BELIEVE IN ME Chapter 21: Time to decide, a big time rush fanfic

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As usual, Jacks of the song in this chapter is: You bring me joy - Amelia Lily

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Logan - '' Actually, you know what? Don't answer, Jacks. I have a theory. ''

Today was another beautiful sunny day and California, Kendall thought to himself. They had operated fans to get some fresh wind and luxuriated in their couch enjoying breath of fresh air on his face and down his neck. It was too hot to stay around the pool and he did not particularly want to be among the multitudes of bodies inside the pool. Hockey was permanently banned from the soil burned like hell. As for other activities, and many boys and him were too lazy to do anything.

So the couch, he was.

Everything was perfect for the group at this time. They had almost finished their album, produced their first video and even obtained a super car collection. They also had girlfriends. Well, him for sure. Logan and Camille, he was not really sure about it. Jacks made great efforts and even seemed to have taken friendship with Jo. So why Kendall felt like something was wrong in this equation?

Oh, probably because Jacks out this douche bag. The brunette was hardly at the hotel now. When she was not in the studio or with Camille then she would be with this guy and Kendall hated it. He realized at that night on the roof that he did not share much less now.
He suspected that the brunette was much effort to Jo because she certainly expected of him and others that they did the same for this moron but to be honest, Kendall did not want. At all.
Every time he saw his friend from the hotel or their apartment, he could not help but cringe at the feel of the deep sense of loss. He felt he was losing his best friend and he hated it. He sincerely thought he had found in recent months, yet she disappeared again.
All he wanted was ...

'' Logan? Ready to go? '' If suddenly cried Jacks closing the door of her room behind her before looking around the apartment. '' Hurry up, Camille expect us. ''

Kendall immediately gave a surprised look on Jacks as she held a large sports bag on her shoulder with a dress out of context to the outdoor heat. She was wearing khaki pants in combat style fabrics with a black T-shirt and loose dog tags around her neck as the military. Her hair was straightened in a simple tail further emphasizing her high cheekbones as she displayed the strictest minimum of makeup.

'' Logan? '' Repeated James giving a confused and curious look on Kendall and Carlos before raising his head to the agreement of not pressed their friend as he went out with a bag corresponding to that of Jacks. '' Hey, where are you going ?''

When James asked his question, Logan and Jacks seemed to look nervously and Kendall wrinkled soon eyebrows in suspicion.

'' Nowhere! '' Replied the two in unison before quickly making their exit, leaving the other three to look in suspicion.

'' ON THE SUIT! '' Exclaimed If the three boys before jumping to their feet in a rush for the door.

I quickly tumbled down stairs to Logan sides as we knew we had only a matter of time before the three others tried to follow us. I gave an impatient look on Yoshi as he seemed to take his time and pressed him with boredom. '' Faster! You know what will happen if they find us? ''

'' I told you it was a bad idea. '' Logan recalled in a breathless breath. '' Plus, I don't like their hiding things. ''

'' Oh, poor baby Yoshi! '' I was imitating a baby voice before continuing more seriously. '' They have to grow up a bit. ''

We storm through the service door to the hall and I soon locate Camille front of the entrance doors of the Palm Woods. She easily noticed our precipitation and gave us a knowing look. '' They have seen you, is not it? ''

'' Well, if someone would not have taken so long to prepare his business too. '' I grumbled under my breath as I pulled Camille to the exit while giving an annoyed brightness on my shoulder to Logan.

'' I no longer found my guards, right? '' Replied the boy raven hair equally annoyed. '' You know the guards are the essential element to practice hockey. They protect us. ''

I rolled my eyes at the obvious sarcasm brown while throwing my bag at the back of the convertible burgundy boys along with Logan before moving behind the wheel. '' Yeah, well, if you to clean up your rooms too . ''

'' Uh, not that this argument is interesting but perhaps you like to hurry to start Jacks. '' Suddenly Intervened Camille nervously before pointing the entrance of the hotel.

I widen suddenly my eyes at the sight of three boys looking for us and gave an impatient look on Logan he got to the back before pressing the keys in the ignition. I was reversing leaving the tire squealing sound in my wake and put the gas. We passed the boys at full speed sparking scream after us three boys before finally engage in traffic.

'' This is so bad for multiple reasons. '' Growled Logan his place on the bench.

