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BPOV
Driving to the hospital was difficult following Edward and my first fight. As the navigation system on the dash spouted off directions to the hospital, I found myself swatting at tears as they poured down my face and fighting hard to get myself together.
Edward didn't understand. Although he didn't have his parents, Edward had his sister and his friends around him all the time. They were there for him in the good times and the bad times; he had no idea what it was like to be surrounded by people, yet be so alone.
I understood because I lived it.
I, at one time, had no one, just like Jacob did now. Although he was a monster and deserved whatever was thrown at him, he didn't deserve to wake up in a hospital alone, or die in one alone.
I get to the hospital, park the car and quickly make my way inside and to the information desk asking what floor the ICU is on. After being told it's on the 5th floor, I walk over to the set of elevators just around the corner from the desk and press the up button and wait for one to open.
I get into one quickly as it opens and press the '5' button, tapping my foot in impatience as it begins to ride its way up. The doors open and I step out, walking straight to the desk and catching the attention of the nurse behind it.
"Hi. Can I help you?" she asks, putting down her romance novel and smiling up at me.
"I'm here to see Jacob Black." I tell her. She nods and starts typing away at the computer on the desk in front of her and seconds later tells me he's in room 4. I thank her and make my way to where she pointed, second door on the left down the hallway and pause at the curtain covering the inside of the room from being seen.
After taking a deep breath and relaxing my nerves, I push the curtain aside and walk straight into the room, gasping when I get a look at Jacob. His face is unrecognizable, almost so that I'm about to walk out and ask if this truly is him but when I see the familiar dust of birthmarks on the side of his neck, I realize that this mangled man is Jacob. Bruises and pink, open wounds litter every inch of his skin. His eyes are swollen shut and there are tubes sticking out of his nose and his arm, which is folded neatly over the other on his chest.
My heart breaks for him in that moment as he lays so broken and fragile on the crisp white hospital sheets. I want so badly no to feel like this for him, to conjure up all of the horrible things he had done to me, but I just couldn't.
All I could do was be there for him.
I set the keys down on the side table and pull a chair out from under it, pick it up and carry it to his bedside. I set it down and take a seat, resting my hands on the rail of the bed as I begin to speak to him.
"Hi Jacob." I say, gripping tightly and fighting back the tears that are threatening to spill down my face. "You're in the hospital."
"You were in an accident; a bad one and they don't know if you'll be ok."
I look down at my hands and begin to pick at my finger nails.
"I know what you were coming to do, Jacob." I say, my voice breaking as I lose the battle with myself and the tears begin to flow freely down my face. "I know you were mad, and I know you wanted to get back at me, at us, but you shouldn't." I sniffle and bring my hand up to wipe some of the wetness from my face.
"He makes me feel things I haven't felt in a long time, Jacob. He makes me happy…. I love him."
I sit back in the chair and look him over once more, taking in all of his cuts and gashes, hating that he's not awake, but hoping that deep down, he's there and he is hearing everything I'm saying.
"You need to let me go, Jacob. Go on and live your life and let me live mine. We both deserve to be happy, don't you think?"
A few seconds tick by as I stay silent, averting my stare to the clock on the wall and watching as it ticks by horribly slow. I bring my eyes to my lap where my hands are interlocked, damp from nervousness at being here.
"I'm still going to be here, Jake. I'll be here in this hospital with you everyday until you're better, but once you are, you have to let me go." I say, and then stand up and begin to pace the room. What does one do in a hospital room when they want to keep someone company?
I walk out of the room and to the nurse's station and ask for a book to read to him. The nurse from before, whose nametag tells me her name is Jane, smiles and reaches under the desk, pulling out a small box filled to the rim with books.
"The coma patients respond well to being read to. Go ahead and pick whatever you like." I nod and then begin to dig into the box, coming up a few seconds later with a book of poems. I thank Jane and then head back into the room where I read the book, from cover to cover to Jacob.
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I had stayed with Jacob for a big part of the day and I was exhausted. It was nearing 10pm and as I made my way down the hall where Edward and my hotel room was, I felt like there was a solid brick settled in my stomach. I was nervous and anxious, scared of what Edward's reaction would be when I got home. I didn't want to fight with him; I just wanted him to understand.
