Chapter 19- Heaven
This morning I woke up to Alanna crying in her room. Elaine had agreed to allow Alanna to stay two nights a week after Randy and I begged. I get up and quickly walk into her room to take care of her so she wouldn't wake up her dad.
"Hi Angel. What's all the fuss," I coo as I pick her up and change her diaper. She stops crying and I take her down stairs to get her bottle ready. I get downstairs and put her in the swing in the living room and put on Sesame Street and put the swing on a low speed to prepare her bottle. I walk into Randy's spacious kitchen and make up the formula. It smells like shit, but there is nothing else she can eat.
I bring the bottle back into the living room and feed Alanna. She drinks the bottle fast, and then I burp her. She makes the cutest little sound when she burps, that it makes me smile. I tickle her and she giggles. I blow little raspberries on her belly and she cracks up. I have to say I love being a mom to Alanna.
Randy's POV
I wake up to the sound of Alanna's laughter coming from down stairs, and smile. Faith is such an amazing person, it takes a true woman to be so willing to raise someone else's baby. I love this young woman so much that it hurts so much. I miss her when she's gone and I can't bare to let her go at then end of the month. I went through a car crash where I broke my arm and leg, fractured my hip, broke my ribs, and punctured a lung, but nothing will be worse then when Faith walks out my front door. I've never been so hung up on a girl before, but, Faith is just so special. I can't wait until she turns eighteen. No, not for sex, but, that will be the night I give her a ticket to go some where romantic and then I will propose to her. That will be the best day of my life. But, first I have to brake up with Sam, which is easier said then done.
I hear footsteps coming up the stairs and Faith comes in with Alanna in her arms and it is the most heart warming sight in the world. "Hi," she smiles.
"Good morning," I smile.
"Alanna wanted to say good morning too," Faith gestures to my three month old
"Hi sweetie," I smile at her.
She yawns in response.
"You tired already little monkey," Faith asks in a motherly voice.
My heart warms and I can't help but smile. "When did she wake up?"
Faith looks at the digital clock on my nightstand, "Oh wow."
"What," I ask.
"I guess she woke about two hours ago," Faith laughs. "I guess I lost track of time, we were having fun. Right munchkin?"
Alanna coos and then yawns again.
"I'll take that as a yes," I laugh.
"I'll be back, I think this little princess needs to pull a Sleeping Beauty and get some rest," Faith smiles at the little girl in her arms and then I watch as she goes into Alanna's room. A few minutes later, she returns with a smile on her face and sits on my bed. "She's so sweet."
"So are you," I smile at her, "you don't have to take care of her you know."
"I want to," she smiles back. "I like playing with her."
"You are so good to her," I reply.
"Thank you," Faith blushes like she does every time she gets a compliment. "So, now I am all your's. What do you want to do?"
"Why don't we watch a movie," I suggest.
"Sure," she shrugs. "Where do you keep your movies," she asks.
"In that cabinet over there," I point to the wooden piece of furniture in the corner of my room.
"Ok," she gets up and walks over and opens the doors. "Damn, there's a lot o movies in here."
"Well, I'm never really home, so I just buy movies on the road, bring them home, and then when I am home I stay in bed and watch them," I explain.
Faith nods. "What do you want to watch?"
"Your pick," I reply.
She scans through the DVDs and laughs.
"What's so funny," I ask.
"Well there's two funny things actually," she replies. "One being that you have a lot of romantic movies in here."
"I heard about them before, so I wanted to see what all the fuss was over them," I shrug. "What's the other thing that's funny?"
"I expected you to have more…um…adult films in here," she blushes at the comment.
"Oh I just never had any, I don't believe in porn," I explain.
"Gotcha," she nods and continues to look ad then takes out a DVD. "Oh this one looks good, I actually wanted to see it."
"What is it," I ask.
"Dear John," she replies.
"Are you sure," I ask, "it's a little sad."
"Depends, will you laugh at me," she asks.
"Of course not," I reply. "I'll hold you."
"Well then, yes I'm sure," She puts the disk in the player and sits to the right of me, a little closer than she has in the past two days.
Sure enough, Faith does cry ad when she does, I pull her closer to me having her head rest on my chest. She goes rigid for a few moments, but, when I kiss her head, she softens. She hates that I'm still with Sam. She doesn't want to be the other woman. I can't blame her, she deserves more. The movie plays on and Faith cries a few more times and I just hold her tighter. The movies ends and I turn off the TV.
