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Warnings: Nope

Disclaimer: Sigh, if only this was my characters, then kingdom hearts would not be for kids XD Belongs to Tetsuya Nomura XD

A Christmas story

21st December

Lost

The Luna Diviner looks slowly towards the door, as the silent Demyx enters. A few seconds of silence as their eyes meet, before Demyx shake his head.

"We couldn't find him…" Xigbar whispers, as he comes in behind Demyx. "Roxas and Luxord are still looking, but we can't feel him at all in Radiant garden."

Saix gives a sad sigh, before he looks over at the bedroom that had been silent for a whole day now.

"How is Zexion?" Demyx whispers, after the silence had been too much for him.

"He is soon gone…" Saix whispers, and looks down. "He has two to three days left and Xemnas won't leave his side at all."

"Is Xemnas and Zexion really brothers?" Marluxia asks, as he and Larxene comes back from searching the city and both of them sits down in one of the coaches.

"Half brothers…" Vexen answers, as he comes into the room after his last check on Zexion. It really seemed like there were no hope anymore. "Ienzo was the only one Xehanort really cared for, so when Ienzo turned to Zexion, Xehanort couldn't think clearly anymore. That is why he continued his research after what happened, he wanted to find a way of turning Zexion back to Ienzo, but it all went wrong, and we all ended up following Ienzo into the darkness…"

"So, as Xehanort cared for Ienzo, Xemnas cares for Zexion…" Demyx asks and Vexen nods. "So, if Zexion fade… Xemnas will be as broken as Axel won't he?"

"Yeah, maybe even worse." Saix feels a sting of pain as he couldn't be with his lord when he needed him. Xemnas had said that he wanted to be alone.

The door opens, and everyone feels their hopes rise as Roxas and Luxord comes back, and both look like they had run.

"Did you find him?" Saix asks, as he understands that they had something to tell.

"We couldn't find him, but we found remains of his powers, it's like it has scattered over the town…" Roxas whispers and Luxord pats him on the head as he starts hiccupping. "All we can think… is that he faded."

The group goes silent, but Saix swallows the sadness that wallows over him, as he gets up, and walking to the bed room. He opens slowly, before he looks over the dark room, which was only lit by the light from kingdom hearts.

"Xemnas… it seems like… the keyblade master fought Axel." Saix did not want to give the silent superior any more bad news. "Roxas and Luxord found no trace of him, only the faint remains of his powers."

Xemnas says nothing, just gives a nod to show that he had heard him and Saix lowers his head to show respect for his leader, before he leaves the room. Xemnas looks slowly down at Zexion. His entire body were soon gone, just his chest and face left.

"I'm so sorry… I couldn't protect him for you." Xemnas whispers, as he brush Zexion's cheek gently. "I'm so sorry…"

Xemnas hesitates a little, before he takes up his necklace, and he opens it before he laid it over Zexion's chest, before he looks with a weak smile at the old picture.

"Hey, do you remember the time we took that picture?" Xemnas starts, as he tries to cling to the distant feeling of being content, which came with those memories. "You had just moved in with me in Radiant garden, and you really lit the place up, you were only… six years old then…"

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'Bright blue eyes was most of what he could focus on, as the little boy looked right at him.

"So, you want to live here?" Xehanort asks, looking at the little boy that claimed to be the little brother he had left ages ago with his mother. Not Xehanort's mother of course, since the two of them just shared the father, a idiot that had gotten himself killed in a experiment years ago.

"Mommy said I had to…" He whispers, looking pleading at his brother. He hadn't seen his big brother before… he had been just a baby when his mother had tossed him out of the house.

"And where is your mother then?" Xehanort asks, trying to think of a way to get the little kid out of his way. He didn't have time to baby-sit a little brat now.

"Mommy died… and she sent me here…" he whispers, holding his hand up to his big brother, who just looked bored at him. "My name is Ienzo… can I stay here with you big brother?"

