CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE
I was softly strumming my guitar as I waited fro Shane in my room. I hummed a little, I was starting to think he wasn't going to come. It was almost midnight, almost not Christmas anymore. With Dad and Jackson it had been one of the best days since I found out I was a Princess. I'd already sent them gifts back to Malibu a couple of weeks ago, but they brought them with them and we actually sat around the giant tree in the main living room and opened our presents. I didn't open Shane's present until I was up in my room after our family dinner. It was sort of like, yet completely different from our old Christmas'. I sighed and set my guitar down against the bedside table and frowned. I was about to lay down when Shane stepped out from behind the wall outside my bedroom.
"I just wanted to hear you play." Shane explained and I nodded as he came in and sat on the bed opposite me. "You're very talented."
"So are you." I whispered back, Shane had made me a CD as well. It was kind of funny, we'd both made each other CD's of original songs for Christmas with no intention of giving them. "I shouldn't have asked you to come here." I sighed, I'd been thinking about it when I was waiting for him. Asking him to come was just holding on longer and getting hurt later, not to mention cheating on Marcus... Again. "Please don't leave." I felt panicked when he turned. "Not yet." I shook my head and he sat back down.
"You don't want to kiss me and cheat on Hawthorne?" Shane guessed softly.
"I want to kiss you so bad." I contradicted, moving closer to him. "As much as I love you I already cheated on Marcus and he doesn't deserve it."
"That's why you're a million times better than me, 'cause I really don't give a damn about cheating when I'm around you."
"Do you have a girlfriend?" I asked, the way he said made me think he was cheating.
"No." He assured quickly and I let out a breath, no need for both of us to throw all sense of morality out the window. "I had a couple during high school, but the last few years has been mainly training, and you're the only girl I've ever loved."
"Why'd you become an agent." I wondered and he shrugged.
"It's a family thing, my Dad, grandfather, great-grandfather, Uncle Brown... They said they wanted someone who could pass as a kid and I figured why not get in on it a little early?" He explained.
"You ever wanted to do anything else? You're an amazing musician and you have a beautiful voice." I laid down on my back and Shane laid down next to me, both of us staring up at the canopy around my bed.
"Music should be left to the talent, like you, I used to sit outside your door when you were playing at school." I turned my head and Shane was already looking at me, our faces were so close I could feel his breath ghosting over me.
"I made you a CD too." I sat up and reached over to my bedside table. "You just inspire me to play."
"Something about me is finally good for something." Shane muttered dryly and I frowned.
"You're amazing, Shane, never doubt that." I commanded softly.
"Yeah, sure." Shane looked away and I frowned deeper. I put the CD down on the bed and crawled over, straddling him, practically forcing him to look at me.
"Shane. You are amazing." I stroked his cheek. "You're gonna make a girl the luckiest in the world one day." I hurt to say and Shane frowned, his eyes darkening. "You're brave and protective and sweet and kind and sensitive." I was leaning down as I spoke until I realised we were so close I could feel his breath again. "You really are amazing, Shane, I swear." Shane reached up and cupped my cheek, brushing his thumb across my lips as he did. He wanted to kiss me. I wanted to kiss him too, so bad. But, I couldn't do that to Marcus anymore. I licked my lips, it was so hard not to kiss him. I ached for it, I ached for Shane, to kiss him, to taste him, to feel him against me. Shane licked his lips as well and I followed the motion intently with my eyes. The air was so thick you could cut it with a spork. Shane brushed his thumb over my lips again and started to guide me down.
"I want to kiss you." Shane murmured huskilly and my stomach flipped.
"We can't." I feebly protested right before our lips touched. Then I was on my back and Shane's tongue was in my mouth. "Shaney." I moaned when he pulled away from my lips and trailed hot, open-mouth kiss across my cheek, down my jawline and to my neck. He quickly found my pulsepoint. How did he know my pulsepoint was my weakness? I didn't even know it was until Shane. I threaded my fingers through his short black hair and held him to me. "Shaney, Shaney, Shaney." He bit harshly at my pulse and I moaned. After a while I became impatient and tugger Shane's lips back up to mine.
