Disclaimer: I do not own Eclipse. I borrowed some quotes from the movie, but I do not own them. The great Stephanie Meyer does.

LILY

It was time. Bella and Jacob were starting their trek up the mountain, and Edward had already gone up to help set up the camp. The rest of us were waiting in the clearing, doing whatever we could to shake the nerves away. Emmett and Jasper were wrestling; Alice, Rosalie, and Esme had started planning for Edward and Bella's wedding, and the wolves were just sitting there. Doing nothing. Probably bored as hell.

I had been staring at Seth for the past hour, thinking about how agonizingly painful it was going to be to not "overdo" it with him for the next three years. It was even worse when I thought about the amazing time we had Wednesday night. It was just that. Amazing.

"Lily, get your head out of the gutter. I can feel your lust from across the field!" Jasper yelled to me after sending Emmett to the ground yet again. He found out, naturally. It wasn't like I was trying to hide it anymore. It was kind of obvious what we usually did when we were together. Something about coming home with messy hair and ripped clothes gives it away.

"When are they going to be here, Alice?" I asked, taking the spotlight off of me. I heard Emmett chuckle from somewhere behind me, and I could picture Jasper rolling his eyes. After a while, everything just got so predictable.

"Ten minutes. The wolves need to hide and we need to get organized," Alice put the magazines away in a tree somewhere and the wolves ran out into the woods where the newborns wouldn't find them. The six of us lined up in the middle of the field, waiting for the newborns to come.

I hadn't realized it until now, but I didn't want to go back to who I was. Even if it were only for a little while. I liked the new me. The fun me. Where I had a family and a life to live. The life I had, fighting all the time, that wasn't a life. Even so, if I wanted to survive, I had to sink back into Lily Whitlock, soldier, just for a little while, even if I didn't want to.

"Are you okay?" Jasper asked me. He would know how this feels. Going back to the mindset of a monster. I didn't want to look weak in front of him, but I couldn't hold it in anymore.

"No," I said, "But it doesn't matter. We're doing this for Bella, and for our family. My insecurities don't matter right now. The only thing that does is that we win and we make this town safe again," I said. I really felt like a soldier now. Jasper just nodded.

"I know exactly how you feel," he said.

I didn't have time to respond. The newborns came running in at an unbelievable speed, and any negative feelings towards fighting were soon forgotten.

I jumped towards the first newborn I could find, and I went straight for it's head. With every newborn, the battle got easier. I lost more and more sense of who I had become in the past months and went back to who I was in my first months of life. Thinking like a newborn and not like a human. Thinking about where my target was versus where I was going to be. Attacking. Killing.

Every thought they had I heard. Every move they made I saw. Every emotion they felt I experienced. I wasn't used to these new powers, but they made me a stronger fighter. I heard the way the thought about my family, and that made me want revenge. I saw the different ways they were going to try and kill me, and that made me want to protect myself. I felt the aggressiveness and eagerness they had to finish me off, and that made me want to prove them wrong.

I got to one particular newborn, and everything changed. She was thinking about a boy. Diego. She wasn't plotting ways to kill me, but ways to be safe again. She felt scared. She was harmless. But who was she?

"Please don't kill me," she begged as I moved in closer to her. It was just the two of us, and no one else. Whether this girl lived or died was my decision. Her life was in my hands. I wasn't ready to make this decision yet.

"Are you going to try and kill me?" I asked her. She was shaking with fear, and it was an overwhelming amount. Now I know why this gift could be a curse.

"No, I never wanted to hurt anyone," she said, gasping. Her eyes were a bright red. She was probably thirsty. They all were.

"Lily!" Jasper yelled running over to me at a vampire speed. He went to grab for the girl, but I stopped him.

"Don't!" I yelled. He looked at me like I was insane. I probably was. With vampire wars, there are no prisoners. You fight and you win, or you die.

"She doesn't want to hurt us, Jasper. She's young. She's confused. You can feel how scared she is. She didn't know any better," I tried explaining to him. He still didn't understand.

"We don't know if she's truly feeling that way or not-"

"And we don't know that she isn't! Jazz, you have a good heart. Show it. If that were me lying there, would you think about killing me? That's someone's daughter. Someone's sister. Someone's lover. If we kill her, and she was innocent, what does that make us?" I decided then and there that I wasn't going to let this girl die because of this. She deserved a right to live just as any of us do.

"Close your eyes," Jasper ordered the girl, and she obeyed instantly. "You open them, you say any words, or you move at all without my orders, and I will kill you. Nod your head if you understand."

She did.

I did it. She was going to live because of me. I saved her life.

Out of nowhere, I heard screaming. I turned around to see Leah go after a newborn that had been hiding away in the trees. Jacob ran after her, and the newborn turned on him. Then he made the one mistake that Jasper had enforced over and over again not to make. He let the newborn get his arms around him.

