I opened my eyes, I was in a white room and an annoying beeping was giving me a head ach. I recognized this room as a hospital room, my eyes closed again as I remembered what sent me here. Something Andrew did?

I gasped as the memories of everything played out in my mind. I ignored the sharp pain in my side and snapped my eyes open to search for Edwards face. I found him sitting next to me staring at me, he was very close only a couple inches away from my face.

"Edward" I moaned, Edward reached out to touch my face. I leaned in to his cold comforting touch. "What happened?"

"After you got hit we rushed you to the hospital, you had to go directly into surgery. The rib that you fractured a little while ago snapped off and punctured your lung. They had to connect your rib back with a metal rod. You lost so much blood Bella, they had to give you a few transfusions. I am so sorry" Edward said softly.

"Are you ok? Are you hurt at all?" I asked frantically remembering the angry gashes down his face. Edward put his hand on my cheek to calm my rapid heartbeat.

"Yes Bella, not a scratch on me" Edward tried to get me to believe, but I saw a light scar in his forearm because his shirt sleeves were rolled up.

"Edward! What's that, what happened?" my eyebrows were knitted together in a worried line.

"its just a little scratch Bella, didn't even hurt I promise. The only thing you need to do is heal" Edward once again tried to sooth me.

Something Edward had said finally caught up with me, why is he sorry. I don't remember him pushing me in front of the car. "What are you sorry about Edward, you don't have a reason to be sorry" I told him, breathing shallowly.

"This never would have happened if you weren't with me" Edward looked down.

"I know" I said "I wouldn't be alive for this to happen to. I don't think I need to remind you about my life before you. You seem to have a good memory. I won't disturb you with the details, but let's just say you have helped me more than you can ever possibly understand" I didn't want to admit that I probably would be dead by now without him, at Andrews hand or my own.

"No, Bella you don't understand. Those vampires, Victoria and James went to your house because they could smell my scent. They were curious then when you started to bleed." Edward shook his head. I tried to reach out and grab his hand but it hurt my arm. Edward saw what I wanted and took my hand in his own.

"Bella I can not believe the danger I put you in. You would be better off without me, safer, you could lead a normal life" Edward still wasn't looking at me but his thumb caressed my hand. There he goes again doing that self pity thing he always seemed to make things his fault.

"I don't know how to make you understand this Edward. Before you it was like I was drowning I could seem to get things right. Then I met you and I seemed to be swimming, everything was falling into place. I need you Edward, leave if you want but that won't make me need you any less." I took a breath and continued quickly before I lost my nerve.

"I told you I love you, and I mean it. Edward you can do whatever you want, if you feel the need to leave then by all means leave. I just want you to know how I feel. Don't feel guilty or like I am pushing you to stay with me. Stay if you want to, only if you want to. Leave if you want to, but only if you want to Edward. Don't do it for something as stupid as my safety" I looked away embarrassed by my outburst of feeling.

Edward pulled my face back towards his, I looked into his golden topaz eyes once again, he kissed me. He kissed me hard; I breathed into the kiss and moved my mouth against his. Edward pulled away and pressed his cheek to mine so his lips were at my ear and whispered.

"I love you too Bella" I smiled and blushed. Of course the moment was ruined when Alice and Carlisle bounced into the room, well only Alice was bouncing.

"Hi Bella!" Alice sang as she danced over to the other side of my bed opposite Edward.

"Hello Bella" Carlisle said as he walked into my room I smiled at both of them Carlisle went to check my chart. I leaned back on my pillow and closed my eyes. My side was starting to ach.

"Bella?!" Edward asked frantically still holding my hand. I opened my eyes slightly and looked at him through the narrow slits.

"Are you alright? What hurts. Carlisle give her more medication!" Edward was becoming nervous.

"Shh I'm fine, don't worry so much" I closed my eyes again.

"Carlisle" Edward commanded.

"Edward she cant handle any medication for at least an hour, she already has too much in her system" Carlisle tried to calm him.

"You know Bella I think you are the only human to be cornered by vampires and injured because you were hit by a car" Alice said after a moment of silence. I smiled, it sounds so strange when she put it like that.

"weird" I murmured eyes still closed. The pain in my chest was becoming more aggressive and making breathing and talking wildly unpleasant. My face might have turned into a slight wince.

"I have to go" Edward said quickly. My eyes shot open only quickly enough to watch him walk quickly out the door. My throat became tight, I closed my eyes again so I couldn't cry.

"Edward!" Alice called sharply after him. She muttered something sounding like idiot under her breath, but I wasn't listing. I guess Edward had made his choice.

EPOV

I couldn't watch her lie in that bed wincing in pain not even able to breathe right and not know it was all my fault. I am the cause of all of this pain for her. She has been through too much to need anymore pain in her life time.

I was selfish. I couldn't watch her in pain, I couldn't. I felt unbelievably guilty just looking at her reminded me of my stupidity. I could have saved her, I should have but I didn't. I heard Alice call me back angrily. I saw Bella in her mind, she watched me with a hurt expression.

