Previously

''I never want to loose you'', I cried whilst hugging him.

Everything was slowly pulling itself together. Edward and I were closer and our relationship was as it was before.

Today was a massive day for everyone; Rosalie and Emmett were coming down for winter break so everyone was doing their own thing. I was balancing between helping Alice decorate and helping Esme cook.

''Phew, I am exhausted Bells, what about you'' Alice sighed exasperated.

''Sorta'' I replied.

''Well now we all have to get ready, chop, chop everyone'' Alice announced, resuming into her hyper mode.

When Emmett and Rosalie arrived, the house was filled with laughter and excitement, I think Alice may have been over excited, yet she deserved this, she has been trying to hold everyone together and she's been doing a good, damn job at it.

''Rose it's soo good to see you'' I hugged her tightly.

I never realised how much I had truly missed Rose, she was like my big sister and the sibling I never got.

Out of nowhere I felt myself being lifted off the ground, Emmett spun me upside down.

''What don't I get a hug or greeting" he pouted.

''Oh Emmy I forgot you existed'' I joked.

I noticed out of the corner of my eye that Edward was very inattentive and kept quiet to himself.

I decided to find out what was wrong. I pulled Edward off the couch and took him upstairs to his room.

''Bells, why are we up here, when we are supposed to be downstairs celebrating with the family.'' he questioned cocking his head to the side.

''Edward, I know something's bothering you so please just tell me.''

''Bella, I wish it was easy, but I just can't, I have lost my voice to talk and share things, I wish I could but I have this gut feeling constantly, that if I say something it will turn out wrong.'' he placed his head in his hands.

''Edward just try for me. I know that things are really tough believe me I do. I watch you day after day hoping things will turn out okay for you because your hurting so much.'' I whispered softly.

''Bella, I want to, I really do. I am not good at expressing anymore.'' he whispered turning his head away from me, I assumed he was embarrassed.

I grabbed his head between my hands and directly looked at him.

''Edward, please never shy away from me. I am here for you every step of the way. Through every hurdle, I will be with you'' I whispered gently squeezing his hand is assurance.

As soon as we went downstairs Rosalie and Emmett wanted to announce something. Of course Emmett being Emmett had to dramatize everything. He went and made as much noise as possible.

''Well everyone, Rosalie and I would like to announce that we're engaged. Come on Rosie shine your dazzling ring for us!''

Everyone congratulated and now there was more to celebrate about.

In celebration, we all went down to La push. It was a beautiful night full of happiness and joy, I was so happy for them, they deserved true bliss.

As the fireworks flew into the sky, I lay under a blanket just gazing at the stars next Alice.

''I hope one day I get a shot of happiness like them'', she whispered.

''You will, I'll make sure of it'' I smiled happily.

Back at the house there was more preparing to do; with Rosalie and Emmett only here for a few more days we wanted them to enjoy their trip as much as possible.

''I am so excited, we get to dress up, it's like prom. That reminds me has Edward asked you to his prom yet.'' Alice asked.

''No, and I am sure he will find a really nice girl that is not his best friend.'' I stated,

''You silly girl, you never see who you truly are.'' she shook her head disappointed.

''Your just bias cause you're my best friend''.

When we had finished I was happy at the end result. My hair was half curly, half straight, I was wearing a turquoise dress with beading at the top and it flowed to below my knees. Alice was wearing her hair straight and down with a pink dress that hugged her curves, she looked amazing.

If I thought I had looked good, Rosalie blew my ego out the window. She had her in a bun with a few strands hanging, she was wearing a flowy red dress, and she looked perfect, beyond amazing.

The night went on with laughter, music and jokes. It was a blissful night, actually this winter break had been amazing and so much good had happened, I just hoped that nothing came to ruin this happiness.

As Emmett and Rosie left towards the airport, I could feel the tension in the air. It's different they're family to us, just them being here was something special, it brightened the family, the air was alive.

I was holding Alice; I could feel her tears seep through my shirt. It would be hard for everyone to get back on track.

A few days had passed since Rose and Em left. Winter break was over and it was time for school again.

At least we all had school to sort of distract us from the departure, everything was slowly settling.

Alice decided to get us all out of our mopy state by holding a surprise party for Edward and Jasper. Their birthdays clashed between July so she thought it was the perfect idea. (A/N: Now I know that winter in Forks is not in July, I am going by Australian seasons.)

It was Saturday and Alice and I decided to start planning. We had practically organised everything from the food to the function. Alice seemed to be really proud and happy at herself.

I went to visit Edward after our plans. I had noticed his silences and who could blame him so much had happened, not to mention he is still recovering from his traumatic childhood.

I knocked quietly on his door.

''Come in'' he whispered.

As I walked in I saw him sitting staring at a painting.

''Edward this is beautiful'', I gushed, he nodded.

''It's for Alice, I know how much she loves pretty things like flowers and gardens. Her birthday is in a few months and I thought I would do something that could last forever.'' he mumbled.

''You know how amazing you are Edward.'' I smiled patting his back.

''Bella, I am not. I hardly even communicate with my family, it's like I have forgotten how all together.'' he uttered.

It broke my heart to see Edward in such pain, he never deserved this hardship.

''I think this is part of the progress to recovery'' I hugged him tightly.

I knew that there is a long way and that there maybe more hurdles to overcome, but I could be happy with each step we make together at least for now…