Alice slammed her door closed and with vampire speed was naked pushing me into her bed. I growled softly as she ripped my clothes off and ran her hands up and down my body. Her lips pressed hard against my lips as her leg went between mine causing me to grind against her. "Soak and wet. Do i turn you on this much," she whispered softly. I groaned in reply. "I take that as a yes." She sucked on my neck hard removing her leg and replacing it with two of her fingers going deep into me. I tilted my head up moaning loudly, allowing my fingers to rake across her back. "If you going to do that I suggest you do that slightly harder so I can feel it." I didn't say anything in response but raked harder. She pushed deeper and harder into me causing me for a brief second to growl louder then before.

That is when my vision became blurry and I couldn't hear what she was saying into my ear anymore. I just could feel her making me reach my point like if she didn't she would feel as if she failed at the most important part of being with me. But what I saw was only her in the bed whispering to me that she loved me more then life it's self. I think those words is what made me hit the point and then come crashing down when I heard her growl. I snapped back to present and realized she was licking her fingers clean of my blood and juices.

"You taste amazing," She said looking at me with her topaz with splotches of red eyes. "I'm going to hunt."

"Don't go," I whispered.

"But-"

"I'm not going to let you do anything to me, i swear. I just want to cuddle with you, it's not everyday you can pop a cherry and then lay."

She chuckled softly. "Your the only cherry I popped or will ever pop. It's dangerous." She turned her gaze away from me.

"Then all the more reason for you to stay and lay with me." I lightly put my finger under here chin and made her look back at me. "Or at lease allow me to love you in return." When she didn't respond I leaned in and kissed her softly as I guided her body down to the bed.

After a long shower with Alice I walked down the stairs and seen my mother waiting by the front door. "Is there a problem," I asked walking towards her.

"I have to go," She stated plainly.

"Well when is the next time am I going to see you then mom."

She looked down not making eye contact with me as she answered. "I don't know maybe a hundred years from now."

"Your joking right?" She slowly shock her head and picked up her bags. "You can't leave for that long. What the fuck kind of parenting is that," I almost shouted.

"I'm not leaving you alone Victoria is gong to be here for whenever you need a parent. Lord knows she's a better parent then I ever was. She will always be there for you and protect you. just give her a chance. But I have to go now." I couldn't say anything, all I could do was watch her with pleading eyes. My mother looked at me and sighed softly. "I love you Bella and I know your going to be okay." After saying those simple words she walked out closing the door probably to avoid the pained look on my face.

I crumbled to my knees as my heart began to hurt. My own mother was leaving me here...and....it didn't even seem to hurt her at all. If it did she does a great acting job. I bit my lip softly holding back tear that were threatening to come. That's when sharp pains attacked my chest making me slowly break down....

APOV

I walked to her slowly not know if she was all the way there or if she was going to snap of the handle. When she didn't move I placed a hand on her should causing her to stand up and look at me with those pained eyes that I seen before. She wrapped her arms around me and cried into my shoulder. "Bella," I said softly.

"Please don't talk I just want to stay like this for awhile," She choked out.

"I'm not going anywhere."

"Promise?"

"I Promise Bella. To leave you would be a fool's mistake."

She let out an amused laugh and looked deep into my eyes. "I wouldn't stop you from leaving if it was to make you happy."

"I'm happy with you."

Her eyes trailed away from me as she mumbled the next statement. "For how long?" Her hands dropped to her side and she refused to make eye contact with me.

"For-"

"The sad thing about this is if you'll be happy with someone else I would step to the side and let you go into their arms. I'm going for a flight," She whispered so low that i wouldn't have even caught it if I didn't have super hearing. She walked out of the door without letting me say anything.