'' I'm tired of having to share my time between my friends and my boyfriend. '' I explained with a sigh as I stopped at a red light before giving a look at Logan almost pleading. '' I miss you, okay ? I miss you all but I'm not going to stop seeing Alec. ''

Logan rolled his eyes visibly softened before sighing heavily. '' I know, Jacks. But maybe if you came their say that while things might get better. ''

'' Logan, I can harass you for a week before you agree to come with us. '' I reminded bored as I regained the road. '' And you are the most comprehensive of the four. ''

'' I confirm. '' Born Camille giving Logan a look over her shoulder. '' Listen, me either, I don't particularly appreciate Alec ... ''

I gave immediately a warning look on brown collecting a tense smile of that before she went on. '' But! I make the effort to Jacks. An effort that she also make for Kendall in talking to Jo. ''

'' What is the same problem with Jo, right? '' Logan replied, leaning over us with his elbows on our headrests making me give a nervous look on Camille. '' Actually, you know what? Don't answer, Jacks. I have a theory. ''

'' A Theory ?'' I repeated in my hands tightened around the steering wheel before swallowing nervously. '' And what would that be ? ''

Logan gave a passing glance at the brown knowing that he made her nervous. In reality, it was more than a theory. He knew her friend enough to know the signs and while he was quite surprising to Jacks, he knew he was right. A gesture of Camille called out and he swerved his attention to the actress simply to find frantically shaking her head as a warning. He raised an eyebrow in a sign of Camille inquisition which merely put a mouth a "later" indicating that he would finally confirmation.
If Jacks had seen their interaction, she said nothing. So he simply leaned on the two girls before raising the volume of the radio.

'' Hey, Jacks, is your song with Dak! '' If suddenly exclaimed Camille amount in volume again in excitement.

The voice of Jacks quickly fills the car and Logan could see a slight blush on the cheeks of brown. However, he was soon being overtaken by the words of the song. He had never paid much attention before but she seemed to have a different meaning now. He leaned back against the back seat and listened more attentively every word in reflection.

I entered the parking lot of the rink just when my song ended and I soon to park myself in a pretty location close to the entrance. I cut the engine, leaning against the front seat to watch the big building in front of us. It was like a double date and I don't know how things were going to happen. This is the first time I let Alec really do know a boy or even Camille and I began to get nervous.

''Good. Here we are. '' I declared breathed as I stepped from the car along with actress and I turned to Logan with a sincere smile. '' I really thanked you to do it. This means a lot to me. ''

Logan rolled his eyes at once although a small smile settled on his lips as he retrieved his bag and mine before the tender me. '' Remember in you when we get back to the apartment. ''

'' Yeah, not really looking forward to it. '' I winced at the mere thought before throwing the strap of my bag on my shoulder before leaving a huge smile on my lips at the sight of Alec before the Entrance.

We walked straight to the big brown and I dropped my bag on the floor once I was at his height before planting a soft kiss on his lips before reporting a look at Camille and Logan. In the short period of time we had dated, I had learned that I was not a big fan of PDA and I preferred booked these times when we were alone.

'' So, Logan, huh. '' Recognized Alec to the attention of brown with a genuine smile before signing his sports bag. '' What you're doing hockey ? ''

'' Not bad. '' Replied the little genius making me give him a look with hope and he rolled his eyes again before turning his attention to Alec. '' Jacks said for the Kings. This is really big. ''

I gave a hopeful smile as Alec and Logan entered a conversation while walking towards the entrance before giving a look at Camille as she tied her arm with mine. '' You know he will ask me questions when we get back ? ''

'' I know. '' I replied lowering my smile at the thought. '' To be honest, he's an intelligent boy. I think he'll just ask you a confirmation. ''

'' So you agree with me to say him ? '' Concludes the actress pulling me with her in the fresh air of the ice. '' Because otherwise ... ''

'' Camille, I trust you. '' I interrupted The most seriously before giving another look at the boys in front of us. '' And I'm even more confidence in Logan. ''

A smile settled on Camille's lips to my confession and I was content to pull me to stand for the runners before choosing her a pair to return with boys.

'' So ready to take a scraped, Yoshi ? '' I teased as I sat to the side of brown to put on my skates.

Logan snorted instantly answer before looking at me in disbelief. '' Please, I'm maybe a little genius but I think I can still say I beat you. ''

The double date had gone much better than I anticipated. In fact, it was really great. I spent time with my friends and Alec the same opportunities. This was much more than I could ask for.
The only problem was to return to face the boys. They were not very happy to know our little secret and it had ended a final battle between Kendall and me. The blonde had accused me caused discord in the group because I forced Logan to choose and say it ... well, it was not particularly good from beyond.
Now we were talking barely. Tension had mounted throughout the apartment. I kept my side while the boys were doing their things from their own sides.
Honestly, things had never taken such a turn between us and I was seriously starting to think it might be the end. After all, was THE show us who we were and who we were. Maybe it was just time for me to just let go. James would obviously my brother but things with the boys may have been over for me. Anyway, it was obvious that there was no hope between me and Kendall. We certainly chose our sides and our paths. separate paths. I thought that being with Alec help me to accept this fact but the truth ... the truth was that I could not take it. I constantly lived with them and saw the blonde continually as a constant reminder of what I had lost.
Even Camille and Katie had taken the side. And even if they had tried to make it work in the beginning, we easily conclude that this could not continue. That was why I had completely stop the rub. I did not want to choose their side because of my choice.

