I headed into the community bathroom wanting to shower and clean up before the party started. It was a decent size bathroom with lots of open shower stalls that looked to fit about five people at a time. Luckily there was no one using the stalls and I had the place all to myself.

Even though I wasn't necessarily shy I didn't like the thought of other guys just being able to walk in and see me butt naked. I liked my privacy.

I worked fast scrubbing away at my skin and rinsing the soap off, not wanting to risk the chance of anyone coming in while I was showering.

I did not want to give a peep show.

News of my sexual choice had spread during high school causing people to judge me before they even knew me, some of which I had the misery of going to the same college with, like Emmett.

The last thing I needed was for him to blab to a bunch of haters and have them ruff me up or harass me.

If all the guys on my floor found out I was bi, I'm sure that wouldn't sit well with them knowing we shared the same bathroom and that I could have possible saw one of them naked before.

I didn't think things would get that ugly but you could never be too sure. It was better not to risk the chance and just make sure I always showered alone.

I wrapped a towel tightly around my waist just as the doors opened. I let out a breath in relief as two men entered with their shower products in hand, glad I finished in time. They gave me a nod before each headed to a vacant stall.

I was amazed how relaxed the two friends looked, striping with a totally stranger in the room, showering right next to each other with only a small wall of tile separating them.

Thoughts of Edward naked, showering next to a group of guys filled my head. I wondered if Edward would be turned on showering with to a bunch of college guys or if he would have found it just as uncomfortable as me.

I slowly observed the guy that was closer to my view point, he had a nice tan going on, broad shoulders, and a muscular built, a tight ass, sturdy legs and an aroused dick.

What the fuck?

I looked up to see him ogling at his friend's ass as he showered with his back to him.

My breath caught in my throat as he started to play with his dick, meanwhile keeping conversation with his oblivious friend.

It only furthered my curiosity.

How long has this guy been gay or bi and how long has he been into his friend?

Does anyone know he is gay or is he still in the closet?

Is he worried of people finding out the truth?

Does his friend even know about him?

Shit, what if Edward has a friend like this guy?

What if some guy makes a move on Edward?

Fuck, what if his roommates gay or bi?

I was so consumed with my thoughts I completely forgot the fact that I was standing in the middle of the showering area in a towel, watching a guy masturbate.

I removed my eyes from his working hand, slowing rising up to meet his stare. He gave me a wink and I freaked out running out of the room.

The whole scene alarmed me and I found myself panicking. I wasn't turned on, I was disgusted. How was that possible, me, someone who was bi disgusted by the act of a guy jacking off?

Even though I had just taken a shower I felt like I needed another one. I felt dirty.

I felt like there were eyes on me as I changed and it felt like someone was breathing down my neck even though the locker room was empty.

I just kept thinking of that whole jail, gang rape scenario.

I shivered at the thought and pulled my shirt over my head, zipped my jeans and made my way back to my shared room making a mental note to steer clear from the guy with the cold blue eyes and dirty blonde hair.

When I returned to my dorm there were people already there. Music was booming from a stereo, there were a few people dancing and a couple sitting on Emmett's as well as my bed.

"Excuse me. That's my bed." I announced not caring if I was coming off rude.

"We can share." I flirty blonde said, rising her skirt up a bit to show some flesh.

"There won't be any sharing of that kind, now off." I voiced, gesturing her to move.

"Asshole." She mumbled, taking her drink and relocating across the room.

I took my spot on my bed, miserable. It was eleven o'clock at night and still no sign of Edward. Not to mention I wouldn't be getting much sleep with the ruckus going on in my room.

Emmett was standing by the door greeting people and joking around with his loud, echoing laugh.

Our room was jammed pack.

I started to think back to the guy jacking off in the bathroom. Maybe if I started jacking off right there, everyone would be as freaked out as I was then and run away. That was one way to get people to leave. I would never have the guts to do that but it was amusing to think about.

"Hey Edward, you made it. I was beginning to think you weren't going to come." Emmett said giving Edward a man hug before handing him a drink.

"Yeah, well, I had things to do. I'm a busy guy, you know that Em." Edward said taking a spot in the room as the others began a new conversation.

I scanned Edward over; he looked good enough to eat.

His hair was slicked back and wet from what I assumed was a recent shower, wearing a black V-neck shirt, blue jeans, a platinum watch on his right wrist, dressing his appearance up a bit.

