Now I'am far beyond gone

And I can hardly remember

The look of my own eyes

How could I love this

A life so dishonest It made me compromise

(Nessie's POV)

I screamed in pain as it sank it's jaws into my side, it tossed me in the air and I landed back on the road with a thump. My head pounded from the impacts and my side stung so badly. I closed my eyes and listened to my breathing.

A yelp and several growls made me open my eyes in a flash. I watched as huge wolves viciously snapped and bit the werewolf that was just about to kill me.

This was Jacob's pack, so Jacob had to be with them. I forgot about my pain and looked at every wolf, looking for his distinct reddish - brown fur coloring. None of them had the coloring of Jacob fur, my heart sank at that. Where was Jacob? It was just one vampire he was fighting - he's big and fast - and he knows how to kill a vampire! Why wasn't he with his pack?

I looked at the brawl in front of me, hastily trying to make a decision. I dragged myself back and cringed when a razor sharp pain went through my side. Watching in horror as I clutched my side. It was five against one, the five would surly win, right?

A grayish wolf looked up at me with dark eyes. It was smaller and leaner then the rest - but was still putting up a hell of a fight. It growled at me once before going in and sinking it's teeth into the beasts neck. I watched it drop to the ground, blood dripping from it's wounds.

I blinked a few times in shock.

Oh my fucking God.

They darted into the forest, leaving me with the dead thing. I really was hoping it was dead and wouldn't randomly come back to life and eat me. That would be pretty 'effed up.

I looked up and saw five people emerging from the trees, all of which I recognized. It was Embry, Quil, Brady, Collin - and Leah.

"That was so cool! I can't wait to tell Missy about how we killed a real fucking werewolf!" Collin yelled while jumping up and down, "She'll think it's so cool!" Everyone shot him a look, "Or maybe I won't . . . "

Embry turned to me and smiled, "You look like shit," I narrowed my eyes at him.

"Yeah, I've come to realize that. I tend to look that way while running through the woods trying to figure out where the hell I am." I groaned and held my side.

They all laughed lightly, "We're in Ohio," Quil pipped up. "just thought you'd want to know."

"Then why are you all here and not in Washington?"

"Alpha's orders, we had to come save your ass when he couldn't." Leah snarled angrily, I shot her a dirty look.

"What do you mean 'he couldn't'?" I asked quietly. They all fell silent. "Where's Jacob!"

"We don't know. As soon as he gave me the orders of getting everyone together and coming down here to find you, he just disappeared. We haven't heard from him in days." Brady mumbled,

A whoosh of air fell past my lips, my head began to spin - was my Jacob . . . dead?

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"We have to get back to Forks, your family probably wants you home," Quil offered a hand to help me up. I stared at it for a few seconds before getting up myself, ignoring the pain. He dropped his hand back down to his side.

My family . . . were they okay? Was Jacob with them?

"I want to find Jacob first." I said, "We're finding Jacob - then we can go back." I swallowed hard and limped forward.

Quil looked at everyone, then back to me. "Fine, just turn around." I spun around and closed my eyes. I heard the crack of bones and little snarls. Someone barked, so I turned back around to see them all standing before me in wolf form. A darker wolf, with chocolate brown fur motioned me to get on his back. I widened my eyes at him.

"I can run," I mumbled, trying to show I could be strong. He stared at me for a few seconds, and motioned for me to get on it's back once again. I rolled my eyes and climbed onto it. I think it was Quil - but I wasn't sure.

The second I got on his back, they took off sprinting. "Do you know where you're even going?" I yelled to him, he nodded his wolf head. I held onto his fur tighter, liking the way the wind hit my face. The pain in my side increased second by second, I wanted to throw up, empty my already empty stomach.

I closed my eyes for several minuets, just feeling the cold air on my face. I coughed and sniffled, Quil looked up at me momentarily and somehow began running even faster.

I gripped his fur, feeling like I would end up flying off of his back. They jumped off the road and into the forest, easily jumping and dodging the trees and bushes.

We ran and ran, for what felt like hours but was probably only minuets. They broke through a wall of leaves and jumped onto the all to familiar dirt road. I smelled a putrid stench and looked up to see the ashes of a once burning fire. The ashes were purple and so was the little smoke rising from the extinguished fire. Jacob stood with his back to us. They stopped quickly and I climbed off of Quil's back, ignoring how bad it hurt to move. "Jake!" I yelled loudly.

He was alive, he was fine. My Jacob was fine. He turned slowly and saw me. He began walking towards me, but then he started to run when I felt myself collapsing.

"Nessie!" he cried, catching me right before I fell.

I chocked on a sob and wrapped my arms tight around his neck. Jacob moved my dangling legs to wrap around his waist, bringing me closer to him. "What's wrong? I've been so worried."

"I was worried too," I whispered. "I didn't know if - if you were alive - or, I don't know what I would have done!" I blubbered as I continued to cry. I felt his hand reach around to wrap itself around my side. I yelped in pain and he went rigid. Slowly he brought his hand up and stopped breathing.

"Nessie, you're bleeding." he stated calmly, his nostrils flared.

I grimaced, "Oh, well - that tends to happen when something bites you . . . "

He growled, "If needles can't break your skin, then how the hell can teeth?"

I shook my head, trying to get my growing head ache to leave. "I don't know, that werewolf thing - it bit me. I don't know, Jake." I felt really confused, and tired mostly.

"Oh, God - Nessie. I have to get you home. We have to get you home, somethings not right."

I swallowed and nodded, "S'okay Jake. Nothing's wrong . . ." I slurred before the black spots coating my vision completely wiped me out.