CHAPTER 21
AUTHORS NOTE
I know you want to kill me but i have so much stuff to do but i promise to finish this story and I will.
PAIGE POV:
Today is the day that you never imagine it will happen to you, you live your life thinking all people around of you that you love are eternal and will be with you forever, you never think what will happen if I lose her or him, you look at the sky and ask why? Why her? Why me? But at the end is you alone without and answer, you just have to learn and grow up.
Paige: I know you I know you up there watching me trying to tell me what to do, but I cant hear you Ash, I want to hear you, I want to know, you have the answer to this mess, you always had.
EZRA POV:
Ezra: Did she eat today?
Emily: I gave her some coffee and a bread this morning but I don't know, she is being sitting in that river since yesterday sunset I don't know if she sleep there or what I got out really early and she was already awake.
Erza: Okay, everything is ready for today ceremony; I will talk to her and see if she wants to do something different.
Emily: She said you were in charge so I don't know if she will want anything.
I walk to the lake, she was sitting there, I see she ate a little bit of bread so that is good for her.
Ezra: Hey.
Paige: Hey.
Ezra: So today the will give us Ash ashes.
Paige: I know, do you know what to do?
Ezra: Well I know she love this river and sunrise and sunset so I was thinking to make a ceremony here at sunset and let her go in a little boat of something, at least you want the ashes.
Paige: No, I think is a good idea, so we will be all in the ceremony?
Ezra: Yeah I think friends of Emily and Aria are coming too to be with them.
Paige: But they didn't know Ash.
Ezra: Yeah but that's why friends are for, they are here for you. But if you have a problem I can always talk to Em.
Paige: Is okay, she need that people she love with her, she lost her too. Are they gonna arrive on time.
Ezra: Aria is picking them up right now.
Paige: Okay.
Ezra: Do you want to said something or you want me to do it for you.
Paige: You do it.
Ezra: Okay, so Paige why don't you take a shower and sleep a little bit?
Paige: Do I smell bad?
Ezra: No, no, just for you to rest girl, and be ready for today.
Paige: I will think about it.
Erza: Okay.
Paige: Thank you for doing this, I couldn't do it.
Ezra: Don't worry P.
Is hard to see her like this, I know is difficult to her, life hasn't being easy and now this.
Nick: Any luck?
Ezra: Not really.
Nick: My turn to be a father.
PAIGE POV:
It being seconds, minutes, hours maybe a day since you are not here with me and I feel it, is hard to believe life without you, I never imagine this moment, you supposed to live for me.
Nick: Hey baby girl.
Paige: Hi daddy.
Nick: So do you have your answer?
Paige: Answer?
Nick: Yes baby, you have being sitting here since yesterday because you need an answer, well everyone needs one, that's why we live to find them.
Paige: Well I cant find it.
Nick: Someday you will honey. But I think is time for you to rest a little take a shower, eat something not just coffee baby.
Paige: Do I really stink or something?
Nick: Oh no honey, it has being a long day and some it will time to said goodbye, Aria and Ezra have this beautiful ceremony for her I want you to be there perfect like she wanted too.
Paige: Is funny, she just thinks about everything right? Dying here with all of us in her favorite place, our.
Nick: You knew her, she plan every moment of this, for her, but I know she let a part for you to plan it, so do you have a plan?
Paige: Not yet daddy.
Nick: Okay, come on baby I will take you inside and you can take a little nap you need it.
He help me get up, I knew I was tired but I didn't know how much until I try to walk my legs felt weak so he help me got inside, Em prepare a bath for me and some clothes and I sleep maybe one or two hours I didn't know I just hear some new voices down stairs that wake me up.
EMILY POV:
Hannah: This is a beautiful boat, Toby make it perfect.
Spencer: He is so sorry couldn't be here.
Hannah: Yeah Caleb too. But we couldn't leave you alone Em, we know how much Ashley meant to you so we wanted to be here, with you guys.
Aria: Candles, flowers everything is ready.
Ezra: Yeah is almost time for sunset is Paige ready yet?
Paige: Im ready.
She was wearing the simple black dress I put in her bed, her hair was in a messy pony tail, not a single evidence of makeup, her face sad, but you can see in her eyes the light trying to shine again.
Emily: Hey, this are our best friends Spencer and Hannah, they wanted to be here with us.
Paige: Hi.
Spencer: We are so sorry for you lost.
Paige: Thank you.
Aria: Hey everything is ready, we can start now.
Paige: Okay lets do this.
In the process of walking to the river I saw her pick up a flower a white rose from the floor, took her to her lips and kiss it. It was a beautiful road of roses a chair for everybody a little table in the end, with the light boat that Toby made it was a candle inside shiny and Ash ashes were inside too. I saw Aria pick up the guitar and Ezra walk to the table with a paper in his hand. She was just standing there at the end behind all us alone.
PAIGE POV:
Oh Ash, you will love this scene, a book story beautiful a light boat for you baby, so amazing, I hear her play the guitar and I knew this was all you, a beautiful photo of you laughing I knew is new because I haven't see and I notice at the corner of the photo someone was cut out. She seems happy, relax long time I didn't see her like that. And then she start singing while he was saying the final goodbye to you.
