Chapter 21

Weird Questions

After that day, even if everything seemed so picture perfect, I noticed some difference in how me and Jackson were acting. He kept going in deep thought about something and he'd be forgetful. He forgot about picking me up for lunch one weekend and it really got me angry.

I assumed it was him thinking about college was what's bothering him, but he never opened up to it. He'd just say he had a headache or something and walked off. Mr. Stewart really wants to know what college Jackson would go to, which I don't really want to know where he's going. I'm afraid he'll go somewhere far from here and it scares me.

What I noticed about me was that I've been getting off at Jackson for no reason. Like, I'd be yelling at him at random moments and I'd get all sad after that. Its really weird for me. I never been so moody before and I really just ignore it even if its kind of stupid. It's been like that for a while now, and now that i think of it, it started even before we told each other about having that innocent relationship for now.

So, I guess our relationship hasn't been that perfect in the past few months. I mean, I could never get mad at Jackson for so long and the way he would make it up is really cute. He knows how to please a girl, that's for sure, but still it makes me wonder how long he has tried to make up for his mistakes.

Jackson and I were at his house having our movie nights. It was his turn to pick a movie and it was a serious action filled movie which I don't really like. Too much fighting in a movie is kind of a turn off for me so I was bored.

We were home alone and cuddled under a blanket with my head leaning against Jackson's chest and his arms around me. It somewhat felt like that one night where Jackson and I were stuck under the storm and he just randomly kissed me. I can still remember that night, and well, the next day when we first did… "the naughty deed" if you want to say it like that.

"Jackson is it almost over?" I asked feeling quite bored and tired. I looked over the time and it only said 7:30. Time flies so slowly when you're not having fun at all.

"Yeah, just a few more minutes." He kissed my forehead and held me closer to him.

I sighed deeply and buried my face into his chest.

Just as the movie was about to end, the front door opened to a very angry looking Miley-er-Hannah with an Oliver-Owen following behind.

"Hey-" I started but just watched as Oliver take Miley from her arm and pull her back.

"I'm sorry! How was I supposed to know? That boy was hitting on you!" Oliver cried and I knew what this was leading to. I rolled my eyes, pulling away from Jackson and watched the happy couple talk.

"How was he hitting on me? He's only a fan and he was asking me for an autograph. Celebrities get fans, if you haven't noticed." Miley barked at Oliver and I laughed.

"He said "I love y-"

"He's only 10 years old!"

"Still yet someone young like him is bound to hook-"

"Shut up, you're so irritating!" Miley shouted while stamping her foot to the ground.

Oliver stood there, quiet. He looked bad, seriously, but then again these are their normal stupid fights they have. I personally haven't seen them argue like this, so I was pretty much feeling bad for Oliver even if Miley is right. Funny how Jackson seems to not do anything to the "happy couple".

"I'm sorry." Oliver finally broke out and went to Miley, pulling her into a tight hug. He lightly kissed her and I looked away, slightly cringing to the sight.

Ew. No wonder Miley hates seeing me and Jackson kiss. I feel like I'm going to throw up at this moment. I put my hand over my stomach. Heck I am going to throw up at this moment.

I shot up from my seat and ran upstairs to the bathroom.

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After Miley and Oliver's little argument/apology, they kicked me and Jackson out of the living room and into his own room. From there, I lay on Jackson's bed in his room thinking about what I'm thinking about now while Jackson think about whatever he's thinking about at his desk.

It made me think when exactly Jackson himself is going back to school. Just, him at his desk being quiet, it must be school related because the last time he did that was when he was doing his Senior project. He had so much time to decided, but so little time to reply to any of the offers. I'm starting to get impatient finding out which one of those two colleges he's going to go to.

"Jackson." I called and he turned on his chair to his desk. He had a pencil in his hand and he looked bored, really bored.

"What are you doing?" I asked him and he sighed, running his hands through his hair. I stood up from the bed and went over to Jackson, plopping onto his lap.

"Just looking through a few brochures. Dads been asking if I picked a place yet." He sighed.

I smiled. "Maybe I can cheer you up for a bit?" I asked and I kissed him.

I felt his hands move to my back, but soon retract, slightly pulling away from the kiss.

"Wait…Lilly…we…I…" He said between kisses, but I pushed into it, kissing him tenderly. I lifted my face, leaving small kisses down from his lips to his neck.

I could sense him pulling back and I sighed. I shouldn't be forcing myself on him like this. Gosh, I don't know what the heck is going on he never resisted me before. He usually gives in to these sorts of things.

"What's wrong?" I lifted my hands from his chest and placed him to his shoulders.

He shook his head and closed his eyes.

"Do you think you could leave me for a second?" Jackson asked and I was slightly taken aback at what he was saying.

He wants me to leave him?

"Why? Can't I just stay here? Who knows what the hell Oliver and your sister are doing down there." I rolled my eyes removing my hands from his shoulders and standing up.

"Mental image." Jackson hit his head. "I mean, just for a bit I have to think about something." He replied softly and I gawked at him. It didn't go through my mind in what was going on, it just seems somewhat confusing.

"What? But we-tonight-" I started but Jackson cut me off.

"I know what tonight is, but I just have to think about something. Please Lilly; don't make this even harder for me." He stood up and placed his hands on my arms. "I need some quiet time for just a few minutes."