I slide the keycard in the lock and turn the knob, immediately seeing him as he sits at the table directly in front of the door. Pizza boxes litter the table top along with empty soda cans, but Edward's head lies on a cleared off space, eyes closed but face showing his aggravation through his scrunched up eyebrows.
I walk over to him, rubbing my hand along his back and calling his name out softly as I lean down. His eyes flutter open after a second or so, and he blinks a couple of times as he slowly raises his head and tries to make his way out of his sleepy haze.
As if suddenly remembering where I've been, he quickly jumps up and pulls me into his arms.
"Bella. I'm so sorry."
"I'm sorry too, Edward. We shouldn't have fought like that." I say, and he shakes his head.
"Please baby, you have nothing to be sorry about." he says, pulling his face back and look at me before darting his eyes over to where Emmett lay, snoring loudly with his hand tucked into the waist of his pants.
I chuckle and he joins in and we slowly make our way to the bedroom. Edward flicks on the light before shutting the door softly behind him and wrapping his arms around me once again.
"I never want to fight with you again, baby. I love you." he says, pressing his lips against mine. I nod my head as he pulls back and stare up at him.
"I love you too."
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EPOV
It had been two weeks since Jacob's accident and we still were in the same hotel, which had become like home to us. Everyday, Bella would go and visit Jake, read to him and then come home to me and while I loved that she was such a good person that she was able to momentarily put all the bad things behind her, I couldn't and I wouldn't. He abused the woman I loved for a long time, treated her in ways she didn't deserve to be treated, so he would never get my forgiveness.
Lying in bed in the morning before she left to go see him was the most peaceful time for me and as I stared at her, loving the way the sunlight poured in and showed her face in light. She was beautiful and she was mine.
I turn my body towards her and bring my arm out, wrapping it around her waist and pulling her close to me. She shuffles and slowly opens her eyes to look up at me before tucking her head into my chest.
"Morning, baby." I say and she lifts her head to kiss my lips and then mutters a 'morning' back to me.
"Are you hungry?" I ask, and she shakes her head and a look of disgust shows on her face.
"I'm feeling kind of queasy. I think it's my sinuses or something." she says, reaching her hand up to rub on her forehead with her index and thumb fingers.
"You want me to get you something for it? I can run over to the pharmacy and pick something up to make you feel better." I say, but she shakes her head and snuggles deeper into me.
"I'm still so tired. What time is it?" she asks and I look over at the clock on the nightstand and tell her.
"It's just after 9." I say and she groans
"I've slept over 12 hours and I'm still tired? These sinuses are horrible." she says and then makes her way out of bed and over to the bathroom.
"I'm going to pick you up something when Alice and Jazz get here. I don't want you to be so miserable." I say, getting out of bed and walking up behind her. I wrap my arms around her waist and nuzzle my face into the back of her neck and she smiles and reaches behind her to pat my side.
Alice and Jasper were coming down to Portland to spend a couple of days with us. It was good for me because I wouldn't have to be alone for hours as Bella went to see Jacob and I'd actually get to see my sister and my best friend who I hadn't seen for weeks.
I watch as Bella gets ready and then she kisses me before disappearing out of the door, cell phone in hand, on her way to see Jacob. Alice calls me minutes later telling me she's downstairs and I make my way down to meet them.
"Edward!" I hear my sister yell from the passenger side of her and Jasper's car. I walk over, unable to hide my smile from creeping on my face; I was excited to see them.
"Hey." I say, and wrap my arms around my tiny sister's shoulders. She squeezes me back, surprising me with her strength before pulling back and smiling at me.
I greet Japer after he gets out of the car and walks around and then I take my seat in the back and we start to drive.
"Where are we going?" I ask, and Alice looks back at me with her mischievous smile and says what I should have known we would be doing.
"Shopping, of course. Your clothes look horrendous."
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BPOV
I walk into the ICU, greeting all the nurses by name as I make my way to Jacob's room. I pass Jane as she walks out of another room before Jacob's and I stop to hug her and ask how Jake is doing and she practically bounces out of her skin and beams at me.
"He's opened his eyes. They've been open since early this morning and he keeps looking around. I think he's looking for you." she says, and a mixture of happiness and dread course through me. I was happy that he was finally up, but scared of his reaction to seeing me after everything that had happened.