Princess Miley
Monday, December 26
I could feel tears on my cheeks, but I couldn't stop them from comimg. Shane and I had woken up cuddled up in each others arms and we hadn't moved since. Well, I hadn't, Shane had woken up first and I don't know how long he'd been watching me. Shane's lips were pressing against my cheeks and kissing away the tears as they came. I'd realised that after today, after the next two weeks that was really it, Shane was going with my Dad and brother back to L.A, and I'd be married by April. Then there really was no hope. No more soft kisses, he wouldn't hold me anymore, no more texts or emails or calls. I didn't want that. I didn't want to not have Shane, I wanted h im to stay right here with me in my bed for the rest of eternity. The tears slowly stopped and Shane's kisses got closer to my mouth.
"Please?" I breathed and his lips pressed to mine. So soft and amazing.
"Miley?" Shane pulled his head away from me and I realised it wasn't him that said it. Shane was still on top of me, but he had a look of pure horror on his face, it reminded me of the other times and I wondered for a second if that... Thing had happened again. Then I followed his line of sight and I felt horror and guilt course through me.
"M-Marcus!" I pushed Shane off me quickly and sat up.
"You just can't help yourself, can you?" Marcus looked hurt and angry and he was glaring at Shane.
"Marcus, I'm s-" I couldn't say it, I couldn't beg for him to forgive. I regretted hurting him, I regretted cheating, but I couldn't regret being with Shane. "I never wanted to hurt you, Marcus, I swear."
"My eyes weren't pretty enough for you?" Marcus glared.
"Don't talk to her like that." Shane growled, getting up and starting towards Marcus.
"Shane, don't." I got up and got between them. "Marcus, am I so sorry I hurt you, I swear."
"I like you, Miley, and I knew you were hung up on this douche, but I thought we were making progress." Marcus shook his head.
"We were, but I-" I started to insist.
"Forget it, find someone else to marry." He snapped before turned and I couldn't find enough heartlessness in me to chase him and try and convince him to give me another chance. It would just hurt everyone involved. Shane and I were silent.
"Princess?" Shanes voice was soft and hesistant. I looked up at him, he still looked angry, but he was also nervous and his eyes were a little scared.
"Nothing good ever happens when I get out of bed." I mumbled, climbing back on and crawling into the middle. "Hold me?" I requested. Everything was shot to Hell now already, what was the point in being hurt more by making Shane leave? Shane got on the bed again and I felt his hesitant arms around me before he inhaled and seemed to physically relax.
"What's going to happen now?" Shane asked after a while and I shrugged.
"I don't want to think about it." I shook my head. We both knew; there would be someone else, probably a complete jerk, and I'd still be getting married in April. Same situation turned worse. "You're supposed to protect me, right?" I asked, I felt a lot smaller than I was. I felt Shane nod against my hair as he held me. "Protect me now?" I whimpered, only bad stuff would come now. Most people would think it's fun and exciting to find out you're a Crown Princess and going to be Queen within a year. It's really not as much fun as it sounds. You lose everyone you care about, you get your heart broken and end up alone. Shane held me tighter and I felt him sigh. I still had him for right now.
"I'm sorry." Shane murmured and I shook my head.
"It's my fault." It was; I was the one who cheated, I was the one who kept cheating, I was the one who kept stringing Marcus along.
"If I'd been able to stay away none of this would have happened." Shane shook his head and I glared lightly at him.
"I was hooked from day one, I would have tried to find out more whether you wanted me to or not." I pointed out and we both sighed. "Your eyes really are prettier though." I said after a minute of silence and he laughed hollowly.
"Well let's hope the next one has pretty eyes too." He said bitterly.
"I'll only ever love you." I reached up and stroked his cheek beofre bringing him down to me in a soft kiss.
"Don't believe that. Please?" Shane begged, he was always telling em to love other people.
"I've met all the others, Shane, they're jerks bigger than Ecklestien. And the only reason it won't be us is because the King is the biggest jerk of them all." Shane didn't bother to fight it, he just kissed me again, holding me closer to him.