I watched silently at my reflection in the mirror and smoothed the wrinkles in my sleeveless tank top before retracing the lightning logo printed along the tissue. I opted for a simple, casual attire but primed. I had work at the studio today so I had to stick to my style. My tattoo was put forward and had relied on a little more makeup than usual.
Speaking of makeup, I was checking my lipstick red lip did not drip before turning around to get my new pair of studded black vans. I put my sneakers quickly before take my sunglasses on the desktop and my cell phone. I went outside my room only to be greeted by the sound of lively conversation and walked confidently into the kitchen.

When I entered, all voice fell into a comprehensive and mere silence the sound of my bowl scraping the surface of the closet as I type could be heard. I poured the milk with a little grain even though I did not particularly hungry these days before I sit down at the counter. I could feel perfectly the glaring eyes in my back but I was content to keep my eyes on the contents of my breakfast. The no trace of steps approaching me forced me to raise my head and I soon crossing the watchful eye of Jennifer. The woman seemed to be the only one to speak to me now and I honestly thought I had not even cracked through it. She always kept up conversation with me, made sure that I felt good even though she could see every time through my tight smiles.

'' You're beautiful, Jacks. '' Complimented Jennifer handing me a glass of orange juice even if I had not asked her anything and I forced a smile on my lips. '' A special occasion ? ''

I shrugged my shoulders, taking a sip to make her happy before resuming my observation of my lunch. '' No. I just wanted to feel good. ''

'' Well, you're beautiful. '' Jennifer insisted.

However, this was only remember how the situation was tense and all I wanted at that moment was cry.

'' I ... I don't have very hungry. '' I suddenly rising up in my stool before the redhead around to put my still full bowl in the sink. '' I'm going to the studio. See you later.''

I quickly made my way to the exit with my head down to avoid contact and slammed the door just as Jennifer called after me. '' But ... YOU HAVE EATEN ANYTHING! ''

Jennifer looked at the pretty brunette close the door with a sigh before turning with a stern look to her children and boys. '' You should be ashamed of yourself. ''

The boys immediately lowered their heads on their breakfast in guilt while Katie continued to play sadly with her spoon. The truth was that Jacks was missing from each of them and the look was enough to send in a wave of melancholy. They had never been through this situation before and they did not know how to cross it. More particularly Kendall.
Certainly, he had been really upset when they returned the next day after their hiding they had been at the rink but it was what they did. He and Jacks would get in an explosive fight and then they would eventually reconcile. That was how things went between them. At least they did before.

'' She stopped talking with Camille and me because she did not make us choose to side. '' Katie said suddenly a saddened voice raising looks of all the boys. '' She did not tell anyone, eats only and returned to the apartment just to sleep. ''

'' It's not our fault that she chose this asshole on us. '' James spat with venom visibly offended just back with a start as suddenly knocked her stove against the table.

'' Listen up all of you, first I advise you to watch your tongue, James. '' Warns Jennifer pointing her finger on the brown. '' This is all your fault at all. Why would you be so difficult to accept the boy she likes when she did that being sympathetic with all the people you have submitted so far? ''

Kendall looked up about to argue but his mother soon stopped advising him to think before speaking. The blond instantly lowered his eyes back on his plate before sighing heavily. His mother was probably right. Things had gone too far-between them. And they had to fix it as fast as possible.

