Natsume's P.O.V
So many things had happened to day. My head was swimming with all the new information that was trying to process in my head.
Mikan was back, though she was a completely changed person.
She was very powerful.
She killed people, something that hurt my chest at the thought of it. The thing I had tried so hard to keep her away from was what I pushed her to do.
I had kissed her, and I knew she enjoyed it, so that must mean that there is at least a sliver of hope that she still loves me.
But that sliver must be very small, because of how she acts indicates that she hates me. Either she is pushing me away on purpose for her own reasons, or she is scared.
I know that there is no way that she can really hate me….unless she has changed more then I think. Mikan isn't capable of hate…hopefully.
Sighing, I plop on my bed. Today had been a long day, far to long for my liking. I had a feeling that I would need every ounce of sleep I could get before things got more complicated then they already were.
Just as my mind was about to succumb to the familiar lull of sleep, there was an abrupt knock on my door. I groan loudly, sitting up, I trudge slowly out of my room to the living room, but I see a familiar figure already seated on the couch. A growl escapes my lips.
"What the hell do you want?" I spit at Persona, making a smile grow on his black lips.
"Is that any way to welcome your dear teacher permanently back to the academy, Natsume? Or should I saw, Black Cat?" he says, sneering at me.
"I asked what the hell you wanted, if you expect a welcome back gift then the best you are getting is a third degree burn and me flipping you off," I growl.
He smirks. "You haven't changed one bit, I see. Still have that spark of defiance that you are so famous for. I was just going to ask you something, but if you are going to be so disrespectful, then im not sure I want to," he says, getting up.
I knew that I shouldn't ask, but my curiosity got the best of me.
"What is it?" I ask, just as his hand is going to touch the doorknob to leave.
He smirks at me over his shoulder, casually walking back over to the couch and plopping down.
"Let me ask you a few questions before I answer your question. What do you think of the new Mikan?" he asks.
I keep my usual stone-faced expression even though my anger towards him is building by the second. I clench my jaw shut and grind my teeth together.
"I have to see, I like her much more like this. She is so much more feisty now. She bites back instead of just getting all teary eyed. Teary eyed like you made her when she was here." he taunts.
I know every single one of the mind games he is playing. He is trying to get me mad, that I knew. My fury was growing with ever word that comes out of his mouth. He is winning.
"You ruined her!" I hiss.
He straight into my eyes, black and crimson locking in a deadly battle.
"No, you are mistaken. I tainted her. I showed her the true evils in the world, exposing her to violence, murder, and all the things that are kept out of view of normal people. You and your friends ruined her. I would've never gotten the chance to do that to her if you hadn't pushed her to the edge." he says, nearly making me flinch at the truth behind his words.
"I was trying to protect her."
"You couldn't protect her from yourself." he says. A thick, tension filled silence fills the room.
"You are right, I couldn't. I did lead her to her own demise, but I didn't cut the final cord of her sanity. I didn't make her into the monster. She could have recovered from the hurt I caused her. Lived a regular life. But you didn't want her too, did you? You wanted her to become a monster like you. Because you don't want to be alone." I say.
I look straight into his eyes and see that I hit just the right spot. He was practically seething. I give him a smirk and that seems like a challenge to him.
"At least I was there when she cried." he says.
"At least I didn't make her into something for my own gain," I say.
He scowls, knowing I've won. It didn't take him long for that smile to come back to his lips, like he remembered something important that he absolutely knew would get the reaction he wanted out of me.
"Well," he says, getting up and walking towards the door again. "I just came here to see if you wanted to come on a mission with Mikan and Aki. I see now that you wouldn't be interested in things like that, so I will be taking my leave now," he says.
"With who?" I ask venomously.
"Aki, the male leader of the group. Quite the charmer." Persona says.
"Where is he?" I ask.
"Ill be sure to text you the place when in find out," he says, that evil smile on his face. He knew he was starting problems and he loved it. He loved starting problems in general.
"Whatever." I say. Persona gives me one last smirk and walks out of the room.
I go back to my room and lay on my bed. Im much to fired up to sleep now. I knew I should have just let him leave instead of getting me all pissed over something I couldn't control.
I feel my phone vibrate.
Northern woods. 7.
Perfect. I have the time and place and now I can kick that guys ass into next week. He deserved it. Then I would take Mikan's place on the mission.
I get up and get dressed in black clothing, and I grab my back up gun from its usual place in my nightstand.
I walk out the door.
Here I come, asshole.
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Mikan's P.O.V
I run with Seb down the stairs and out the door. It didn't take more then a few minutes to get there, and it took an even shorter amount of time to figure out where they were. They were loud and obnoxious as hell.
I see Natsume shooting fire and dodging, while Aki was charging. They didn't even seem to notice me.
I walk into the middle, where they are charging, and right before they hit me I grab their heads and slam them into the dirt.
Both groan and roll over, staring up at me.
"What the HELL are you two doing?" I hiss. Natsume stares up at me blankly, and Aki stares up at me with a pissed off expression.
"Fighting. I was taking your place on your mission." Natsume says.
"Oh get of your high-horse. You are no prince charming so stop acting like one. Its just plain stupid. I can handle myself." I snap.
Then I turn my eyes to Aki.
"YOU COULD HAVE KILLE HIM!"I yell. Aki just gives me an evil smirk.
"You would care about your lover boy, ri-" he starts before my foot is in his face.
"Don't even start. Natsume isn't the first one and you know it. You just want a nice fight because you know that you can't get one. He could be dead. You know he is actually an asset here. God you are so stupid," I say. He just glares up at me while Natsume looks up at me with pride.
I turn back to him.
"He would have killed you. Stop being stupid and rash and actually think for the first time in your life. You aren't the best at everything anymore so stop trying to act like it." I say before walking off.
Just as im walking off, I remember something.
"Oh, and you can't take my place on the mission. Don't ever try to do it again." I say, before I walk away.
I make sure I was out of sight when I fall to the ground.
I had to stop theses feelings… I couldn't be feeling it for Natsume anymore. It would get all of us killed.
The thought of him dying… what would have happened if I hadn't stepped in… I didn't even want to think about it.
It needed to stop.
It needed to stop.
I couldn't keep feeling like this.
Because if you are me, feelings get you nothing but a cold dagger in the heart.
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