Okay so I didn't update during easter and I'm really sorry about that, but I hope you had a good time. Uodates will come once a week at least I hope so I really think that the story is going where it should be.

Everyone leaves eventually

"I'm sorry I said it Maya, I didn't mean to freak you out Maya." Josh said as Maya Walked around the room trying to calm what was now starting to look like a rapidly aproaching panic attack.

"So you don't love me?" Maya asked and Josh couldn't help but notice that her voice sounded hopeful.

"I'm sorry I said it Maya, but it's the truth. I'm in love with you and I don't want to lie to the woman that I love. I don't know how you're feeling right now, but just know that whatever you decideon that I'm still going to love you."

"I-I can't say it back Josh, I'm sorry I just can't." Maya tried pinching her hand to kee herself from panicing and the pain helper her calm down.

"It's okay." Josh said walking over to her to stop her from pinching herself. "You're drawing blood Maya, please stop."

"Sorry, I just paniced a bit. I didn't want this to end so soon. I finally got what I wanted and then it's gone again in no time at all." Maya couldn't stop the tears streaming down her face. She loved him, but she couldn't tell him. If the pain that she felt now was just a taste of the pain that she would have to endure somewhere down the road then she didn't think that she would be able to survive it.

"Why does it have to end Maya?" Josh was getting worried now, he kew that he'd said it too early, but he didn't see why she had to break up with him because of it. "I know that I said it too soon, but you don't have to say anything until you're ready Maya."

"That's just it Josh." The tears were making it hard for her to keep her eyes open, but she couldn't tear her eyes away from the guy in front of her and the effect her words were having on him. "I don't think I'll ever be ready to say it. We have to break up."

"Why?" Josh didn't care how messed up he was looking by that point, it didn't matter that he as crying like crazy. All that mattered was her, his one love breaking his heart.

"I just can't Josh." She finally tore her eyes away from him and ran out the door.

Josh fell down on his knees looking at the closed door that Maya had just left through. He felt like the world had just played the worst joke in existence on him. He meant what he said when he told her that he would love her no matter what she said and as heartbroken as he was he stayed true to his words. He would love her even if she suddenly decided to hate him, he had no choice. He remembered how the tears had streamed down Maya's face during their conversation and decided that he had to do something. He picked up his phone and called the one person he knew could help Maya at that moment. Even though she'd broken his heart he knew that he would be ready to give her the broken bits that still remained if she ever wanted them.

"Hey." Maya heard the soft voice of Riley as the door to their dorm room opened. She looked up at her best friend as she tried to wipe the tears from her eyes.

"Did he call you?" Maya choked out. She knew Josh was a great guy, but she'd never heard of a guy sending someone to check on the girl who dumped them.

"Yeah, what happened?" Riley hadn't gotten any details from Josh. Josh had been crying the whole phon call and the only words that she'd manage to decipher between the sobs where 'Maya needs you', that had been enough for Riley though and she'd left Lucas to find her. Lucas had assured Riley that he would go check on Josh for her.

"I broke up with Josh." Maya told Riley and just as she'd finished wiping away the last of her tears Riley embraced her in a hug.

"Why?" they'd seemed so happy when they'd finally gotten together and Riley couldn't figure out why two people that perfect for each other needed to be apart.

"He told me he loved me."

"Why did you break up with him because of that, you love him too don't you?" When Maya nodded Riley continued. "If you love him then why don't you want to be with him?"

"Because if I stayed with him then it would only have been more painful when he left me. I don't think I would survive it if that happened."

"Why would he leave you if he loves you?"

"Everyone does, some just stay longer than others. Nothing good ever comes to stay for me Riley. I watched my dad leave my mom, I saw how that broke her. I don't want to go through that, I can't go through that."

"What happened to the painting that you were going to give him, the painting that would show him how much you loved him. You were ready to tell him just a few days ago Maya."

"When I realized during our talk that Josh might be in love with me I felt only fear. I love him, I really do. Still, I can't handle the pain that would eventually come when he'd leave me. Damage control is the one thing that I'm good at Riley." When Maya brought the back of a painting Riely could see that Maya had punched a hole through it. "I remember how excited Emily looked when she realized how Daimon feels about her and I just knew how much I wanted that, but I'm not like Emily. I'm broken and sooner or later Josh would have figured out that a perfect guy like him can do so much better than me." When Maya turned the painting around Riley gasped. The picture of Josh now had a gaping hole in the middle.

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