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When you really love someone – Chapter 20
"You fucking bastard let me out of here. Satan needs to be razed!" Meredith yelled.
The office looked at her, "Miss Grey, sit down. We have some questions."
"Then ask and don`t look at me like I`m a crazy person."
"Miss Grey, why did you do this to Dr. Shepherd?"
"She`s evil. She`s Satan."
The officer looked at her, she seemed to be proud of what she did, "Did you kidnap her?"
"Yes I did."
"Did you drag her to give her child away?"
"I would have thrown it away. Only gave it to the baby hatch because Derek would hate me if I had done any harm to his child."
"What did you want to do with her after you gave the child in the baby hatch."
"Is she dead?" Meredith asked ignoring the officer's question.
"What did you want to do with her after you gave the child in the baby hatch?", the officer repeated his question.
"Killing her of course. What else? I need to save the world from Satan which is hiding in a human body."
The officer looked at her, "Are you really serious about that?"
"Of course I am." Meredith answered confused. "It`s my task to save the planet and then I can safe Derek and he can be finally happy with me."
"Ok, Miss Grey. You will be brought back in your prison cell for now."
"You didn`t answer my question. Is she dead?"
"Miss Grey, Dr. Shepherd is on her way to become better."
"This can`t be happening. You´ve got to let me out of here. Let me out I need to end this. I need to complete my mission."
The officer looked at her in horror when two officers brought her back to her prison cell.
The next morning Addison woke up. She looked around. Derek was away for a short while maybe to grab a coffee, but Lucas was lying in a crib next to her. Addison put him out of the crib and cradled him in her arm, "Hey sweety, did you sleep well?" He was so little and sweet she cuddled him a bit closer to him. She was so glad she had him back.
He looked at her, it was still too early for him to recognize her properly. A baby this age can only look from breast to face.
Addison looked at her son, "Are you hungry little man? You seem like you haven't eaten in a while." She kissed his forehead and smelled his scent again. She softly laid him against her right breast.
Lucas opened his mouth and ledged on immediately.
Addison smiled, it was wired for a moment, but she liked it. She liked it to have him that closed.
"Hey." Derek whispered so he wouldn`t disturb the baby`s meal.
Addison looked at him, "Hey."
"How are you feeling?"
"Better. You?"
"I`m fine. Are you sure it`s not to early for you to breast feed him? I mean, you`ve been through a lot."
"Derek please ... there are no organs hurt and I want him close. The birth was ... I want to make it up to him."
"It wasn`t your fault that he was taken away from you right after he was born. I know it was more stress for both of you than it normally is and the stroke and all, I just want you to be okay."
"I know ... I need this Derek ... I ... it was so hard and I need to know that he's safe." Lucas got away a bit from her breast and started to whine a bit. Addison looked at him, "Hey Lucas, everything is alright." She put him softly to her other breast and he started to ledge again immediately. Addison laid Lucas hand in hers. "He's so small Derek." She whispered. "I know I should get used to this but this time it isn't a patient's baby. This is ours. It's half me and half you."
"He is and he`s going to grow up and be a strong man. He`s going to be fine."
"I know." He was still ledging and looked perfect peaceful.
"He looks so happy when he`s with you." He notices. He`s a different baby in his mommy's arms.
"He was hungry" She saw the worries in his eyes. "He will be that comfortable around you soon ... it's just ... he was inside me for 9 months. He knows me better than you."
"I`m not jealous Addie. I`m happy that he feels comfortable with you. You`re his mom. You`ll always have a different bond than he and I have. You both went through a lot and even though he`s only a baby, he noticed that something was wrong when she ripped him out of your arms."
"I know it's just ... I want him to have a special bond with you too."
"He will have Addison. Don´t worry. Now it`s your time." He looked at them for a while "The officers need to talk to you."
"I know ..." Lucas was finished she put him softly away. "Could you make him burp? Because I would like to put my breasts inside the shirt again."
"Of course. Come here little man." He took him from Addison and softly stroke his back.
Addison smiled at them. They were so sweet together. She put her breasts in her bra and this in his shirt again.
"Can I tell the officers that they can come in? I can stay or take him to the nursery. Whatever makes you more comfortable."
"I think he shouldn't be here. So please take him to the nursery."
"Okay." he kissed her forehead and left the room. Before he went to the nursery he told the officers that Addison´s ready for them.