Aria singing:
Spend all your time waiting
For that second chance
For a break that would make it okay
There's always some reason
To feel not good enough
And it's hard, at the end of the day
Ezra: Oh little sis what can I said to you, this seems like a nightmare you know, my worst nightmare, is really hard to realize that I can call you and you not kicking my ass for letting the girl I love go, I cant go and just sleep near you because you always being my home my only home, my family, you know my secrets, my dreams, my fairs, my hope, everything. But I also know that this is the road you were supposed to have, you came here like a big angel shining everybody with those beautiful blue eyes, I always laugh about how we met, how we became friends and how we became family, our little family,
Aria singing:
I need some distraction
Oh, beautiful release
Memories seep from my veins
And maybe empty
Oh, and weightless, and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight
Ezra: this is gonna suck without you, my best man/woman wont be there the day I marry her, she wont be there the day I kick my kid out because he got drunk and he will sleep at you home I know that, I know you. Here in this little light boat is a light that will always stay with us, I know it hurts you to go, I know you didn't want this, but the think I promise you is I wont let her, I wont let your treasure mess up, I know it was your last worry so little sis rest in peace because I wont let her alone, that's your gift for me.
Aria singing:
In the arms of the angel
Fly away from here
From this dark, cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here
So tired of the straight line
And everywhere you turn
There's vultures and thieves at your back
Ezra: you let me the most important think to you, her I see her and I see you in her, she has some much of you, I know she cant see it yet, but she is strong like you, she is perfect, you always chose the perfect people, and you chose the perfect friends, I thought you were crazy when I knew what you were doing but then I realize that all this was a perfect set up sis, they are here for you, some you don't know them but they are here for you too.
Aria singing:
The storm keeps on twisting
Keep on building the lies
That you make up for all that you lack
It don't make no difference
Escape one last time
It's easier to believe in this sweet madness
Oh, this glorious sadness
That brings me to my knees
Ezra: So go baby sis, go and find that sunrise you love, go and find that perfect story up there, don't forget to take look at us, we will be here waiting, to one day finally see you again. Love you tu the sunset and back Ash.
Aria singing:
In the arms of the angel
Fly away from here
From this dark, cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here
You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here
Ezra took the little boat and I feel her near me.
Emily: I think you and Ezra should do this together.
Paige: Okay.
I walk to the river, crying my eyes out in silence; I gave a hug to Ezra.
Paige: that was a beautiful speech.
Ezra: Thank you. You should do it.
Paige: Thank you.
I walk to the end with the light boat and my white rose, I walk a little bit inside of the river I know it was cold but I want to walk with here for the last time.
Paige: Goodbye my love, if you have a chance scape some day from heaven a visit me, I love you Ash, don't forget me, I will be waiting for you at the end of the rainbow.
Aria singing:
Somewhere over the rainbow, way up high
There's a land that I've heard of once in a lullaby.
Somewhere over the rainbow, skies are blue
And the dreams that you dare to dream,
Really do come true.
Someday I'll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far behind me.
Where troubles melt like lemon drops,
High above the chimney tops,
That's where you'll find me.
Somewhere over the rainbow, blue birds fly
Birds fly over the rainbow
Why then, oh why can't I?
If happy little bluebirds fly beyond the rainbow
Why, oh why can't I?
I let the light boat go I see everybody behind me letting roses in the water and little boats with candles. It was beautiful sunset for her it was a beautiful ceremony. I didn't know when or how I just was moving away from the river in Ezra arms with my father jacket in me, I was exhausted, of today of yesterday of a couple of weeks maybe even years, I didn't notice when or how I fall sleep in his arms.
ARIA POV:
Aria: Hey are okay?
Emily: Yeah.
Hannah: that was intense and so beautiful guys, I know Ashley will love it, you did a great job Aria.
Emily: Yeah I know she will love it.
Spencer: will she be okay?
Emily: I don't know.
Spencer: She seems so broke.
Emily: She is.
Hannah: Ezra speech was beautiful.
Emily: It was.
Hannah: We are going back tomorrow, when are you going back.
Emily: Well Ezra said that maybe tomorrow will stay to see how is Paige is doing, but we have to go someday.
Aria: What is your plan Em?
Emily: My plan?
Aria: Yes, are you gonna stay, go to New York or what?
Emily: I don't know in the moment Aria, today is not a good day for me to talk about future.
Aria: Sorry, I didn't mean to sound rude.
Emily: Is okay, I gonna take a walk.
Hannah: Em don't go.
Aria: Is okay, let her go.
I knew it was difficult to her too, she has to take some decisions about her future.
PAIGE POV:
That early morning I wake up I saw my father sleeping in the chair next to me, taking care of me watching me sleep. I pick up a bag a few things and walk away of that place I don't know how much I walk until I found someone that gave me a ride to the airport and go back to the beginning. To that place my place my happy moment in life.
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