"That's great." I say, and then tell her I'll see her in a bit. I walk to his room, take a deep breath and then pull the curtain aside and try to keep my emotions in check as his face turns from the window, to me.
"Hi, Jake." I say, grabbing the same chair as always and pulling it up to the side of the bed. I sit in the chair, and smile over at him and see a couple packs of jell-o on the bedside table.
"Do you want some Jell-o?" I ask, and then stand up from the chair and walk around his bed and to the table. I pick up the jell-o and go to turn around, spoon in hand when I hear something that causes me to drop everything to the floor.
"Y-es." he says, his voice clouded with a horrible rasp and I can tell it's painful for him to speak. I turn towards him in shock, but before I can tell him to relax and rest his voice, he continues to speak.
"Wh-at… Ha-pp-en-d?" he forces out and I shake my head, and walks closer to the bed.
"You were in an accident." I say, and then pick up the other container of Jell-o, rip the foil cover off and dip a clean spoon into it, scooping up some of the raspberry gelatin and bringing it to his lips. He opens eagerly and takes it into his mouth, swallowing quickly before opening his mouth for more. After giving him another spoon, he pauses and asks another question.
"H-ow… L-on-g?"
"It's been a little over 2 weeks." I tell him and he opens his mouth once again for more jell-o, which I give him. He finishes the cup and I toss it into the trash and am about to go out and get him some more, but the doctor walks in, all smiles as he sees Jacob sitting up in bed with his eyes open.
"Hello, Bella. How are we doing today?" he asks, looking from Jacob to me.
"Why don't you ask him?" I say, smiling back. His eyes dart back to Jacob and he asks him how he's doing.
"G-oo-d." Jacob says and the doctor pats him on the shoulder and smiles wider, if possible.
"It's great to hear your voice. We thought we might lose you there for a while, but it's great to see that you've made such a turn around. Go ahead and speak, but try not to strain yourself." he says, and then goes to the corner, snapping on some gloves and comes back towards him. I start to walk back over to my chair, but suddenly the room begins to spin.
I remember dropping to my knees in the center of the room and hearing Jake's strained voice call my name, before the darkness overtook me.
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EPOV
Just over two hours I had spent in this damn shop as my sister threw clothes at me over the dressing room door and forced me to walk out and model them for her.
"Nope. I like a darker wash on you. Try these." she says, after I walk out in a pair of loose, light wash jeans and tosses me the same pair in a darker color.
"Alice… I'm hungry, so this is the last pair I try on before we leave to get something to eat." I call out as I pull the jeans up my legs, ignoring the snickers coming from where Jazz is. I know he probably goes through this all the time with her, so I let him have his little laugh at seeing someone else go through this with her.
I walk out once the jeans have been fastened and Alice looks me up and down before nodding her head. "Yes, that's much better. Now I don't have to walk around with you looking like a disgrace." she says, and I chuckle as I walk back into the room to grab my old pants along with the numerous pairs I had tried on. They were a little ripped and torn, but they were the comfiest pair I owned, so I didn't really care that they were, as she put it, a disgrace.
My cell phone begins to ring and I tell Alice to answer it since she's the one who's holding it as I collect the damn clothes.
"Hello? Edward Masen's phone." she says, and then stays silent for a while. I walk out of the room, clothes in hand when I see the look of shock and worry on her face.
"Is she ok? Ok, we'll be right there. Edward!" she yells and I drop everything on the bench near her and ask her what's going on. Her next two words have me running out of the shop, setting off the alarm as Jasper hands me the keys to his car.
"It's Bella."
Jasper says he'll pay for the pants I have on that have set off the alarm and Alice and I take off at a sprint for the car. I get in and start the car, taking off towards the hospital and asking what happened to Bella.
"Bella fainted, and they're checking her out now to see what's happened, but she refused to get anything done until you were there with her." she says, and my foot presses the gas pedal all the way down as I speed to the hospital. I had to get to her.
I make it to the hospital and barely put the car in park before I run out and make my way inside the emergency room where I ask for her. The nurse behind the desk stands up and motions for me to follow her through the doors. I follow behind her as she makes her way down the hallway and at the end, she signals for me to go into the last room.
I thank her and then quickly walk through the door and sigh in relief when I see Bella sitting up in bed, with an IV in her arm.
"Baby, what happened?" I ask as I go to her side, grabbing her free hand and bringing it up to my face.
