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Chapter 21 – Revealed

"Well it all started when….When Jacob left me because he thought I deserved better than to be at risk be a werewolf 24/7" I whispered "He thought my life would be better off without him, I of course thought differently…" I trailed off.

"Why?"

"Because of the whole imprinting thing. I didn't want to lose him, I loved him, he was my life and I thought I was his."

"Oh."

"I shouldn't be telling you this anyway, it wouldn't be right of me. Why should I be telling the person who loves me that I do love back, about the other guy that I love and am trying to get back?"

"No, Nessie, I want to know" He, for the first time since we came upstairs that night, looked me in the eye and I saw the love and trustworthiness he had for me.

I nodded "This song – summer rain – Just makes it a lot worse" He stroked my cheek with the tips of his fingers briefly.

"It started 4 weeks before I met you. He started to avoid me, not talk to me. He didn't text me of call me. He didn't even call back if I left a text with Billy, his father, I didn't even know why!"

I sat up in bed and Julian turned the music off. "The day before had been one of the best days of my existence. All we had done was lounge around all day in a deserted part of La Push beach talking. The sun was hot and the air was cool, perfect. He'd even made a picnic with the only few foods that I liked" I carried on "He knew we were leaving, he was coming with us. Most of his things were packed and he couldn't wait to live with me!" I sighed.

"Then three days later he came round. He didn't smile when he saw me, he didn't even kiss me, he didn't even hug me back when I hugged him! He just asked to go up to my room and simply talk. We walked into the living room where we were greeted with a snarl from my dad. He told Jacob to 'not even think about doing what he was going to do', and then he looked at me as if to say 'don't go upstairs with him!'"

I knew that everyone in the house would be listening in to me telling my story. Heck, Jacob might still be awake listening. But despite them I carried on with my story.

"I was happy that Jacob had come round that I didn't take in what my dad had said. To be honest, at the time, I didn't even notice he was frowning or the missing kiss and hug.

"I led him upstairs and I sat in the middle of the bed except he didn't sit in the middle with me, he sat on the edge like you were earlier."

"Sorry, I was just upset earlier. I'm still talking to you, I'm still loving you" Then he too sat up next to me and kissed me on the forehead. "I suppose I did ignore you for an hour or seven, but I was thinking. In the end my heart won, not my brain." Then he kissed me on the lips briefly, "Sorry, again."

"It's alright. I shouldn't compare you to Jacob."

My story continued, "I was about to ask him why he had been avoiding me, but he cut in, 'I'm sorry Ness, but I can't come with you to Effie' my face dropped. I didn't know what he was on about. He said there was a problem in the pack. I knew he was lying but I believed it all the same. I walked him out to his car – even though he told me not to – he got in and I motioned for him to roll down the window, 'How can you just leave me?' I'd asked 'I don't know! But remember, I'll always love you' He'd said back. I always remember that line. He rolled the window back up and drove off. 'I'll love you too' I'd whispered and then collapsed to the ground. Alice and Rose came rushing out, quickly followed by my mum and dad. I didn't talk to anyone for two weeks."

"How could he do that to you!?"

"I don't know, I thought he was mine, that I was his imprintee. I don't know how he managed to tear himself away from me. After them two weeks of silence, I went to visit him. Well when I say I went to visit him, he wasn't there, only Billy. He'd said that Jacob had left, taking everything with him and only one box remained.

"I don't know why, but I had a feeling that the box was for me. I asked Billy if I could look in because I'd left my wolfie necklace the week before. When I went in his room, the box was there, in the middle of the enclosed space. Lying next to it was my wolfie necklace as if he'd dropped it as he'd left the room."

"Is that the wolfie necklace?" Julian asked.

I looked down and without knowing it, my hand had absentmindedly clutched onto the wolf. "Yeah" I sighed. "I sat down next to the box and cried. When I'd recomposed myself, I picked up the box and my wolfie necklace and went home. I sat in the middle of my bed with the box in front of me. I opened the lid and pulled everything out one by one. It was all the things I'd ever given him. The Valentines cards', the home videos of me and him, the cuff links for his formal ball, the stripy socks. At the bottom was a note. On the front was 'Nessie' written in his scribble writing. Seven hours later and I was still staring at it. Three weeks later and it was still on my bedside table."

"Did you not want to open it? Were you scared or did you not want to cry over him again?"

"Neither really. I was mad at him. But I didn't want to cry over him again"

I stopped for a split second.

"You don't have to go on."

"No, no no no, I want to" He stroked my hair and I continued "Another three days later, 444 missed calls on his phone, 100 texts sent and 54 long emails, he still didn't reply. I was curious now and ripped open the envelope."

"I'm guessing you know the note off by heart?" Julian presumed, "What did it say?"

"Of course I know what it says, it went,

Renesmee,

I don't know if you'll get this letter, but anyway. I don't know how I've managed to stay away from you. I think it has something to do with what's best for you. I'm so so sorry, about everything. It reminds me of the time your dad left your mum and how angry I was at Edward. But now I finally see what Edward, your dad, was feeling.

I'll always love you, no matter what.

Your Jacob xxxx

I got out the DVD's of us that were in the box. I put one on labelled 'Jacob-Nessie 6 months.' It was of a hunting trip. I sat back in bed and sent him a text saying 'Watching us hunting on them DVD's. What happened? Love you, Ness xxxx' 30 seconds later and for the first time, I got a text back. 'Have fun, I'll always love you, your Jacob xxxx' I simply sent back 'Love you too' No need for questions anymore, he wouldn't answer. Then I fell asleep.

"The next day we left. Alice, Rose, Esme and My mum had done most of my packing whilst I was in my trance. I only packed one box and labelled it 'Jacob and Nessie, Love forever.' It has everything and anything to do with him in. Then when I got here, to Effie I mean, I couldn't bare to open it. It's still packed under my bed. This" I said, holding up my wolfie necklace "Is the only thing that didn't go in. I needed something to remember him by"

He gave me a hug and rocked me gently until I slipped down the bed into a Jacob filled sleep.

Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww, did you think that was sweet, Nessie opening up to Julian? Some nice random fluff :) sweetMUCH. I hoped you like it though. reveiws make me write faster and therefore post faster (as long as fanfiction will let me sign in) okay? so reveiw please :D they makes me happier. I loves you my beautiful readers :)

I keep the random in your life

Ellie-twilight-lover

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