A/N: Ok, so this story only really has a couple chapters left, and I was wondering if any of you would mind Betaing a new story for me… leave it in the review or a pm if you're interested…I start school tomorrow (Shoot me now) so idk depending on the workload but it won't be too long… Read. Enjoy. Review…

Trip Around the Sun

Chapter Twenty-One –Miserable Day

"Bye dad," I called as I headed for the door, fairly early in the morning, he was getting ready for work.

"Bye, Bella," He called, "Hey, where you going, Kiddo?"

"Just down to the reservation," I told him, "Hang out with Jake…"

"I don't like you hanging around that kid," said Charlie, "I love Billy like a brother, but that kid of his is a bad egg."

"I got to go, dad," I told him.

"Why don't you go hang out with the Cullens?" Charlie asked and I shrugged, wishing that I could, Carlisle was, according to Jasper, going to work today anyways.

"I can't, told Jake I'd be there today," I said and Charlie rolled his eyes.

"Do I have to ban you from seeing that kid?" Charlie asked angrily.

"No, and you better not," I said, trying not to cry, what would happen if Jake realized that dad had banned me from going over there? Would he find a way to blame Carlisle? "I am going to hang out with Jake, be back later."

"Be careful, Kiddo," said Dad and I nodded, annoyed with him.

"I always am, dad," I said and I was out the door.

I practically ran the distance from the front door to my truck and hopped in. I started it up before realizing that Jasper was sitting next to me on the bench seat. I jumped and almost hit my head on the ceiling before he shook his head at me and I pulled out.

"What are you doing here?" I asked as I headed towards the reservation.

"Checking in on you," said Jasper shrugging, "But other than emotional and mental things you seem fine."

"Good," I said good heartedly and he chuckled as he filled the cab of the truck with a carefree feeling, "Thanks."

"No problem," He said and I nodded.

"You realize the minute you go back I'm just as miserable as I was before," I said and he nodded.

"Carlisle called me and asked me to come check on you, so I am," said Jasper.

"So how do you like the new title of messenger?" I asked and Jasper smiled.

"They just picked me because after Carlisle I would have the best shot of cheering you up," said Jasper with a grin as I drove steadily towards La Push, "He didn't know if this was against the rules or not, but he sends his love."

"Tell him I love him too," I said and Jasper nodded as I slowed to a stop.

I had stopped at the imaginary line that I knew Jasper couldn't cross. If the Cullens went into werewolf territory, all the misery in the last two days would be for nothing. The wolves would attack them, and even Emily and I wouldn't be able to stop them. Neither would Carlisle's calm charm or Jasper physically calming them down. The treaty would be void and it would be war. Should war break out I knew that I would have to go back to Carlisle immediately, if they were going to fight anyways I might as well be happy for a little while.

Just as I had predicted Jasper left and any happy feeling disappeared the minute he did into the woods to my right. I just sat there in the truck, helpless as all the misery came back to me like a ton of bricks. I shivered a little as I brought my knees up to my chest and tried to stem the feeling that I needed to cry. Tears quite obviously were not helping in this situation, and they seemed to make Jake madder. I had probably crossed the line yesterday with him, but no one had that much nerve to insinuate that Carlisle was more dangerous than Jake. That's how I took it, and Jake's jealousy of him was driving me nuts. All he could do was put Carlisle down and to me that was unacceptable.

I pulled myself together just enough to open my locket and take a peak inside. The happy picture of Carlisle and I was enough to rip my already shattered heart into confetti. I closed it just as soon as I caught a look at Carlisle's eyes, and sniffed back tears before starting the truck back up again.

I pulled into Jake's short driveway and I had to restrain the urge to run him over. He was standing there like he was about to hop into his own car and come to find me. I smiled weakly as I got out, not bothering in gentlemanly skill like Carlisle would have to open my door for me and help me out.

"You ok Bella?" He asked as he took my hand and I had to stop myself from visibly cringing to his voice and touch.

"Fine," I lied and that seemed to satisfy him for the time being as he led me into the house.

"What took you so long?" He asked, and I knew he was trying to not sound rude, but he did anyways.

"I was talking to Jasper for a bit," I said, "Alice still won't talk to me."

"Sorry," He said sheepishly, "I didn't mean for your friend to get mad at you."

Well what did you mean for Jake?

"Well he's their dad," I said, "If he's miserable, like Jasper said he was then Alice is bound to be angry."

"He's not really their dad," said Jake stupidly, "I bet they don't even remember their dads."

"Alice doesn't remember anything," I said, "They institutionalized her when she was little. Japer remembers his dad faintly. Jake, they've all been together like a hundred years. They're bonded pretty tight over there."

"Right," He said stubbornly and as if he was begging for any other subject.

"Where're Emily and Sam?" I asked, they usually hung out with us when I was down here, and I really didn't like the idea of being alone in the house with Jake until whenever Billy felt like coming home.

"They stayed home," said Jake, "I asked them too, I wanted to spend some alone time with you."

All sorts of internal warning alarms went off as he walked over towards me.

"How about we head down to the beach?" I asked innocently and I watched his face drop.

"Sure," He said, kissing my cheek and leading me back out the door and down the street to the beach.

I closed my eyes as we walked, it was cold enough that I could clearly picture Carlisle wrapped around me. I smiled as I remembered how closely we snuggled and how cold I sometimes got, not complaining because I was in his arms. I had never complained really while I was wrapped up in Carlisle, and if I ever got to be again I wouldn't.

"You look happier," said Jake, interrupting my fantasies of Carlisle and I opened my eyes as my have dropped again, "Well you did for a second there, you'll be fine here on the reservation with me."

I'll blow my brains out here on the reservation with you.

"Don't think so, Jake," I said nicely, securing that Jake's ego balloon wouldn't pop from too much air.

"You'll see," He said, "You'll learn to love this place, and me."

I kept silent, no need to freak out on him and make him so mad that he phases while no one's hear to protect me. We walked all the way down to the cliffs at the end silence, just the way I liked it. I closed my eyes again and tried to picture that Carlisle was there with me instead, but we were on the reservation. My little romantic walk on the beach with Carlisle turned quickly into us running down the beach away from a pack of wolves. I opened my eyes immediately, not wanting that scene playing out in my head.

Jake smiled at me and I grimaced back, he knew I hated it here. Why couldn't he just be happy that I was happy with Carlisle and let me go? Imprints usually just meant that they became whatever the imprintee needed at the time. This would mean for us that he would just a be a friend, and possibly not hate Carlisle so much. I knew it was only different because he already had a crush on me when he imprinted, and it was just Jake's nature to be so possessive.

"There you kids are, Jake you know my wheels don't work so well on the sand," said Billy irritated as he wheeled himself down the beach and parked in front of us, we were just a few feet from the road by then though.

"What's up?" I asked, he looked relatively upset.

"I need Jake to drive us to the hospital up in Forks," said Billy, "Bella, Charlie's been shot."

"What?!" I said as Charlie and I's little argument from before came back to my mind in vivid color and we started to run to the cars, Jake wheeling Billy.

"Apparently they were busting a drug dealer near town and he pulled out a gun," said Billy as Jake lifted him with ease into the car, and I slid in the front seat, as the tears caught up with me, I was surprised that after almost two full days of crying that I had any left, "Charlie got him to let his partner –Shawna Right? – go but he wasn't quite able to escape himself."