Panic attacks are super scary but if you ever find yourself having one, my suggestion is to (if possible) wrap yourself up in a blanket and breathe into the nose and out through the mouth. It's difficult but it really helps to slow your breathing. If you find yourself with someone who has them, DO NOT LEAVE THEM ALONE. If possible, hug them, because it really does help to have something wrapped around you, and tell them to breathe. You can also just rub their back and help them breathe.
I've had tons of panic attacks so it works.
Also watching Tangled helps too and eating mac and cheese always makes people feel better.
"Oh god, is he okay?" Yuukio and Kaoru rushed to the door that Hikaru was banging on.
"Xavier!" Hikaru shouted, trying to get the male to open the door. "He won't open it." Hikaru tried to open it, but it barely budged. "Xavier, please, open it up." He begged, worried about the male.
"I'm fine." Xavier croaked from the other side. "You guys just startled me, that's all." He curled up against the door, wishing they would leave him be. Hikaru knew he wasn't fine.
"Xavier!" Hikaru called again, knocking on the door. "Come on, please let us in!"
"Xavier…" Yuukio said softly, getting Hikaru to back away from the door. "Hey, sweetie, let me in." She pushed gently, getting a crack so she could see in. "Come on, we're best friends. I know something hasn't been right lately."
"I'm…fine." He replied, though he knew he wasn't.
"C'mon, let me in." She repeated herself and he back away from the door, she slipped in and shut it behind her. "Xavier!" She exclaimed, seeing him curled up on the floor. She couched down and patted his arm, trying to get him to look at her. "Hey, it's going to be okay."
"No it's not." He cried, holding his head with his hands. "I…I…can't…..breathe…..panic attack."
"I could tell." She said, pulling him closer so she could hug him. "Just hug me and breathe. In through the nose, out through the mouth." She said and he held onto her tightly, burying his face in her shoulder as he tried to follow her orders. "Got to calm the breathing down to make you feel better. That's much better." She said, rubbing his back. "You're doing great."
"I can't." He cried. "Monique cheated on me." He continued and he felt Yuukio's grip get tighter.
"That bitch." She murmured, holding Xavier tighter. "Don't you worry about her, you'll find someone much better. You feeling better?"
"No….well…..yes…but…" He released her, sitting back and leaning against the wall. "It's so hot….I feel awful…..Monique…urg…" He couldn't even think straight.
"Tell me what happened with Monique." Yuukio said, looking at him.
"Her best friend texted me the other night…when Renge was spending the night at your place. She told me how Mona was cheating on me with this guy she met in Portugal. So I called her to dump her, and she threw a huge fit…telling me it was my fault…I didn't try enough…..I cared more about my future and friends than her…..she was the best I was ever going to get….that she cheated because she was bored with me." He stared at his hands in his lap, thinking about the argument. "Then…I had this weird dream…..it just made everything worse." He used his wristband to wipe the sweat off his forehead.
"Oh, Xavier." Yuukio sighed, taking a hold of his hands. "None of that stuff is true. You were an amazing boyfriend to her. She'll never find anyone as good as you."
"I just…..I can't…" He trembled and Yuukio held his hands tighter.
"You will. Now, come on. You need to get back to bed." Yuukio stood, pulling Xavier up with her. She dragged him out of the bathroom and into his room. Hikaru and Kaoru stood by as he fell into his bed, groaning and cursing his life. He pulled his covers up and groaned again. Hikaru plopped down on the open side.
"Are you okay?"
"No." Xavier sighed, shaking his head slowly. Hikaru looked at Yuukio and Kaoru nervously, looking back to Xavier. He was so antsy right now. He wanted to know what happened, since Kaoru pulled him away from the bathroom door to give the two space. He was hesitate, but he reached out and scratched Xavier's back.
"Well, you will be." Hikaru said, hoping he was comforting the boy.
"I'm going to tell Renge…" Yuukio murmured quietly to Kaoru, he followed her out of the room. Hikaru continued and Xavier didn't protest.