The other wolves ran over to where Jacob was lying, still in wolf form, and finished off the newborn. I saw figures running over, but Jasper and I stayed put. Jasper never taking his eyes off of the girl, and me, not trusting him enough to leave him alone with her.

Out of nowhere, a vision just appeared. It was of the Volturi, walking into the clearing, disappointed that they missed the fight. I turned to Jasper again.

"Jasper, the Volturi are coming," I told him, but he held a stoic expression.

"I know, that's why the wolves are trying to get Jacob out as soon as possible. We won't win a fight with the Volturi."

I looked back over at the clearing and I saw that some of the boys had transformed back into a human, and others were still in their wolf form. With the Cullens, they were trying to somehow get Jacob out of the clearing. Alice caught my eye and motioned for Jasper and I to go over to them.

"Jazz, we need to move," I told him. He nodded and looked back down at the girl.

"What is your name?" He asked her.

"Bree," she said softly, probably unsure of whether she was allowed to talk or not.

"Bree, stand up, but don't open your eyes," Jasper commanded, but in a nicer tone than he was using before. He was probably thinking of me.

Bree stood up and Jasper put one hand on her arm and the other on her back.

"Don't fight back, I won't hurt you," he said while also reminding her to keep her eyes closed. I was really starting to think he was developing a connection with her. Good. She didn't deserve to die.

We lead Bree over to the middle of the clearing that was now wolf less. At some point, Bella and Edward had arrived and joined the party. Seth wasn't with them. I looked at Edward, and he nodded. Seth was okay.

Jane, Dmetrey, Felix, and Alec. Those were the only four members of the guard that came. Just like in my vision. Black cloaks covering their faces, and yet, I could make out every single one of them.

They all lowered their hoods at the same time, revealing their grim expressions. None of them showing any emotion. None of them feeling any emotion.

"Impressive," Jane said, monotone, "I've never seen a coven to come out of a battle like this completely in tact. It isn't often that we are deemed unnecessary."

"We got lucky," Carlisle said, keeping calm. None of us liked the Volturi being here, and I was sure that they knew it.

"I doubt that," Jane said.

"It appears we missed an entertaining fight," Alec added, a smirk appearing on his pale face.

"Well, if you arrived a half hour earlier you would have fulfilled your purpose," Edward sneered, his arms wrapped protectively around Bella.

"Pity," Jane snarled right back at him. Then, she turned to where I was standing, but she wasn't focused on me, she was focused on Bree. "You missed one," she said, smiling.

"We offered her asylum in exchange for surrender," I explained to Jane, trying not to let my emotions get the best of me. Jasper was calming me down a little, but I shrugged most of it off. It might be my anger that saves her life.

"That wasn't yours to offer, Lillian. You should know that," she smiled. I growled at her. Jasper inched a little closer to me, as if I didn't know he was moving. I did.

"Why did you come here?" Jane asked her, but didn't give her a second to speak before she inflicted so much pain on her that Bree fell to the ground screaming. I tensed, and yelled at Jane.

"She'll tell you anything you want to know, you don't have to torture her!"

"Who created you?" Jane continued, ignoring my pleas. Jasper came over to me, but didn't get much closer than a yard. He sent me calming waves, but that didn't work. The anger I felt towards Jane now wasn't going away. Not yet.

Finally, the screaming stopped, and Jane smiled at me.

"I know," She said, then looked at Bree for some answers.

"Riley wouldn't tell us," Bree panted, still on the ground, "He said our thoughts weren't safe," she continued.

"Felix," Jane summoned, and he stepped forward. No.

"She didn't know what she was doing!" I yelled, "We'll take responsibility for her!"

"Give her a chance," Carlisle added, sensing my distress and not wanting to witness another death today.

"The Volturi don't give second chances," Jane said, looking at Bella now, "keep that in mind. Caius will be interested to know that you're still human."

"The date is set," Bella defended, but Jane shrugged her off.

"Take care of that Felix, I want to go home," She said, and started walking away. Jasper came over to me and grabbed my arms. I tried to fight him off, but he was too strong, especially when my emotions were taking over.

Felix walked over to where Bree was, and he pulled her up off the ground. Jasper tightened his grip on me, and I fought harder. If Jasper would just let me go I could take him. I could kill Felix and save Bree. I could do it if Jasper would just let me go.

All of a sudden, a shriek ripped out over the field, and it was the last sound I heard from the girl I knew as Bree.

Felix left, and as soon as they were out of sight, Jasper let go of me. He tried to pull me into a hug, but I wouldn't let him. I went over to the burning body and kneeled down.

"I'm so sorry," I told her. And I was.