"No, I will talk to the orphanage in town. They can take you in if no one else will have you." Xehanort complains, taking the bag Ienzo had brought with him, handing it back to the young boy. "Let us get going right away, I have important business to attend before Lord Ansem returns."

"Ok…" Ienzo whispers, trying to take a hold of his brothers hand as he lead him outside, but Xehanort quickly pulled his hand away. "Can't I stay just one day? I can make food and clean… and I won't get in the way…"

"I already told you…" Xehanort starts, before he lower his head, as the lord of their town came towards them. "I'm sorry Lord Ansem, I haven't finished the experiments you asked yet…"

"Don't worry about that." Ansem laughs, before he sat down on his knees before the silent boy, patting him gently on the head. "And what does a cute little boy like you wander around here for?"

"Big brother Xehanort is taking me to the orphanage…" Ienzo answers, giggling as the old man patted him on the head.

"Xehanort… are you bringing your own little brother to the orphanage?" Ansem asks confused, looking stern at the nervous Xehanort, who tried to think of something to say in his own defense. "We will have nothing of that sort here! There is place enough in the castle for a hundred more kids like him!"

"But Lord Ansem… the experiments…" Xehanort starts, as Ansem handed him the small traveling bag.

"Ah, you are worried for your little brother." Ansem laughs, pulling both of them with him into the castle again. "Don't worry dear Xehanort, we will take every precaution to his safety of course, we can't let you send your only living relative away, at least not one so young! He needs his brother!"

"But, Lord Ansem…" Xehanort tried to complain, as Ansem pulled them towards his own chambers in the castle.

"Yes, of course he is going to live with you, don't be afraid." Ansem laughs, patting them both on the head before he left them, Xehanort looking growling at the young boy, who looked a little nervous back.

"Does this mean I don't have to go to the orphanage?" Ienzo asks, looking terrified up at his brother, who seemed to be overlooking him for the moment, so Ienzo decides to look around in his new home, walking through Xehanort's own chambers. It was so cool there, things like his father had left for him, but that his mommy had tossed away because she thought experiments was something stupid.

Ienzo stop before a chalk board, where Xehanort had written down the start of a formula he had been working on for a while now, he just couldn't think of how to finish it…

"Yay! Fun!" Ienzo cheers, taking one of the chalks, before he started on the formula, Xehanort looking confused at the eager boy, who actually seemed like he knew what he was doing. "There! Now it is right!"

"Wonderful." Xehanort whispers, looking over the now done formula, he hadn't been able to do that, and he had been working on it for over a year, here a little kid came and solved it in a few seconds. "Where did you learn that?"

"I read many of daddy's and big brothers books…" Ienzo whispers, giving a happy smile as his brother lifted him gently up. "Does this mean big brother like me now?"

"I think so." Xehanort laughs, hugging the giggling boy gently. "Do you want to meet a colleague of mine? I have a feeling he will like spending time with you…"

"Yay!" Ienzo cheers, clutching happy to his big brother.'

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That had just been the first day, and before the week had gone by, everyone adored the little kid, and Xehanort and Ienzo became inseparable.

It had been after that week the picture had been taken, and a few days later Ienzo had spared all the week money he got from for helping Even in the lab, to buy the necklace for his brother. And it had been the only memory of the past Xemnas had ever wanted to bring, but now the memories had all come with him, all of them getting unsealed as Zexion had released his own at the concert.

He had seen Ienzo fade before his eyes, and he had as Xehanort clutched to the hope that deep down inside Zexion, Ienzo still lingered, and he had believed it, as Zexion started to take care of little Lea too.

But now, Axel was…

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'Xehanort looked confused at the little creature that clutched to his brothers hand, a small teddy bear in the other hand.

"And why are you bringing the kid here?" Xehanort sighs, looking at the silent red head, he had heard about that kid from Even. He kept creeping everyone out…

"His father didn't come to pick him up today… and I can't get a hold of him." Ienzo answers, lifting the young boy up into his embrace. "I thought I could let him stay here for the night."

"Do as you will, but tell him to keep away from the labs." Xehanort sighs, he had no heart to say no to his little brother, and he knew that Ienzo would take in anything that walked or crept if it needed help. "And get the kid some food, he looks famished."

