AUTHOR'S NOTES: I want to apologize for this late update. An explanation for this is that, I went to a gay/lesbian bar in West Hollywood. lol Hey, I need a life too. lol I went grocery shopping in the morning, and after that, my roomies doesn't want me to lock myself in my room to write and of course, we went to a bar that night. Thus, Zero Update last weekend.
Anyway, thanks for the increasing reviews I constantly received with this story. I love you all! :)
So, on with the shoutouts:
ALEX: I also love Mr. Arendelle last chapter, lol thanks for ur wonderful review as always. And ur right, it's a good thing they didnt do anything, save the best for last, right? I love all of Mr. Arendelle's lines too, hahaha And BIG LOVE to you too!
KYOKO-NYAA: Hahaha, galing mong manghula ha,ehehe pero di ko alam kung nasulat ko ng maayos ang hula mo,ehe I hope I did. Yup favorite na kita kasi natutuwa ako sa mga reactions mo,ehe it's so nice kasi na hnd lang nga ako ung filipino na naadik sa elsanna, and pareho tayo dun, nung una hnd ko binibgyan ng malisya, may nakapagsabi lang sakin na may youtube videos daw na ganun, so nanood ako, at un nga inulit ulit ko dn ung movie, haha pati sa mga fanfic, dun ako lalo nagng elsanna hardcore fan,ehe
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VISITOR: Hi Ms. Austria or is it Mr.? Lol, Because of this fandom, I have a lot of male readers too so I really dont know if I'm talking to a guy or a girl? lol Well anyway, Your english is fine, dont worry! Greetings from LA too! :) And thanks for the review!
YARIPAWN: Kaya pla di kna nakakapagreview, ehe lucky you di mo maxado napansin ung cliffhanger, ehe And to answer ur question, Kristoff was called tlga for hospital stuff, ayoko muna kasi niang malaman ung tension kina elsa at anna. ehe Si Belle naman? Hmmm, I think alam nia. Nagmamaang-maangan lang cguro hahahahah Wag ka mag-alala, malapt na natin yang malaman, ehe
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GUEST: Oh, sorry about the misunderstanding about the remaining chapters, anyway thanks for the review and as always I love it when u ramble on ur review. it really makes me smile. lol And don't worry, I will end the story really nice :) And about what I thought with u being a girl, it just surprises me that in this fandom I have a male reader. because with my brittana fics, I think all of my readers were females so it just surprises me that's all :) I hope I didnt offend you.
LEELAN22: Hahahaha! U made me laugh with ur first sentence, hahaha Where the hell is Punzie? lol And who is Ben? hahahaha And yeah, Anna is such a coward, lol Oh, yeah kudos to Mr. Tequila then! lol Hmmm, about ur question who took them home? It will be answered here. Hahahah, I'm starting to really love ur nickname for me, hahaha And about Belle? Hmmm, I have a perfect ending for her, dont worry, lol and yeah, I have a lot in store with these story, I would make the happily ever after satisfying with my readers, I promise! :) As long as you all still love the story, :)
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SILENT READER: Thanks for the review. And for sharing your favorites. Hmmm I think I established that Elsa has feelings for ANNA, (buried feelings) So yeah, Anna's cleavage? lol
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LAPRAS-PLUSHY: U have returned! lol I am now breathing easy, lol Yeah, after that angsty chapter, I just want to have a humor on the side last chapter, lol And about Elsa and Belle? I will explore more of that, dont worry. But keep in mind that Belle and Elsa aren't officially a couple.
ACHTTIEN: hahahaha tawa ako ng tawa dun sa review mo grabe! hahaha after mong sbhing umamin na c Anna at chance na nia, gusto mo xang sabunutin? hahahahaha that cracked me up! ur the best! lol I love ur reaction! hahahahah
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AND so, I bring to you, chapter 21 (the aftermath of the kiss)... ENJOY!
CHAPTER 21
KISSING YOUR BESTFRIEND
"Calm down, Anna. Breathe in. Breathe out." I told myself. I was fidgeting inside my room, and to be honest, I am really afraid to leave my room right now.
