Long enough to hold you out for a few hours and then some (maybe). I love making my chap 20 interesting.

Let's just say I WILL NOT read anything or even get close to the computer until I have flipped every page in BD, no update until I finish it. But for those who want it soon let's just say I'm a fast reader.

The song is by Kate Voegle, I really love it and it gives a nice feel to parts of this chapter.

Hallelujah

LPOV

The week dragged on to Thursday. Embry Paul and Collin were now being interviewed by CPS. We had yet to figure out who told. Jason was asleep in the bedroom and I sat alone on the couch. Jacob joined me.

"Honey, we're going to figure this out." I curled up next to him as he wrapped his arm around me,

"I don't want to give him up." I mumbled though my words were muffled by his chest.

"I don't either. I told you we're going to figure something out." He said not quite sure himself.

THIRD PERSON (DIALOUGE)

Embry Collin and Paul exited the CPS center after being interviewed by the case worker, Oscar. He asked about Allison each of them gave the same story. Got carried away, had a one night stand and the next day she disappeared. To them it felt like they had been there for hours when in reality it had been only and hour in a half. Paul drove them home. The car was filled with an awkward silence.

"What are we going to do?" Collin was the one who broke it.

"What can we do, we already took the test." Embry replied. Each held the same enthusiasm towards the idea, which was none. Neither of them felt ready to take care of someone else.

"I don't know about either of you but I can't be a father I struggle to take care of myself much less a baby." Paul said clearly loathing the situation he was in.

"I can barely drive legally, I'm only 18, what the hell am I going to do with a kid, besides that my mother is going to murder me." Collin said with the same sentiment.

"I can't handle being a father besides Sarah is going to dump me if she finds out. I barely started to get close to her again." Embry said cringing just thinking about it.

"Ya'll know I don't have the patience either." Paul added.

"We know." They replied.

"Jacob and Lacey are so emotionally attached to Jason. Jason would've been better off with them than with any of us." Embry said

Paul and Collin quickly agreed to the statement.

Again silence invaded the air. They pulled up to Jacob's house. He said he wanted them to tell him what happened. Just like the rest of the doors in La Push it was open so they walked in.

When they entered they found Jacob desperately trying to comfort Lacey.

"Hey" he looked up briefly to greet them but turned back down to Lacey who was curled up next to him. Once she realized they were there she lifted her head and straightened herself out, though she remained glued to Jacob's side.

Meanwhile……

LeahPOV

I was sitting in front of Josh in the hospital cafeteria I had been spending a large part of my time here. We just clicked. I had yet to tell Sam about it, I didn't know why I didn't say anything. The only people who knew were Lacey, Jacob because Lacey told him and my brother because he caught me thinking about it when we phased during the same time. I swore him to secrecy though.

"So I told you everything there is to know about me which isn't much. How about you?" He had told me that his parents moved from Texas when he was 15. He finished high school and then went to collage. He wants to become an ER tech. He's a tech now but in the ICU because there was no room in the ER. His full name is Joshua Collins he's 26 and he has a little sister who's my age, 22. But she moved back to Texas with his parents. He was now rooming with his friend Brian.

"I'm not that interesting." I said which was the complete opposite. I had known him about 3 weeks and with the amount of time I spent with him he would suspect something I knew it was him and I was going to have to tell him eventually. But I can't know how he's going to react.

"I doubt that. It seems like you're full of surprises. There has to be something." He insisted.

"There's really not."

"You live on the Quileute reservation right? I told you my story tell now me yours." He pressed.

I sighed but smiled. "Yeah I've lived there since I was born. I have a brother he's 18 and his name is Seth. We were just normal people."

"You aren't normal anymore?"

"We're normal to our people maybe not so much everyone else. Things started to go bad around my junior year."

"Why, what happened." He sounded genuinely interested.

