Chapter 20: Edward POV

so I hoped you liked my last chapter, thank you for all the alerts and favourites.

I decided to do the same chapter as last time but from Edwards POV, just so you can see how he was feeling when he first saw bella again, and how he felt about her forgiving him so easily.

I will try to update the next chapter later on today, but I cant promise that it will defiantly be up, I will try my best though!

so here we go chapter 20!

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Edward POV

I pushed down on the handle taking a deep breath. I pushed open the metal door and closed it softly behind me. I heard Bella's breath catch in her throat, she thought I was some sort a intruder, proberbly coming to kill her.

my breaths were shallow, but I couldn't help it, and it dawned on me that I was actually going to see bella for real. and the consequences could b devastating. she could try and kill me, through all the anger and pain I caused her. she could break down crying, and it could all come slipping out. she may never want to see me again, and not let me see our children. this was as much about them as it was about her. but, a tiny part of me said, she could forgive me and take me back. but that was unlikely.

what I would give to read the thoughts right now.

I heard her get up of her bed, and walk to the door. she paused for exactly a second, took a deep breath, and opened it.

she looked at me and she gasped. yeah I guess it was a shock for her to see me after all this time.

her eyes were beautiful, even if they weren't the gorgeous choclate brown ones I remembered. she was beautiful. her face was flawless, just like when she was human, her hair hung in heavy dark locks ast her shoulders. I felt I could she into her soul, looking into those eyes of hers. and it felt like she was doing the same thing.

I don't know how long we just stood there, looking into each others eyes. I wonder what she was seeing in mine. regret, hopefulness, sadness, remorse? I hopes she saw all those things, and not just the eyes of the monster who left her.

then she started walking towards me. I wanted to go to her, but I didn't know what she was going to do. I didn't want to scare her, or make her more upset.

my will was crumbling before me and I knew that there wasn't much time until I ran towards her and crushed her to my chest. maybe a few seconds left. then it was gone.

I ran towards her and she ran to me. I took her into a bone crushing embrace. she hugged me back just as tightly. then I pulled back, and I couldn't help myself.

I was stroking her face, running a finger along her cheekbones, across her eyelids, tracing her lips, finally resting my thumb there. then she did the same to me, tracing my features, like they were the only thing she needed to remember, maybe there was a chance she would forgive me, but I mustn't get my hopes up, only for them to be crushed.

she rested her thumb on my lips. it felt so good, to be with her, to finally have her back in my arms. this could be one of the best or worst days of my life. best if she took me back, but worst if she didn't, and never wanted to see me again.

I knew this could be only chance to apologize. so I quickly said everything at once.

'bella you have to know how sorry I am for leaving. I never stopped loving you, I just had to give you a chance at a happy human l-life. I came back, but you were, g-gone and I found your letter and came straight here and joined. then I came to this room after I found a scent like your old one, was your old one and I left a note hoping you would find it. but I couldn't wait. im sorry bella and I know I don't deserve your forgiveness, but please, give me a second chance. I honestly don't know how lo live in a world were you don't excist.' I finished and looked down, ashamed, I knew that my little speech didn't even begin to cover the amount that I owed her, but it was a start.

what she said shocked me, and I guess this was going to be one of the best days of my life.

'of course I forgive you edward, there was never a doubt that I would, I love you.' as soon as she had finished without even thing about it, I crushed my lips onto hers.

this wasn't like the other kisses we shared when she was human. I had to be very careful, control myself so I didn't hurt her. but know there was no hoding back, she was like me. and trust me it was worth it. I could tell even she was shocked because I felt her smile against my lips.

I moved my lips along with hers, and it felt so damn good! I sucked her bottom lip into my mouth, something I would never do when she was human, but now I could. I sucked it until I needed the fell of her lips on mine. as soon as I let go she thrust her tougne into my mouth, and to be honest it shocked me, she never tried to do this when she was human, but I guess she just understood that we needed to be careful then. so I returned the favour and thrust my tongue into her mouth.

my hands travelled to her waist of their own accord and hers travelled softly up my back until she reached my neck. she pulled softly and playfully on the ends of my hair. that nearly sent me over the edge but I controlled it. and I moaned loudly into her mouth. and boy was she happy about that.

I could feel electricity flowing between us. each time she touched me was a tiny little electric shock into my system. I growled into her mouth because of the feel of it.

she then took my tongue between her lips and sucked on it. that was a first for me. who knew she was this adventurous. it felt so good I moaned into her mouth. she moved her lips to mine again. we just kissed for about ten minutes straight, as there was no need to breathe. but I decided it was time to stop, if you carries on, I would end up trying to take things to far, and that wouldn't help.

she rested her head on my chest, and I laid my cheek on top of her hair. i walked us through hand in hadn to her bedroom so we could talk.

