Dear Diary,
Six months until my wedding. I don't know if I can actually go through with this. I am constantly awake during the day about it, and I can't concentrate at all. Is this really the right decision? Does a queen really have to have a consort?
Tom would be prince consort until I took the throne in two years, He talks about the title as if he has it today. I can't bear to break his heart again. Maybe a vacation somewhere. Maybe that's what I need.
But as regent, I can't. Not anymore. I'm too important. I hate saying that. It makes me feel so vain, but I know that if I didn't say that, Tom would say that to me.
Tom. Why does he keep appearing in my train of thought? Oh Marco, if only you were here. You'd know what I should do.