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Chapter 21

Bella's POV

He was so close I could feel the heat from his body. He was saying everything I'd been dying to hear for months. My head was spinning from everything I'd learned over the past few days. I'd been miserable and alone for months because that bitch Tanya and her minion. I deserve to be happy and life is too short not to jump at every opportunity. My son deserves to have his dad in his life.

I look him in the eye. He needs to see how serious I am about this.

"You need to be a hundred percent sure. I won't let you hurt him and I don't know how much more hurt I can take."

I see nothing but sincerity in his eyes, but I don't know if I can trust it yet.

"I've never been so sure of anything. I love him more than I ever thought I could and I've never stop loving you." Edward exclaims.

"I don't want Tanya anywhere near him. I know you said you're done with her but if we're visiting you on a set and she's there he'll never visit again."

He nods.

"I'm not going back. I'm thinking of maybe finding a place here. I have enough money to be comfortable for long time."

"You don't have to do that."

"I want to."

"No, I meant you don't have to find a place. I have plenty of room." I stop abruptly. What the hell am I thinking? "I don't know maybe you should find a place."

I throw myself on the couch covering my face not knowing if I should listen to my heart or my head. I feel him before I realize he's knelt in front of me.

"Bella, its fine. I don't mind staying at the motel. I'll be here to see Orion everyday no matter where I stay."

I guess my heart won out because the next thing I know I'm on Edward's lap kissing him. I didn't realize how much I missed his soft lips until I was kissing him again. It started out slow before it turned to raging passion. Edward pulled away leaning his forehead against mine.

"Bella, we should stop."

"What if I don't want to?" I murmur, battling between myself on continuing and listening to him.

"If we don't stop I won't be able to leave tonight. I haven't had you in months and God Bella I've wanted you since you stood up at the wedding. I'm trying to control myself as it is." Edward replies, his voice deep with desire.

"Maybe I want you to stay tonight. Maybe I want you to lose control. Maybe I want you to rip my clothes off and take me."

"Bella, you can't say things like that."

"I know you can feel how wet I am for you."

I don't know what happened to my filter but all reasoning went flying out the window when I started putting his hand down my pants to my soaked and now ruined panties.

"Fuck Bella."

"Yes please."

He moved his fingers through my wet fold putting pressure right where I needed him the most. I want to feel his body on top of me sliding into my most sensitive area while I moaned his name. I pulled my shirt over my head regretting I wasn't wearing a sexy bra but my bulky nursing bra. Edward's lips found their way to the swell of my heavy breast while I started working on his shirt.

"Yes, don't stop."

"I don't think I could if I wanted to. You're so beautiful. How'd I ever lose you? I'm a fucking idiot." He murmurs against my skin.

I felt my body climbing as Edward rubbed his very skilled fingers over my clit. Edward reaches up yanking my pants and panties off in one swoop. I don't realize he's undone his jeans until I feel his tip at my entrance.

"Tell me to stop."

I pull him closer kissing his chest as I feel him push fully inside of me. My walls stretch to make room for all of him. He twitches inside of me before moving at an achingly slow pace. I give him my whole body as I moan his name over and over again. I've missed this. I've missed him. I'm so in love with him.

"Oh, fuck Bella I've missed this. I love you so much."

"Edward, mmm yes."

"I'm not going to last baby. I need you to cum."

All I needed was his words and I'm falling over the edge milking his cock for everything he can give me.

I woke up a few hours later in my bed wrapped my comforter almost thinking the last few hours didn't happen until I felt the familiar ache between my legs. Round one had been a slow reunion of our bodies but round two was fast, rough make up sex. I don't know what came over me. I know there was tension on the ride home like there was something more in the atmosphere around us.

I know I love him but maybe we should've have stopped after the kiss but it was like my body was in charge and not my rational brain. I closed my eyes and listen for the baby monitor. I don't hear the white noise I've become accustomed to.

I jump out of bed grabbing my robe as I rush down the hall. I walk in the room only to find Edward asleep in the rocker with Orion on his chest sucking his fist.

"Is my little man hungry? Come on, mommy will feed you."

I pick Ry up and take him down to the scene of the crime. I sit on the couch feeding our son while my brain tried to work things out. I don't want to mess things up for Ry but I might have already. Did the sex mean anything to me or was it just lust? My body was just craving a touch. I loved Edward but a lot has happened. I know I was wrong too. Maybe I'm just scared.

Orion's whimpering brings me out of my musings. A voice startles me.

"I know what you're thinking. I love you Bella and we'll go as slow as you need, but I don't regret this."

He sits up.

"I need to think of what's best for Orion."

He's tugging on his hair now, sign number one he's getting frustrated, "And having both of his parents isn't?"

It would be if I weren't so freaked out about everything, "So, if we aren't together you're not going to be here for him?"

Now he's pacing, "I didn't say that. Do you love me?"

"My feelings don't matter right now." He stops in front of me, "Do you love me? Simple question."

Do I love him? Of course, I do.

"Yes, but Orion has to come first not my feelings."

He nods, "We can slow. I'll go back to the motel and come back tomorrow morning."

I shake my head, "It's late. I'll make up the spare room for you."

"You go to bed. I'll figure out the spare room."

I carry a sleeping Orion back to his room and lay him down. He looks so much like Edward. Could I really let Edward back in my heart? I already let him back in my bed. Just thinking about our time together has my body reacting.

Stop it right now. That cannot happen again. You need to get your hormones in check and start thinking about Orion. I know it was hot and felt so good but no it's done. No matter how bad you want it.

That didn't help at all. Maybe I'll dig through my luggage for Bob. I go back in to my room and find Bob in my carry-on side pocket. Dropping my robe, I climb back into bed and cover just my lower half. I hope this works.

I can't be a pile of raging hormones every time I'm in the same room with Edward. I flip the switch and run my vibrator over my hard, sensitive nipples. I bite my lip to silence my moans. I feel the wetness start to pool between my legs. My poor throbbing clit begs for attention. I start rubbing my bullet in slow circles around my nub. My mind starts going to Edward's fingers doing the same thing only an hours ago.

"Oh yes, so good." I pinch my nipple to intensify the feeling. My chest is heaving as I feel my release approaching.

"Oh, Edward don't stop. I'm so wet."

I move my vibrator faster needing to explode. I feel the tight coil about to snap.

"Right there. Fuck Edward."

I squirt all over my sheet. Not ready to stop yet I turn off my vibrator and move my two middle fingers to my opening. I go faster and slower so caught up in my bliss I don't hear my door creak open. I give in to my orgasm as my heart pounds out of my chest. When I see movement, I realize I'm not alone. A shocked and visibly turned on Edward stands by my door.

"Sorry I heard you call me."

I don't know whether to cover up or invite him in. My mind is mush after my round of self-love. I just stare at him as I lay naked and unashamed. Unconsciously my hands move over my body as watch his eyes darken with passion. Neither one of us speak as he stalks towards me leaving a trail of clothes. I feel the bed shift as he climbs in next to me.

"You're beautiful. Your body is perfect. I want nothing more than to worship you tonight and every night after."

"Edward, love me."