I've been thinking 'bout all the things I'm searching for
Twenty years from now, boy we could've done it all
I've been thinking 'bout all the times I've lost my head
I've been thinking 'bout all the things I never said
I won't think about all the things that could go wrong
Nothing left to shout, cause we got it going on
Standing in the crowd, yeah I know you won't be long
I'ma looking back, in a minute will be gone

Oh you bring me joy, yeah you bring me sadness
So you bring the love, so forget all the madness
I'm done with all the pain, I'm done with all the happenings
So you bring me joy, yeah you bring me sadness

I've been thinking 'bout everything I never had
All those crazy doubts, only gonna make me mad
I've been thinking 'bout everything I should've done
I'ma looking back, when I've only just begun
I've been thinking 'bout standing on the razor's edge
Looking up and down, questions running through my head
I've been thinking 'bout how I'll know which way to turn
I've been thinking 'bout lessons that I'll never learn

You, you, you, you, you, you, you, you
You, you, you, you, you, you, you, you
You, you, you, you, you, you, you, you
You, you, you, you, you, you, you

And maybe we were built to break
And this lasts a little more than we can take
Maybe we were built to last
And we're strong enough to break the past

You, you, you, you, you, you, you, you
You, you, you (yeah, you bring the sadness)
You, you, you (you bring me joy)
You, you, you, you,

you, you

Gustavo quickly cut the soundtrack before pressing the communication button to talk when suddenly the sound of applause forced me to look up. '' Fantastic! It was absolutely fantastic. ''

I watched Griffin with platitude is obviously not in the mood for a scary smile and wacky requests, however, it seemed that I did not really have a choice as he asked to see me with Gustavo and Kelly in the conference room. I pulled my registration helmet sharing a confused look with Kelly before exiting the cage to join alongside Gustavo. When we entered the room, Griffin was already standing at the end of the table with his two assistants with him.

''Take place ! Sit! '' Said the businessman still leaving us more confused about his excitement as we sit in the seats that we showed. '' I knew you were going to make me rich Jacks. I want this new song take with your other tracks of sound. ''

I instantly frowned my eyebrows before turning to Gustavo and Kelly. '' Take? Take where ? ''

They shrugged their shoulders immediately in total incomprehension before turning to Griffin in the interrogation. '' You, my dear Jacks will continue your great career in the new global net sanyoid factory. You're leaving tomorrow for Australia. ''

'' Wait, what? '' Kelly exclaimed in disbelief since I was just speechless. '' We can not leave for Australia. The career of boys and Jacks is here. ''

'' Oh that of boys, yes, but there is no close confirming this in the contract of our little pop star here.'' Griffin pointed pointing at me.

I could see Gustavo about to explode and he was soon snapped his hands flat on the table. '' You can not do that, Griffin! I'm the one who produces her. ''

'' Actually, yes, I do ! She's mine ! Jacks has signed a contract and it says that she belongs to the whole of the Global Net Sanyoid music companies. '' Griffin said before turning to me with his frightening smile. '' So what you say? Ready for adventure? ''

'' Do I even have a choice? '' I said coldly retorted before standing up, crossing my arms over my chest. '' Actually, I think I'll just stop. I will stop all this damn story and return to Minnesota. ''

I turned heel leaving the shocked expressions on my way when Griffin's voice called me again. '' Well then I guess you can say goodbye to the Big Time Rush, Gustavo. ''

'' WHAT? '' Exclaimed Me along with Kelly and the producer about to have an attack.

'' You make us blackmail ? '' I barked exasperated now. '' Their careers has nothing to do with me. Leave them out of it! ''

'' I wish. '' Replied Griffin pretending friendly although his joker smile was still in place as he asked my contract to Abdul. '' You see, when Jacks signed her contract, there was a brothel that provided that if Jacks left our premises then James should also leave. It was the demand of your mother. Not ours, Miss. Diamond. ''

Gustavo and Kelly instantly turned to me as I could feel the tears flowing behind my eyes and I engaged my jaw turning back to Griffin. '' So if I don't go in Australia then you ... ''

'' Big Time Rush no longer excite. '' Ended Griffin for me and I just had time to see Gustavo let go a gasp before he literally fell to the ground.

I shared a look with Kelly as she turned to me with a horrified expression before sweeping the single tear rolling down my cheek. I had endured too many emotions his last time and it seems that the application of Griffin was the final straw.
Only, in spite of all my past actions, I could never bear to why the career of boys would be nullified. I never could bear to be the cause. Not now, not ever.

I detached my eyes on Kelly in my expression component quickly and raised my chin toward Griffin with confidence. '' No one but you will have to know my departure. Especially not boys or Katie or even Jennifer. And I want to leave tomorrow morning for the first time. ''

Griffin shook his head with a sympathetic expression as he lowered his smile for the first time and I used to just turn tail before returning to the recording studio. I walked straight into the cage to get my stuff and barely raised my head as Gustavo and Kelly exploded through the doors to look at me in disbelief.

'' You can't do that! '' Exclaimed Kelly in disbelief. '' Why did you even accepted Jacks ? You never wanted to be famous. ''

'' But James YES ! '' I barked throwing my backpack on my back as I was passing out.