Fuck Anna! She is your best friend! Everything will be alright! I mentally chastise myself. I can't be weird. I can't be weird. God! Why am I such a mess right now? I mean, I am ANNA FUCKING ARENDELLE! I shouldn't be like this! I CAN'T be like this!
With a deep exasperating breath, I walk towards the door of my room, eager to come out so I could face my bestfriend…
I cupped Elsa's nape and pull her against me. Our lips finally came in contact with each other.
She opens her mouth at the exact time I opened mine. Our tongues danced against each other. Her mouth taste so sweet, her lips are so soft and her tongue? Oh god, her tongue… I suckled it and it made her moan. She was pulling me against hers tightly while I was pushing myself towards her desperate for contact.
FUCK! I stop walking when images of me kissing Elsa flashes again inside my mind. Goddammit! I cover my face with my hands. Fucking shit!
I should be glad that I had the chance to kiss Elsa again (even if it's just only a drunken kiss) but now I don't know how to react. It became my unreachable dream to kiss her like that but now that I've experienced it, I can't get it off my mind. Of course, you can't get it off your mind, Anna. You are hopelessly in love with your best friend!
Ugh! DAMN!
Then I heard Elsa's door opens. Oh god! She is awake! What now?
How much of last night did she remember? What will her reaction be? Will it be awkward between us? Ugh! So many questions that I desperately need an answer right now!
Stop being a coward Anna, you have to face Elsa at some point!
"Okay! I can do it. I just have to act normal. As in normal-normal."
I walk out of my room, heart beating rapidly against my chest. I can do this! I saw a glimpse of Elsa's back while she prepares her coffee. I swallow a lump in my throat. This is going to be easy. I can do this.
I was about to say something when she turns around. "Oh!" She looks shock to see me. "Hi. Uhm… Good morning." She said then lowers her head, refusing to look at me.
Awkward.
I scratch the back of my neck. "Good morning." I said softly in return.
Silence.
After a few seconds, I open my mouth, "Elsa-"
And at the same time, she opens her mouth too, "Would-"
God, this is really awkward. I chuckle nervously. "I'm sorry, you first?"
She smiles at me, "Uhm… would you like to have some coffee?" she said, offering her cup to me.
"Okay." I replied. I walk towards her. Elsa is trying to be normal, well atleast for me, I think she was. So I should try to act normal too.
I reach out for her mug and our hands barely brush with each other. I gasp. It was electrifying.
I pull my hand away abruptly. "Oh sorry." I apologize not knowing what I am apologizing for.
She clears her throat, "It's fine." Then she puts down her mug on the counter probably avoiding our contact with each other. I felt hurt. She didn't want to touch me.
"Thank you." I said, looking away as I reach out for her cup and take a sip.
We were standing awkwardly with each other. The atmosphere felt different. I don't like this thing happening between us. I miss my old Elsa. Now I could feel that she wants nothing to do with me.
Just. Because. Of. That. Stupid. Drunken Kiss.
"Uhmm…" she said, clearing her throat once again. "We should thank Kristoff and your bodyguards for bringing us back safely last night." She chuckles. "I think we were pretty wasted."
She opened a fucking conversation. Damn it, Anna! Say something!
I laugh nervously. "Yeah. We really were." Then before I could stop myself, I ask the forbidden question. "So, how much did you remember last night?"
My eyes are wide as I heard myself asking that. Fuck.
For a second, I thought Elsa was not going to answer me.
Then with a low voice, eyes avoiding mine, she answers, "Everything."
My eyes widen at her admission. Oh god, did she just say that?
Everything.
Everything?
Everything!
My heart beats triple fast. My breathing was shallow. My brain short-circuited.
I cupped Elsa's nape and pull her against me. Our lips finally came in contact with each other.
She opens her mouth at the exact time I opened mine. Our tongues danced against each other. Her mouth taste so sweet, her lips are so soft and her tongue? Oh god, her tongue… I suckled it and it made her moan. She was pulling me against hers tightly while I was pushing myself towards her desperate for contact.
My mind was in a complete haze and Elsa was looking at me, wide-eyed. "Anna?"
Just the sound of her voice pulls me back onto the reality.
