Chapter 21:

It was four o'clock in the morning when we arrived at Jesse's house. We knocked on the door in the pouring rain, and nothing happened for a few minutes. "Okay I'm not waiting here. Everyone's asleep," Jesse declared. He hopped over the porch and opened the window. "I'll let you in when I get to the door," he promised. He practically dived into the house. I heard a loud bang, which probably woke someone up and scared them to death, and the front door opened. Jesse took our bags and began to walk upstairs to his room. His mother intercepted us on the second floor.

"Jesse? Beca? What are you doing here so early?" she stuttered.

"Beca couldn't stand her dad and refused to spend the night, so we flew here. And it's raining really hard, so we need dry clothes," Jesse explained.

"Oh honey, do you want to talk about it?" she asked me.

"Not really, not now anyway. Maybe in the morning. Has it always been this cold?" I said while shivering.

"Just ah, here okay. Give me your wet clothes and I'll throw them in the wash. Go upstairs and change though, no need to strip in front of me."

"Thanks," we laughed. We walked upstairs to Jesse's room and changed into something dry. His mother knocked and took the wet clothes from us. I climbed in Jesse's bed and he lay down next to me. I nuzzled my head into his chest and before I knew it we were talking about everything that had happened.

Jesse's POV:

"Is all that true? What you said, I mean," I asked.

"Yeah, I wish it wasn't. After my mom died, I was living with my aunt for a few years, then she got lung cancer. She smoked a lot. So I had to move in with my dad. My high school years were the worst years of my life. I was called anorexic, slutty, emo, and it all got to me. I got called slutty because I was raped. Do you know how much that doesn't make sense? I dated a few times, but everything went wrong. That's why I built up my walls so high. That's why it was hard for me to let you in," she sighed. I was struggling to confront her with something I had seen in her room. They weren't something I should get into, but I was so curious. She had blades in her drawer.

"Beca…" I started.

"Yeah?"

"I need to ask… no, tell… a little bit of both. When we were in your room, you said to get something out of your drawer, and I saw… I…" I don't know if I can do this.

"Jesse?" she pondered.

"Beca, did you ever self harm?" I said incredibly fast so I wouldn't pause.

"I…" she broke down into tears. I tried to comfort her by putting my arm around her shoulder and resting my head on hers.

"It's okay Beca…" I tried to reassure her. I could understand why she did it, she had a hard childhood and was bullied throughout high school.

"I was going to get rid of those, but I didn't know how. I obviously couldn't sell them to anyone, or throw them away because my dad might have seen them. So I kept them in my room and forgot about them. I had really just wanted to go to LA, get a job at a record label, you know, play my music. Then I went to Barden, met you and the Bellas, and I don't know. My whole life changed. That day when I tried to apologize to you, and you didn't forgive me, I knew I had messed up. I knew I needed to change my life. I knew I had to make it up to you. I know that now. I know I was foolish to do anything that I did in the past, and for that I'm sorry," she explained.

"You don't do that anymore though, right?" I was still concerned for her.

"No, of course not."

"Beca, I'm really glad you're opening up to me. Truly, I am." She smiled and drifted off into a safe sleep.

We woke up the next morning with a knock on the door. "Is Beca really here?" asked Kiley as she walked in. "What happened?"

"My dad isn't that great of a guy," said Beca as she was rubbing her eyes to the newly exposed light that filled the room.

"Well, now that you're back Jesse, you get to cook pancakes!" exclaimed Kate.

"Glad you guys missed me," I said sarcastically. Beca and I walked downstairs so I could cook breakfast when we heard a knock on the door. Beca walked over and opened it.

Beca's POV:

I opened the door and there stood a familiar, tall, slutty looking blonde, Brittany. "Brittany?" I said in awe. What the hell was she doing here? How did she know I was here?

"Look, Beca, I know I was probably a bitch. From what I remember, you were right. I can't stand in the way of you and Jesse, because, and it hurts saying this, you two were obviously meant for each other. So, I have decided to leave the both of you alone," she said. I honestly didn't know how to respond to that.

"Uh… okay… thanks, I guess," I managed. She smiled sweetly, for the first time ever, and walked back into her house. "That was weird," I said as I walked back into the kitchen.

"What was?" asked David.

"Brittany came to the door… and apologized? Then walked to her house after giving me a sweet smile," I said. Jesse's eyes nearly popped out of his head onto the griddle.

"She did what?" everyone said at the exact same time.

"Well that was even weirder. She apologized for being a bitch. Oops, sorry," I said looking at the twins.

"It's fine," they said innocently. I looked at Jesse and he was abruptly shaking his head, then he continued to flip pancakes. We continued on as if it never happened and ate in silence.

"Hey Becs, we should go to Central Park. It's really nice there," Jesse suggested.

"Sure, sounds fun. I have to shower first, though," I said. He solely agreed and we went upstairs after breakfast to shower.

About an hour later, Jesse and I were swinging our hands as our fingers were interlocked with each other. Everything was perfect. "Jesse, you always say 'aca-children are inevitable,' do you really mean that? Do you really want to be with me…forever?"

"Beca, what kind of question is that? I love you. We're like Snow White and Prince Charming. When you're in trouble, I will always find you. And we will have those aca-children one day. I can promise that. Of course I want to be with you, forever."

"Just no kids anytime soon…" I hoped.

"I can respect that," he said. I'm glad I could trust him with that. I wouldn't want to be anywhere else. This moment, right now, was the happiest moment of my life. And it was all going great until something smelly was held up to my face. The last thing I saw was a blurry Jesse and a cloth held to his face as well, and then it all went black.

Yes, cliffhanger. You're welcome (: okay im gonna end up posting a lot less than I imagined, im going to our vacation house on Saturday, but ill try to update tomorrow night if possible. Please don't think im abandoning this, im not. I promise. Just a vacation okay? I'll update as often as possible! Don't get mad at me lol Im gonna enjoy my vaca. ilygsm xx