Only it was not counting on Gustavo intervention that blocked me out. '' Listen to me, the little babysitter dogs, you can not leave, okay ? I'm your producer and I say to you in ... ''

''Not anymore ! My producer is Australian, remember? '' I sniffed dryly surprising man before me as he flashed an expression abnormally concerned. '' Now, move out of my way, Gustavo. ''

'' So you gonna do ? Leave without even saying to the boys? '' Intervened again Kelly behind me making me drop my eyes on the floor with sadness. '' Jacks, you came here for them. You will be alone there. It's not what you want. ''

This was probably the worst thing I could do in my life. And I hated that damn contract for that. No, actually, I hated my mother for that. I wanted to scream about everything and anything at the moment. I just wanted to release my anger and frustration of the past months.
However, part of me was actually relieved to this arrangement. This would give me a way out of recent events and I would not have to be burden for the boys. They could continue their music without having to endure this crushing pressure and I could do the same.
In fact, it was a good idea.

'' You dont know what I want. '' I Continues with more force than necessary as I turned to the brunette taking her by surprise. '' The boys don't care that I leave. We've talk even more. ''

Kelly seemed surprised by this admission and seemed about to say something but I raised my hand quickly before giving a look at Gustavo. '' I'm leaving tomorrow morning. I forbid you to say would not is a word the contract to James or one of the boys. Is that clear ?''

'' Wait, you'll let them think you're just gone. '' Concluded Kelly with wide eyes of disbelief. '' Jacks, they deserve to know the truth. ''

'' It's the truth. '' I said coldly. '' I left and you will make them even more special because they have a lot of talent. And because it's what they deserve. ''

'' You think I'm going to take orders ... ''

I turned sharply to Gustavo as I could feel the tears resurface and swallowed hard. '' No. You'll do it because you owe me that. ''

The hard and cold expression of Gustavo seemed to break down my argument and finally he nodded with a look of pure defeat. Without really thinking, I went up to the grumpy man and held him in my arms surprising me and himself by my act. Although he was generally hard and cold with us, I had to admit that he would definitely miss me. In fact, they were all going to miss me more than anything. But it was my choice and I needed they respected him.

I finally detach myself from the man quickly swiping the tears from my eyes before I turn to Kelly just to see the tears in her eyes. I tried to force a smile on my lips and raised an eyebrow trembling. '' Is it too would be required to have a return to the Palm Woods limousine? ''

Kelly shook her head by drying her tears before quickly get her phone from her pocket as she walked out of the room leaving me to look after her. I now found myself alone with Gustavo. I let a weary sigh and weak as I leaned on the nearest chair since I felt as empty of all energy up and my eyes on the producer to his intervention.

'' What you are doing is very honorable, you know. '' Gustavo said with a serious expression. '' But I doubt that the doggies see it that way. ''

'' Me too. '' I sighed in agreement before turning my attention to the producer. '' They will missed me more than anything. In fact, all I will miss here. Camille, the Palm Woods. Alec.''

'' Then why leave ? '' Inquired Gustavo took a seat in front of me.

'' You know why. '' I replied with a knowing look. '' I can't ruin the career of boys. Neither your matter. They'll give you a hard time but don't be too hard on them. ''

'' Well how am I supposed to do that if my babysitter's gone ? '' Objected Gustavo crossing his arms over his chest. '' You're the one that I tempered the reminders you. ''

I shook my head with a weary laugh before leaning my head back. '' Nah, you'll do just fine on your own. You are pretty scary, you know. ''

'' Can you repeat that, please? '' Exclaimed Gustavo in surprise. '' You, the great Jacks who dare a fight with me said I was scary ? ''
'' Yeah, I will not repeat it. ''

A throat clearing challenged us and I turned in my chair just to cross the sad look of Kelly. '' The limousine await you down. ''

I narrowed my lips in a forced smile before getting up from my seat, giving a last look at the studio. I walked straight to Kelly and passed her as I made my way through the corridor of Rocque Records for the last time. I took the elevator became so familiar to me in recent months and remained as frozen on my emotions. I crossed the reception in a robotic appearance before going inside the limo in complete silence.

I jumped out of my trance to the sound of door slamming and finally ended up leaving all my emotions catch up. I brought immediately my legs against my chest as the tears flowed freely down my cheeks before quickly bite on my knee as I began to sob loudly. In a moment, I cried like I never cry and I was simply unable to stop. I was actually going out alone in a completely foreign country to me. I'd left my friends, my family and my brother.

This time, Minnesota is really a distant memory.

Hey, so we're in a chapter in the end of season 1 !

I hope you still enjoy the story :)

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