"I'm sorry" I let go of her and pulled myself away, I softly started hitting my chest trying to calm my heart down...I fucked it up again. My legs were shaking and I can't stand.

"So you will speak?" She said

I kneed down and put my hands on my ears, breathing in and out, no no no no

She put her hand on my shoulder "Hey you okay?"

"Don't touch me" I said in a shaking voice and she took her hand away

I pulled myself up and left the girl whom I hate the most at this exact moment.

I forced myself to drive all the way back to Yuri, even when my vision was blurry, I dizzy and my fingers were numb. I drove away as fast as I could.

I opened the door "Yuri" I was barley able to shout, I was out of breath, my heart was beating fast and my chest hurt.

"What's wrong with you" Yuri ran to me

"I need my medicine, I need it now" I tried to catch my breath

"No!" She pulled my head up to her, "You don't need them, you are over your medicine" she held my shoulders "You are having a panic attack, sit down, relax and breathe slowly" she said and I broke into tears. She hugged me, rubbing my back.

After couple of minutes, I pulled my head up, "She knows about my daughter...Yuri, I lead her to my daughter, This should've never happened"

"Who?!" Yuri asked confused

"Taeyeon..." I said crying none stop

"How? Your daughter is not even under your name, how did she find her...we put no connection of you to her"

"I don't know"

She wiped my tears "It's okay, we will figure things out, it's okay stop crying"

2 weeks or so passed and I spent it all hiding again,

I pulled myself out of the bed, and started dressing up to leave.

"Where are you going?" Yuri asked when she saw me opening the door to leave

"Hayeon went through the surgery and I wasn't there and she probably woke up and I'm not there...I promised her I'll be there" I said before closing the door behind me

I drove to the hospital while trying to keep myself together. I can do it she can't do anything to me or to my daughter...

I walked up without telling the nurses anything and with them seeing me, I walked my way to Hayeon'a room. I was about to open the door; when I over heard Hayeon saying

"You made it this far on your own I get it but lately, that definitely isn't taking you anywhere, I just don't know why you are treating her like that"

"I can't let her close to me" Taeyeon said

"You are stupid and dumb because she deserve a chance but you don't deserve the chances she's giving you" I heard Hayeon soft voice, who are they talking about?

"Maybe I am, maybe in my life I only had one chance to give and I gave it to that god damn piece of shit, I gave her everything and she destroyed it and now I have nothing left to give to her or to anyone" Taeyeon said

"That's bullshit, you can't pretend that there's nothing there...everyone can see it, even you can see the way she looks at you, don't let go of her for a castle made of sand" Hayeon voice barley was hearable

"I'll save the time for you and everyone, if there is feelings or something there then they are not mine"

I couldn't stand out for too long, I knocked on the door before opening it.

"Tiffany" Hayeon whispered

I walked to her without looking at that girl, "you did it" I said hugging her slowly "You made it, I'm so proud of you. I'm sorry I wasn't there"

She held my face with her tiny hand "It's okay, I was told what happened" she side eyed her sister.

"You have to put the oxygen mask back on" Taeyeon said before siting down

"I'll put it for couple of minutes then we will talk again" Hayeon said and I helped her put it back on

I sat on the opposite side of Taeyeon, I can feel her wanting to say something...

She crossed her legs, "So what's her name?" She asked and Hayeon immediately took the oxygen mask off

"Don't start" she said

"You don't let me start with you, hiding all that" Taeyeon told her

"Yeah but she doesn't have anything to do with all that, so leave her alone" Hayeon answered her

"Seren" I stopped both of them

Taeyeon looked at me, then moved her hand through her hair "Don't lie to me" she said

I looked at Hayeon who shook her head,

"I'm not lying" I said

She moved her body to the edge of the chair looking at me like she is investigating me, "Her name is Serenity that's why you kept asking about my tattoo. You signed her under Yuri's brother in law name, making her Yuri's niece instead of your daughter" she said

I angrily bit my lip and started shaking my leg trying to calm myself "What are you trying to get from all this?" I asked her

She sat back "I don't know you tell me"

"How did you know all that, what the hell you doing" Hayeon said very angry

She rose her voice "I am the owner of this hospital, if I want to know something I will know it"

"You the owner?!" Hayeon said shocked

"Yes" Taeyeon sat back

"Are you kidding me?" Hayeon said I shock

"Doctors didn't help in anyway, your case was getting worse I couldn't sit there and do nothing, that's why I built this hospital for you and got the best doctors to work in it, so they could take care of you while knowing that you are around me but here we are" she said

Hayeon suddenly started crying "When did you build it... where did you get all the money from" she said while tears falling none stop

"I worked extra and worked anything, I sold what left from our parents and built it" she said

Hayeon tried to lift her head up "You sold my moms house? Then where the hell are you living?" She said crying

Taeyeon looked away from her little sister "Kurt..." she said

"Oh my god, what about the car is it for Kurt as well?" She asked

Taeyeon nodded

"You are crazy, you are very crazy" Hayeon put her hand on her face "how could you do that? You sold the last thing that left from our parents"

"Our parents are dead, you are not and I'm not planning to let you die that's why I'be decided to sell them and build this hospital, to help lives not to hold into dead souls" Taeyeon said and she was very convincing

Suddenly my phone rang and I turned it silent but I took a peek to see who and it was Yuri, I pulled myself out of the room while both of them were still fighting.