"Is that going to be us," she asks.
"No," I reply.
She looks at me, surprised at my answer.
"Because, unlike Savannah, I'm not going to marry someone else and then get back with you," I continue and she looks even more hurt. "I'm going to marry you the first time."
"You scared me," Faith breathes, "I thought you didn't love me."
"I held you while you were crying and you still thought I didn't love you," I ask.
"I'm insecure ok," Faith defends.
"You shouldn't be," I smile at her. "You're beautiful, smart, talented, and an amazing, forgiving, young woman. I really love you."
"I will say it back when you brake it off with Sam," she replies, even though I know she does.
Faith's POV: ONE MONTH LATER
It's time for me to leave. Sam is returning later today, and I don't want to see her. I put my stuff I the RV and then head back upstairs to say goodbye to Randy.
"Do you really have to leave," Randy pouts.
"Yea," I reply sadly. "I'll see you soon."
"I hope," Randy replies. "Have fun at cheer camp."
I have cheer camp when I get back for two weeks and then cheer practices every day until school starts. "Thanks."
"I love you," Randy smiles.
I nod and then kiss him. "Bye, I'll miss you."
"I'll miss you too."
The ride back to Massachusetts is uneventful and I get back the day before cheer camp. I lay on my bed exhausted. I had packed before I left just incase I wouldn't be home in time to pack again so all I had tomorrow was grab my phone and iPod and go to Jacey's house where her parents will drop off us off at the school by six am.
I wake up at four am and go for my jog. I return home by five and hop in the shower. I put on a pair of black 'booty' shorts that have an electric blue paw print on them that represent our school's mascot, Zingy the jaguar and our colors. I then put on a sports bra on and a black short sleeve top that says West Newbury High All Star Cheerleading in glittery electric blue lettering. I pull on a matching sweat shirt. I then do the over dramatic sparkly blue make up and place the blue and black bow in my hair. I get really excited even though I have to wear all this crap. Coach Lindsay says that it will show the other schools that we are at cheer camp to win the spirit stick from the moment we get off our bus.
*A VERY LONG trip later*
So we finally are pulling into the campsite and all of us touch up our make up. I help Jacey with her bow. Jacey has got her stripped back to its normal color, a beautiful dark, almost black, brown, as per request of coach Lindsay.
"Ok ladies," Coach Lindsay claps happily to get our attention. "When you step off this bus, I want you to be happy and have fun."
We step off the bus and follow a counselor to our cabin. Our first step was to decorate our cabin. We all throw our bags on the wooden bunks, I share a bunk bed with Jacey, I'm on the top and she is on the bottom. I had bought bright blue Christmas lights for this occasion and so had two other girls, so we hung the lights from the rafters inside and decorated the outside with lights. Other girls made signs that had blue paw prints on them and put them in the windows. We then decorated our bunks with the school spirit blankets we all bought from school and someone had spent time screen printing us all West Newbury High pillow cases with Zingy on them. We then add black and blue streamers everywhere in the cabin. We finish and then head out the main stage to get ready for judging. The other schools look good, just not as good as us.
The judges come back to us about ten minutes and come back with the results.
"Hello everyone and welcome to All Stars Cheer camp," the owner of the camp, a young blonde says, "I'm Janet Riot the owner here and after close consideration, the winner's of the cabin decorating contest is the West Newbury High Jaguars!"
After the activities are announced for the day, we go to the canoes. Jacey and I tipped over ours ad got completely soaked. We cracked up and got out and dried up. Then our team, went to the trust exercises. Jacey and I were flyers along with two other girls, and we had to climb to the top of a stage and then jump and 'trust' our team members to catch us. Luckily, the caught us all. Then, we go for a scavenger hunt in the woods that we lost to another school by two items. Afterwards we get showered and dressed and go to the mess hall for dinner. We eat and I make friends with the other girls, but, I miss Will and all my other friends.
After dinner there is a bond fire and it lasts until another school's girl lit her hair on fire. It was funny, but, you have to wonder how stupid a girl is to get that close to a fire. When we get back to the cabin, we are aloud to make cell phone calls. I decide to call Randy and step outside.