"Oh, what?" then I move away from her, my mind panicking, my coward self came back. "Yeah? About that? The kiss? That was nothing, right? I mean, we did it before so it wouldn't shock you right?" I laugh awkwardly, "Remember when we did that several months ago? That was a blast. But last night was nothing. It wasn't supposed to happen. I didn't mean to make you cheat on Belle. I'm so sorry about that. But that was just the alcohol talking. We shouldn't give meaning to it. We were drunk, well I was drunk totally. I shouldn't kiss you like that. We're bestfriends. Bestfriends shouldn't kiss like that. We should just forget-" I ramble continuously. I look at Elsa and there's something in her eyes that I couldn't quite catch on.
She stops my rambling when she places her hand on my right shoulder. "I get it, Anna." She said, her tone was different. It seems cold and distant. But that was probably just my imagination because she smiles at me after awhile. "I have to prepare for work. Don't wait for me later. I'll be coming home late."
"Where are you going?" I ask.
With a deep sigh, she replies, "I just have some important things to do." She removes her hand on my shoulder.
"Okay." I replied. My heart clenches painfully inside my chest. Maybe she is going to Belle's apartment later. Maybe they're gonna kiss and- I close my eyes. I don't want to imagine Belle and Elsa kissing anymore.
She walks away from me but then she stops, "Anna?"
"Yeah?"
"Are we good?" she asks softly.
That question caught me off guard. What was that supposed to mean? Before I could stop myself, I ask her the same question. "Are we good, Elsa?" I want to know if nothing will change between us after that drunken kiss.
"As long as you think we are, then yeah, we are good." She said softly. Then she walks away.
I exhale a deep breath. She said we are good.
That question nags my mind.
Are we really good?
We are not good.
Everything changes between Elsa and I after that conversation. Well, after that kiss specifically.
Days passed wherein Elsa got really busy with work, and well… with Belle, I think. Well, I supposed so. They're dating anyway.
She always comes home late for the past week, and sometimes she wasn't home at all. Which made me sad. Real sad.
I miss her. So badly.
We didn't have the same conversation after that but I felt that she was kind of avoiding me. She wasn't touchy-feely with me anymore. Seems like my skin burns her in some way. Well, in a bad way. I might be exaggerating a little bit but I really think she doesn't want to be touch by me anymore.
She despised me. She was disgusted with me.
That thought made my heart clenched painfully. But what can I do? I just can't tell her I'm in love with her. She is with Belle. And that thin string that keeps our friendship together will be destroyed once I told her I'm in love with her. I can't afford that.
Elsa is my life.
If I want to bring back what we were before, I should be the one making move.
The sounds of keys jarring our main door made my heart jumped. Elsa is home!
The door opens and the love of my life enters our apartment. "Late again?" I ask.
"Yeah." She answers.
I was sitting at our couch watching TV when she drops her bag on the other armchair.
"Busy?" I ask again.
"Yeah." She answers timidly.
I was beginning to feel annoyed with Elsa's close-ended answers. I took a deep calm breath before standing up. "You seem exhausted. Do you want me to massage your shoulders?" I offered.
Elsa immediately pulls away from me, "No, I'm fine." She said in a cold tone. Before she could walk away, I grab her wrist. My eyebrows furrowing at her.
"Why are you being like this, Elsa? Why are you avoiding me like a plague?" I hiss at her. "Can't we just go back to normal?"
She looks back at me; her eyes look vicious as they stared back at me. I step back, I haven't seen this side of Elsa. She looks scary. "Am I another notch on your bed post, Anna?"
"What?!" I stare at her, completely shock. I was speechless. What did she mean by that?
Elsa exhales a deep breath, "Forget I said anything." She calmly said, closing her eyes.
"What do you mean by that?" I ask again. "Another notch on my bed post? Of course not! You're my bestfriend, Elsa!" I stared back at her, "Is this about that stupid drunken kiss we shared? That wasn't my intention Elsa! You know I would never-"
She pulls away her hand, "Forget it, Anna." She said in an icy tone. "I don't want to hear about it anymore."
"Then why are you being like this? Can't we just go back to being bestfriends?" I begged. "I miss you. I don't want to lose you!" I said frantically. My heart was pounding inside my chest. I don't want to lose you because I'm in love with you. If being friends is all you could offer for me, then I would accept it wholeheartedly! I want to scream this to Elsa but I stop myself. I don't want to push her away more.
