chance to be a father while I was human and in all those years I´ve been here I knew that this would never happen. But now you give me this chance and I don´t want to make anything wrong."

Hearing him saying that, made me sad. He was right, he would never had the chance for being a dad.

In seconds I started sobbing, my eyes hit the floor and my hands became shaky.

"I never thought about it...I am... I´m..." tears were running down my face.

His hands left mine, took hold of my shoulders and he looked at me more then confused.

"Ilka?"

I knew he had problems with crying women, Isabel told me that month ago, but I couldn´t stop it, I just had to cry, really really bad.

Softly he stroke my arms, trying to calm me, but I couldn´t stop crying.

"You will be the best Dad in the world and I...I wont no one else allow to say something else." I sobbed and laid my head against his chest.

He laid his arms around me, stroking my back and just hold me tight while I was sobbing into his chest.

It felt good to be so close to him, but it was more then hard to stop crying, even if I had no idea why I was crying.

"Is this one of those mood-swings I read about?" he asked softly.

I pushed him hard away, how dare he telling me I´m having a mood-swing?

Confused he looked at me while I glared at him in anger.

"Get ready, we leave in ten minutes." I growled at him and walked out of the room.

I really don´t wanted to talk to him right now or see him.

Mood-swings! Stuff like that happens when guys starts reading. Thinking they become damn shrinks.

Mumbling angry I walked up to our room, grabbed my handbag and put on my coat.

While I got into my coat I looked into the mirrow and saw my belly.

A smile crawled onto my face while I laid a hand on my balloon.

"You will have the weirdest family someone could wish for, little worm."

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Whoa and I thought I couldn´t laugh harder then I had about those darn books.

But this was so much better!

Godric looked confused and I mean really confused.

He was talking to the midwife, who held the class, and gave his best to remember all the stuff she was telling him.

It was brilliant, cause the moment she showed him the pelvic bone, the baby doll and the way how our little bundle of joy will come into this world, his world changed completely.

Could Vampires get sick? I have no idea, but the way he was looking at her, I really got afraid he might will vomit.

But to be honest, that women was a firecracker. She didn´t really cared that this is his first kid and explained everything, and I mean everything; very visual and explicitly.

I was sitting in a cosy chair, hugging my belly and watched him. It was like watching a TV-Show about clueless persons that got pranked.

In the last two hours he made everything he was told to: Learning how to stroke my back during labor, helping me breathing. Also every possible position you can take for the delivery.

Without saying anything he done it, highly conentrated on what the midwife told him.

Did I ever thanked god for having him at my site?

While I was drinking the rest of my water, Godric came back to me with a plain face.

"Everything all right with you?"

"Birth seems to be a very painful act."

I laughed while I got out of the chair and grabbed my bag.

"It is. It´s a very damn painful thing and really messy. But don´t worry, it´s me who has to go thru it not you. I will just scream and yell at you, maybe breaking your fingers and cursing you for knocking me up."

And again, I forgot that he took stuff way to serious sometimes.

"Why would you do that?"

"Because, I wont be sane at that moment." I took his hands in mine and smiled. "While I was in labor with Jules, I wanted to kill his father. I yelled at him, that he was the biggest asshole in this god damn world and I would rip out his heart if he ever come near me again."

His expression changed, oh boy, he really had no idea how women can be during labor.

"Godric, don´t worry. It can happen. Maybe I wont say a word, who knows. Just let us get there and see what will happen, ok."

He nodded, still shoked that I might will scream at him in anger.

All those books and the stuff he heard tonight gave him a very wrong idea of this wonderful moment of giving birth.

I kissed him softly on the lips, grinned and pulled him with me out of the room to get to our car.

"So, did you learned anything." I grinned and tried to get into the car.

"Well yes I did and I will do everything I was told to."

"That means I get my daily backrub?" I asked, already knowing the answer.

"You will my love." he smiled and started the car.

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And he wasn´t joking.

Every day I got my backrub and he even put some lotion on my belly, cause I read this would prevent the stretch marks.

Also he loved to feel the little worm moving, which she always does when he touched me.

I was sitting in the livingroom, eating some bananas with chili sauce while Jules was playing Wii with Hugo and Isabel was sitting besides me, watching me with disgust.

"It´s been some time since I ate normal food but that is just ... not normal."