"Hello," Randy answers after the first ring.
"Hey you," I reply.
"Oh hey sweetie," he drops his voice, so I assume Sam's near by.
"Sam around," I ask.
"Yea," Randy says flatly. "She just went downstairs."
"Why haven't you broken up with her," I suddenly blurt out.
Randy sighs, "Her dad supposedly is in the hospital, and it doesn't look good. I'm sorry Faith, I just can't brake up with her now."
"I understand," I sigh. "I miss you."
"I miss you too," Randy replies sadly. "How's camp?"
"Well my friend and I tipped our canoe over today," I smile.
Randy chuckles, "only you."
"It was not my fault! She was looking in the water and tipped to far," I whine.
"I'm just kidding," he chuckles again. Oh how much I miss that sound.
"When do I get to see you again," I ask sadly.
"Soon, I promise baby girl," he replies just as sad. "As soon as I'm allowed to, I'm coming to visit."
"Ok," I smile.
* THREEWEEKS LATER*
So, I'm back home, and now I'm in a band with Drew, Zacky, Jacey, and Will, and we're called Fallen Angel Royalty. Yes, I realize how hectic my life may seem but it keeps my find off Randy. He told me the other day that it will take a while before he can brake up with Sam. I was going to go visit him last week, but, the crazy bitch sent me an email saying that she will slit my throat if I did. So I asked Randy to come see the band play tonight, and he said he would try because, he and Sam are still together and he doesn't want to brake up with her just yet. Some days I think he still loves her, because he'll post on twitter that he is with his fiancé/angel. It pisses me off, she threatens me and he stays with her! I keep mute about this, because, Will hates Randy after the whole picture fiasco.
Tonight, Drew, Zacky, Will, Jacey, and I are playing at local rock hangout. Drew is playing drums, Zacky plays the rhythm guitar, Will plays regular guitar, Jacey plays the base, and I sing. We all decided to wear red and black tonight, so the guys wear black button downs with the sleeves rolled up, black skinny jeans with a chain hanging between two belt loops, a bright red converse, and a bright red ties. Jacey and I decide to go completely sexy. First we slip on the light washed skinny jeans with one hole on each leg, black criss-cross strap heels, a black and red lace corset, a red and black lace choker with a heart charm, and a spiked cuff bracelet. For make-up, a dramatic smoky eye and dramatic red lips with a glossy touch. I then make Jacey's hair big with volume and curls in a rocker way. I then straighten my own hair and we walk out of Jacey's room and downstairs. The boys gasp.
"Holy shit Faith," Will is in awe. "What did you do to my little sister?"
"What? Doesn't she look awesome," I ask. Jacey is very shy so, this was out of her comfort zone quite a bit.
"Yea, she does, Will nods. "You both do."
"Yea you girls look smoking," Zacky wolf whistles.
"If I wasn't with Angel, I think I'd be with you guys," Drew jokes.
"Thank you," Jacey and I smile.
We arrive at our gig ten minutes later to see everything all set up. The place opens in a few seconds, so we hurry and get on stage. People start coming in, but, I notice one person in particular, Randy's little brother Nate. Soon enough though, Randy comes wheeling in on his wheel chair. I smile internally and he gives a smirk at me and mouths to me that I look sexy. I mouth my thank you.
"Hello everyone and welcome to the Red Rock Room. We are Fallen Angel Royalty. I'm Faith. On guitars, we have Will and Zacky, on drums we have Drew, and lastly on the bass we have Jacey," I introduce the band and everyone cheers. "To start off tonight, we thought it would be appropriate to start off with Fallen Angels by the Black Veil Brides."
I sing on the song and dance around the stage. The two songs we play. afterwards are Carolyn by Black Veil Brides, Through Glass by Stone Sour. "Ok guys. We have one more song until we allow the next band to come up," I say breathlessly as the crowd complains. "Aw c'mon we'll be back. So this next song goes to this guy I really like, he is with someone who hates me, but, I still love him. This is Far From Home by Five Finger Death Punch!"