"I was going out with a guy, Sam. We'd been going out for a long time. Then all of a sudden he started to act strange he'd say it was nothing but I knew it was something. He was like that for a couple days then he just ……. disappeared. No where to be found. He eventually turned up 2 weeks later but refused to tell anyone what happened he wouldn't even tell me. People started to judge him to instigate what he'd done. I knew it was something big and I just could never get it out of him. Our relationship struggled because I knew he was lying about something. Then my cousin Emily came to visit. She was like the sister I didn't have we were inseparable. When Sam met her something happened. The look I saw in his eyes told me it was …. It was over." I was letting the memory fill my mind.

"He dumped you for your cousin what an ass."

"Yeah I thought he was an ass too. I just didn't get why her of all people. He told me he didn't understand but that he so sorry and he couldn't help it." I said remembering the painful memories of that day.

"He couldn't help but hit on you cousin." He said in a judging voice. "That's a pathetic excuse."

"I thought it was too but things happened that more or less made me understand. Now more than ever.

After he told me I became a horrible person. Because I'm not the kind of person who cries to show pain or sorrow. I'm the kind of person who turns that pain into anger and resentment. After he told me that again he disappeared but Emily tried to look for him. The just is they're married now."

"I'm sorry."

I shrugged. "After that I remained that person, the resentful one. Life dragged on nothing really mattered much nothing really caught my attention until …… my dad died." My voice almost broke. I took a look back to that hospital room. Where he said his last good-bye. "I have to say it wasn't the highpoint to my life. But it did mark the day where my life changed along with my brother's. We were never the same after that. Something happened to my brother and me it was more than just the loss of a father."

"What?" He asked.

"I'll tell you sometime."

He didn't pressure me. "Did you ever expect whatever happened?"

"It was more unexpected for me than my brother. I don't know, it's like when someone gives you a box and it's filled with answers but you don't really know what it is when you get it. You just think nothing of it but then comes that one day when it actually matters and you realize it really means something, more than you ever thought."

"So you knew what was going to happen but at the same time you didn't really know. What you're saying is that you were meant to know, but you didn't get it." He said.

"I didn't know you actually followed that. You're right that's what happened." He started to get up and I followed him. We walked down the hall. Without me noticing he took my hand.

"So when are you going to tell me. Whatever happened, you've intrigued me." He said conversationally.

"Soon." I replied. I had to tell Sam first. He won't be happy that I've kept it from him for this long.

"Can't wait." We walked out from the elevator onto his floor.

"Josh you've got room 313." A nurse said from the desk. That was my cue.

He rolled his eyes. "I have to get back to work." He pulled me in close to him. He pressed his lips to mine afraid to go any further, though I know I wanted to. But I didn't we were in public. "Wow you're really warm. Are you sick?" There goes the first of many suspicions.

"No I'm fine. I'll call you in the morning." He went on to his room and I went down the elevator. I walked through the lobby and I heard a lady having an argument with a woman. I usually wouldn't care enough to listen but this time I did.

"Miss I told you I don't know where he is."

"It's really important. I need to find where that baby is. You can't give me anything at all."

"There's many children that come through here I can't just tell you. I wouldn't be able to."

"My mom told me my sister Allison passed but that the baby was alive. I need to find his dad. I need information from him, please." The girl pressed.

The lady in the front desk looked like she wanted to help but didn't know how. "Do you know any other information?"

"All I know is that the father was Quileute that's it."

The front desk lady nodded her head. "I know who you're talking about. But he's not here anymore. Look Dr. Carlisle was the doctor who treated him when they brought him in, go to the ER I'm sure he's there." She was looking for Jason but why. She was about to walk right past me but I caught her by the arm.

"Why are you looking for that baby?" I demanded.

"How do you know that?"

"I heard you, now why do you look for him and his father? I know where he is but I need answers." I pressed.

"She was my sister we weren't close but I know she looked for a Quileute boy. She used to say he was important to find one of them. I never understood why and I want to know."

Back in La Push……..

LPOV

"What did they say?" Jacob asked beside me.

"They asked us about Allison and then we had to take the test." Embry answered.

"Who told?"

"Her mom, they told us her name. Well I new it was her mom as soon as they said her name. She told me about her. She said their relationship wasn't the best but they had their moments."

I remained silent. "Look you guys. I'm sorry. I know ya'll want to keep Jason." Embry continued.