"I will make some food for everyone." Ienzo laughs, Xehanort following after as he carried the young boy with him to the kitchen. Lea clutch to the one person that had actually wanted to take care of him. Because of his hair color and the marks under his eyes, everyone thought he was weird. "So, what do you want to eat?"

"You can decide…" Lea whispers, playing with the small teddy that Ienzo had given him as a present a few days earlier. He was seven years now, and Ienzo and Elaeus had been the only ones who had given him anything.

"Then I will make some pasta for us all, because that is what my big brother loves best in the entire world." Ienzo laughs, handing Lea over to the confused Xehanort. "Why not take him to play a little? I will call when the dinner is done."

"You do so owe me for this." Xehanort complains, as he carried the boy to Ienzo's old play room.

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That had been the first time Lea had come to visit, the second time had been two years later… the same day they had started on their experiments, they had just planed on using a no good thief and murderer as their experiment, but as they had called the heartless, the man faded easy, leaving nothing but a weak heartless and a even weaker nobody… but then Ienzo had come into the room…

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'"Big brother, are you here? Even? Elaeus? Braig? Dilan?" The youngest of them stammers, looking around in the dark room, where had everyone gone? They had said they were going to work on their greatest project later that day… he had tried to ask Ansem about it, but he hadn't seen him for weeks… his brother just said that Ansem had left for a little holiday. "Is anyone here at all?!"

A small sound, and Ienzo look confused down at something on the floor, wow, it looked so cute and cuddly! And it had the cutest bright eyes!

"Ienzo! Get out of there!" Xehanort yell over the speakers, the confused Ienzo about to lift the small heartless up, when more started appearing, circling around him as he tried to understand what was happening. "Ienzo!"

The door to the lab beside opens, as Xehanort came running in, just in time to see the confused Ienzo try and grab for his heart.'

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Xemnas gives a tired sigh. He knew that there was nothing to be gained from grieving over the past. Zexion had said that to him so many times. But it was the fact that Xehanort had refused to listen to that, that they had all been cursed to the existence they had now.

The door opens, and Xemnas looks confused at the silent berserker, who sits down by his feet. Then he laid his head slowly over his lap. A few moments goes by as none of them say anything, while Xemnas just brushes Saix's hair gently.

"I don't want to regret." Saix suddenly whispers and Xemnas looks confused at him. "You regret making it all start… but… I don't want you to, we are all content with being what we are now, and no one is blaming you for anything anymore."

"How can you say that? Wasn't it you who so desperate sought for a heart?" Xemnas asks, before their eyes meets as Saix looks up to face his superior.

"I only knew what you had thought me, but I know now, a heart would have made no difference, at least not if it would have turned me back to what I was before…" Saix whispers, as he kisses Xemnas' hand gently. "I have never been human, when you found me. I had just been in that form for about a day… days before that, I had been nothing but a lost wolf cub…"

"I had a suspicion." Xemnas brush Saix's cheek gently. "Then all this have brought something good, letting me meet such a devoted pet as you."

Saix gives a content smile, as he lets Xemnas pet him as he wanted. If he could take away just a little of Xemnas' sadness, he would do anything.

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'Xemnas gave a growl, before he pull his hand back from the screaming nobody, which had taken the form of a helpless kid. He didn't look older than sixteen.

"I'll learn you not to bite the hand of your superior." Xemnas growls, before he pull the confused kid closer, holding him firm in place as he thrashed around, sounding like a little puppy yelling for his mother.

Xemnas tries to keep him still for a few minutes, before he understood that it wasn't helping at all, the poor nobody seemed to be in shock, maybe he had amnesia?

Saix starts relaxing a little, as Xemnas started brushing his hair gently, hushing gently at him.

"That is a good number seven." Xemnas whispers, as Saix had turned in his embrace, hiding against his chest, going over to shivering instead of screaming. "I will take care of you… don't be afraid… Saix…"

End of chapter

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