Okay guys, thanks for the reviews, I love you guys! Sorry about the confusion from posting the last chapter twice, but like I said, I had to edit it. I'd rather have good, realistic content up than fast chapters and I hope you guys appreciate the effort.

If you haven't read the edited last chapter than I'll sum it up for you guys. Bella stays in the hospital for 2 days for observation and IDs Tanya in the morgue (did I spell that right?)

Also read the author's note at the end of the last chapter.

Where did I go wrong?

I lost a friend

Somewhere along in the bitterness

And I would have stayed up with you all night

Had I known how to save a life

How to Save A Life- The Fray

EPOV

We pulled 4 times because Bella started throwing up. Each time she came back in the car she looked a little worse. We also stopped at 3 gas stations for her to get something to drink and use the bathroom. Each time she came out and sat back in the car silently.

The last time she came out was different than the first two times. At first she silently sipped her soda. But after about an hour she started smiling softly and trailing her fingers up and down her palm.

I didn't question her because I was too angry. When she lit another cigarette I growled. She ignored me. I could smell the weed on her and knew I would have to go through her pockets when we got home.

With all the stops, it took 12 hours to get home. Bella was still awake and fighting her sleep as we pulled up to our house. She woke straight up and got out the car slowly. I sat in the car trying to control my temper.

She didn't look back and after a few seconds I followed her into the house.

Still silent, she ran up the stairs and into our room. I didn't know what to do, but I was terrified I would lose my temper with her.

She sat on the bed and lit another cigarette. Without a second thought I snatched it from her lips and crushed it in my hand.

"What the fuck?" She demanded.

I didn't answer, just watched her. She lit another cigarette and I just crushed it again. Her eyes filled with angry tears.

"Empty your pockets" I said, voice soft with the effort I am using not to yell at her.

"What?" She asked, wide eyed.

"Empty. Your. Pockets." I said through clenched teeth.

With quick movements she turned from me, stuck her hand in her pocket, and swallowed whatever she took out. I roared in frustration, in anger.

Without thinking I grabbed her hands and pushed her to the bed. She laid there with her hands held over her head by my hands. I was on top of her, holding her legs down with my legs even though she wasn't fighting. She just stared up at me with a million emotions running through her eyes. I had to urge to bite her just to remind her that she is mine and she can't do the shit she is doing! I took a deep breath, my face directly over hers. She groaned and closed her eyes.

"Bella, we can do this the easy way or we can do this the hard way. Either do as I say or I will make you do what I say." I threatened.

I slid off of her and she sat up, rubbing her wrists. Suddenly she got up, crossed the room, and literally threw herself at me. Naturally I caught her. She kissed me passionately and I kissed her back. Her hands slid down my chest, she moaned against my lips. I tried to push her away but she wrapped herself tighter around me. I felt my control sipping, she had been away for too long and I missed her. This is what I wanted, her wrapped up in my arms, to be with her, for everything to be alright.

And I almost gave in.

"Stop" I finally got out, pushing her away from me gently.

She looked at me with such a sad expression my heart broke. I frowned and held my hand out.

"Empty your pockets"

"No" she sqeaked.

"Bella" I warned darkly.

Tears filled her eyes but she stuck her hands in her pockets and dumped the drugs into my open hand. I bit the inside of my cheeks to keep my temper in check. One bag was full of weed, another was full of white powder that I knew was cocaine, and the last bag was full of 2 types of white pills. Some of the pills where small, while the others where a little bigger. I was confused because the doctor didn't say anything about a fourth drug.

"What are these?" I demanded holding out the pill bag.

She shrugged, flinching when I glared at her. "Acid and E"

Acid?

"Is that what you just took?"

She shook her head. "I took the small one, it's E" She whispered.

I thought about what the doctor said about that one. The effects lasted at least 2 hours, intensified touch and made everything more pleasurable. That's why Bella is doing all of this sexual crap. I turned to the bathroom and dumped each bag into the toilet, flushing it in disgust.

Bella was sitting on the bed again, trailing her nails up and down her arms gently. She made herself shiver.

"We need to talk"

"There's nothing to say" She said peeking up at me.

She smiled when her eyes met mine, but the smile didn't touch her eyes. Her eyes were wide, pupils dilated, and she looked like she was on cloud nine.

"There is everything to talk about" I said seriously. "We haven't talked at all since I found out about Phil"

She flinced like I slapped her.

"I don't want to talk about him. I want to lay down, come lay down with me"

I shook my head.

"Please" She begged, pouting her lip perfectly.

I sighed and sat on the bed.

"We are talking, when you're sober" I told her seriously.

She shrugged like she didn't believe me and started to undress. I changed into a pair of pajama pants. Bella stayed in a bra and panties only and crawled in the bed next to me. I gasped in shock, she's never done this. I have never seen her in anything less than a shirt and pants.

Somehow in those two months she was gone she managed to lose all of her post pregnancy weight, and more. I have never seen her so small.

She leaned up and kissed me.

"I've missed you" She said seriously, before kissing me again.

After a second I had to push her away.

"Bella, I am not sleeping with you" I said seriously.

"Of course not" She said, still serious. "Vampires don't sleep"

And she busted out laughing at her own joke, I couldn't help but to laugh with her. When she calmed down she pressed herself against me and buried her face in my bare chest, kissing it gently. I groaned.

"Stop" I ordered.

"Why?"

"Because you aren't thinking clearly. And there is too much to talk about before anything goes any further."

"I am thinking clearly" She whispered.

Without faltering she spun until she straddled me. Her hands were on my chest and her hair curtained around her face. She looked at me lustfully. Her scent violated my senses, vemon pooled in my mouth, I gulped.

"Then we can talk" I said quietly, fighting with my self control. "Were you going to have sex with him?"

Bella's eyes widened.

"Who?"

"The guy you were with in the car. You said he kissed you and you were bringing him back to your apartment. Were you going to have sex with him?"

She sat up on me.

"I don't know" She said honestly.

"Did you sleep with anyone while you were gone?"

She shook her head. "He would have been the first"

So she was going to sleep with him. I grabbed her waist, spinning so she was pinned under me. I growled and she stared up at me with wide eyes.

"You are mine" I growled.

Roughly I tilted her neck and sunk my teeth into the base of it. She gasped and moaned my name. I moaned against her neck as her sweet blood filled my mouth. She panted my name and tried to pull me against her, but she was still pinned under me.

I pulled away from her neck when her heart beat started to slow and healed the bite. Her hand reached up and touched the scar. She watched me, still lustful.

"You are never leaving me again" I told her seriously.

Her eyes drooped slightly. With very little strength, she pulled me down, I spun before we hit the bed. She laid across my chest breathing softly. Again she kissed my chest, then she snuggle higher, hiding her face at the base of my throat. Quickly, she fell asleep.

I rubbed her bare back and in her sleep she shivered. I sighed because I knew when she woke up and was sober things wouldn't be this peaceful. But for now I enjoyed it.

Her blood clung to my tongue and the inside of my cheeks. For the first time since I found out about Phil I wasn't mad at her, I just hoped it would last.

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