He looked at me straight in the eye and I shook my head, looking down to the ground. I rolled my eyes and shrugged out of his grasp.

"Well, if it makes you happy then I guess I'm just going home." I shot back and turned away from him. I crossed my arms over my chest and felt myself growing angrier by the second. I didn't know why, but I had this bubbly feeling in my gut telling me to scream my butt off at Jackson.

"Don't be like that Lilly, I'm just on the-" He reached out for my arm and I jerked my arm back.

I shot him a dirty look. "I don't care Jackson I know when you need your space and shut up." I walked out of the room with Jackson following me. I went downstairs and ignored the fact that Oliver and Miley were in the living room kissing. I shot out the door with Jackson calling after me.

"Lilly, wait!"

Too late.

He pissed me off by kicking me out of his room and now I'm running on the road trying to get away from Jackson.

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I hung out with Leah in the living room after leaving Jackson home with two teens with raging hormones making out in the living room. He needed time to think so if he needed time to think I might as well just leave him for a day… or even a week. Gosh, I don't know why I'm getting all worked up today. He just asked me to go down for a little while and I just get mad and run away.

"Lilly, just relax, watch the TV, don't take it out on me!" Leah argued as she sat on the couch looking completely bored.

I didn't know I was taking it out on her. First thing I did was tell her about what happened at Jackson's and complain about it. I wasn't yelling or anything I was just complaining.

"Sorry. I'm just feeling a little weird." I sighed. "Is there still some pie dad brought home yesterday?" I asked and looked over to Leah as she got up from the couch.

"Yup, one big pie. He brought a lot home." She smiled and I got up from the couch.

"Let's go get us some pie!" I said and we both charged to the kitchen.

I sat at one of the stool chairs at the counter as I watched Leah get the pie and the plates. She placed the pie on the table and gave me a plate and a fork.

"I can't believe I forgot we had chocolate cream pie." Leah said while taking a slice of the pie and putting it on her plate.

"Weirdo." I started to eat my pie. As soon as I finished my pie, I took another slice and as soon as I finished that slice, I took another one. I had about 4 slices of the pie until Leah stopped me from eating.

"Damn, you must be hungry." She said. She was still on her second pie and she was eating it slowly.

"Well, I'm hungry and I'm pissed off." I replied and finished eating the pie. I was getting ready to get another piece when Leah had a funny look on her face.

"Wow, haha, the last time I seen someone eat like that was when I was-" She started and shook her head. "Lilly?" She asked and I put my plate down into the sink.

I walked back over to the counter and closed the box the pie was in. "Yeah Leah?" I asked and sighed.

I'm still hungry and yet I don't want to eat anymore. As tempting as it looks, I still want another piece of that pie, but it's off limits for now. I'm probably eating away my emotions until I get completely fat which is not so good. I need to keep fit and pretty for Jackson. Ugh, which reminds me I'm supposed to be mad at him.

"How long have you had these feelings?" She asked me and I shrugged.

"What feelings?" I asked and took my place back next to her.

She looked slightly worried and confused as if she was interested or sure about something, I just wonder what.

"Getting mad random times and stuff." She asked dropping her fork and looking at me.

I raised my eyebrows and thought for a second. "About a month or so? Why-" I started, but Leah cut me off. It just kind of amazed me how serious she's being to me with this talk. It's funny in a way.

"Have you been having cravings?" She put her elbow on the table and cupped her cheek with her hand. She'd blink once in a while and just stare at me, thinking about something

"What kind of cravings?" I tilted my head, trying to read her, but not succeeding. It was hard to read what Leah was thinking right now and I just wonder.

"You know, like, food, chocolate, candy…." she thought for a second. "sex?"

"Yeah," I blushed. "all the time. Not the sex, but the food. Man, yesterday I ate this whole tub of ice cream by myself. It was shocking, I usually stop at half, but I couldn't stop eating it." I laughed. "Sex… Jackson and I haven't done anything for a couple of months now. We just have these make outs, though today when I was somewhat making a move on Jackson, he kinda pushed me away and I got really pissed off."

"Okay…" Leah said and rolled her eyes at the last part. "Have you been feeling tired or sick to the stomach lately?"

"What?" I questioned.

It'd kind of weird having your older sister ask you these random questions. It's like the more she asks me the more I want to know what's going on in her mind. Why exactly is she asking me these weird questions? It's pretty weird if you go up to a random person and say, "Are you sexually active?" or something like that. That's how I feel though; confused and afraid to answer the stupid questions. Is there supposed to be a right or wrong answer or something?

"I'm serious just answer the questions!"

"Um… I've felt sick a couple of times in the past few weeks and I'm constantly tired so whatever…" I said and leaned against the table.

"Does this hurt?" She said.

Before I could ask what, she jabbed me in the chest and I slightly jerked, putting my arms over my chest.

"Ow!" I exclaimed and gaped her. Why did she do that? Owiee my boobies. I pouted and she laughed.

"Get over it." She rolled her eyes. "When was the last time you had your period?"

"A couple of months ago… Wha..?" I started, but just as I was about to finish my sentence, she cut me off once again.

"Are you pregnant?"

A/N Sorry delay in updating, final projects for school and now I am on summer! Yay! Haha. But I start summer school on Tuesday. Darn LOL.