Addison sighed, she really didn't want to talk about that, but she knew she had to.
"Hello Dr. Shepherd." Officer Murphy greeted her. "How are you feeling?"
"A bit better."
"I need to apologize that we didn`t believe you in the first place. We really regret that."
"You can't change it, so whatever. Sit down. I feel so small when you stand and I lay in bed."
"Okay. Dr. Shepherd, can you tell me what happened. From the beginning on?"
"From the very beginning?"
"Yes please. I need to know everything."
"Two days after I called you Derek was called in and left me alone. I noticed someone was there shortly after he left."
Addison sighed, this was really tough for her, "She ... I tried my best to fight her, but I wasn't in the best position since she was prepared and I wasn't."
"And then what? How did she manage to get you out of the house?"
"I don't exactly remember what happened after that, but when I woke up I was in a kind of a minibus."
"Yeah, we identified the minibus."
"She beat me when I woke up."
"More than once?"
"More than once."
"I know it must be hard for you to talk about it, but can you tell me what else happened?"
"I noticed the baby was coming and there was nothing I could do to stop it. So I begged her not to throw it away. So I told her what she wanted to hear. That she and Derek only can have a chance if she doesn't kill the baby. That he would hate her for this and I was really lucky she believed me."
"So she put him in the hatch?"
"After ... after he was born she only gave me a few minutes with him. I cradled him in a blanket and but the wedding band to him and hoped that somebody would find it. Then she put him in the hatch."
"And afterwards? What did she do to you? And what did she tell you?"
"I told her before that ... that if she put him in the hetch she can do to me what she wanted to do from the beginning. She brought me back to the brownstone. After a short while I noticed some police outside and really hoped she wouldn't, because this was my last chance."
"Yeah, we were lucky that we observed the house. But you didn`t get inside through the front door. I guess it was the back door?"
"Yeah, the back door."
"Can you tell me why she thinks you`re Satan?"
"I don't know. When I came first to Seattle, Derek was mad and he called me Satan sometimes, maybe it was that, but I don't know. She thinks I took him away from her."
"Even though he`s your husband she thinks you took him away from her?"
"We had some problems and Derek went to Seattle on his own. He didn't tell her he was married until I came to Seattle and told her."
"Did she seem sick back then? We think she`s not herself."
"No, I don't think so. She had a relationship with a vet for a while, but I don't know ... we weren't really close friends like you can guess."
"Of course. Well that`s it for now. I`ll contact you if I have any more questions or when there are news."
"Ok, thank you."
"Hi Adds." Mark said when he entered the room and walked to her kissing her cheek softly. "How are you doing?"
"Mark, hey. Better. You?"
"You made me worry a lot Monty."
"Sorry for that. Have you seen Lucas already?"
"No, not yet. I only now heard what happened and I needed to make sure you`re okay before I go visit him."
"Can you bring him? Please and tell Derek to go and eat something, he looked like he hasn't eaten in a while."
"Of course I can. I`ll be back real quick." he kissed her forehead before leaving.
"Thanks."
"Hey man. I only hard a couple of minutes ago and went straight to Addie to see how she`s doing."
"But how are you doing?"
"I`ve been better. Here, look at him. He`s so young and been through so much already."
Mark smiled at him, "He's pretty perfect."
"He is, isn`t he? Mark, I know Addie will be mad that she isn`t here right now, but we want you to be his godfather."
"I would be honored."
"Thanks. He looks so unhappy when he`s away from Addie." Derek exclaimed worried.
"She asked me to bring him to her."
"Of course she did. I`ll come with you."
Mark looked at Derek, "I don't think so. Your wife ordered me to tell you to get something to eat for yourself."
"She`s not my mom you know. I know when I have to eat." Derek replied smiling that Addison was already acting pretty much normal.
"I know that, you know that, but we both know Addie. So you should go an eat something, because we both know that she will ask you what you have eaten when you come back and we also know that you're a really terrible liar. I mean I always have to help you that she doesn't find out what you got her for her birthdays and Christmases."
"Fine. Tell her I`ll be back very fast."
"Sure. See you in a few, don't worry I can handle her and Lucas for a while."
"I know. Thanks Mark."
"Always." Mark went to the direction of Addie's room.
He was cooing at the baby, something very untypical for Mark when he noticed a familiar figure walking towards him.
