CHAPTER TWENTY - MESSENGER

BELLA POV

"Ahh Bella glad you could join us again" Doctor Callahan greeted me back in the emergency room.

"Dr. Carlisle paged me saying you had a minor heart attack, if you just bare with me for a few minutes ill get your ECG under way" he said leaving thought the curtain.

I hopped off the bed and onto the original one where I was before. The nurse pushed the other bed away then Doctor Callahan came back in with a machine with load of wires hanging out of it.

"Could you lift you pant leg up please and remove your top"

I felt really uneasy doing it but I did as I was instructed.

"I'm just going to attach these electrodes to you" He informed me.

He started from the bottom of my legs, and then placed some on my arms then the rest was dotted around my chest. The machine came to life and started beeping, it recorded my heart palpitations then printed it out of paper at the other side of the machine. He took my blood pressure and continued to write on his clipboard.

"Your blood pressure is a bit high but we can give you some medication to reduce it" He informed me.

"Your heart rate is at a steady pace but you will need to stay in overnight or maybe even a few days for observation"

I groaned inwards I hated hospitals but at the same time I smiled as well because I knew that Edward was only around the corner and I would see him whenever I liked.

"I'm going to have to put a catheter in your hand so we can feed you some painkillers and we will give you something to help thin your blood. We wouldn't want any more blood clots appearing now would we"

Great more needles, I sighed and gave up whatever they wanted to do to me they could just do it, the faster I got let out of here and back to Edward the better. After my ECG had finished he removed all the wires and I put my top back on being careful of the little sticky circles that still stayed on my body. The Doctor disappeared for a few minutes and came back with the huge needle and plastic tubing. I looked away and flinched as he slid the needle into my left hand due to the brace being on my right and inserted the tube.

"All done" He smiled a few minutes later.

"Isabella Swan please" I heard a familiar voice.

"Bed 12" A nurse said.

A few seconds later the curtain flew open revealing Charlie.

"Isabella, thank god" Charlie said stumbling over to me.

He pulled me into a hug and I returned it.

"Is she alright Doctor" Charlie asked.

"She will be. She suffered a minor heart attack after we pulled her out of psychosis but with observation and treatment she should be good as new in a few days" He reported.

"Where's Emmett?" I asked.

"His gone to find Edward, oh god how is he?" He asked concerned.

It was funny how this morning he couldn't wait to get him out of my life and now he was concerned and worried about him.

"His alright as far as I know" I whispered.

"Oh Bells I'm so sorry" He tried to apologize.

"I'll leave you to alone for a while, I'll be back with your medication soon" Doctor Callahan said before leaving.

"Bells I've been such an idiot" He admitted "I can't and will never be able to find the right words to say to you but I'm here asking as a farther for his daughters forgiveness. I got so scared after the accident and I thought I lost you just like your mother. I know that it was wrong of me not to tell you that Edward was alive but I wasn't thinking straight and I just wanted to shield you away from him, from everyone. I thought I was protecting you because that's what fathers do but after tonight it looked like I was protecting you from the wrong man" he cried.

"Dad, it's alright" I tried to comfort him.

"No its not, Bella I was scared alright, being a single parent is scary. I don't know what the hell I'm doing, I haven't known for a long time I've just let you get on with it. But when Edward came along I new it was time to hand the rains over to him but I didn't want to let you go, I didn't want to admit it to myself. So instead of doing the right thing I blocked it out in my head and made Edward out to be the bad guy. I guess I just have to get use to the fact that my baby girl is now a grown woman, a beautiful, strong independent woman who is in love with caring considerate man who actually gives a shit unlike some boys I know."

After all this time my father's walls had come crashing down around him, he finally showed his true colours and his true feelings. I knew that he wasn't lying this time, he had his heart on a plate for everyone to see and for that I was grateful.

"I understand if you never want to see me again, I just had to make sure that you were alright" He whispered wiping his tears away.

"I love you dad" I whispered.

"I love you to Bells" He said pulling me into a hug "I am truly sorry" He whispered again pulling away.

"Right are we already for your meds" Doctor Callahan entered with a tray.

Charlie moved out the way and stood at the bottom of the bed as the Doctor injected my first medication.

"This one is for your blood pressure" He said injecting some liquid into the catheter. "And this one is to thin your blood" he said holding up a bag or clear fluid. "This one is a drip so you won't be able to get up and leave until all the liquid had been dispensed" He informed me inserting the tube.

He hung the bag on a rail above me then he continued jotting down on his clipboard. So much for going to visit Edward I huffed to myself.

"You might feel a little drowsy at first but it should wear off in a few hours" He informed me again. "That it you're all done, are you feeling any pain or are you in any discomfort?" He asked.

I didn't need any painkillers if that what he meant because I wasn't in much pain my chest just felt sore like it was burning but still nothing I couldn't handle.

"I'm alright thanks"

"Ok, well ill come and check up on you in a couple of hours" He informed me before leaving again.

"Would you like me to check on Edward for you?" Charlie said.

Just hearing his name brought a huge smile to my face.

"Please" I whispered before he left.

The Doctor wasn't kidding, my vision started to blur and my eye lids started to close. I tried to force them back open but the harder I tried the more I failed. I was so mentally and physically exhausted I knew I couldn't win against the darkness that devoured me so I welcomed it with open arms.

