Ch 21

That night at dinner ball chairs were filled except one. Deidara didn't show up. he had locked himself in his room and only she, Sasori, and Itachi knew why.

Deidara's POV

Why? Why would she choose that bastard? God! Why did I have to go on the fucking mission! What does he have that I don't? Huh? He is old! I'm nineteen! She is, what, like sixteen? That's only three years difference! He is 21, right? That's five years difference! He is old! He isn't even talented! Damnit! Why did I have to fall in love with her. Why doesn't she love me back! Shit Shit SHIT!

Normal POV

Deidara was snapped out of his confusion with the knock at the door. Sakura stood outside. Her hands shook and she didn't know what to say. She wasn't sure what had just happened.

"What! Yeah" Deidara yelled

"Deidara…I'm sorry…can I come in?" she meekly asked.

"I'm busy!" he retorted. In his head, he cussed himself and Itachi out and swore he hated Sakura.

"Please, Deidara…"she pleaded. She had to make things right. "I have your dinner."

"I'm not hungry! Yeah." he shouted

"Deidara! Please just hear me out!" she blinked away tears. The man sighed and finally got up and answered the door. He glared down at her as she entered. She placed a plate with curry and rice down on the bedside table.

"What do you want?" Deidara said impatiently. He sat on the edge of the bed with hit arms crossed.

"I didn't mean to kiss him…" she started

"BULL SHIT! Yeah." he cried out. Sakura spun around to look him in the eye. He was pissed to no end. "YOU PRACTALLY MADE OUT!" he glared deeply at her.

"Listen! Itachi kissed me! It was a thank you!"

"For what? Yeah?"

"I healed him!"

"And so he kissed you? Yeah. Doesn't sound like Itachi!"

"I healed his eyes! He was going blind…" Sakura lowered her voice. Nobody else needed to know that about Itachi. Deidara on the other hand just got louder.

"Oh, so now Itachi is blind! Huh? Well that's awesome! Yeah"

"He WAS blind! Then I healed him." She said

"Awesome! Yeah." he threw his arms up in the air, stood up and went to face the back wall where all his clay sculptured were.

"Deidara…I didn't know you liked me…I-"she was cut off.

"Of course you didn't know! Because I don't! You're just the Akatsuki's medic! Yeah." he punched the wall. "Shit…," he cursed under his breath as blood surfaced on the gash he had just created. Sakura raced over to him, hands already glowing green, and took his hand into hers. He looked away as she healed his hand. When she finished he ripped his fist away from her and

"You could at least thank me.," she whispered. He ran his hands through his hair and turned to face her. He opened his mouth to say something but cussed when the words he wanted didn't come out. He sat down on the bed and put his face in his palms, cursing under his breath. Sakura sat next to him and placed a comforting hand on his shoulder. His head shot up and he pushed Sakura down on the bed. She gasped.

"Do you love him? Yeah." he asked frantically.

"W-what?" Sakura was still figuring out what happened.

"Do you love Itachi! Yeah." he looked at her waiting for her response.

"I-I don't think so?" she wasn't sure of anything at this point. Especially not what happened next.

"Good enough! Yeah" suddenly, he leaned down and pressed his soft lips to hers. He tangled his fingers in her hair and deepened the kiss. Sakura was in shock. Her heart was so confused, but she kissed back. She felt guilty that she had returned the kiss of two different men but she couldn't help herself. Her mind was so crazed at this point she didn't care. She reached up, undid the man's ponytail, and let his long hair fall around them. She ran her fingers through it, feeling how soft it was. He pressed himself up against her and bit her bottom lip. She gasped and he used that to his advantage. He then slowly started kissing down her neck and didn't stop at her collarbone. Sakura pushed him off her.

"Stop!" she screamed. He got off her and stood facing her. She was breathing heavily.

"I-I don't know if we should!" She said between breaths. Her face was bright red. She got up and went to the door but was stopped by two strong arms wrapping around her.

"God Damnit Sakura! I don't know what the hell I just did and I know I shouldn't fall in love with you but FUCK IT! I love you, Sakura. What does Itachi have that I don't? Please at least tell me that! Yeah. " Deidara turn the petite girl around so she had to look at him.

"Deidara…" she whispered. "I don't know what I want…"

"Want me! Yeah." he said but immediately wanted to take it back. He hated himself for letting his sensitive side show. He let go of Sakura. She went to the door and paused. She didn't know where she was going to go. All her stuff was here but she wasn't sure if she should sleep with him. She looked back at him and sighed. She walked back to the bed and laid down on it. She felt the bed shift when Deidara lay down as well.

"I'm sorry, Sakura…yeah," he said. "I probably just made things really awkward and I know it was stupid. I mean if you really don't like me just say it. I promise I won't do anything you don't want unless you want me to then I guess-"

"You Idiot! Just shut up and go to sleep. Before you let your perverted mind get the best of you!" she smiled and giggled.

"I'm not a pervert!" he yelled but smiled when he saw Sakura drift off to sleep, smiling.

Authors Note.

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