I plopped her down on the bed and she moved me so I was laying down next to her.

she looked me in the eyes, and grabbed my collar. her eyes were now burning with desire and lust. she moved her face closer to mine, or was I moving my face closer to hers. I knew we shouldn't do this, but my desire for her was overwhelming me. I wanted her, and by the looks of things she wanted me to.

that made me decide, I wanted her, I needed her. she bit her lip and looked up t me through her long lashes. god she looked sexy.

I reached over and undid the button of that grey cloak, that was hiding her underneath it. she crushed her lips to mine the same time I did. I rolled on top of her and let no air between us, I needed the feel of her, it felt like it was the only thing keeping me alive, if that's what I was. she moaned into my mouth, that got my senses going.

she pushed her tongue to my lips and I allowed her entery. she stroked her tongue along mine. it felt glorious.

my hands travelled down the sides of her body and I could feel her moving beneath me. the finally rested at the sides of her breasts. I was no losing all my will, and I knew it wasn't long before I just took her for myself.

then suddenly she put her hands on my chest, and she pushed me up of her. I rested myself on my elbows and looked at he questioningly. I wondered wether she had suddenly changed her mind and she didn't want me back after all. my heart felt like her next words where going to shatter it.

'bella whats the matter? have you changed your mind?' I didn't even think about what I was saying, it just came out.

'no,no edward, calm down, I just think we should talk first. I mean I want to a lot, but we need to have a talk first'. she smiled at me and looked deep in thought. I broke the silence and she turned her head to look at me. I felt so stupid, I had let my desires take over, and me and bella had only just been re-united. I mentally kicked myself, I could have ruined everything.

'I agree, im sorry bella, I just want you, so much, I couldn't help myself'. I was ashamed of what I had done, it was like I was a hormonal, testosterone fuelled teenager again, instead of a hundred and something old vampire.

'I want you too edward'. she whispered to me. it took me by surprise because I thought she wasn't ready for that yet. but I was always worng when I came to guessing bellas thoughts.

' well can you tell me what happened, to our children?' I asked her, starting the conversation off.

'well, after my birthday, after you l-left, I errm got pregnant.-i murmured silent hushs, to clam her down, as I stroked her cheek- and Jacob told me the stories, and what would happen. I couldn't think of anywhere but here, after you told me that they were the royalty of vampire kind. I mean were else for my children to go when I was dead? I didn't know that they would change me, that I would actually survive them tearing themsleve out of me, but I did. and then a few weeks ago, I wanted to leave, but I knew they wouldn't let me, not with the powers the children bring them. so I tried to escape with them. but the guard found us, and I told them to go without me and find you. and they went, and I havnt seen them since. but I have a plan, once aro trusts me enough to go out and let me hunt, ill leave. and I will find them.' she let out a loud sigh. this was all my fault, if I hadn't left her, we wouldn't be in this situation, my children wouldn't be running around the world, looking for me, when they wouldn't find me, and the wouldn't be in danger.

'edward, I don't want you to blame yourself, sure you leaving had something to do with it, but they would have came anyway, once they got wind of what we had created. You leaving just speeded it up a bit, so don't worry. You're here now and that's all that matters.' she smiled, but I couldn't even force one back.

'thanks bella, but I know it is my fault' I knew she was just trying to make me feel better, she always let me off the hook so easily, I had never met a more forgiving person.

'edward I am aware that you always take the blame, so stop it, now!' she was getting a little mad now. she was so cute when she angry.

'just as stubborn as always' I murmered to myself, stroking her white, perfect cheek with the back if my hand.

'so what are they like, our children?' i asked her, curiosity burning in my eyes.

'well renesmee it smart, kind, funny and very beautiful. she reminds me of you, in her actions. she loves to do everything you do, shes always felt like the younger child out of the two of them, but that's proberbly because shes always been my little girl' she looked like she was going to cry if she could, she was trying to hide it, but she was always bad at hiding things from other people and lying in general. I pulled her against my chest and stroked her hair, trying to soothe her, but I knew it wouldn't even begin to take the pain away.

'and, I hope you don't mind but I called our son edward' I already knew this of course, but why would she think I would mind? I was honoured.

'bella of course I don't mind, but why on earth would you call our son edward after what I did to you?' this was one of the things I had wanted to ask her. she placed her hand on my cheek and looked me directly in the eyes.