"When it rains it pours." Xavier grumbled and he turned, facing Hikaru. His eyes were closed and he started to relax, his breathing slowing. Hikaru relaxed back onto the bed, lying next to Xavier.
"They're going to watch him…." Yuukio said when she came back into the room, and saw Hikaru scratching his back. "We'll be downstairs with Renge." She left again. Hikaru took that as he cue to leave, so he stopped scratching Xavier's back and slowly started to get up to leave.
"Don't stop." Xavier grumbled, clinging onto Hikaru, moving closer to him and sighing when Hikaru began scratching his back again. "Thanks…." He closed his eyes again, his chin resting on Hikaru's chest.
"I gotta go though." Hikaru told him after another minute passed.
"No." Xavier pouted, holding onto him tighter. "Don't…go….please…I'm sick of being alone." He admitted, looking at him before looking away. "I'm lonely. Please."
Hikaru chalked it up to the medication and stress, but he continued scratching his back, letting Xavier use him as a pillow as the male fell asleep.
"Hey, Hikaru." Yuukio said about an hour later. Hikaru jumped awake, groggily rubbing his eyes, trying to wake himself up from his nap. Xavier head was buried in the crook of his neck and his arm was around him, still asleep. "Ready to wake up? Aw, look at you two."
"Shut up." Hikaru grumbled, sliding out from Xavier's grip. The male just groaned and pulled the covers up more. He headed towards the door and the both of them quietly slipped out. "So what happened? Why did he freak out?"
"Monique cheated on him" Hikaru was really angry about this.
"Why the hell did she cheat on him?
"He told me she was sort of playing victim and that she called him boring, which is what hit him the hardest I think. That's always been his fear, and that he'll never find anyone else who wants to put up with him." Yuukio shook her head as they went down the stairs. "Just help him breathe if it happens again."
"Don't worry, Ms. Clarisse knows how to handle them. She told me Xavier used to have them a lot when he was younger." Renge sighed as Ms. Clarisse came out of the kitchen with a tray.
"I'm just glad you three were there to help him." She said, balancing the small amount of food that was on the tray, the drink, and the medication for Xavier. "I wish you could make him eat as well. That boy, he'll starve himself. I know it's hard to eat when his throat hurts, but it's good for him."
"I wouldn't wanna eat oatmeal either." Hikaru scrunched up nose at the food.
"It's very good for you." Ms. Clarisse said. "I mix honey in mine, so it's sweet. If you hear yelling, it means he's eating." She chuckled and hurried up the stairs.
"I hope he's not like this for too long." Renge said, watching the maid disappear upstairs. "But he was with Monique for quite a while, and they were good friends since they were kids. Like, they spent all their time together as kids and she missed him a lot when he went to America. I think that's why she made such a push to date him when he came back."
"They were that good of friends?" Hikaru questioned, surprised.
"Oh, yeah, best friends. She wasn't as bad then, but, then again, Xavier was shy and introverted, so Monique was the boss there. I think that's why the relationship didn't work. He finally got some guts and started standing up for himself once he got back. Monique liked that at first, but then it got annoying when he wouldn't do everything she wanted." Renge explained. "So he lost a girlfriend and his best friend in all this. Plus, he doesn't have his other best friends here with him."
"He has us though." Hikaru seemed a bit offended. He did just let Xavier sleep on him for the past hour.
"Yeah, he does. I think he's going to be okay." Renge said as they heard Xavier whine loudly.
"Not hungry!" He exclaimed. "I fuckin' hate oatmeal, it's so nast-"
It then got quiet and they waited to hear something.
"Sick or not you do not curse at me and you will eat your oatmeal young man." They heard Ms. Clarisse say. "I'm going back downstairs. When I come back up it better be all gone." They heard her leave his room and she walked down the stairs happily. "They boy has such a mouth on him. He tried to bite me when I wanted to take his little wristband and wash it. It's probably filled with sweat and germs."