I started to run once I was out of sight of the hospital. It was still very late at night, I ran into the forest dodging trees easily. I ran faster than I thought possible I had no idea where I was going.

Rosalie stood leaning against a tree, I slowed down. What could she possibly want. She pushed off the tree and walked over to me. Alice called us Edward. She clued me in with her thoughts.

"It's all my fault, she would be fine and healthy if it weren't for me" I didn't know why I was talking to Rosalie about this of all people. Sure she feels for Bella, they have something in common but she also is jealous. Her opinion can't be unbiased.

"I know it's your fault Edward. I'm not Esme, I wont baby you and tell you something I don't believe, you messed up. But guess what Edward, everyone does so wake up. So what are you going to do now, you messed up are you going to run away from it. From the girl? The girl you broke by lack of action and stupidity. Or be a man and step up and help fix her."

"Edward I don't think you want to leave her to protect her like you always say, I think you scared. You are scared of messing up, your scared of being close to this human. You don't want to get in too deep, you already are in too deep with the little human girl" Rosalie looked at me her face stone and empty of any emotion.

I turned around and ran back in the direction of the hospital. I ran faster than I did to get away. I reached the edge of the forest but daylight had broken through the night and with it, a sunny day.

BPOV

"See you later Bella, its almost morning. Try and get some more sleep." Alice told me as she and Carlisle walked out of the hospital room. Almost morning what? Why would they be here at night. Oh right vampires.

I couldn't think about it much because I had once again looked over wanting to see Edward but he was not there. He left Bella, I had to keep reminding myself. He said he loved me though.

I looked down at my bed as a tear escaped my eye and slid down my cheek. My rib cage was aching as was my head. The door opened and I looked up hoping for Edward. It wasn't Edward, it was Charlie, and Renee.

"baby" Renee whispered as she rushed to my side, I couldn't help but remember it was the side Edward was sitting on. Charlie rushed over to stand behind Renee.

"Are you alright?" Renee asked.

"Fine mom, just tired and sore" I said my voice sounded like a robot's emotionless and empty. A knock at the door made us all turn our attention to the door I foolishly hoped it was Edward again.

Agent Salvin walked into my room, she looked nervous and sorry. I wonder what she is doing here. I wonder what she is going to say. I wish Edward was here. I nearly cried at the mention of his name.

"Hello, I have news about the case as well as news about who hit you" I nodded as to tell her to go on.

"We are ruling this as self defense and it will not go to court nor are there any punishments for you Bella. The person who hit you was drunk, she is now in a critical condition because after hitting you she ran into a tree down the road" I nodded, feeling immense relief that my parents would never have to know.

"There's more, Bella I think you know her. It was Juliana Mort, Andrew Mort's mother" I was so shocked I couldn't speak. My mother gasped and grabbed my hand. Agent Salvin left soon after. I didn't process it though.

She wanted to hit me, I know it. I did after all kill her only child. I want Edward, I want to leave. I stood up and ripped off the heart monitor pads and the iv. I couldn't even feel the pain as I ripped out the needle. I pulled away the oxygen tube from under my nose.

I could hear Renee and Charlie jump up startled and try to stop me. I just stood up and ignored them and ran out of the room, I could feel the throbbing in my side but it didn't matter.

I heard people running after me, Renee would grab my hand. I yanked it away making a noise from the pain she caused. I was crying now, from everything and of course the blinding pain in my side. I wanted to feel the pain though, because at least I was feeling something.

I saw nurses and doctors lips moving in the hallways, I could see all of their worried and confused expressions. I couldn't bring myself to care though. I didn't care that I was causing a huge commotion, I didn't care that I was in so much pain that I almost wished I were dead.

I kept running, even when I couldn't walk I limped and used the wall to hold myself up. People were pushing wheel chairs at me, even stretchers. I wanted to get away, from them from all of it.

I forced myself to run, I went as fast as I could with the crippling pain in my side. I was in the ER running to the parking lot. People were shouting, maybe they would shoot me with those sedative darts like on TV.

The double doors opened for me, letting me go into the sunset. I ran, sobbing into the parking lot. A silver Volvo skidded to a stop a couple feet from me, I stopped running. Edward got out of the car quickly his eyes were frantic, a sob tore through my chest.

I stumbled forward and tried to run again but it hurt too much, I cried out in pain. Edward ran forward. I reached out to him and latched my arms around his neck sobbing into his chest.

Edward lifted my legs so he help me against his chest. He started walking, Edward walked all the way back to my room. Everyone was silent with the exception of my cries. When we got to my room Edward didn't put me in the bed, he sat down on the couch with me still in his lap.

I cried into his chest as he stroked my hair and sat there silently. I could hear others in the room talking quietly. I felt the cool liquid on my hand cleaning the blood off and placing a bandage on it.

"I'm here" was all Edward whispered. I believed him, he was staying, at least for now.

20/19 reveiws please lovely readers.