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So its been a while hasn't it;)
I've actually been writing this chapter for months, just a little bit at a time but I finally managed to get a decent length for a chapter.
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SIMON?!
The coffee shop falls silent as Simon and I just stare at one another, neither of us saying a word. The whole world fell away as I stared into the chocolate eyes I had known my whole life. I felt the tears building up in my eyes so Simon couldn't see me cry. I felt a reassuring hand on my arm, I looked up into golden eyes full of concern. I gave him a slight nod to let him know I was okay. Jace took the hint and looked - well more like glared - at Simon who slightly shrank away from his stare. Isabelle just looked between her three friends unsure on what was going on.
"wait, do you two know each other?" She asked gesturing between Simon and myself, finally breaking the silence. I stayed silent, unsure on what to say but Simon nodded. "Yeah" he said. "Clary's my best friend, we've known each other out entire lives". Simon looked at me, a slight smile on his lips, I refused to give him one back. "oh" Isabelle replied at the revelation, her shoulders lowering in relief as she let out a breath. "well, Simon, sit down" she gestured to the empty seat beside her, Simon looked at me in question. I knew this from years of knowing him, but I refused to loom at him. I hears him huff out a sigh but fall into the seat opposite nonetheless.
Jace reached for my hand under the table, giving it a reassuring squeeze. I let out a breath I didn't realise I was holding and gave his hand a little squeeze back. I could do this, I told myself as I finally lifted my head up, looking Simon in the eye. "Explain" I say, my hand never leaving Jace's as I saw Simon take a breath. Simon opened his mouth to say something, just as Izzy interrupted him. "Jace, why don't we go and get us all another coffee?" "No, I'm good" he replied smirking. Jace flinched then left the booth, rubbing his shin as he walked to the counter; Izzy must have kicked him under the table. I turned back to Simon.
"Well?" I prompted. "Listen Clare" Simon started. "I'm so sorry, I overreacted when I heard about you and Jace." Simon ran a hand through his hair, making it stand at odd angles. "I just hated the thought of you getting away from me again, I've watched you grow up and have boyfriends that weren't me, and I feel so
selfish saying this but when they didn't work out, I thought it might be my chance, however that chance never came. By the time I finally plucked up the courage to tell you how I felt you had already met Sebastian and I honestly gave up of all hope of 'us' ever being a thing. Then I heard what he had done to you and you went to Jace for comfort-" I opened my mouth to interrupt but Simon held up a hand, silencing me. "No, let me finish, or I won't be able to get everything out." I nodded, letting him continue.
"When you went to Jace, I felt betrayed, like it should have been me picking up the pieces, but it wasn't and I realised how pathetic that was. I should just want you to be happy and I do." Simon took my hands in his from across the table. "This last couple of days have been so hard not having you in my life, I never wanted our friendship to ever be compromised, and for that I am truly sorry. Then I met Izzy and all that feelings I've never experienced began surfacing; I was getting nervous, feeling sick around her, and I was getting butterflies everytime I saw her. So now, I'm thinking my love for you was more of a sisterly love, but with you being the only close female in my life, I mistook it for being in love. I guess what I'm trying to say is..." He takes a deep breath. "Can we still be friends?" He asks shyly, "best friends" I reply smiling and give his hand a quick squeeze. Simon squeezes my hand in return; his face breaking into a huge grin.
A few moments later, Jace and Isabelle rejoin the table. "Everything alright?" Jace asks as he places my coffee in front of me. "Yeah" I reply, grinning at my boyfriend - wait was Jace my boyfriend? I mean, we live together and we've had sex on numerous occasions but we never actually made it official. I was brought out of my thoughts by someone saying my name and I rejoined the conversation to see everyone staring at me. "What?" I asked taking a sip of my coffee. "I asked you if you wanted to go shopping with me on Tuesday? We can grab some lunch." Isabelle said, amusement dancing around her dark eyes. "Sure" I replied. "That sounds like fun- oh wait, I'm working sorry!" I glanced at Jace who grinned at me. "I'm sure I can spare you for a couple of hours." I smiled at Izzy, "sounds like a date." Isabelle squealed and clapped her hands together like a child, causing Jace, Simon and I all to look at one another and fall about laughing. Izzy scowled at us all, but a second later a grin forced its way onto her face and soon her laughter joined in with ours.
After we said our goodbyes to Simon and Isabelle, Jace and I walked back to our place, hand-in-hand, the pair of us lost in our own thoughts. My brain went back to the fact I had no idea what Jace and I were to one another. I knew I was beginning to develop strong feelings for him, but does he feel the same? He said he liked me but was it enough to start a relationship? Or are we just friends? Friends with benefits?. "What's going on in that cute little head of yours?" Jace's question interrupted my thoughts. "What are we?" I blurted out before I could stop myself. I snapped my mouth shut and I could feel he heat rising in my face. Jace abruptly stopped walking and turned to face me, his mouth opening and closing like a goldfish. "I...er...what?" Confusion taking a solid place in his features. I looked down at my feet, my face growing hotter by the second, oh well, no going back now. I took a deep breath - trying to control my rushing thoughts. "well, what are we? I mean, we've never really established it. Are we a couple? Lovers? Friends with benefits? I hate to be THAT girl, but I want to know. I really like you Jace and I just want to know where I stand."
I'm breathless by the time I finish. I look up at Jace who is staring at me, his head cocked slightly to the left as he thinks. "Huh" he says finally "you're right, but not here, not like this. Tomorrow after work, we are going on our first official date". I stand on my tiptoes giving him a quick sweet kiss. "Okay" I whisper giving him a soft smile and we continue our walk through the New York streets. The excitement building in the pit of my stomach.
So there we have it!
Simon and Clary made up, we're getting a Clace official date... A lot happened in this chapter.
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