'listen here edward cullen, I called our son after his father because he is a good man, with great qualities, and he is the man I love. even if you left me because you didn't want me, I would understand. I was not a vampire, I wasn't strong or beautiful, or funny. I was a shy girl who kept to herself and was completely boring, so I never actually knew why you wanted to be with me. even now, are you sure you wont leave again? I mean, I may be beautiful, but im still the same person, I still have the same personality. that's partly the reason I stopped us before, I didn't want to go that far for you to just leave again, because it will be as painful enough without that.'

I was afraid of this, that she was going to think I was leaving her again. but I would never, ever leave her side again, until she ordered me away. I would never to do that to her again. ad it was just to painful.

edward put both his hands on either side of my head and looked me directly into the eye. he almost looked mad.

' Isabella marie swan, I will never, ever, ever leave you, do you understand me? if I didn't want you, I wouldn't have come back at all. bella to me you were strong and beautiful and funny, you wernt boring, you were interesting. you wernt like anyone I had ever met before. I love you bella, and that's never going to change. I know you feel like there is electricity running between us now bella, I can feel it too. it was like this when you were human aswell. bella you are exactly right for me and I am exactly right for you.' after I said those words, it became more real, like what I was actually saying felt right. me and bell were exactly right for each other. we were like two halves of the same person or something like that. she looked so happy that I picked her up, bridal style and placed a small kiss on her lips.

'okay, now I believe you edward' she giggeled, 'and by the way, I love you' she added at the end.

I loved this woman with all my heart. I knew what I wanted to do, I wanted to marry her. and now was the time to ask her.

'and to prove my love for you bella' i placed her gently on the edge of the bed. she looked nervous, but I let it go.

i got down on one knee, and took her hand in mine. i looked into her eyes. they were the mirror image of mine. burning with lust

'isabella marie swan, I promise to love you every moment forever, will you do the extrodinary honhour of marrying me?' I stayed down on my knee waiting for the answer. she seemed to have froze, so I rubbed circles on the back of her hand. she thawed out and looked at me. just as she did, I remembered why I came here in the first place, to tell her news of our childrens fate, and I had forgotten to tell her.

bella POV

'and to prove my love for you bella' he placed me gently on the edge of the bed, I didn't have a clue what he was going on about, but I suddenly felt anxious.

he got down on one knee, and took my hand in his. he looked into my eyes. his were a brilliant liquid amber, this cant be happening! I thought to myself excitedly.

'isabella marie swan, I promise to love you every moment forever, will you do the extrodinary honhour of marrying me?' he stayed down on his knee and I froze, I was shocked. he rubbed soothing circles on the back of my hand, and I thawed out. I was ready to give him my answer.

'yes edward, I will marry you' I was finally going to be joined to the love of my life forever.

edward, didn't look that pleased that I had said yes. what was wrong with him?

'edward are you okay? edward?' I asked him, concern in my voice. he looked at me and sat down on the bed next to me. she took both my hands in his.

'bella, please ca we just pretend you didn't give me your answer yet?' he asked me smiling. what he didn't want to marry me anymore? there was pain in my eyes

'wha-' he cut me off, explaining things to me.

'no bella, its not that I don't want to, its just I need to tell you something first, and its that important that it cant wait, and I didn't want to spoil the moment you agreed to amrry me with some, unexpected news' what was he going on about, unexpected news?

'edward, what are you talking about?' I was worried now, what was so important that it had to interrupt one of the best moments of my life?

'well as you know, were both in the second highest authority. and as you don't live on the second floor, you didn't find out. aro, Marcus and caius came to see us today. they want all of the second highest authority, apart from you, to go and look for edward and renesmee, and bring them back here.' he looked at me, seriousness all over my face, so he wasn't joking then.

'what?' why?' I screeched/

'they want them back, because of their gifts, aro wants to make his guard stronger. judging by his thoughts when he gets them back, you wont be around for much longer' he was speaking the absolute truth, I should have known he wouldn't let them get away for to long. hopefully they had gone to the place where the voltori wouldn't find them. hopefully they hadn't gone to forks.

so I hoped you liked it. I know you all want some nessie/edward jr POV, but that is going to be the next chapter, just nessie and edward jr POV. I just thought it was best to get edwards thoughts on meeting bella again first, so we know what they are both thinking.

I hope you like the new bit I added at the end in bella POV. sorry that's all I can do for this chapter, but I am going to start writing the next chapter so I should be posted later on tonight.

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