"Hey, who's making you coo like that?" Isabella laughed when she came up to him.
"Hey honey. Meet Lucas my godson." He smiled widely.
"Ahhh ... they made you godfather. This is so great Mark. He's so sweet."
"he really is isn`t he. He`s been through a lot for his short life already." He told her looking at the baby smiling slightly.
"Ahhh ... he's so sweet ... hello little man, I'm your aunt Isabella. So how's Addison doing?"
"Well given the circumstances she`s holding up very well. We told you about Meredith Grey didn`t we?"
"No not really ... what happened?"
"She`s Derek`s really jealous ex-girlfriend. She, uhm kidnapped Addie last night and actually wanted to kill her. Well Addie gave birth while she was with Meredith and could convince Meredith to put the baby in the baby hatch instead of throwing him away somewhere in the park because Derek would never forgive Meredith for killing his baby. he had a stroke and well they don´t know yet how bad it is. They found Addie in time but she needed surgery."
Isabella looked at him in horror, "Oh my gosh ... this is ... terrible."
"It is. But they are both save now and he seems to be okay. And she`s holding up very well as well."
Isabella smiled slightly at him, "So what were you up to before I came?"
"Addison asked me to bring Lucas to her. Want to come with us?"
"Later ... I think ... you know her for years and ... see you later, ok? But tell her he's really sweet and send her my best."
"Alright. I`ll come to your place later?"
"Sure. Can't wait." She gave him a sweet kiss. "Tell Addison I will visit her tomorrow."
"I`m sure she`ll be happy about visitors." He kissed her again.
Isabella smiled at him, cooed one last time at Lucas and left.
He knocked softly before opening the door. "Hey, you`re son`s really excited to see you again." He smiled widely when he handed her the baby.
Addison smiled, "Hey hun, did you have a good time with uncle Marky?"
"He was very good." He paused for a while looking at Addison and the baby. "Do you think I could do it?" He asked after a while unsure.
"Could do what?" Addison looked at him puzzled.
"Being a dad."
Addison smiled at Lucas, who seemed to look at her. Then she turned back to Mark, "Mark, I know I haven't been ... very nice about that in the past ... but things changed, we changed. I know you would be a great dad and I also know you'll be a great dad one day."
"You really think so? Because I don`t want to let my kid down one day."
"You won't. I know that and I promise to kick your ass when you're a real jerk."
"Thanks. So, is there anything I can do for you?"
"There's something ... don't tell Derek, I told you, but ... we were thinking of godparents and we want you to be his godfather if you want to be."
"I`d love to Addison. I feel honored."
She smiled at him, "Thanks. That means a lot to me."
"You have no idea how much this means to me too Addison. Isabella asked me to wish you all the best and that Lucas is beautiful and she`ll visit tomorrow."
"Can't wait for it." Addison tried her best to keep her smile up.
"Addie, I know you for quite a while now, I can tell when there`s something bothering you or something you want to talk about. You can talk to me, you know that right? I`ll always be there for you, no matter what." He told her softy sitting down next to her and taking one of her hands to show her his support.
"I know ... can you sit down with me on the bed?"
He only nodded in response and sat down next to her, letting her rest her head on his shoulder.
She still hold Lucas close, they sat there for a while before she started to sob uncontrollable.
He knew that he doesn`t have to talk to her. She only needed him to hold her and sooth her. So that`s what he did, he hold her tightly and supported her arm which was holding Lucas. He gently stroke through her hair and up and down her upper arm. "Let it all out. I`ll be here all the time holding you."
After a while she started to speak in a low voice, "I really thought she would just throw him away. I was so afraid of that. I really can't tell ... everything else seemed suddenly to become unimportant."
"He`s everything to you. I get that. But he`s safe now and that`s all that matters. You`re both safe now."
"And Derek ... he's so perfect and ... but I can't tell him. Oh god it hurt so much and no one was there and I had nothing to cut the cord ..." she looked down. She tried to get the memories out of her head the whole day.
"You were alone? Meredith wasn`t there during the birth?" He asked surprised.
"She cut the cord with something ... I can't even remember that properly."
"I don`t know what to tell you, except for the fact that you`re here now. You`re safe and next time Derek gets called in, call me and I`ll be with you 5 minutes later. You don`t have to be alone at home anymore."
