Letters to Shelby

by hayleynymphadora

After Rachel's tragic death, (mostly following the story line of Glee, besides Rachel's death and Shelby's relationship), Shelby Corcoran is given letters, like a diary, that Rachel has written to her throughout part of her teenage life. This story is full of angst, hurt, mourning, and love. After reading these letters, Shelby returns to Rachel's grave to answer them all.

21. Like a Virgin

Chapter 20: Like a Virgin

Dear Mom,

How old were you when you lost your virginity? Did you do it for the right reasons? Because it felt like it was right, because it seemed like a good idea…because you loved the person you were with? (I have two gay dads, so I know I can't just assume here that you are straight or lesbian or whatever you are).

Did it hurt? Were you nervous? Did it feel magical or like a mess?

I know you aren't really going to be able to answer these.

I also know that I can't compete with the other girls who are willing to give Jesse the sexual attention he seems to acquire…and I think I'm ready.

I know you probably don't think I'm ready. But…you know as long as we're safe and everything…

I really love Jesse. I really, truly do. And the best part, mom? I think he really truly loves me, too. It feels…magical and right with him. Romantic and daring and dramatic…everything both Jesse and I are comfortable with.

So I think I'm going to do it. I think I'm going to have sex with Jesse St. James…

Shelby stopped reading for a moment and growled to herself. Jesse St. James, I told you to befriend her not seduce her and take her virginity! Annoyed, she kept reading.

I just hope it goes well.

Love, Rachel Berry