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[[A/N: I suck at updating. I really do. I apologize. I've just been so busy. No excuse, I know. Also, I think Liza's out. So I'm alone in all this. *sigh* Scary. So something real quick to say about this update....It's crap. (If there are mistakes, sorry. I tried to catch them all but some still might have escaped me.) I don't even know what I'm doing with the story. Then again, I don't think I ever knew. Ha. But whateva's.

Ohh & thank you Slushhy for the song recommendation. :0)

With that I shall leave & sorry if this update is short.]]

"So how you'd enjoy it?" I'm just glad it's over! No, I'm not dramatic at all. Ha.

"It was....okay." Cody seemed to smile in triumph. Don't get too ahead of yourself there buddy.

"I knew you'd have fun. Maybe we can...." Whoa no!

"Cody, you're fun and all, but you know I don't swing your way. You're sort of caring an extra appendage that just doesn't do it for me." He quietly laughed.

"It's cool. Just thought I'd try again. Well anyways, I'll see you tomorrow. Glen invited me over for video games." Oh joy.

"Aren't you guys just a little too old to play video games?" He threw his hands up in offense.

"You are never too old for video games. That's like saying you're too old for PB&J." Right. 'Cause that's so the same thing. Not.

"Anyways...see you tomorrow." Stepping out of the Lexus, I was home, finally. I watched the car drive off into the night as I stood in front of my house. I sighed in relief as I was left alone at last.

'Thank God'

The night wasn't as bad as it was awkward. He continuously tried to hold my hand and put his arm around me. After the second time it just got annoying. Other than that, it was okay. We went to a mini golf course and played for a while, then headed to a go-kart place. Afterwards went to my favorite restaurant, Olive Garden. I absolutely love Italian food. So good! Besides all that, the major downfall of it all was I just wished I wasn't thinking about someone else the entire night.

I stood still in my front yard, taking in the fresh air. Well as fresh as it would get considering it was L.A. I was probably taking in pollution more than freshness. As I kept in place a certain thought occurred to me. I have not smoked a cigarette in way too long. Which led me to where I was now heading, my room. I was digging through my dresser looking for my pack of cigarettes.

A-Ha!

I found them. Grabbing the lighter closes to me, I stuffed the objects into my pocket and headed back outside. Passing Dallas' room, I heard soft music playing.

"Why don't you care at all?

I'm dying for a place in your heart.

Can you take this silence like a pill so I can breathe again

I've been trying to ignore the best parts of you

But I'm still hoping that I'll be with you somehow, somehow

Please be home tonight

I'll die if I don't get a chance to make this just right"

Gosh Dallas was depressing, but...I like. I'll have to take this song from her tomorrow. Figuring she was still awake though, I opened her door, however what I saw was a very much asleep Dallas already tucked into bed. It was kind of cute, in a loser kind of way. I walked over to her stereo and shut off the music. Making my way over to her sleeping form, I noticed just how sweet and innocent she looked. Pft, looks were so deceiving. Ha joking. I loved my baby sister more than anything. She meant the world to me.

I bent down and gently brushed back a strand of hair that had fallen to her face. Kissing her softly on the forehead I whispered "Goodnight" and turned off her light. Before shutting the door to her room, I heard a quiet whisper. "I love you Spennie." Smiling, I replied. "Love you too brat." I closed it completely afterwards.

Once I was outside, I stood leaning against the side of the house. I removed the objects from my pockets and lit the offending white stick. Shutting my eyes, I inhaled, it felt so good. It really has been too long since I've smoked. I let the silence engulf me as I enjoyed the peacefulness of it.

"You really should quit you know." So much for quiet.

Opening my eyes, I saw Ashley standing in front of me. She had her arms wrapped around herself, attempting to block out the cold.

"So they say." I inhaled once again, only this time, taking in a longer drag. She watched as I exhaled and I watched as her eyes shone in the moonlight. Gorgeous as ever.

I wasn't sure what to make of this interaction. We haven't exactly talked since that night, when I kissed her.

"So what brings you out on such a lovely night?" She seemed to snap out of her daze.

"I needed some fresh air." I laughed. She was in the wrong spot to be getting that fresh air.

Finishing my cigarette faster than I had hoped, I contemplated smoking another one.

"One's enough, don't you think?" Cue valley girl voice, as if!

I walked over to the bench we had in our yard and sat down. Surprised to see that she had followed, I scooted over and left her some room. We sat in awkward silence for a few minutes before she spoke up.

"So how was your date with Cody?" I almost choked on my spit. Gross, I know.

"Not a date." I looked to see her reaction and saw...nothing. *Sigh*

"Oh." I took out my cell and noticed that it was 2 a.m. Damn, had I really been out for that long? Apparently so. Yes, I did just answer my own question.

"Well do you like him?" Do you care?

"Me no do dick." Now it was her turn to practically choke on her spit. Funny sight if you ask me.

"So why are you out here really?" Her head turned to me and our eyes locked.

"I told you. Fresh air." Riiight.

"You needed fresh air at two in the morning?" She turned her head in the opposite direction now and sighed.

"Yes." Now I know that was a bullshit answer.

"Okay." We remained seated there for a while longer. Looking at my phone it was nearing 2:45 a.m. already. Where does the time go? Seriously. Standing up and stretching, I looked to her and noticed the sad look on her face.

"Uh, are you okay?" She half smiled and nodded. Not wanting to hassle her, I didn't ask more. I should probably head inside now. The cold was starting to get to me. I'm weak, whatever.

"Well I think I'm...."

"Why did you kiss me?" That sure came out of nowhere.

"Uh…because I wanted to?"

"But why then? Why not sooner? I wanted you so bad Spencer. I would have waited." This was a conversation I did not want to have.

"I'm sorry. I just...I don't know."

"Do you know anything?" She threw up her hands in frustration. Yeah, pretty sure she was frustrated now. Ha.

"I know that....that...." Why couldn't I just say it?

"That what, Spencer?" Now or never, right?

"That...well, I like you." It came out as more of a whisper, but given the look on her face I'm sure she still heard. Maybe I should have gone with never.

"I have a girlfriend now." Yeah hard to miss the slut hanging from your every move. Speaking of skanks, where was she now? Then again, I don't care.

"And I'm over you." Okay?

"At least, I'm supposed to be." Now she really had my attention.

She stood up and came face to face with me. Her eyes looked down to my lips then back up into my eyes. Oh how I wanted to kiss her more than ever. However, I wouldn't. I didn't want a repeat of last time, which went bad. I closed my eyes and tried to kill the temptation.

"Spence..." Not opening my eyes, I answered, "Yeah?" When I heard no response, it was then that I opened my eyes. Ashley had gotten a lot closer and if I made just one move, my lips would be on hers. Our gazes kept still on one another. Even if I wanted to look away, I don't think I would be able to.

"Kiss me." I'm not sure if I heard right.

"Huh?" Yeah, that didn't make me sound stupid at all. Ha.

Closing her eyes and taking in a deep breath, she repeated, "Kiss me."

And so I did as I was told.

[[A/N: Okay so what do yall want to see happen? 'Cause I don't know what I should do next. I have an idea, sort of, but I still want all of your thoughts. So ideas?]]

Song Used:

Hopeless Love by: Daphne Loves Derby