"I don't think Isabella will like that when you leave her for the night to come and stay with me."
"She`ll understand. `Don`t worry about her and me. We`re great. We can come together and have a sleepover."
"But you have to bring a silly movie ... or a Russell Crowe movie ... god he has such good hair."
"You still like that guy? Derek`s not jealous?"
Addison smiled a bit, "Dunno ... we don't usually talk about Russell Crowe ... the last time ... oh right, was when I came to Seattle and told him that his hair was long, a bit more like Russell, and that I liked it. He seemed a bit pissed back then."
"Yeah, well but if he was pissed because of Russell Crowe is a different questions. Addison, promise me to call me when you need a friend. Don`t forget that."
"Promise you. Thanks Mark. You're really my best friend."
"You`re my best friend too." She was still lying in his arms, her head still resting on his shoulder.
"I'll ask Derek because of the Russell Crowe thing ... and to come back to the point from before ... so you want to be a dad?"
"I think I do." He smiled widely at the thought of having a baby. "Yes, ever since you got pregnant I want to have a family and I think with Isabella, I have found the right woman for that."
Addison smiled, "Ahh ... that's so sweet. I really never thought I would hear that from your mouth. Sorry."
"That`s okay Addison. I was a manwhore, I know that."
"But you're a good man Mark ... and you're really lucky you're a man in this pregnancy thing ..."
"Was it that bad?"
"I looked like a whale in the end."
"You still looked great Addison."
"Thanks. You know most time it was really great ... I had him always with me ...", she stroke his hand, "but he seemed much bigger when he wanted to come out."
"I`m scared of that part of becoming a father." He told her honestly.
"Ahh ... don't be the worst thing that could happen is that Isabella squeezes your hand a little bit too hard."
"They have quite a value. And I`m not concerned about me but about seeing her in so much pain."
"She'll make this. It's worth the pain. I promise you this and if you need an OB/GYN ... you know where to find me. I can make a perfect c-section without a visible scar."
"Would you have wanted a c-section?"
"No."
"Didn`t expect anything else. And thanks if it was my choice, I`d definitely chose you as OB/GYN."
"Thanks. You know ... if I had to choose for a second child how to give birth I would do it the naturally way again, but don't tell Derek ... by now ... we don't want to get him some stupid ideas."
"My lips are sealed."
Addison smiled at him, leaned to him and cradled Lucas softly.
"You really did a great job with him and it`s really true that he`s much calmer when he`s with you than with Derek or anyone else." Mark observed.
"He will get used to Derek soon. He only remembers me because of my breasts ... sadly but true."
"He`s a real man." Mark laughed and stroke over the baby's head. His already long hair which looks identical to Derek's.
Addison hit him playfully, "You know sometimes you're still the pig you where when I met you Mark Sloan."
"Well what can I say. I wouldn`t be I if everything of the old Mark was gone."
Addison laughed, "Ok, you have a point there." She looked at her son, "You hear that Lucas, so when it comes to women, please don't always listen to your uncle Mark ..."
"But I could tell him some useful things." he smirked knowing Addison wouldn`t like that.
Addison rolled her eyes, "I really don't want to know it and I don't think I would like you telling him whatever you want to."
"Yeah, well he needs to grow up first after all."
"So I have some years left to think how I can stop you."
"Yeah, well maybe Isabella helps you with that. She wouldn´t like it either."
"Ahhh ... good thing. So maybe it will really work." She smiled at him. "You know you two are really sweet."
"Thank you. Have I ever told you how much it means to me that you get along with Isabella so good?"
"Ahh she's really sweet and I try my best. Derek and I can bring Lucas over sometime, so you can start to get used to have a baby around ... and maybe Derek and I will have ... some free time sometimes", she smirked at him.
"Course you can. We`ll be very happy to have him over. But we both have no experience with babies."
Addison smiled at him, "You'll have in time." She cuddled Lucas close. He was so peaceful, but she knew soon he would wake up and be hungry again.
"Hey." Derek smiled softly but his expression changed to confused when he saw Addison and Mark in bed together.
"Hey hun, ... did you eat something?"
"Yes I did. Are you okay?" He asked when he saw her red, puffy eyes.
"I'll be ... what did you eat?"
"Pasta. How`s Lucas doing?"