"So, where's the roommate?" Edward asked mid-chat, letting out a laugh at the thought or maybe just to keep appearances up.

"Shit, stinking up the joint and killing everyone's buzz, the freakin cocksucker." Emmett said, getting a laugh from his fellow friends.

"I'll be right back Em, nature calls." Edward said giving him a friendly pat on the back as Emmett began to speak to someone else.

I watch out of the corner of my eye as Edward sneakily moved around the crowds until he was right in front of me. He pretended to be admiring the night lamp or looking out the window. His dick was right at my level. He chuckled realizing this and took a seat next to me on my bed.

He cracked a quick smile my way before talking to the group of girls sitting on Emmett's bed. A clever way to disguise his true nature.

It irritated me that I couldn't touch Edward, couldn't tell him I missed him. We couldn't even look at each other too long or else people would suspect something.

We grew so much together over the time we had shared and having my family being accepting of Edward and my relationship was helpful.

Now, we were back in the real world with judgmental, harsh, closed minded people. It was going to be quite a challenge not only to get used to the change but to keep our relationship alive in the new environment.

With Edward talking it up to the two giggling, buzzed girls I opted for sketching.

Every once in a while I would find Edward glancing at my book, intrigued by my work.

"You did those?" He asked surprised.

"Yeah, that is what I'm going to college for after all." I said amused.

"Oh." He responded and returned his attention back to the neglected, slightly confused girls.

I pulled the covers on me and sat on my bed with my back against the wall. Edward followed suit pulling the covers over him as well, complaining how cold it was.

One of the girl's flirted with him saying she could warm him up. I rolled my eyes and went back to sketching as Edward turned her down.

Suddenly I felt a hand traveling up my leg. I stopped drawling when it reached my zipper, slowly pulling it down. I didn't dare look up, I didn't have to, I knew who that hand belonged to.

I wanted to kiss him so badly.

I felt a finger go beyond my jeans to find I wasn't wearing underwear. I forgot to put my boxers back on during my shower scare. Edward let out a moan realizing this and blamed it on too much alcohol before sliding his finger around my now aroused dick. Now it was my turn to moan.

"Yeah, I had way too much to drink." I agreed, before letting my own hand move over his package.

The girls got bored and left, leaving me and Edward to play amongst ourselves. The covers worked like a charm hiding our raging hard dicks. I wrapped my hand around Edward's shaft in a tight hold. He did the same and before I knew it we were jacking each other off.

We stared at the wall ahead, trying not to be obvious and bit our lips to keep the moans and pants at bay. Luckily no one noticed.

We used the same motion repeatedly, up and down swirl and squeeze. It started to become too much. I could feel the built up in my stomach and judging by Edward crazy hip movements he wasn't far either.

My legs trembled as I came hard against Edward's hand. It wasn't a moment later I felt a pull from his dick and felt warm liquid cover my hand.

We both rode our highs out to the last drop, savoring the feel of each other's warm hold before letting go and wiping off against my now stained covers. Edward lean back against the wall with closed eyes and a pleasant smile on his face.

"You should go before Emmett starts looking for you." I suggested, fixing my pants.

Edward slowly nodded with a slight pout covering his lips. He zipped his jeans up and did something unexpected. He leaned into me.

"Is anybody looking?" He asked, looking at me intensely.

"No." I answered only to be met with his lips.

My eyes shot open, worried about the party goers and what they might see. However soon it became too much too control my urges and I closed my eyes and enjoyed Edward's lips on mine.

He moaned and flicked his tongue wanting entrance. I eagerly accepted and played with his tongue a good minute or two.

We broke apart and I was blown away. I could still feel the sensation of Edward's lips on mine, his strong tongue exploring my mouth. My lips tingled and my heart swelled.

"No one saw right?" He asked, touching his now swollen lips.

I completely forgot to keep watch I was so wrapped up in the kiss. I looked up scanning the crowds; everyone was busy partying except one guy, who looked like he just saw a ghost.

Fuck!

Note: I might take a break from this story for a little while. I have two, possibly three other stories I'm doing at the moment and I find myself losing more and more time to finish chapters at my deadline as well as finding the inspiration to get the chapters done.

It might just be a mood swing I'm having or it could be lack of interest or ideas. I don't know.

All I know is the ideas aren't flowing like they once were and it's frustrating to struggle on chapters and not feeling completely satisfied with the outcome of a chapter.

Hopefully this issue will blow over soon. Stay tuned and thank you for all your support and reviews. ;)