okay it took a while but here it is i really hope you like it!

CHAPTER 21

Shit, I think as I watch him fall down the tree, as if in slow motion, I try to catch him, try to break his fall, but the best I can do is cushion the fall. I hear the sickening crunch as he lands, crying out in pain, dambit, prim's gonna kill me. I think before lifting, this poor broken boy and carrying him back to town.

PRIM

I wonder how it's going, is gale yelling at him yet, or maybe he can actually hunt… naa, he's to town, I love him but I don't thin—" I hear the familiar slam of the door and run to go see how it went.

The smile is quickly wiped from my face, upon seing his broken frail body, curled in gales arms, and in that instant my heart breaks into a million tiny pieces, and dropped all over the floor, but I have no time to be mad, I have to fix him, have to help him.

"MOM" I yell and I lose all emotion and put on my serious face, I have a life to save.

We grind herbs, and mix remidies, I make casts while moter tries to set his bones, it's a long process, and a risky one, he could still die, but no, no I refuse to let that happen.

In the end he only actually broke his arm, but he punctured a lung, which is making it difficult for him to breath, this is far beyond my ability to heal so I leave my mother to help him, and go to let out my emotions, though I'm not sure what those are.

The first thing I see when I walk into the living room is gale, my eyes slit, and I see him cringe in anticipation "gale, how could you be so irresponsible, I told you not to take im, so what do you do, let him fall out of a friggen tree!" I yell at him "I know, prim i-I'm so sorry" he says "sorry, your sorry! He could die!, you do realize that right he could die and it would be your fault" I yell at him, though I don't mean what I say , well maybe I do a little.

"I know, prim, I know i-I don't know what to say " he says looking to the ground, and I'm just about to chew him out some more when I hear the soft whimper from the other room, I rush in to see how he's doing. "prim, is that you" he says weakly "yes, yes it's me it's so good to hear your voice again" I say, allowing a tear to roll don my cheek.

"had a little fall didn't I" he asks, attempting humor, though I don't think anything could possibly be funny while he is this hurt.

"yes, you fell out of a tree, but you'll be okay, you'll be okay" I say trying to convince myself more tan I am him.

"prim, I- I can't breath, prim it hurts, I'm dying aren't I?" he asks looking t me, pleading me to tell him the truth.

"no, no your not don't say that you will be fine, you will be fine" I whisper convincingly

"prim" he whispers, softly, pained by his injured lungs, looking weaker, and weaker

"what, what is it, are you okay do you need something" I ask afraid, suddenly realiing, something could happen he could die, it's possible, but no no people fall out of trees all the time, he can't be dying he just can't.

"I love you" he whispers quietly, as though it's the last words he'll ever say

"I love you to, I always will" I say no longer ale to hold back my tears, as I try to sort through my mess of a life, the two people I love most in the world are sitting on death's gate, why, why all of this to one person, it would have been easier if I'd just gone to the games, because really dying is so much easier than knowing, you've caused a life to end.

I think back to the day of the reaping, which feels like years ago I think to every precious word katniss told me, I think of Effie's signature "and may the odds be ever in your favor" and I think of how they aren't and they never have been, I lost my father, and basically my mother, I am losing my sister, and the only boy I'll ever love, no, the odds have certainly not been in my favor.

"prim, baby I'm so sorry, but we have to go" says mother gently, but no I can't go there I can't go watch this happen to my sister, but I know I must.

We arrive in the square and woodenly take our seats the screen opens to a shot of peeta and katniss hunting, while the fox faced girl from 5 is watching them, and hen peeta goes to collect berries, he finds night lock, no, no I think this can't happen they've made it this far, he can't end his life with a berry.

Fortunately, for him she eats it first, and her body is removed from the arena, then katniss explains this to peeta, and he is utterly shoked. They cook they're meat and wait for cato to show up, but he is having some troubles of his own, caught in a giant spiderweb, though it didn't seem he was meant to be killed by this, the gamemakers emptied the water to force them together, and katniss and peeta decided to oblige.

Buy the time they made it to the lake and filled they're water, night was well on it's way, then an announcement came "now, normally we would be sending you all home to be by now, but since we are so close to the end, we will continue to play through the night, and tomorrow schools, and the mines will be closed" says a peppy capitol accent so stupid and oblivious it could only be Effie trinket.

So we watch we wtch as cato refuses to do as the gamemakers wish, and gets a pack of mutts sicked on him, and so he runs, runs for dear life.

Once he enters the clearing they are all together, at the top, but no peeta I being dragged down, he manages to kill the mutt, and I let out the air I had not realized I'd been holding in. just as I think a miracle may be happening peeta is jerked from katniss by cato, who holds his neck like he means to snap it, though he can't unless he wants an arrow in the brain.

Then the brilliant peeta shows he where to hit him, and her rrow hits his hand, as he releases peeta and slips on the blood slick horn, down to the mutts, down to death.

I want to be happy, they've basically won, but I know they haven't and with cato's armor, I'm still uncertain, but we watch for hours and hours, as katniss and peeta huddle for warmth, but mostly as cato is ripped apart from the vicious mutts, it's horrid, and then out of compassion, not hate katniss sends the arrow to his brain, and he dies. The entire square erupts with shouts of glee and victory they've won! They are coming home, I don't believe this, my sister is coming back, she's coming home!

Until it happens the announcement that rips every particle of my being apart, and reminds me that hope is a very dangerous emotion, but then again so is love, so is love.

Then something magical happens, something brilliant they are going to kill themselves, an while I don't want this, I also know if he died my katniss woul never truly come back to me, just an empty shell with her face.

But then the most amazing thing happens, and I learn the capitol has a heart, as they gently take both of them from the arena, victorious! The square erupts again, and I start crying tears of joy.

I feel odd like I should be more happy, but then I feel like I was just punched in the gut, with realization, I am only half as happy, because only half of my heart is safe, the other half is lying on a kitchen table, dying, and before I can stop myself I'm running back to the house tears stinging my corneas.

I walk into the kitchen and see the most beautiful bright smile I've ever seen, a smile that puts angels to shame "I told you" he says weakly, though still cockily.

"Physalis, your okay! Your better" I exclaim

"of course I am didn't think you could get rid of me that easy did ya" he asks jokingly in his still raspy voice, I run over and kiss him with such passion, as though if I let go he might dissapear.

"wo, maybe I should fall out of trees more often" he jokes, but I don't care because he's alive he's okay and so is katniss.

Then I realize the real worst part has only just begun….. because eventually I'll have to tell katniss.

Except mother said he has to stay in his bed for a long time, so I'm sure I can hide it, for a while at least.

well there you go i'm not done yet there's still an epologue and i just couldn't bring myself to kill him. so he's just gonn be prim's little secret! also i haven't decided yet if i want to do a catching fire as well, so let me know k! review!