She shakes her head, looking away. "You've already lost me." She mumbled.
As soon as the words left her mouth, I was speechless. My heart breaks into a thousand pieces as I process her words.
"You've already lost me."
"You've already lost me."
"You've already lost me."
My heart shatters into pieces even more as soon as Elsa walk out of the door of our apartment.
What have I done?
It had been a week since that conversation took place. I haven't seen Elsa after that night. As always, she was busy with work in the hospital and I made sure I wasn't around when she comes home. Seeing her looking at me like that made my heart bleed. She wants nothing to do with me. I just lost my bestfriend because of these fucking feelings. I hate these feelings!
I was already drunk when I call for the waiter again. "Give me another AMF." I said.
"Miss, I think you're drunk and-"
I glare at him, making him stop. "When I order something, I want it now. Fast!"
"But-"
"Anna!"
I turn around to see Kristoff waving at me.
I grin widely at my cousin. "Come here, Kristoff! We should drink to our heart's content-" Then I turn to face the waiter. "Give me one AMF and a bottle of whiskey."
Kristoff chuckles. "Don't worry, I'm here. She will be fine." He said to the waiter. Then he turns to me. "Why are you scaring the poor boy?"
I scoff. "I wasn't scaring him. I just want my drink fast."
For another hour, Kristoff and I just drink to our heart's content.
"Sometimes I think that our family has this fucking curse in regards to matters of heart, you know?" Kristoff said, "I really thought she was the one for me. But I was wrong. Long distance relationship really sucks." He said, drinking his glass of whiskey.
I didn't answer. I feel that everything is turning.
I just want to forget. I was keeping my feelings for Elsa a secret because I don't want to push her away but that backfired. No matter where I stand, Elsa will not be mine.
"Elsa is really lucky, you know." Kristoff rambles that made my heart skip a beat at the mention of her name. "Did you know that Belle is planning to tell Elsa her undying feelings for her this day? I even helped her find the perfect ring for her. I think she wants to propose too. And she told me she would invite Elsa to go to France to meet her parents. I'm pretty sure Elsa said yes by now and-"
I blink furiously. "What?!"
"Oh, shit. That was supposed to be a surprise. Don't tell Elsa I told you beforehand. I'm pretty sure she wants to tell you herself after today and-"
Belle proposing to Elsa?
Elsa and Belle getting married?
Elsa is going to France?
I stand up abruptly. NO!
I can't let Elsa go without telling her my feelings. I have to tell her before it's too late. No matter the consequences are, I would accept it.
If she is not in love with me, then so be it. Atleast I told her the truth.
I already lost her friendship, there's nothing I could lose now. I need to tell her.
I. NEED. TO. TELL. ELSA. THAT. I'M. IN LOVE. WITH. HER.
"Hey Feisty Pants! Where are you going?" Kristoff grabs my wrist.
The whole world is turning but I tried to keep myself steady. "I have to see Elsa."
"What? Why? I'm pretty sure she is with Belle right now. You can't disturb their date." Kristoff said.
I push him away. "I have to see Elsa now. Right now!"
"Why are you rushing to see her?" Kristoff asks again, grabbing my wrist again.
I gritted my teeth. "I'M IN LOVE WITH ELSA!"
"Wait, what?" Kristoff releases my wrist, his face full of shock, "You're in love with Elsa? Since when?"
"Since forever! Damn it! I need to see her! I can't lose her, Kristoff!" Suddenly, my tears start flowing. My knees are weakening. "I love her. I'm just so afraid to tell her. I don't want to lose my friendship with her. I love her, Kristoff. I love Elsa. I love her."
"Oh god." Kristoff combs his hair with his fingers. "Okay, okay. I'll drive you home and we'll wait for Elsa there, okay?"
"NO! I want to see her now!" I said in a high tone. "I NEED to see her now."
"Okay. I'll just settle the bill, wait for me okay?" Kristoff said then left.
I tried to stand up, with a determined look on my face; I walk out of the bar and I went straight to the parking lot.
"ANNA! Wait up!"