"I know but what are we going to do about it there's nothing at the momme –" he was cut short by Jason's cry.

I got up and went into the bedroom to get him. He calmed at my touch. I took him back to the living room.

JPOV

She came back with Jason and took her place next to me again. He became uncomfortable again.

"May I?" Paul asked. He held his arms out and though she was a little hesitant she handed him over. Paul actually looked a little serene with Jason in his arms. I looked over to Lacey. I watched her eyes fill with sadness as he watched Paul with him. She abruptly got up and walked out of the house.

"My bad." Paul said as she stormed off.

"Give her a minute. It's not your fault." I got up and followed her out. She stood leaned on the porch column.

I walked over to her and held her close to me.

"I don't want to give him up." She sobbed.

"I know, I know." I couldn't think of any other way to calm her. I think the both of us had grown too attached to him. "Come on let's go inside." She simply nodded and we returned inside.

"Well I'm going to head home. That guy…Oscar said we were all supposed to go back tomorrow for the results." Embry said as he left.

Paul returned Jason to Lacey. "I'm going to go too. I guess I'll see you tomorrow." Collin was next to excuse himself.

"So tomorrow, I'll have to give him to one of them. I guess it gives me comfort that it's one of them and not someone else." She said beside me. I could see she was trying to sound like she was happy with the situation but I knew she wasn't. Tomorrow I would see her heart break.

The day turned into night and the long night turned into morning. Without a word she showered got dressed and did the same with Jason. While I showered she made breakfast for Claire and I. My father remained in bed. I guess he didn't feel all that great, I didn't know why though.

I ate when I finished getting ready.

"Good luck you guys, I'm off to my last day of high school." She said overjoyed, man was I glad not to return to La Push high.

"Have fun, you won't miss it I promise." Lacey replied a little happier than yesterday but still not the same. She walked out the door and left.

She gave Jason breakfast while I ate. Then we were on our way to the center.

When we arrived Embry Paul and Collin had already arrived and were waiting in the lobby. Shortly after we arrived we were called in. Oscar was the one to attend us.

"Okay well the results are in. Any questions before we begin, concerns."

"What if we don't want to know?" Paul blurted out.

"What do you mean by that?" Oscar asked clearly puzzled by the question.

"What if I don't want to know if I'm father or not. What if it's mine and I tell you I want them to have Jason."

"I'm with him. It's not that I'm irresponsible and immature. Maybe that's part of it but what I'm saying is I can't do it, I know I can't." Embry asked. No one was sure what was going on.

Collin was next. "Actually …… That's not a bad idea. I mean you have the test you know it's one of us right?" He nodded. "Well since we don't want to know can't we all agree to them let them adopt Jason?"

"Are you three sure you don't want to know? What you're asking can be done. You three can sign over the custody papers and he will remain with them. But it's something you can't taker back 10 years later." He explained.

"It's what's best for him. I accept I'm just not the guy. He deserves a father and a mother and I'm not either of that." Embry said. Was this actually happening?

"If they agree to keep him I'll be there as an uncle but I can't be the father he needs." Paul replied.

"My answer is the same as Paul's." Collin said

"You don't want to know?" he asked again. They shook their heads. "Okay well I'm going to go get the papers and we'll get started." He looked puzzled by the situation.

"What are ya'll doing?" I demanded.

"Look we talked it over. It's what's best for him. I know you think we're punks and in a way we are. But seriously he won't be well of with us, we can't give him a family. Besides look at him he loves you guys." Embry said, it made sense and I was grateful he said it.

"Collin and I agree. We aren't ready and he deserves better. He needs a mom too, Lacey can be that." Paul

Well what do you think is going to happen some things are obvious others are not so much. I have to tell ya'll something. I have one twist left, there is a hint in this chapter on what it is. There is a throw off in here. You may think that it's the twist but I don't consider it a twist. Can you guess what the real twist is?

Ahhhhhhhh! I had to do that, BD is hours away!! Sadly my mom won't take me to the midnight release so I have time to spend writing this and helping people like me who won't get there hands on it until tomorrow morning. –sigh-

I'm off to re-read Eclipse.