"I fainted. They said it was because I was dehydrated and they're pumping me with fluids now, but they want to run some tests and stuff and I wanted you to be here with me when they did that." she says, and I lean over and kiss her forehead before taking a seat at the edge of the bed.
"So, what did you do today? Did Jasper and Alice get here?" she asks, leaning her head back against the pillows and staring down at me.
"Yea. She actually made me go shopping." I say and Bella begins to laugh. She looks down, the tags from my freshly bought pants catching her eye.
"When I got the call you were in the hospital, I ran out of the store still wearing these." I say, tugging up the fabric from the knee and smiling as she burst out laughing harder at the image of me running out of a store, setting off the alarm.
There's a knock on the open door and we both look up and see a small, brunette girl with a medical smock covered in hearts of different colors.
"Hi, I'm Angela. I'm going to be taking some blood and asking some questions so we can run some tests and make sure everything is ok. After that's done and if everything checks out, you'll be on your way home, ok?" she says, and Bella nods and I get off the bed and walk over to a chair in the corner to sit at as she gets her blood taken.
"Ok, Bella. Can you tell me when your last period was?" she asks, and I look over to Bella who looks like she's going to open her mouth, but then furrows her brows and stares off into space.
"Bella?" the nurse asks once again, and Bella looks over at her, tugging her lip in between her teeth and shaking her head.
"Uh, I haven't gotten it this month…" she says.
"Are you still expecting it, or is it late at this point." Angela asks
"It's… its late." she says, looking over at me with a look of shock that I'm sure I'm mirroring right now.
"About how late would you say it is?"
Bella thinks for a moment, "2 weeks. It's around 2 weeks late."
"Are you on any birth control that would maybe mess with your cycles?"
"I was on the pill… but, now that I think about it, I haven't been as consistent in taking it as I should have been." she says, and Angela nods her head and goes into the drawer at the sink and pulls out a tiny, white rectangle looking thing, setting it down on the counter top.
"Ok," she says, grabbing the IV bag off of its stand and helping Bella get out of the bed. "There are some specimen cups in the bathroom, so we're going to go in there and fill one and I'm going to test for pregnancy, ok?" she says, and Bella looks back at me, with an unknown emotion on her face before disappearing through the bathroom door.
I don't give my mind the chance to think about what all of this means. I just keep my eyes focused on the door until they both reappear again minutes later. Angela sets Bella up back in bed, and walks back into the bathroom, collecting the cup and carrying it out to the counter. I watch as she pops the top off, puts a little dropper into the urine and then collects some, bringing it over to the pregnancy test and releasing a couple of drops onto it.
"Ok, guys. I'll be right back." she says, taking the test with her and walking out of the room. I look over at Bella and smile, standing from my chair and walking over to her before pulling her face up to mine.
"I love you." I tell her, and I watch as a tear pools in her eye before flowing down her face.
"I love you, too." I place a kiss on her lips and pull back as I hear Angela coming back in.
"Ok, I'm just going to take the blood while we wait for the results of the test." she says, and then minutes later, walks out of the room with 3 tubes full of Bella's blood.
Bella's eyes stay back on her lap as she twiddles her thumbs in anticipation. I didn't want to say anything, especially not knowing how she would be feeling about this, so I stayed silent. Inside, however, I was bouncing with joy. She was pregnant, I knew it for sure and I wondered why I hadn't noticed before. She was nauseous a lot lately and tired all of the time. Some days she would eat plate fulls of food but other times she would get disgusted just at the mention of food.
Bella was pregnant with my child and I couldn't be happier.
Angela comes in then, with a large smile on her face as she holds the test in her hands.
"Well Bella, you are in fact pregnant. Congratulations! Someone will be in shortly to give you an ultrasound to make sure everything is ok with the baby and give you an accurate due date." she says, congratulating us once again as she disappears through the door.
I look over to Bella, huge grin on my face, but her eyes are still on her lap.
"Bella? Oh my god, baby. I'm going to be a dad?" I ask, and I see two large tears fall from her eyes and land on the light blue blanket covering her legs.
"What's going on?" I ask, getting up out of my chair, setting my hand on her flat stomach and looking up at her. "Are you hurt?"
"No, Edward… it's just…" she says, then looks up at me as more tears cloud her eyes.
"I'm not sure if it's yours."
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