Hi, so this is the last chapter for all. I hope you enjoyed this background story on Pamela. Here is the last chapter. Pamela's POV in Mystery in Past's chapter 15:
The walk to her chair seemed long as she recited each and every word Jenna had spoken. She knew that by helping Jenna she could live but couldn't do it. Pamela was now standing near her throne like chair. She smiled. She had sat at the real one on the day she agreed to marry Brian. She wondered how she had forgotten that.
Slowly, she started to sit down and took out the small bottles from the box next to the chair. She had her chance to live and now she wanted Beetle to have it.
The sound of footsteps made her look up as James ran to her. "Pamela, why did you reject James's army's help?" he asked with an edge of urgency to his voice.
"After talking with Jenna today I realized I can't call the border army. The moment they came, the Eastern Snow Planes would attack. If I let this disaster happen, I have lost everything to Jenna." she answered.
"So… what now?" inquired James, rather worried.
Pamela gulped. "So, it's time to stop now." she saw the horror in James's eyes. "There's no need to make a big deal out of it." she looked away from him. "I know it's been near forty years but do you remember our army's saying? The one we had to repeat over and over because of your trouble makings?" she laughed quietly.
James too laughed quietly and nod his head. "Fight, and fight when you can_"
"If fighting wasn't possible then keep what you have. When you can't even keep what you have, retreat is a victory in its own" Pamela aided.
"When you can't retreat then it's time to surrender and if surrendering is in vain; then..." James's voice trailed off as the meaning sank in and he looked at her.
Pamela met his gaze. "Then on that day, demise shall be your best companion." she finished calmly. "Today is that day. I leave everything to you."
James took a step forward. "No, Pamela, we'll do this together." he insisted.
"This is my last act and command. Please follow it." she replied sternly. "James, you must take care of all those who followed me. Leading them is your responsibility now. I trust you."
Her command made it clear for James that Pamela was sacrificing herself to have Jenna let Beetle and her followers live. "Why are you thinking about them now? How can you let this weaken you?
She gripped the armrest to keep her voice steady. "Nothing weakened me. I have had many tactic and plans. This is the last one of them."
James was speechless. He watched her take out a small envelop and motion it so that he would come closer. Shakily, he walked to her. "You can't do this to me." he said with a tremble and touched her face. "Are you that determined?" he asked with a low tone and Pamela nodded. Tears in her eyes had made her look even more beautiful than ever.
Pamela watched him getting closer and heard his voice. "Can I be something more than a friend for just this once?" he whispered and took her shoulders that she turned her head in rejection. She could feel James stop next to her ear. He drew back with his eyes red and gazed at her with agony.
"The exact instructions are written in this letter. Follow it. I leave Beetle in your care." she said rapidly to not let the moment affect them as much. James took a deep breath and reached to take the envelop that Pamela paused.
All he had ever given her was love but she could never return it. She knew he deserved better but even in this last moment she was unable to let him come any closer. "James, thank you..." she held back her tears as a grim smile painted on her face. "And sorry." unsure about what to do she pushed the envelope in his hands.
James never broke his gaze with her. Her smile widened. Now that she looked at it, she had fulfilled her ambition to be a Queen. The power of a true Queen was hers even though she never received the title. The thought relieved her as she circle her fingers around her marriage ring. The bracelet was missing. It was in the letter that James would give to Beetle. It was a reminder of who she truly was. Because in the end she was Pamela.
This was a chapter for those reader like Lady Lysithia and Septimusjennashipping who have read Mystery in past. My special gratitude to you and all who helped along the way. Hope you enjoyed this fanfiction and please feel free to tell me your thoughts on it.