Princess Miley
Tuesday, December 27
I felt guilty. I only had two weeks with my Dad and big brother. Two weeks until they had to go back home and I had to go back to pretending like I was raised Royal. But, I couldn't stop staring at Shane. We were in the cinema room watching some movie Dad had picked out, but for the life of me I couldn't name it, and I'd been staring at Shane through the darkness for the last hour. Shane was standing next to the exit of the cinema room and at first he'd done his best to be professional, but then he'd turned and he'd been staring at me. I saw Shane lick his lips through the glow of the screen and I licked mine unconsciously. I wanted to kiss him so bad.
"Miles." I felt a tap on my arm and I spun around, Jackson was looking at me, completely amused.
"Huh?" I blushed and hoped it was dark enough that he couldn't see. I hoped he couldn't see what - or who - I'd been staring at.
"I said, did you want some popcorn? It tastes funny." Jackson offered and I rolled my eyes.
"It's Genovian Pear flavoured, Cyrus and Genovia are really close." I explained and he shrugged. "And no thank-you." Jackson smirked and looked past me, towards Shane.
"What's over there? The lover boy you're gonna marry?" Jackson asked and I swollowed. I hadn't told anyone about what happened with Marcus yesterday. As far as everyone else was concerned I was still engaged to Lord Marcus Hawthorne.
"No." My mouth felt dry as I forced myself to speak. How was I supposed to tell an entire country that the engagement was off because I was in love with my former security guard who I couldn't be with because the King is a jerk? "I-I need to use the bathroom." I excued myself quickly, practically running to the bathroom in the cinema room. I locked the door and leaned back against it. Queen Mia had called off her wedding, right when it was supposed to be happening no less. But, at least she got the constitution changed in Genovia, at least they let her be Queen without having to get married or produce an heir in a certain amount of time. And she did get to marry the guy she wanted. I not only have to explain why I'm not getting married to the best possible person I could have out of the options, but I have to find some jerk to marry instead and breed with it.
"Princess?" Shane's soft voice whispered through the door and he knocked lightly after trying to open the door. I pushed away from the door and unlocked it, letting Shane in. I hugged him tightly, there had to be something I could do to keep him. "Are you okay, Princess?" Shane brushed his fingers through my hair gently, soothingly.
"I hate it when it just hits me like that." I mumbled into his chest. He smells so good.
"At least you get a pretty crown in the end, though, right?" He tried to lighten the mood and I quirked my lips a little. It was a pretty crown, I'd seen it.
"I'd give up the pretty crown for you a million times a day." I replied, Shane stepped away for a second and sat down on the cold tiles with his back against the door before he pulled me into his lap. "But, my stupid morals say I can't just let a country disolve into non-existance." Stupid morals.
"You're gonna be a great Queen." Shane murmured and I looked up at him. "Smart, beautiful, kind, caring, beautiful." He whispered, his fingers making me shivver when he'd stroking my cheek lovingly.
"You said beautiful twice." I pointed out and he shrugged.
"You're twice as beautiful." He explained casually and I blushed, cuddling into him. "You're going to be an amazing Queen and everyone is going to love you." Shane assured again.
"It still means I have to lose you." Shane's arms tightened around me at those words. "Transfer back!" I suddenly said, turning in his lap to look at him. Shane looked shocked and he just stared at me. "I'm not going to love some other jerk and I don't see any point in pretending that I will. If you transfer back then we can... We can be together." I whispered the last part and Shane kept staring at me, making me nervous.
"We can't be together, Princess, you're getting married." Shane reminded coldly. "What, do you just want me to stand around every day and watch you kiss some other bastard and watch you have sex with and have his kids? Do you just want to torture me?"
"Please? We can try, we can try and work it out. You're the best thing that's ever happened to me, I don't want to lose you again." I begged.
"You should get back to the movie." Shane muttered, avoiding my eyes and I prayed I hadn't just pushed him away. I slowly moved off of Shane's lap and stood up, waiting for him to stand up too so I could leave. Shane stood, still blocking the door and he looked down at me. "Just let me decide." He muttered and I nodded quickly. Shane stepped forward and before I could even register it he was kissing me and I was moaning into his lips.
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Miley is now 19-year-old... Gosh, and to think, she Auditioned for HM when she was 11... It's been 19 years since the world changed forever, 8 years since a girl was told she was too small, but they wanted her anyway.
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As I write this AN it's 10 minutes till 11:23 PM on 11/23 in California and the big release is happening. It's Miley's birthday and she's the one giving us the present :D
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