The crowd cheers and I see Randy look at me, he knows I was talking about him. Good. The guitars play to start off. A few seconds later, I join in, "Another day in this carnival of souls. Another night settles in as quickly as it goes." I put more passion in my voice as I sing, "The memories of shadows, ink on the page. And I can't seem to find my way home. And it's almost like, your heaven's trying everything. Your heaven's trying everything; To keep me out" The full band comes in before I sing again. "All the places I've been and things I've seen; a million stories that made up a million shattered dreams. The faces of people I'll never see again and I can't seem to find my way home." The next part I put my heart and soul into, "Cause it's almost like. Your heaven's trying everything to break me down. 'Cause it's almost like your heaven's trying everything to keep me out." The guitars have a solo and I take a look at the audience and see Randy looking at me and he seems to get the message, I finish the song strong, " Cause it's almost like, your heaven's trying everything to break me down. Cause it's almost like your heaven's trying everything; your heaven's trying everything to break me down. To break me down! To break me down!" I sing the last part softly, "Your heaven's trying everything. Your heaven's trying everything to break me…down." I finish the song and everyone cheers. "Thank you all! Enjoy the next band, The 8 Mile Fighters!"
We walk off the stage to our dressing room and I grab a water bottle and drink it. Will smiles at me. "What?" I ask.
"Did you see Randy's face when you sang that song?"
"Yea," I reply.
"I think he got the message," Will explains.
"I hope," I nod finishing my water and then being knocked to the ground by Zacky. "Zack, what the fuck?" I sit up and look at him.
He sits up too and wipes a fake tear, "I'm just so proud of you! Your music taste has gotten so much better!"
"Hey," I complain. "It's not my fault that all the kids at my old school only listened to main stream pop. I still like some of those artists you know."
"Yes, but would you rather listen to them or rock music," Zacky looks at me.
"Well, rock," I shrug.
"See? Better," Zacky laughs.
"Only you Zack," I laugh too and get up.
"Help me up," Zacky asks in a child-like voice.
"Fine," I fake groan and pull him up.
"Hey Faith, I just came back from the bathroom, Randy said he wanted to see you," Drew says coming back in the room.
"Is he mad," I ask, my heart sinks at the thought of him being mad.
"No, he just missed you I guess," Drew shrugs. "He said he'll be outside."
"Oh ok," I nod. "I'll be back guys."
"We'll be around the crowd," Will says.
"Ok, I have my phone on me," I nod.
"Faith, wait up," Jacey follows me. "Don't leave me with them!"
I chuckle, "ok. C'mon let's go find my lovely boyfriend."
Jacey and I walk out of the backstage door and I see Randy waiting with his wheel chair up against the wall with Nate next to him.
"Hey guys," I smile and hug them both.
"Hey baby girl," Randy smiles.
"Are you girls cold?" Nate asks, but he looks more at Jacey. I smile to myself. Nate likes Jacey, they'd be cute together. They're only four years apart, Jacey is fifteen and Nate is nineteen.
"A little," Jacey replies blushing, she likes him too.
"Oh here, take my sweatshirt," Nate pulls off his Under Armor hoodie and hands it to Jacey.
Jacey blushes, "Are you sure?"
"Yea," Nate smiles.
"Faith are you cold," Randy asks.
"I'm fine," I lie.
"No, you're shivering. Here," Randy hands the sweatshirt that was I his lap.
"Thank you," I pull on the warm sweatshirt.
"Any time sweetie," Randy smiles. "So you dedicated that song to me, huh?"
"Yea," I blush.
"Well, you're my heaven now," Randy smiles.
"Randy stop unless you broke up with her," I whine, "I can't take the heart brake."
"I broke up with her," Randy says.
"Really," I smile.
"Really," he replies.
"Hey Randy," I ask.
"Yea," he raises an eyebrow.
"I love you," I smile.
"What," he teases.
I lean down to his level, "I. Love. You," I separate each word with a kiss.
"I love you too my gorgeous, amazing, adorable, girlfriend."
It felt great to be Randy's girl again. I love him with all my heart and I could not love anyone as much as I love him. I feel like the weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I've never been so happy in all my life so far.
DEAN'S POV:
I growl in frustration at what I see. Randy and Faith are back together! What the fuck? I thought he was gone. I specifically hired a person to cause an accident so bad he would be in bed for a year. But, that did not work, and apparently threatening Faith's life did not help. I think I need to hurt her so bad that even he won't want her afterwards. I have to plan for a while, and enlist the help of some very interesting people. It may take a while to get everything together, but hey, it'll be worth it!