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The Last Unbroken Hart;

By AliceJericho

Chapter 21: Disappointment.

"Disappointments are to the soul what a thunderstorm is to the air." -Friedrich Schiller

Friday, February 26

I was sorting through more things for when I moved out. I hadn't even started to look for a place yet, but that was the last thing on my mind.

"You, Ra, have been avoiding me all week." I looked up at my dad who was standing in the doorway.

"I haven't been avoiding you, why would I do that?" I asked with a small smile, but I knew the answer.

"You're loony if you think that Paul hasn't spoken to me, Laura." My eyes were suddenly drawn to the photo of Harry and me in my hand. Innocence oozed from the photograph; I wished I could go back. "He said that if Matt didn't know about it, you never would have done anything about it."

"I was getting to it... It just didn't seem like a big deal." I shrugged at him, still staring intently at the old photo. I was about eight, wearing a Randy Savage shirt and Harry was wearing a Hulk Hogan shirt. We had our fists up as though we were going to fight, but the huge smiles on our faces told everyone otherwise.

"You were in tears, Laura."

"And now I'm over it. Paul knows, Paul'll talk to Dave and I just won't go to Raw next week." I shrugged again, putting the photo down and getting to my feet, "No big deal."

"Why did you think you had to go to Paul? Why wouldn't you come to me?" I made the mistake of laughing at him, "Do don't think I'd be able to help?"

"Dad, what are you going to do? Dave won't listen to you, he won't listen to anyone. I doubt he's even going to listen to Paul."

"You could have at least told me, Laura."

"Stop using my full name, you only do that when you're disappointed in me." I mumbled like a teenager.

"Maybe I am. I'm disappointed that you didn't think you could come and speak to me." I looked at him and saw that he genuinely looked disappointed. I was in a bad mood and I had been all week. What I did next was not one of my finest moments.

"Because I'm such a disappointment, I'll leave."

Sunday, February 28

I rolled my eyes when my mother was speaking to me, telling me that her ex-husband, my father, had called her and told her why I was at her house.

"You're divorced. How can you talk like normal people?"

"You're twenty five years old, Laura. I think it's about time you grew up." I let my mouth hang open, offended at my mother's words.

"I am an adult! I have an adult job and adult friends-"

"You still live with your father and you don't have an adult relationship. Laura, you act like a teenager."

"I'm planning to move out!" and I'm secretly dating Matt Korklan. "All I seem to be doing is disappointing people!"

"You're not disappointing anybody, Laura. We just wish you'd grow up and live your own life."

"For your information, dad said I could stay with him for as long as I needed! I could be thirty-something and still living with him!" I shouted.

"Laura, your sister is starting a family of her own."

"I really hope you mean Jade." Mum glared at me and continued.

"Beans has a stable, healthy relationship with Jimmy and Blade is studying at university."

"This is because I'm a girl, right? And you were expecting a boy? But you got me... And I didn't go to Uni, I became a wedding planner and now I'm a massive disappointment, right?"

"What are you on about?" Mum was angry that I was fighting back. "You aren't a disappointment, you never have been and this has nothing to do with whether you are male or female! Have you tried to meet a guy, Laura?"

"Of course I have, mum! I'm not an awkward teenager!"

"Yes, but you act like one. I know things with Dean weren't the best..."

"Did you really just bring him into this? We weren't going to speak about him again!"

"I know, but really, darling. If you hadn't made those stupid rules for yourself, maybe one of the wrestlers would date you."

"No, you don't get to suggest that! You broke up with a wrestler because it made your life hell! Do you want my life to be hell, too?"

Then she got really, really loud. She started going on about how her divorce had nothing to do with dad being a wrestler, it was because they grew apart. I was told to never say that to her again. Again, I was told to grow up and try live a normal life. Until I snapped.

"I, mum, was sexually assaulted by that gigantic mass of crap. I wasn't raped, but it was still sexual assault. I'm sorry if that's what I'm afraid of. I'm afraid of maybe two things in this world. Disappointing you and dad and being in an unhealthy, abusive relationship. And I've pretty much nailed two birds within a week of each other. Claps to me, eh?"

Monday, March 1

"You have a key, right?" Nattie's voice asked through the mobile phone between my shoulder and ear.

"Yeah, always."

"Let yourself in and make yourself at home... TJ and I won't be back until next week, but I'll call to check up on you."

We said our quick goodbyes and I walked through the Floridian home, my suitcase in tow.

Florida would be my temporary home until I sorted things out with mum, dad or I bought myself a house. Nattie and TJ were kind enough to lend me their spare room.

"I guess I should check out Raw..." I'd gotten back into the habit. And it was going to be hard to break.