"Bella" I heard a whisper.

My eyes slowly fluttered open but my vision was blurry.

"Bella" I heard the whisper again.

I followed the voice and I was met by a river of blonde luscious locks.

"Bella" She whispered again.

I blinked and rubbed my eyes then she finally became clear.

"Oh god Bella I was so worried" Rose said pulling me into a hug.

"Rose, huh, what, how?" I tried to say.

I only closed my eyes for a second how did she get here?

"Calm down Bells, you're in the hospital" She informed me.

"I know that" I told her sarcastically.

I looked around and noticed all the lights were off in the ward except the nurses' station and a few patients' rooms, so I presumed I must have fallen asleep.

"What time is it?"

"It's almost five in the morning" She told me looking at her watch.

I couldn't believe that I had been asleep for over nine hours it only felt like a second ago Charlie was here.

"Where's Charlie?"

"He went home a few hours ago" She told me.

"What are you doing here?"

"I was at my aunts in Seattle, I got a call from Emmett and he had told me about everything that had happened to, you and Jasper bringing Edward home, to what that fucking psycho did last night" She spat. "So I rushed over here as fast as I could" She admitted.

"Rose you shouldn't ha..."

"Don't even start giving me that crap. You're my best friend of course I wanted to be here for you" she told me.

"How is he have you seen him?" I asked knowing she knew who I meant.

"Yeah his alright but he wasn't after I gave him a piece of my mind, leaving us and telling nobody where he was"

"Wait what?"

"I mean seriously he had, you, me, Emmett, Jasper..." She rambled on

"No, I mean you spoke to him?"

"Yeah"

"His awake?" I shouted a bit too loud.

"Yeah, well he was about four hours ago, he kept shouting your name and he refused to take his medication until he sin you but Carlisle had to sedate him to try and calm him down"

A huge smile spread across my face and I couldn't help the little laugh that came out. He was alive, he was truly alright. I was so filled with joy and happiness I felt like jumping up and down on the bed.

"Oh he told me to give this to you" She said pulling out a note from the front pocket of her jeans.

I tore it away from her hands and opened it which revealed elegant handwriting.

Bella love, I know what you must be going through because I am going through it with you. I am alright and as far as I am aware you are as well. Please keep the tears of sadness away as they are not needed and I will do the same. I yearn and long to hold you my love, I am counting the seconds till I see your sweet face again. I love you. Edward.

I held the note close to heart and took in a deep breath. I wanted to see him so much it hurt.

"Have you got a pen" I asked tiring to choke back the tears.

Rose searched her bag then a few seconds after handed me a pink fluffy pen. I flexed my hand and shook it out in front of me to stop the shake in my hand before I wrote back.

Edward, I am alright and I so relieved to hear that you are too. I could would never have lived with myself if things would have turned out differently. Please don't try and convince me that this wasn't my fault because it was and for that I am truly sorry. Please remember that I will be with you soon enough and please take your medication. I love you. Bella

I folded the note back up and gave it to Rose followed by her pen.

"Give it to him please"

"What am I, the messenger?"

"Yes" I grinned widely.

"Fine" she huffed before leaving.

I just lied there with a huge grin on my face, counting the liquid that dripped down the tube one by one. The bag was half empty and for that I was glad because the faster it emptied the faster I could be with Edward. I felt like purposely popping pins in the bag so it would drain faster but that idea flew away as quickly as it came.

It seemed like Rose was gone forever, my eyes were fixated on the curtain and I flinched every time it moved. I heard footsteps approached then she appeared from behind it laughing.

"I swear nothing can keep that boy down" She giggled.

"What?"

"He was asleep when I went in, then one of the nurses tried to remove me from the room, when I tried to tell her who I was she didn't care but when I mentioned your name Edward shot up from the bed and told the nurse to basically do one" She howled with laugher.

She quickly placed her hand over her mouth realising that it was late and she was making loads of noise, she giggled then pulled out the note from her pocket and handed it to me.

Bella love, I'm so glad you got my message and thank you for yours. I know you told me not to but I am going to say it anyway. You have nothing to be sorry about because none of this was your fault. I know how stubborn you are but I am just as stubborn dear, and don't worry I will take my medication. I love you so much. Get some rest and hopefully I will see you later. Edward.

I folded the note up and placed it in the pocket of my sweats.

"Please say that was the last one, do you know how far ICU is from here" Rose moaned.

"His in ICU?"

"Yeah they moved him there after surgery" She informed me.

"How long have you been here?"

"Since about ten o'clock I think" She yawned.

"Rose, go home" I ordered her.

"No it's alright I want to stay"

"No, Rose look you have been here long enough, thank you for coming and for all your help but you look exhausted, please just go home and rest" I protested.

"Fine" She huffed.

She collected her things and put her coat on.

"I'll be back later alright"

"Thank you"

"You're welcome, love you" She said blowing a kiss.

"Love ya too" I replied and then she was gone.

I tossed and turned in the bed for what seemed like hours. Sleep was just not coming to me, all the drowsiness from the medication had wore off and I knew that I was in no state to sleep. I prayed for sleep to come because the quicker I got to sleep the quicker I would wake up and be able to see Edward. Eventually after what felt like an hour I drifted in-between the world of dreaming and being awake then another half a hour past before the darkness yet again devoured me.