With a big grin on my face I took another bite and smiled at her, humming while eating.

"Have you decided on a name yet?"

I almost choked on Isabels question.

Godric and me talked about everything but never about the name of the little girl.

"No not really. There was other stuff in my mind than that."

"So you have no ideas?"

Isabel loved the idea of having a little baby in the house, so she looked a bit sad that I didn´t had a name yet.

"Emma."

Me and Isabel looked over to the entrance and saw Godric slowly entering the room.

"What?" I asked him, not really knowing what he wanted.

"The baby, her name will be Emma."

He walked over to us and sat down on the couch besides me with an expression that doesn´t allowed any protest.

"I like that name. Emma, sounds perfect" I smiled and kissed him.

"Thats a very beautiful name." Isabel nodded at the both of us, stood up and grabbed Jules, swinging him around. "Let´s go little man, I think I saw some Icecream in the kitchen."

Jules giggled and was happy to get some icecream at this time of the day.

I was glad that Isabel and Hugo took care of him, cause I was looking forward for my daily backrub.

Godric took my hand in his, stood up and helped me to get off of the couch.

"Why Emma?" I asked him while he lead me to our bedroom.

"Its a beautiful name."

Short answer as usual, I´m really getting used to that now. I smiled to myself, sat down on the bed and started to get rid of my shirt.

Sitting on the edge of the bed and folding my shirt, Godric sat down behind me and put some oil on my back.

Sine his skin was cold as ice, he used warm oil and tried to warm up his hands with warm water, which just helped for about four minutes.

But I didn´t care, I was glad he done that and it really helped me to relax.

I was still cooking for the wild bunch and done my best with the cleaning of the house, but it became harder everyday.

So I closed my eyes while Godric worked some magic with his hands on my sore muscles.

He knew exactly what to do and I felt something more then just relaxed.

The last time we had some fun was month ago and him massaging my back was waking up my libido.

Slowly he moved his hands up my back, grabbing into my neck and massaging my it.

I leaned back at him, moaning about the shivers he sent thru my body.

Closing my eyes, I grabbed his hands and moved them around me, laying them on my bare breasts and sighed.

It was more then good to feel him touching me there again, but I was yearning for so much more.

But he grew stiff behind me, not moving at all.

"I don´t think this is a good idea my love." he stated, but I could hear how he tried to keep control.

I leaned my head back onto his chest, squeezing his hands so that he had to squeeze my breasts.

"What is not a good idea?" I hushed at him, hoping to change his mind.

"This." he sighed, pulled his hands back and sat down besides me.

Turning my head to face him, I regretted this decision by seeing his serious expression.

"Why?"

"I can´t." he laid one hand on the belly, softly stroking it, "The baby and.."

But I didn´t let him finish, instead I stared at him, pretty angry.

"Listen, I am so close to just chain you to the bed and rape you, so don´t tell me it´s because of the baby."

My voice was almost a growl and it made him stare at me slightly shocked.

"Ilka, I just can´t do that while you´re pregnant."

I almost felt like he hit me. My eyes filled with tears and I pulled the blanket up to my bear chest, covering it.

"Because I´m pregnant? Because I´ll give birth to your child? I know I´m looking like a barrel at the moment but you don´t have to point it out that way."

I sobbed and hugged the blanket.

"No, you´re still beautiful my love. It has nothing to do with..."

"Get OUT! I don´t want to see you right now." I cried and pushed him away.

He reached out for my arm, but hesitated and stood up, walking to the door to leave.

But before he walked out of the room, I looked up at him, tears still running down my face.

"I want some Icecream. Strawberry...with cream and popcorn, salty." I sobbed.

He nodded and left with a smile.

Did he had any idea what torture this was for me?

Did he just once thought about, that it was so damn hard to resist him?

I wiped away my tears and lay down on the bed, still hugging the blanket.

"When this is over, he will be the first Vampire that ever feels sore. I so gonna duct tape him to the bed and wont let him go for weeks."

Giggling about my own nasty fantasy, I pulled the blanket over my head and felt much better.

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Well that was all for today. I really hope you liked it. And yes, my dear friend was the mood-swing in person LOL. So let me know what you think about it and also, should the baby come during the day or the night? Should Godric be there or to late? Should Ilka die during delivery? ^_~ Let me know.