Me -Tell me

Yuri -still at the hospital?

Me -Yes

Yuri -How's everything?

Me -messed up everything is messed, but don't worry all is good I'll tell you later about it

Yuri -Okay I think I will be able to wait till you tell me, anyway when you finish come back fast because you need to choose a dress

Me -Dress why?

Yuri -Girl you have after party to attend today, did you forget?

Me -Oh my god, I'll be on my way now give me ten minutes I'll be there.

I hang up then looked at the room door for a second before pushing myself out of the hospital to my car.

I walked to the appointment, and saw more than twenty dresses handing around the living room and Yuri standing in front of them,

"Hi~" she turned to me

"Wow that's a lot of dresses" I said putting my bag down

"Yes but we have to find only one," she pulled me to stand beside her "So the theme of the after party is space and I was thinking of black dress that has something like galaxy colors on it so I got all these" she said pointing at all the dresses

"Yeah. But that's a lot" I said

"I know but some has blue and white stars and some has red, blue, white, orang yellow" she kept going

"Okay okay Yuri you are stressing out" I said calming her

"We need to pick a good dress for you" she said

"No problem we will" I said looking through all the dresses

I laid down on the sofa after long time of trying to decide which dress to wear "You know what happened today" I told Yuri

"What?" She said while thinking which one to pick

I overheard Hayeon saying something like why you are treating her like that and Taeyeon answer saying that she can't let her close to her. I have no idea who they were talking about however they said something about chances and Taeyeon said that she had one chance and she gave it to a piece of shit, I think she means..."

Yuri interrupted me "Eve" she turned to look at me

"Exactly" I said obviously

"Is the other girl they are talking about is you ?" She asked

"I don't know, hopefully not because she already said if there's something there then they are not hers" I said

"What happened to you not caring about her anymore? Did you already forget what she did?" Angrily Yuri said

"I know, I know it's just that she really really took big part of my heart and even after what she did I'm not able to forget about her, every time I close my eyes I see her it's not in my hands. God knows how much I'm trying but my soul wants her, from the depth of my heart is hurting"

She put her hand on my head then sat beside me "but she doesn't deserve you" Yuri said

"I know but..."

She stopped me "No you are not going to add buts, you had enough of all that so let go and focus on yourself"

I looked at her then nodded

"Good now go wash your face and come pick a dress" she pulled me up and pushed me towards the bathroom.

When I walked out Yuri was standing in the middle holding a daring dress with aesthetic quality, charming with clean lines, the dazzling of the galaxy sparkles were all over the dress giving it exotic look

I change into that stunning dress and I felt the confidence taking over me. I looked at myself for the last time before leaving the house. I took my stuff and Yuri drove off to our stop.

The second we arrived the security opened the car door for me I walked out to my he red carpet and the shining cameras flash, the shouting to look at them and the glitter of all the magnificent, outstanding dresses.

I stood still infront of the cameras trying to get back the glamorous and the fame life back. I smiled for minutes before I was told to move to the next stop which I had to do the same; pose, smile, wave and walk fast out of the cameras eyes for the next famous person to come.

I walked in to the big room where the magic of the after party is happening and it was like a night club I totally forgot the feelings of that. The room was dark with the LED screens everywhere and laser light was deeming the room. A stage with different singers singing on it and with each one the mood of the whole hall will change. Some where dancing, some where drinking and some where literally making out. Just like a bar. I walked around talking to this and that. Meeting people I hadn't met since forever.

I found a place to sit at, then Kurt and Jo walked to me,

"You came together?" I said looking at them matching

"Yes finally" Jo said and Kurt just smiled

If Kurt cane with Jo then She is not here!

"Guess who's going to preform today?" Kurt said after sitting beside me

"Who?" I replied with no interest?

"Taeyeon" he said

I looked at him with surprised "What?"

"The Designer personally asked her to" he told me. When he finished; the light turned off, "That's her" he pointed as the lights started to shine on the stage. He started clapping, as the crowd started cheering for her.

I pulled my chair to the side to be able to see her. As she was preparing the mic to sing.

They started with a harsh piano and slowly the slow beat kicked in the softness of the piano.

"I've been thinking about the future. And I've been thinking about the now, I know we're gonna be together

I just don't know how, " and her voice ring the sad melody making it go smooth

"You know when we get close. Can't deny the tension between us both and I don't wanna pressure you, but I think you need to make a move"

The crowd stood up and I no longer was able to see her, I tried moving to the side to look at her dead eyes. Her breathy voice to my breath away. I looked around and m I know that millions in this room are feeling the same. So I took step back and stayed in my chair.

"I've been waiting, and I'll keep waiting, only forever, only forever" her voice became croaky and I deeply want to look at her but I'm trying to be stronger then that thing that beats inside my chest.

Her voice started getting higher "What if I told you it's too late? What if I say that I can't wait? What if I meet somebody else who doesn't leave me on the shelf?" I felt her brittle soft voice and the words reminded me of what she told her sister, I stood up when I felt myself on the verge of tears. I pulled myself out without the boys noticing me. And as I walked away I heard her singing echo

"I'll give you one more chance, but it only lasts" I stood in my place wanting to leave and wanting stay.

"Only Forever"