I ignore Kristoff as I drive away from the bar. I know I shouldn't be driving because I'm drunk but I can't wait to see Elsa. I need to see her. I need to tell her that I love her.
Tears flow down against my cheeks.
I can't let Belle steal her from me. I have nothing against Belle but Elsa is mine.
"You've already lost me."
Elsa's words rang into my ears.
And then memories of Elsa clouded my mind.
"Anna?" she half-whispered. I watch her as she opens her eyes very slowly. Then blue eyes meet teal ones. "Anna!" she gasps.
She forcefully lunges herself at me. I caught her in my arms.
"Anna! Oh god! You're okay!" she said frantically. Then she pulls away abruptly.
And then the unexpected happened.
She cups my cheeks and kisses me on my lips.
I also remember the night of that drunken kiss.
But then she turned me, my back was now against her front. "Let's marvin gaye and get it on." She sang against my ear.
I melted. My heart beats erratically inside my chest.
I was swaying against her when I felt her lips on my neck. Heat pooled between my legs as I angled my head for her to gain access freely.
She continued her ministrations on my neck.
I moaned. Hard.
I felt her tongue swirling against my neck that my knees weaken. Then she sucked my pulse point. My hand went at the back of her nape, urging her on.
"Elsa…" I moaned her name.
She leaned towards me, her hands on my hips pulling me closer against her. The music continues in the background.
Our lips grazed against each other softly. Our breaths mingled against each other.
"FUCK! Elsa kissed me that night! She made a move on me. How could I be so fucking blind?"
I blink away my tears. Is it possible that Elsa is in love with me too?
Rapunzel's words came back to me too.
"Then tell her Anna, before it's too late."
"So you think that Belle is the perfect one for her? I'm not against Belle, Anna. She is nice. She may be perfect but…I don't know. In my point of view, Elsa is not in love with her. Elsa is smitten with her. Elsa thinks Belle is the perfect girl for her. But believe me when I say this, Ms. Perfect ain't always Ms. Right, Anna. Do you understand?"
"When Elsa told us to give a birthday message for you, we really thought that you are her girlfriend. I know Elsa for a very long time; she won't makes so much effort to a person she doesn't have feelings for. Besides, if Elsa was in love with Belle, I should be the first person to know. She doesn't keep secrets when it comes to me."
My eyes widen as I also remember my parents' words.
"She is in love with you too, you know. I saw what she did in your birthday remember? That girl is hopelessly in love with you, Anna."
"Just tell her how you feel Anna. That girl is in love with you. Believe me."
SHIT! Elsa is in love with me? How could I be so oblivious!
I reach out blindly for my phone at the passenger seat of my car. My mind was spinning because of the alcohol but I ignored it. I have to call Elsa.
I have to tell her I love her.
I have to-
SCREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEECHHHHHHHHHHH
BAMMMMMMM
"Ugh!" My head bump forcefully and-
I open my eyes to see Kristoff's worried look. His clothes filled with blood.
"Anna! Anna! Are you okay?"
The sound of the ambulance is making my head explode.
"Anna? Stay with me, okay? Stay with me!"
I realize I was inside an ambulance when I felt bump on the road. I groan in pain.
"Goddammit! Drive carefully!" Kristoff shouts. Then he faces me, his hands cupping my cheeks. "Anna, please stay with me, okay?"
I open my mouth. "Tell… Elsa…" I groan in pain, "I love… her."
"Damn it!" Kristoff hiss. "Prepare the AET! Anna! Anna!"
The sound of the cardiac monitor filled the entire ambulance.
THIS IS MY MAJOR PLOT. All of the other plots are just filler chapters.
As I've said, this will be a happy ending. No character deaths but it will be a very very VERY emotional ride AGAIN. So prepare your tissues and hanky next chapter. :)
And with that said, Let us all say goodbye to ANNA'S HEARTBREAKING POV for now. Let us keep Anna's heart to rest for the meantime, shall we?
For next update, we will explore Elsa's POV and feelings. Especially the cliffhanger. :)
I hope u all still have favorites in this heartbreaking chapter,
so tell me ur fave lines, scenes and characters?
Thanks in advance!
-Rainezeik