"Good luck. Stella gave it to him and the others have matching ones. He'll never take it off. It's as close to a tattoo that he'll ever get." Renge told her. "Would you guys like some tea?" She offered.
"Oh yes!" Yuukio smiled and she led them up to her room. Her room was large, with posters and plushies everywhere of different shows and characters. She sat down at a nice round table and the others joined her as a maid brought a tray of tea and treats. "I love having tea with you, you have the best sweets. I always have to go to the gym like crazy afterwards."
"It's all lowfat and low carb." Renge smiled as she added sugar to her tea. "Still tasty though."
"This is weird." Hikaru muttered, looking at her room. "Aren't you afraid to sleep with all these eyes staring at you?"
"You and Xavier sure are obsessed with things…" Kaoru felt weird, sitting in his seat awkwardly.
"I feel like I'm more normal."
"At least the people he obsesses over are real." Hikaru said snidely and Renge glared at him.
"Xavier is…." Renge trailed off, thinking of what to say. "I love him a lot because he's my cousin but….I really worry about him. His father is not pleased with anything he does and I don't really blame him. Running around, playing music, being mobbed by girls and singing those songs…" Renge looked slightly disgusted.
"What's so wrong with that?" Yuukio questioned, surprised by how Renge was acting. Renge was never this snobby about things, especially when it came to Xavier. "Are you not okay with his choices?"
"No, not really. I put up with it for him." She shrugged.
"You 'put up' with it?" Hikaru questioned, starting to get annoyed at the blonde girl.
"Fuck everyone." Xavier groaned as he opened the door, trudging into the room and collapsing onto the bed, sighing. "I fucking hate oatmeal."
"Did you eat it?" Renge asked, sipping her tea.
"Of course I did." He looked at her, his eyes bloodshot. "Think I got a death wish?"
"You feeling better?" Yuukio asked and he yawned, putting his head back down.
"Oh…you guys are here.." He grumbled, seeming to not remember anything that happened.
"Yeah, I talked to you. You not remember?" Yuukio asked, furrowing her brows.
"Urg…not….not really. It's really blurry." He admitted, rubbing his face as he propped himself up with his elbow. "The medication messes with my head. I was spouting nonsense earlier with Ms. Clarisse. It's worn off now though." Hikaru couldn't tell if he was relieved or upset that Xavier couldn't remember that he basically cuddled with Hikaru earlier.
"You should take more then." Renge said, ready to call one of the maids.
"No!" He exclaimed, sitting up. He put a hand to his forehead and swayed a bit, his balancing having been thrown off due to the sudden movement. "No, I don't wanna take it. It tastes awful and I'm sick of sleeping."
"You need to get better for the club." Renge continued and Xavier whined.
"That shit causes crazy weird nightmares." He argued, running his hands through his hair. "I can't take it anymore. The dreams are too much for me."
"Better get used to it." Renge pressed a button and a bell was heard throughout the house. Xavier just glared at her as a maid opened the door.
"Yes Miss Renge?" The maid questioned and Renge glanced to Xavier.
"Xavier needs more of his medicine. The liquid, not the pills." Renge said and the maid nodded her and disappeared again.
"Urg, you little…" He growled, coughing. "Fuckin' hate this place." He said as Ms. Clarisse came into the room with a tray in her hands.
"You need to get back to bed. No sense in getting the others sick." She said and he rolled off the bed, flicking Renge off before following Ms. Clarisse back to his room.
"Harsh." Hikaru grumbled, annoyed with Renge for how she treated Xavier. "Sounds like the medication isn't being easy on him."
"He's fine. He's being dramatic." Renge brushed Hikaru's glare off and sipped her tea like nothing happened.
Xavier doesn't return the feelings because he had a girlfriend…and he just broke up with her, so, please, give it some time. I don't rush these things.
I have like, 4 chapters already typed out and ready to post.