"Great. Sit down. On the bed is still some space left." When Derek sat down on her other side Addison smiled, "You know, this reminds me to this one night in med school ... after this party ... you two were really drunken ..."
"Don`t start with that Addison." Derek glared at her and Mark chuckled at the thought of it.
Addison laughed, "Oh come on, this was so much fun ... you didn't know anymore where exactly you flat was ..."
"Okay." Derek admitted.
"Derek, stop pouting that was real fun!"
Addison laughed and Lucas looked at them with his big eyes. "We only didn't have such a sweet little man back then." Addison laughed and kissed Lucas.
"Hey Lucas. Did you sleep well?" Derek asked him softly caressing his face.
Addison put him in Derek's arm.
"Derek looked directly in his sons eyes which reminded him so much of Addison's." he smiled widely. "Thanks Addie." He kissed her cheek and then his attention went back to Lucas.
Addison smiled at him and then looked at Mark. Then she turned back to Derek. "Oh Derek, by the way, what I wanted to ask you: Do you mind that I have a thing for Russell Crowe?"
"When you stay away from him."
"Sure. See Mark, told you he isn't jealous."
"He said not as long as you stay away from Russell. What if he comes to NY. Derek might run amok!"
"No, he wouldn't do that ... you wouldn't, right Derek?"
"Of course not." he smiled his McDreamy smile.
"I really hope so ... because I really like to sit here with you." Addison smiled at "her" three men.
"Knock, knock." Nancy said, looking amused of finding Mark, Derek and Addison in one bed together.
"Nance and Ami!" Addison face brightened up.
Amelia entered the room after her sister, "Wow ... what's going on here?"
"I think Addison`s enjoying being in bed with three men." Mark chuckled but looked at her with his sweetest smile after he got hit by her.
"Be nice because otherwise you will be banned from the bed" Addison told him and tried her best to look serious at him.
"It´s good to see you like this Addie." Nancy told her smiling then turned to Derek. "Give me my youngest nephew already."
Amelia looked at her sister, "No, I'm the first. I mean you nearly had a heart attack when you heard that he was already born. I drove you here. So I'm the first."
"I`m the older one. I have the right to take him first."
Addison sighed, it was like always. She looked at Derek and was lucky that he had Lucas and had to make this decision.
"Oh don't come around with that again ..." Amelia rolled her eyes.
"How about I get him another time." Mark suggested cheekily.
Amelia laughed, "Oh come on your in bed with them, so I think you have already got him."
"only for a very short while. And I`m his godfather so I have rights. Sorry." he added quickly and looked at both Addison and Derek apologizing.
Addison smiled, it was really sweet. "Not my decision ... Derek has him in the moment."
That`s when Lucas started to cry loudly. "I guess it is mommy's turn after all."
Mark said looking at the baby.
Addison sighed and took him from Derek's arm, "Hey, what's up little man?"
"Definitely a hungry cry." Nancy told them. "Believe me I have 4 children."
Addison sighed, "Yeah, I know that. So would you ... the room is much too crowded for feeding."
"Sure, but we`ll be back." Nancy told her.
"I hope so", Addison smiled at her.
"I`ll leave you alone now as well. Call me when you need something." Mark told her kissing her cheek."
"Sure Mark. Thanks for before", she added quietly and he knew what she meant.
Before Amelia left the room she asked, "Oh, by the way, what's his name or is he only called baby boy Shepherd?"
"Lucas. Lucas-Gabriel Christopher Shepherd." Derek answerd his baby sister nicely.
"Cool. So I want to be the first when you're done with the feeding thing" Amelia told Addison before she left the room. By now it was only Derek, Addison and Lucas left.
Addison sighed, she unbuttoned her shirt and pulled him softly against her right breast.
He latched on and sucked hungrily on her nipple.
"He seems very hungry."
"Yes ... god there's a lot for you, you don't have to hurry that much hun."
Addison leaned against Derek and they were watching their son.
"That`s our son Addie. That`s our son."
Addison smiled, "Yeah, I can't believe that, but he has definitely your hair."
"And your eyes."
"Would you believe in something like that nine months ago?"
"I wished but I didn`t think we would be here now."
"When I left Seattle I was really sure that we were over." She changed Lucas position to her other breast.
"I know baby. I`m sorry about how I treated you back then. I regret that so much."
"Don't ... we talked about that ... it's the path and that" She looked at Lucas "This is our future."
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